I-NoFap ibutshintshe ngokwenene ubomi bam. Inokuba yinto ende ende, uxolo ngalonto. Ndaqala ukuhlaziya i-masturbating kwiminyaka eyi-12 ubudala, ndicinga. Ekuqaleni konke kwakukutsha kwaye kunomdla, kwaye ngokukhawuleza kwaba ngumkhwa. Ukuphulula amalungu esini kwakuyinto eqhelekileyo kum. Iminyaka, bendiyenza phantse yonke imihla, kwaye ndandihlala ndibukele iphonografi. Izinto zaqala ukutshintsha xa ndandineminyaka eli-17 ubudala. Ndiseyintombi kunye ne-orgasm ngaphandle koononophala kwakunzima, kuthatha ixesha elide ixesha ngalinye.
Ngamanye amaxesha khange yenzeke kwaphela. Isisombululo endisifumeneyo sasisisidenge: "jonga iphonografi ngalo lonke ixesha uhlamba amalungu esini". Andikayiqondi ingxaki endinayo, kuba kum yayiqhelekile. Wonke umntu uhlambalaza i-pornography. Kunene?
Ngokukhawuleza xa ndijika iminyaka eyi-18, ndamkelwa eyunivesithi (amayeza), apho ndadibana nale ntombazana intle kakhulu. Wayehlala yedwa kwindlu encinci, engekude kakhulu nasekhaya. Wayeneminyaka emi-2 emdala kunam, kwaye wayengeyintombi (ndandisenjalo).
Saqala ukuphuma kwaye emva kwethuba, waqala wandimemela kwigumbi lakhe, kwaye izinto zanda ngakumbi kutyelelo ngalunye. Ngenye imini, emva kwexesha elide senza loo nto, sagqiba ekubeni sithathe inyathelo elilandelayo kwaye sabelana ngesondo.
Ukwabelana ngesondo kwakulungile. Ndandisoyika njengesihogo, kodwa ndafumana ukulungiswa kakuhle, kwaye wayeyonwabela (nokuba wandibuza ukuba ndixoke ngokuba ndiyintombi). Ewe, i-porn iyakunceda oko, kuba bendisazi ukuba mandenze ntoni ixesha elininzi. Kodwa i-pornography ayizange incede ngento enye: i-orgasm. Khange ndide ndisondele.
Saqala sathandana ngokwenene, saqhubeka ke siphuma kwaye besabelana ngesondo. Kumntu oneminyaka eyi-18, yayiliphupha. Ndabelana ngesondo i-2, ngamanye amaxesha i-3 ngamaxesha evekini. Kodwa, nangoku, kukho ingxaki: akukho-orgasm evela kum.
Emva kwexesha, ndamcela ukuba abe yintombi yam, kwaye wamkela, kwaye yonke into yayilungile kubudlelwane bethu. Ukwabelana ngesondo kwakumangalisa kakhulu: Andizange ndibenangxaki nge-ED (ukungasebenzi kakuhle kwe-erectile), kwaye ndingamfumana kwi-orgasm kakuhle, kodwa nasemva kweenyanga, bendingenayo i-orgasm kum. Khange ndikwazi nokusondela. Waqala ukucinga ukuba yimpazamo yakhe, kodwa ngaphakathi, ndiyayazi ukuba yintoni ingxaki.
Ndacinga ngokungahambi shushu ngexeshana, ndagqiba kwelokuba ndizame. Yayingenakwenzeka kwaphela. Ndisinde iveki yonke, kodwa ndaphela ndizibona ndisoyika, ndiziva ndinomdla wokuphulula amalungu esini. Ndaphinda ndabuya umva.
Olo hlobo lwalundoyikisa, ndiye ndazama elinye ixesha kwaye ndahlala malunga neveki (kwakhona). Kukho into engalunganga kum. Kulapho ndakhumbula i-NoFap! Ndifunde malunga nayo kwi-9GAG iminyaka ethile ngaphambili, ndaye ndayijonga kuGoogle. Kwaye kwavuleka kakhulu iliso kum.
Ndifunde uninzi lwezithuba, kwaye ndafumanisa ukuba bendinengxaki entle ye-DE (Ukulibazisa ukuCinywa). "Ukubamba ukufa" kunye "nokulutha kweziyobisi" nako kuyahambelana nenkcazo. Ndaziva ndilusizi, kwaye ndaqonda ukuba ndinengxaki.
