Zininzi izinto ezimangalisayo ezenzeke kum kule minyaka mithathu mikhulu. Ndiyiqale le nto njengomntu oqalayo kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, iinjongo zam zazahluke kancinane nangona, ekuqaleni ndandifuna nje ukuba nentombi kwaye ndenze njengenkwenkwe eqhelekileyo ekwishumi elivisayo.
Ndaqala ukuya kule ndawo yokuhenda i-subreddit ukuze ndifumane ukuqonda okuluncedo malunga nokuba kutheni ndihlala ndikrwitsha xa ndizama ukuthetha namantombazana. Ndikhumbula ukucofa kwizifundo ezimbalwa kwimiphumo ye-porn kwingqondo. Idatha efunyenweyo kunye nezigqibo ezenziwe kuvavanyo zandiqinisekisa ukuba ndiyeke lo mkhuba.
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Ndisokole ukufumana iintsuku ezingama-90, kodwa bendisaphucuka ngalo lonke ixesha ndizama oku kwakhona. Ngokunyaniseka ndaziva ndinamandla amakhulu xa ndibetha amanqaku eeveki ezine, bendiyitheko. Ndaziva nje emangalisayo jikelele. Ndandigqwesa kuyo yonke into endandiyenza, ndade ndafumana amanqaku amahle okwesihlandlo sokuqala.
Eyona nto ingcono kukuba ekugqibeleni ndade ndathetha nomntu wam otyumkileyo(Ndazilahla emva kwencoko yam yokuqala kunye naye.) Sasithandana, kwaye ngokunyanisekileyo andicingi ukuba ndiya konwaba njengoko ndandinjalo xa ndandineminyaka eyi-15. okokuqala ebomini bam ndaziva ndonwabile, kwaye ubomi bebumnandi. Ndiye ndakwi-tip top shape nam. Ndadibana namantombazana amaninzi amahle ngelo hlobo, ndandithatha iklasi yekholeji ngenxa yomqhubi wam omtsha. Ingqondo yam ibisanda, bendiqala ngokutsha. Nangona kunjalo, isiphumo sokugxotha siye sandifumana ngexesha lehlobo. Andikwazi ukuphuma kakhulu, ndihluphekile, ngoko ke ukuba ngaphakathi inyanga yonke kuye kwafika kum. Ndaphinda ndaphinda, iinyembezi zam bekunzima ukuzibamba. Ndingene kumjikelo kwakhona, umzimba wam oguqukayo kunye nokuqhambuka kweehomoni ngequbuliso kwenza umceli mngeni waba nzima kunokuba bendinokucinga. II Ubudlelwane baba muncu, le primal ingaphakathi kum… yathatha ulawulo ndaze ndabakhathaza abo ndandibathanda. Emva kokuba sahlukene, ndadandatheka. Ndaqalisa ukuya kunyango
Lonke olu xinzelelo lwenze ebusweni bam, ndaqala ukufumana i-cystic acne. I-acne yam yayisisizathu sokuba ndingene kwi-porn kwindawo yokuqala, abafundi be-5th abane-acne baya kunqatshwa ngamaxesha angama-9 kwi-10.
I-cystic acne ngandlela-thile yandenza ndakhuthazwa ngakumbi, ndandipompa inyanga enye kunye neenyanga ezimbini, emva koko ndabetha iintsuku ze-142. I-testosterone yam iye yanyuka, nangona ingaphezulu kwesixa esiphakathi ngenxa yokufikisa. Kulapho ndaqala khona ukungakwazi ukuzibamba kwakhona. Ndatsala nzima ngokwenene kuloo lahleko. Kwakunzima ukulwa noku.
Kwafika ihlobo. Emva koko irhashalala yaba mbi ngakumbi, ndadandatheka ngakumbi ngenxa yeentlungu eziqatha ezingapheliyo endandinazo ebusweni bam. Ubomi buye banzima ukusukela ngoko. Akukho nto yaziva ilungile. III Incopho yamaqhakuva yam yayimbi kangangokuba nabahlobo bam babecaphukile xa bebona ubuso bam. Ndazama ukuba ingandikhathazi. Iintambo kulo nyaka zaxutywa, kwakukho ezintle kwaye zingekho kakuhle. Ndaqala ukufumana unyango lwe-cystic acne. Izinto zaqala ukutshintsha emva koko.
