Kunyaka ophelileyo namhlanje, ngoMeyi 11th 2015, bendikhangela kwiividiyo zeYouTube, ngokuhlwa ngoMvulo ebusuku, ndilinde wonke umntu osapho lwam ukuba alale ukuze ndikwazi ukujongana ne-PMO kamva. Mna ndisemzimbeni ndahamba ndaya kula majelo omntu omnye, kwaye enye yeevidiyo zakhe ezintsha yayingaye eqala umceli mngeni "nofap".
Ndibukele ividiyo kwaye wayethetha malunga nokuba zininzi kangakanani izibonelelo zokwenza lo mceli mngeni. Ke emva kokufunda oku ndaqala ukukhangela iividiyo malunga nokuba akukho fap, kwaye bekukho ividiyo ethile endiyibukeleyo, leyo indenze ndenza isigqibo sokuzama lo mceli mngeni. La bantu bagama likaYouTube nguHebrewking29 NewBreed ngendlela, uneevidiyo ezilungileyo kakhulu ngaphandle kwefap. Ngapha koko ividiyo yakhe ayenzileyo malunga nezibonelelo zokuba kungabikho fap ibambe ingqalelo yam kakhulu, kwaye eyona nto yanditsala ingqalelo yeyokuba akukho fap ikwenze waba nomtsalane ngakumbi emfazini. Ukufumanisa oku ndikhuthazekile ngokupheleleyo ukuzama umceli mngeni. Ke ngobo busuku ndahlamba, ndazixelela ukuba ngokuhlwanje iya kuba lixesha lokugqibela ndingu-PMO'd. Ndenze njalo ke. Emva koko ndandikulungele ukuqala ubomi bam obutsha.
Ndagqiba ukuhlala ndihlala ihlobo lonke ngaphandle kwe-PMO kwaye emva kweenyanga ezimbalwa emva koko, ndizisa i-streak yam malunga neenyanga ze-4. Kwaye mandikuxelele, ezo nyanga ze-4 yayiyeyona nto inkulu yokufunda endiye ndanayo ebomini bam bonke. Ewe kunjalo, iziphumo ebezingalindelekanga kunye neempawu zokurhoxa zafika, kodwa ndakwazi ukutyhala ndiqhubeke ndisilwa. Kwaye ke, izibonelelo nazo zafika, njengoko ndandinqwenela, kwaye ndaqonda ukuba akukho nofap esebenzayo. Xa ndiqala into endandiyijonge kakhulu yeyona nto yayiqwalaselwe ngumfazi kunjalo. Kwaye ndiyifumene. Kodwa emva koko ndaye ndabona ukuba kukho enye indlela kuyo kunokutsala umntu wasetyhini. Kwakuninzi malunga nokufumana ukuba ndingubani kwaye ndikhule kwaye ndiqale ukuqonda ukuba ndingakanani indoda endiyiyo. Ngokubanzi nje kundenza umntu onwabe kakhulu, kwaye ndiba ngu-ME. Lo mntwana kwiinyanga nje ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo owayeqhele ukuya kwi-porn rhoqo ngobusuku babengenguye. Ndaziva ngathi ndizifumene. Emva koko, ndaqonda ukuba enye yezona zinto zibalulekileyo ebomini bam zakha zenzeka. Ekugqibeleni ndandisele ndinobuhlobo noThixo.
Ukukhula njengomntwana ndakhuliswa kwikhaya lakho lobuKristu, ndisiya ecaweni rhoqo ngeCawa, ndithandaza phambi kwesidlo ngasinye, olo hlobo lwentengiselwano. Andizange ndiqonde okuninzi njengomntwana, kwaye ngokukhawuleza xa ndiqala ukubukela i-porno, ndaqala ukubuza iinkolelo zam. Njengokuba "ngaba uThixo uyinyani?" Kwaye ukuya kwinqanaba elifutshane apho kufana nosuku okanye enye, xa ndingakholelwa kuye konke konke, kodwa ndakhawuleza ndaphuma kuloo nto. Kodwa ndandingaqinisekanga ngeenkolelo zam. Ngobunye ubusuku, kungekudala ngaphambi kokuba ndingafumani fap, ndicinga ukuba bendisandula ukugqiba i-PMOing. Bendilele ebhedini, ngequbuliso ndiye ndaqala ukuthandaza. “Thixo, ukuba uyinyani, ndicela undibonise into eza kundenza ndiyibone.” Emva koko, ngokuqinisekileyo, malunga nenyanga okanye emva koko, ndafumanisa i-nofap. Kodwa akuzange kube emva kweenyanga ezi-4 xa ndabona ukuba imithandazo yam iphendulwe. UThixo ubeke uNoFap ebomini bam, ukuze ndibe sisondele kuye. Imifanekiso engamanyala yayilwenza buthathaka ukholo lwam, kwaye iidemon zangaphakathi zazindibambe ixesha elide, kodwa ekugqibeleni ndakhululwa.
Emva kwenyanga yam ye-4 i-streak ndabuya, kwaye ukusuka apho ukuya kumhla wamhla ndaya kuba neendlela ezahlukeneyo, ezinye zide, ezinye zifutshane. Kodwa yonke into endiyifunayo ndafunda into entsha ngam engazange ndiyenze ngaphambili. Ngoku ndikwi-25 day streak ngoku, kwaye andizicwangcisi ukuphinda ndibuyele nangaliphi na ixesha kungekudala. Ndinolu luvo oluthile emzimbeni wam ngoku. Imvakalelo yolonwabo kunye nethemba, ndinejade kuphela kolu hlobo lokuziva ngelinye ixesha, kwaye yayiyeyona nto kanye kunyaka ophelileyo, xa bendiqala ukwenza ukufumanisa kwam. Lo nyaka uphelileyo ibe lelona thuba lokufunda ebomini bam bonke. Ndikhumbula unyaka ophelileyo ndaye ndacinga ukuba "ndiyazibuza ukuba ingaba lo mngeni we-nofap uza kuba njani kum unyaka nje ngoku." Kwaye ngoku ndiyazi, ukuba yeyona nto intle kakhulu eye yenzeka kum.
Ukuba usafunda le nto ndingathanda ukukubulela ngokufikelela apha! Kwaye enye into yokugqibela. Kubo bonke abazalwana noodade abalapha balwa ne-PMO, ndifuna nje ukukwazisa ukuba kuya kuba ngcono, kodwa nguwe kuphela onokuyenza ngcono. Qhubeka usilwa, thandaza, ukuba ukule nto, kwaye ungaze unikezele, nokuba ungangaphumeleli kangaphi, okanye uphinde ubuye. Ukubuyela umva asikuko ukusilela, usilela kuphela xa ukhetha ukunikezela. Enkosi, kwaye ndinqwenela okuhle kodwa kuyo yonke i-yeall!
Ndingu 17 kwaye ndandixhomekeke kwi-porno malunga ne-3 iminyaka.
LINK - Unyaka we-1 okoko ndafumanisa iNoFap, kunye nento eyenziweyo kum
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