Njengoko kuvakala, andizange ndicinge ukuba ndingafikelela kwiintsuku ezingama-90 ze-PMO simahla, yayisanda kuba yinxalenye yobomi bam. Ekuqaleni, ndandicinga ukuba andonwabanga ngaphandle kwesizathu, kwaye i-porn yayiyinto eqhelekileyo kwi-17, ngoku i-18 eneminyaka eyi-XNUMX ubudala.
Kodwa ukususela ngoko, ndiye ndabona ukuba oku kundenza ndibe mbi ngakumbi. Ndandibuthathaka kakhulu kwiminqweno, kuba yayikukubaleka ngokulula kwiingxaki zokwenyani. Ndandikade ndicinga ukuba kumnandi, kodwa ngoku andikwazi nokusithelekelela isizathu; kukundindisholo kunolonwabo.
Andikhumbuli nokuba ndifumanise njani ngale subreddit, kodwa ndiyazi ukuba ekuqaleni ndiyikhabe njengebuvuvu. Kodwa njengoko loo mvakalelo yokuzisola kunye nokuphoxeka yayisidla emathunjini am, ikhula ngakumbi emva kweseshini yeyure nganye, ndandisazi ukuba ndifuna ukwenza okuthile. Ndithathe isigqibo sokuzama iNoFap, kodwa ngokukhululeka. Ndiza kuhamba iintsuku ezimbalwa ngaphandle kwe-PMO kwaye ndicinga ukuba 'kulungile, ndiza kuba nayo ngoku. Ubuncinane ayikho yonke imihla'. Ndandicinga ukuba oku kulungile ngokwaneleyo; engalunganga. Ngexesha leemviwo zam, ndahamba iiveki ezimbini ngaphandle kwayo, kwaye ndaziva ndilungile, kodwa ngelo xesha ndayibeka phantsi ukuze ndigqibezele iimviwo zam, endaweni yeNoFap, ndawa ndabuyela kwi-porn. Loo mvakalelo ayizange iphele nangona kunjalo, ndiye ndagqiba, kwinyanga entle kamva, ukuba ndiyeke okwenyani ngeli xesha.
Iiveki ezimbini zokuqala zezona zinzima. Emva kokuba uzixelele ukuba awuzukwenza nto, kubonakala ngathi isilingo sokuyenza sibonakala singekho ndawo. Olona suku lubi yayilusuku lwam lokuqala lweeholide zehlobo. Imini yonke esikolweni, entlokweni yam, bendiziqinisekisa ukuba andiyi kunikezela, ukuba kuya kutshabalalisa yonke imo yam ehlobo, kwaye ndibeke ithoni kwiiveki ezintandathu ezizayo. Yabona, indlu engenanto yayibonakala ilungile kakhulu ukuba ingamelana nayo, kwaye ndandinayo iphonografi ilungile kwilaptop yam, iyure emva kokufika ekhaya. Kodwa ke, ndeva elo lizwi lincinci emva kwentloko yam, ilizwi lokuqiqa, lisebeza 'uyazi ukuba uya kuziva umbi kangakanani emva koko'. Ke endaweni yokuba ndiye kumfazi endingamaziyo, ndicofe iqhosha le-NoFap lokoyika, endilenze iqhosha lam lekhasi lasekhaya (ndingacebisa kuye nabani na osokolayo ukwenza loo nto), kwaye khange ndichukumise idick yam.
Ndinyanisile, ibeke ithoni yehlobo lam. Okwesihlandlo sokuqala ukuba ndiyibhaqile, andizange ndiphulule amalungu esini ngalo lonke ihlobo. Yonke imihla ndandivuka ndihlambe ishawa ebandayo ndizixelele ukuba 'andiyibukeli iphonografi'. Ndiye ndanemveliso ngakumbi, ndifunda ukudlala isiginci, ngokwenene ndifundela iklasi iincwadi, ndihleli nje nabahlobo. Kancinci, ndizama ukuziphucula, ukuba nobubele ebantwini, banzi iimbono nezimvo zam, kwaye ndenze abahlobo abatsha. Uninzi lwabahlobo bam abaziyo ngeNoFap yam bayandihoya okanye bathathe i-piss, kodwa ngokwenene andinakukhathalela ngakumbi. Ndonwabile, kwaye ukuba i-porn ayiyongxaki kubo, andilindelanga ukuba baqonde. Ndicinga ukuba bambalwa kubo, kodwa abavumi. Ndenzela mna oku, hayi omnye umntu.
Ndiyazi ukuba ukufikelela kwiintsuku ezingama-90 akuthethi ukuba 'ndinyangekile' kubukhoboka, kodwa ndiyazingca ngokwenene ngento endiyenzileyo. Kuko konke ukunyaniseka, andizange ndiqonde ukuba ndisondela kwiintsuku ezingama-90 kude kube kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo, xa ndaya kukhangela. Ndicinga ukuba yinto enhle ukuba asiyiqondi, kuba ibonisa indlela i-NoFap engasilawuli ngayo; lukhetho nje esilwenzayo olusivumela ukuba sisukele izinto ezingcono kubomi bethu. Ukuba siyayivumela ukuba isidle, kwaye konke esikwenzayo kukuchitha lonke ixesha lethu kule webhusayithi, akukho nto ingcono kakhulu kunoponografi esizama kanzima ukuyiyeka.
Ukuba unosuku olunzima, okanye uziva unqwenela, yazi ukuba baya kudlula. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba wonke umntu unakho ukufikelela kwiintsuku ezingama-90 nangaphezulu. Akukho mntu ufikelele apha ngaphandle kweziphazamiso ezimbalwa endleleni, khumbula ukuba ayikwenzi ube buthathaka.
Ndiyabulela ukufunda!
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