Nangona ibheji yam, bendikwenza oku ngaphezu kweminyaka emibini. Nazi iimbono zam ezingaqhelekanga kunye nokuqinisekiswa kwamanqaku. -Bendibukele i-porn iminyaka eyi-6 ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale i-nofap, kwaye ngokunyaniseka [ukuyeka iphonografi] yinto yokugqibela endiyizame kumgca omde, ongaqhelekanga wezinto zokuzinceda. Ndizame yonke into ukusuka kwisiseko sendalo, ukugxila kumandla ngoku, ukufunda iincwadi zepikiniki, kunye nokulungisa ubomi bam ukuba ndibe ngumfana onemveliso. Uyayazi into endiyifundileyo? Andingomntu wokomoya, ndikuthiyile ukucamngca, andikuthandi ukugxila ngoku, kwaye andikhathali ngokuba ngulo mfana unomdla kakhulu. Ekuphela kwento esebenzayo yayingabukeli i-porn, kwaye indlela esebenza ngayo yayibuyela umva.
Ayizange indijike, yandipolisha. Ngoko inqaku lokuqala:
Guqulela, UNGAphambukeli. Yiba yiloo nto uyiyo, ngokuzingca. Umzekelo, kukho uhlaselo oluninzi kwimidlalo yevidiyo. Ukuba uthanda imidlalo yevidiyo emva kokwenza ifap, emva koko udlale imidlalo yevidiyo ekhohlisayo. Mna ngokwam ndaphungula kuba NDIFUNA. Sukuqala ukuthatha iqela elipheleleyo lezinto zokuzonwabisa kwaye uthumele malunga nendlela ubomi bakho obunomdla ngayo ngaphandle kokuba uzithanda ngokwenene ezo zinto. Yiba yinyani. Baninzi kakhulu abantu kulo mhlaba ukuba bazame ukuchukumisa abo bangakuthandiyo ukuba ungubani na. Wonke umntu umhle. Xa uzithanda ngenene, awusayi kufuna mvume yamntu ukuze ube nguwe, kwaye kulapho uya kuthi ngokwenene… Ewe nonke mhlawumbi niyivile yonke le nto yokuzixabisa. Uyakufika apho kungekho fap ndiyakholwa. Xa uyeka ukuzama ukwanelisa umzimba wakho, umzimba wakho uya kuzanelisa. Umzekelo, oku kuya kuvakala kungaqhelekanga kodwa u-Arnold wayelungile. Ndifumana i-mini orgasms ekusebenzeni ngoku, kwaye ihlala iiyure. Amandongomane avuthelwe? Unothi. Iifucks zinikiwe? Zerooooooo.
Inqaku lesibini endifuna ukuligxininisa: konke oku kuqokeleleka. Ibheji yeyomboniso nje. Kwiminyaka emibini edlulileyo xa ndandiqalisa ukwenza oku, ndandingonwabanga yaye ndisoyika ukuba namabhongo. Ndingajonga kubudlelwane njengendlela yokuzisindisa. Ndandisoloko ndifuna ukuba phakathi kwabahlobo, kwaye ndandisoloko ndicinga ukuba ibhinqa elithile elihle liya kundisindisa kum kwaye lindenze iesile elibi. Ndiye ndoyika kakhulu emva kweentsuku ze-56 kude ne-porn, kwaye xa ndiphinda ndibuyela, ndehla nzima kum ndicinga ngendlela endoyike ngayo kunye nendlela obulunge ngayo ubomi ngaphambi kokuba ndisilele. Uyafuna ukwazi imfihlo? Ngalo lonke ixesha ndicinga ezo ngcinga, ndiye ndaqhubeka ndidala amaxesha angcono, iinguqulelo ezingcono zam, kwaye ndidibana nabantu abangcono. Ukubuyela umva akukubeki kusuku lokuqala ngokwenkqubela phambili. Amaxesha amnandi endinawo ngoku angcono kunamaxesha amnandi ebendinawo ngaphambili. Into ehlekisayo kwakhona kukuba ngoku ukuba ndibuyela umva, ayinditshintshi… Ndizithembe ngakumbi kunokuba bendikhe ndakwenza nakuphi na ukuphinda ndibe nako ngaphambili. Qonda ukuba ayinguye wonke umntu ofuna ixesha elifanayo ukuze abone iziphumo ezintle.
