Ndingumfundi waseFransi kunye ne-17, ndinayo ukujongwa kwemihla ngemihla ukusuka kwi-7yo ukuya kwi-16yo, ngokusisiseko bendiya kuphinda-phinda ukuhamba ngesandla sam ndize ndilahleke kwingcinga yam ixesha elide, ngamanye amaxesha iiyure, ndicinga ukuba yindlela yam yokubaleka inyani, akukho mntu wakha wafumanisa, ibonwe amaxesha ama-2-3 isenza kodwa iya kufumana isingxengxezo sokuyithethelela.
Esi sifo sinokudibaniswa nengxaki yobuntwana (ndiye ndahlukunyezwa njengomntwana) andizange ndikhange ndikhangele imeko yam kwaye andizange ndixelele mntu kuba ndiyayithanda, yayiyinto yam yokulungisa i-dopamine.
Ndiqalise i-PMOing ngeenxa zonke kwi-12 xa umzala wam wandibonisa i-vids ye-porn, ugh. Ukusuka ngelo xesha ndingaphupuza i-1 ukuya kumaxesha e-2 ngosuku.
Ezi zinto zikhobokisayo zindizisele ulungiso lwemihla ngemihla ixesha elide, oku kukhokelele ekubeni ndim omkhulupussy bonke ubomi bam, kuyahlekisa kuba bendihlala ndimde mhle, mhle, kwaye isikolo sasidla ngokulula kum. Kodwa andizange ndizisebenzise kwiimpawu zam, kwaye ngoku ndingumntu ophakathi esikolweni (ngaphandle kweklasi yesiNgesi)
Ke kude kube yi-15yo ubomi bam SHIT kwaye bendingayazi loo nto, ndiziva ngathi bonke ubuntwana bam / iminyaka yam yokufikisa yayinkulu kakhulu Ingqondo. Ndenza i-tennis, i-basketball, ndibhukuda kodwa ndayeka yonke into ngenxa yeziyobisi, bendingenayo idrive yokunxibelelana nokuba, bendingaqhelekanga kumantombazana ubomi bam bonke, okanye phantse bonke ubomi bam;).
Nge-15yo yonke into yatshintsha, ndangena kwi-lycée yam (efanayo kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo ndicinga) ndadibana nale ntombazana, uAmy. U-Amy wayengumsindisi wam ngandlela thile, ngelo xesha ndandingenabahlobo bokwenyani (bendinabahlobo abathathu kodwa ndiye ndaqonda ukuba ngoku sasingenabo ubuhlobo obufanelekileyo kwaye babesemva).
Kwaye ndandinomdla wokwenyani kuye, kwaye wabonakala ukuba unomdla kum, nangona wayeneminyaka eyi-2y, ewe wayevela eNgilani kwaye ndandilungile kwisingesi sesiFrentshi kuba ndibukele zonke ii-movie zam / iimuvi ngesiNgesi ngoko. Ndiyakwazi ukuthetha ngokutyibilikayo, oko kuye kwenza ukuba ndikhethekile kuye.
Andiyikhumbuli imihla ngqo kodwa kuxa ndandineminyaka eyi-15yo ukuba ubomi bam buthathe ithuba kuba yonke into enomdla yenzekile:
Ndadibana no-Amy kwaye ndancokola okunzulu okokuqala ebomini bam, ndade ndamxelela ngeNoFap kwaye wayithanda inyani yokuba ndingakhange ndibukele iphonografi, bendineebhabhathane zothando, kodwa bendisazi ukuba uphuma kwam iligi ngokwamandla kunye nobuhle (okanye ndicinga njalo kuba uhlala ucinga ukuba uyinto enzulu xa ungumntu ongapheliyo), ke ndiye ndakhangela ukuphucula…
Ndifumene iNoFap; Ngobusuku obunye ndaqonda ukuba kutheni ndingakhange ndenze nto kwiminyaka eyi-15 kwaye ndaziva ndingenantambo bonke ubomi bam, uNoFap wandicacisela umgibe we-dopamine kwaye ukusukela ngoko ndazama ukuyeka i-PMO kunye neMaladaptiveDaydreaming.
ISIQINISEKISO
Ke kwiinyanga ndenza i-streaks, ubude bazo zahluka, kodwa into enye ngokuqinisekileyo, kwisikali samandla ukusuka kwi-0 ukuya kwi-10 MaladaptiveDaydreaming yayiyi-7 kunye ne-PMO eyi-10.
Kumhla wam wokuzalwa we-16th ndenza umnqweno ongasokuze uphinde uphinde uphinde ube kwakhona, umnqweno wenziwa eChina ofc kwaye ndaphinda ndaphinda kwiintsuku ezimbalwa kamva, kodwa unyaka wam we-16th wawungowona obalaseleyo ebomini bam, ubudlelwane bam no-Amy babumnandi kwaye i-strak yam ihlala i-2 iiveki, inyanga, okanye iintsuku ze45, ndonwabile ngobomi. Ndikwazile ukutshabalalisa iMaladaptiveDaydreaming, NDIVA NDIPHILA NDINALO.