Iitshomi zam zandazisa kule ntombazana, ngethemba lokuba ndiza kulala. Ndicinga ukuba mandimbandakanye kuba izinto zazahluke kakhulu kwesi sihlandlo. Ndifumene i-streak enhle kakhulu emva, kwaye bendiphucula kwakhona. Sadibana, sayibetha, samanga kwimizuzu emihlanu yokuqala yomhla. I was surging with confidence, ndaziva ndiyindoda. Le ntombazana yayimfanele ngokwenene. Sakhula kunye. Ndalala ndineminyaka eli-16 ubudala, into engekho baninzi abafikisayo abayenzayo namhlanje. Ekuphela komcimbi yayikukuba ndandingakwazi ukuzibamba xa wayehamba iyure ukuya nokubuya. Amanqaku am ehlile. Ndaziva ngathi ngokuthe ngcembe ndiya ndiba nganeliseki. Ndayiqonda eyona nto ndiyiyo, ikhoboka lepipi yam, kule minqweno yokuqala. Ndandiqala ngqa ukuba neentlobano zesini, yayintle. Ndingene ekrwada kodwa. Ndandicinga ukuba ndizakuba ngutata womntwana ongacetywanga. Bendingenako ukuyithenga iplan b, ke le ibiyeyona sahluko soyikeka kakhulu ebomini bam.
Bendikhumbula. Ndakhangela emva kuyo yonke inkqubela endayenzayo, yaye ndandizimisele ukuphinda ndibulungelelanise ubomi bam kwakhona. Ndohlukana naye, esi yayisisigqibo esifanelekileyo. I-Nofap indivulele le ndalo yonke, kwaye andizukuyilungisa yonke le nkqubela phambili.
I-PMO yaba ngumkhwa kwakhona, ndisebunzulu besihogo. Ndiye ndakwazi ukuphucula zonke iinkalo zobomi bam, kodwa le yayibonakala iyeyona ndawo yam ibuthathaka. Ndineenombolo ezimbalwa kweli hlobo, kodwa ndiyazi ukuba kukho okungakumbi ebomini kunokuleqa onke la mantombazana afikisayo.
Yiyo loo nto nditsibela umva enqwelweni, ukuze ndiphinde ndikwazi ukuzibamba ndikwazi ukulawula umzimba wam. III (ekupheleni)
Ndine-4.0's nangaphezulu oko ndaqalayo. Uqale ukuphakamisa ngenxa yenu. Ufumene iikhilogram ezingama-32 zesihlunu esibhityileyo, waba nomzimba weBrad Pitt oqhubekayo. Ubaleke iiMarathoni ezi-3. Uthathe iimvavanyo ze-AP ezi-3, waphumelela 2. Uthathe iiklasi zekholeji ezi-5, ezine oo-A zanye B. Uqale ibhendi. Ndibengcono ngokudlala isiginci sam. Ufunde indlela yokusebenzisa i-bleton. Funda iqweqwe leencwadi ukuya kutsho okokuqala. Ukuthatha i-anatomy ngoku, ukwenza ngcono kunabafundi abaninzi bexesha elizeleyo. Ndigqibe iiyure ezingama-300 zamavolontiya ndisenza into endiyithandayo. Ukuphuma eghetto kulo nyaka uzayo.
Idabi liyaqala kwakhona, imilo emininzi iya koyiswa, mhlawumbi eminye iya kulahleka. Ingongoma kukuba sonke sithatha inxaxheba kule nto, lo mzabalazo uya kuba mde, kodwa ukuphela kwendlela kuya kuba kuhle kakhulu. Lo iya kuba ngunyaka wam wokugqibela kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, ndinqwenelele ithamsanqa.
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TL;DR? Hlala phantsi, phumla. Izinto ziye zahamba kakuhle.
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