Inqaku elilandelayo lahlukile kwinto endiqhele ukuyibona: yazi ukuba yintoni ebaluleke njengokuphinda ubuyele kuwe. Ndandinomkhwa ombi wokuziva ndinetyala xa ndinomnqweno. Bendihlala ndiyibalula le nto yokuba ndibukela isizukulwana samantombazana kakhulu kwaye ndazenza ndanezo minqweno. Kucacile, kodwa xa useta umgca ocacileyo wento oyaziyo ukuba kukuphinda ubuyele, izinto ziba nzima kakhulu ngokwasengqondweni. Umzekelo, ndicinga ukubukela i-porn ngeentsuku ezimbini ezahlukeneyo ngaphakathi kwenyanga ukuphinda ndibuyele. Nantoni na eyenye ngokujonga i-porn isisiliphu. Ukuchaza ukuphinda ubuyele ngokwesondo kunzima kuba imfuno yayo esisiseko ngokutsho kukaGary (ukuhlaziya), ngoko lindela izibongozo kwaye ungabi netyala kwaye uvumele ukuziphatha okubi ngakumbi kwinto enokuthi ibe nefuthe elincinci kuwe.
Okokugqibela kodwa okungakuncinananga, SUKUKWENZEKA ube likhoboka lalo mjikelo… Le asiyompumelelo yakho inkulu, kwaye asiyonto yokuqhayisa nge-IMO. Ukuba ugqibile koku, zama konke okusemandleni akho ukuba ungaphinde usethe kwakhona. Ukuba ufumana amaphiko okubhabha umke nendlwane, musa ukubuya uye endlwaneni! (ngaphandle kokuba ubuyele kwakhona kwaye ufuna inkxaso okanye enye into) sebenzisa isikhephe ukunqumla umlambo, kodwa ungawuthwali iphenyane ngonaphakade. Yekela ihambe. Yayiyingxaki enkulu ke leyo kum, emva kokubetha le miceli mngeni yaba nkulu kwaye yabangcono kwaye ndaxakwa. Kulapho uqaphela ukuba le yindlela nje yokuvula iingcango. Uzakufuna inyongo ukungena kula minyango.
Kwaye nabani na okhathalayo kwicala labasetyhini kwizinto kakuhle. Ibangcono. Ndinexesha elininzi lokuzama yonke le nto yokungabukeli into engamanyala eyenza amadoda athandeke ngakumbi kubafazi. Izinto ezihlekisayo ziya kukhomba: ngalo lonke ixesha ndityibilika, mna nentombi yam sohlukana... Into malunga nokubukela iphonografi kukuba iyayijika imbono yakho kangangeentsuku ezimbalwa, kwaye awunguye. Iintengiso ze-snickers?) ungabinangqiqo kwaye uphelelwe yimvakalelo. Le ntombazana inye yayifuna ipipi yam nyani ingathi izondithengela izinto, indihugs kakhulu and flirt like crazy knowing ba ndine gf. I-slip enye kunye ne-porn kwaye yabanda kwaye ikude. Wade waba yinjakazi. Ndiyakucaphukela ukuyithetha kodwa bekunjalo.
Musani ukubukela amanyala guys. Ngoku, ndithetha namantombazana kuyo yonke indawo, ndidlala ngothando ngaphandle komzamo, ndihlala nohlobo lwam lwamantombazana endilukhethileyo, kwaye andisweleki ngakum gf njengokuba bendikade ndikwi-streak yangaphambili. Ngoku ndimthanda nyani kuba andimdingi. Uyabona ukuba isebenza njani? Ngoku, amantombazana ebekade engandihoyanga kakhulu, andithumelela imiyalezo ngakumbi kwaye afune ukuphumela ngaphandle.
Indawo Uyagqiba.
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