INZUZO
Izibonelelo zi-HUGE, iindevu zam zichetyiwe, izihlunu zam nazo, andinazo neentloni ngam, ndingakwazi ukubona indlela aqhuba ngayo / indlela athetha ngayo, abafazi bandibukele ngakumbi, ilizwi lam liyindoda ngakumbi kwaye ndiyakwazi ukuthetha ngaphandle nayiphi na ingxaki, amantombazana ayayithanda loo nto
Kodwa UTSHINTSHO LOKWENENE ibikukuba ndiqale ukwakha imikhwa, inene ndiye ndabona ukuba ukuyenza ngaphezulu kweentsuku ezingama-45 kufuneka ndakhe ikamva endaweni yokulwa nabadala (-Socrates). Ke ndikhuphele i "Day Counter" kwi-PlayStore kwaye ndenza malunga ne-15 imikhwa yokufezekisa yonke imihla, izinto ezinje nge: -20 abs, 30 pushups kunye ne-30 squats kanye ebhedini; -Intsasa yokubanda kusasa; -Ukulala rhoqo ukusuka ngo-00h00 ukuya ku-6: 40; -Ukufunda amazwi engoma xa ndisiya esikolweni; Ukwenza ikatala emva kweeklasi; -Ukukhulisa ubunzima (malunga ne-250x5kg) -Ukufunda isahluko esinye sencwadi; neminye imikhwa…
Ndisebenzise nemali yam yekrismesi ukuthenga itoni yengubo efanelekileyo (isitayile se-hipster / iklasikhi) kuba kude kube lelo xesha ndandinxibe njenge-shit -_-
IMINYAKA ye17 OLD
Lo ngumdala wam ngoku, ndimele ndivume ukuba ndinamandla kunanini ngaphambili, sele izinyanga emva kokuba ndiqale imikhuba yemihla ngemihla kwaye yinto enhle, ndihlala kwiintsuku ezingama-47 njengokuba ufunda kwinkcazo. Ndifunde inqwaba yamanqaku malunga nabafazi bengqondo. Cuz ndiyazi, mna azi, njengo, ndaba uhlobo lwesilo se-testosterone, ndiyazi ukuba ndingafumana nayiphi na intombazana endiyifunayo, kodwa bendifuna indlela ethile.
Ke ndiye ndafunda izinto ndazisebenzisa emhlabeni namanye amantombazana ane-15yo kwaye ndenza kakuhle, bendihlala ndicinga ukuba abafazi bafuna inkosana enomtsalane okanye "umfana olungileyo", kodwa yaaaaaay inzima ngakumbi kunoko, amantombazana afuna indoda Uyayazi into ayenzayo kwaye ngubani oqinisekileyo, i-alpha ukuba uyafuna.
Ndayeka nokuphendula ngokuthe ngqo kwimiyalezo ebhaliweyo eyayizibulala ngokwasentlalweni, ngoku ndiyeka imizuzu emi-3 ubuncinci ngaphambi kokuphendula komnye umntu, oku kuyamangalisa ukuba amantombazana abe nomdla kuwe, kuba ungumfana oxakekileyo omaziyo.
Ngaphandle kwalonto ndiye ndakhulisa ukuthanda iividiyo ezinobomi, ndisafunda iithutorials ze-youtube. Ndaphinda ndaqhagamshelana nabahlobo bam abadala endandingathethanga nabo ukusukela kwiminyaka, nge-facebook, kwaye bayandithanda entsha! Ndizalwe ngokutsha ukusukela kwiinyanga ezimbalwa, ndingathi ndiyemka eYamcha ndaya kuNyana Goku eSuperSayen kwiinyanga ezi-3, ndiyazi ukuba ndisengaphucula nangona.
IINJONGO ZOKUVUSA UBOMI BAM
Ndineengxaki ezimbini ezisele ngaphambi kokuba ndizalwe ngokutsha kwaye ndikulungele ukuluma ubomi njengeapile enencasa:
-First of all I have too much sex drive, it's incredible, I'm having rape thoughts all the time it makes me feel uncomfortable, I do consider women as our equals but deep inside me I want to control them all.
Umzekelo la mantombazana mabini u-2yo ndithetha naye mihla le, banomdla kum kwaye ndenza yonke inkwenkwe embi kunye nezinto kunye nabo, konke endinokucinga ngako kukubazisa kwindawo yam ngoMvulo kwaye beba ubuntombi babo. Ndingasebenzisa ithuba lentombazana eneentloni endiyaziyo, engayi kundichasa xa nditsibela kuye.
Kodwa musa ukungaqondi kakuhle, bendikukufunda kweNoFap ukusukela kwiminyaka emibini, ndiyazi yonke into malunga nendlela yokuphila ngesondo engenamsebenzi ngayo kwaye ukuba ndibeka onke amandla am ezesondo kwinto ethile evelisayo (njengezakhono zam zoopopayi umzekelo) Umntu odumileyo ophumeleleyo kunye nako konke. Kodwa nangona ndifuna ukuguqula amandla am ezesondo kwiiprojekthi zam ndinqwenela abantu basetyhini, ndicinga ukuba kufuneka ndisebenzise eli gunya ndinayo uninzi lwamadoda olungenako, ukukwazi ukulukuhla nayiphi na intombazana, ndiziva ngathi Ndidinga ukonwabela ubutsha bam kangangoko ndinako.
-The second thing troubling me is what I want to do next year as "after highschool studies", before I was on this big NoFap streak I wanted to do something in informatics, but now that I am where I am I realise it's not what I truly love in life.
Into endiyithandayo ebomini kukunxibelelana noluntu (kuba sele ilula ngoku), oopopayi kunye nolwimi lwesiNgesi. Ke ndiyathandabuza phakathi kokuba ngutitshala wesiNgesi apha eFrance, okanye into yoopopayi, okanye into apho ndinokunxibelelana nabantu. Nindicebisa ndithini?
ISIPHELO Kulungile, uyayazi imigca emikhulu yobomi bam ngoku, pfioouu Kube sisiqabu ukuthetha ngayo yonke into eluntwini !! Hlala womelele fapstonauts fellow
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