Intombi yam yayizakuphuma edolophini iiveki ezimbalwa, kwaye nam bendineholide, ke andizukumbona malunga neeveki ezi-3. Ndabona ukuba njengethuba kwaye ndenza isigqibo sam: Yeka ukugcoba i-masturbating kunye nokubukela i-pornography. Hayi ngonaphakade, kodwa ixesha elide njengoko kufuneka. Ke ndiye ndaqala umceli mngeni.
I-FLATLINE. Ekunene ebusweni. Ngokukhawuleza xa ndiqala iNoFap ngokulungileyo, ipenis yam ngokoqobo "yafa" kum. Ndilahlekelwe libido yam ngokupheleleyo kwaye ndaziva ndidandathekile. Andizange ndibongoze ukuba ndihlaziye, oko kwakulungile, kodwa ndoda, into engekho-libido yinto eyona nto.
Andizange ndihlaziye iiveki ze-3, kwaye i-flatline ayizange ihambe. Kwiiveki ze-3, andizange ndifumane ukulungiswa, ndaziva ndibuhlungu kwaye ndibuhlungu. Ndaziva ndingenamandla, into engazange yenzeke, nangesondo. Ndiphantse ndayeka.
Xa intombi yam ibuyayo, bendonwabile nyani malunga nokuba kunokwenzeka ukuba "ndiphinde ndiqaliswe kwakhona" kwaye ndaphiliswa kwi-Ejaculation yam yexesha elidlulileyo. Emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa sakwazi ukuhlangana kwaye salala ngesondo kwakhona.
Okwangoku akukho orgasm. Nokuba asondele.
Ndingaziva ngathi ndiyinto kwaye ndiyeke umceli mngeni wam weNoFap. Kodwa kukho into etshintshileyo. Emva kokulala ngesondo, i-libido yam yabuya, yomelele njengangaphambili! Oko kwandenza ndaziva ndingcono, ke andiyekanga.
Ndaqala ukuziva "amandla amakhulu", kanye ngexeshana. Ukugxininisa kwam kwakulungile, ubudlelwane bam nosapho lwam kunye nentombazana endiyithandayo. Ndaziva ndonwabile kwaye ndizithembile. Yonke into ibingcono kancinci nje.
Mna nentombi yam khange siphinde silale kwakhona ngamanye amaxesha ngenxa yeemviwo ezinzima eyunivesithi, kodwa ndandiqhubeka nokwenza umceli mngeni wam weNoFap.
Ngenye imini, kwakusele ixesha kwaye ngengozi ndangqubana "nomjelo wabantu abadala" kumabonwakude. Umnqweno wawunzima kum, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndizame ukuphulula amalungu esini kancinci, kodwa ngaphandle kokugqiba.
Ndiyithathile kancinci, kodwa yaphela ukumisela, nangona ndizamile ukuyiyeka. Ndivakalelwa kukuba kubi kakhulu ukuphinda ndibuye ngaloo ndlela, kodwa ndandinebhongo ngeNFF streak yam (eyona yeyona indala)
Emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa, ndajika i-19 kwaye saphinda salala ngesondo. Bendingalindelanga kakhulu, kodwa kwenzeke into emangalisayo: Ndothukile, yahluke ngokupheleleyo. Ndaziva ndingena kuyo, kwaye iimvakalelo ngexesha lokwabelana ngesondo zazinamandla.
Khange ndihlale kwaxesha elide. Ndine-orgasm ngexesha lokwabelana ngesondo, okokuqala ebomini bam.
Yaziva imangalisa, ibhetele kunezo ndizifumene ngokuphulula amalungu esini. Emva kweenyanga kwenzeka ekugqibeleni! Ndoda, sonwabe kakhulu…
Into emangalisayo kukuba saba neentlobano zesini ngosuku olulandelayo, kwaye yaphinda yenzeka!
Sasivuya kakhulu ukuba siphinde sazama kwakhona ngosuku olulandelayo (nje ukuqinisekisa lol), kwaye kwakhona, ndingaba ne-orgasm ngexesha lokwabelana ngesondo. Ukulibaziseka kwam Ukudinwa kwenzeka.
Akukho xesha lidlulileyo, kodwa ndiziva ngathi i-DE ayizukuba yingxaki kwakhona. Andizange ndihlaziye i-masturbated ukususela ngokuphindaphindiweyo, kodwa ngokuqhelekileyo andiyiva isidingo.
Ubomi bam bungcono ngaphandle kwe-masturbation kunye noononophala, kwaye ndiziva ngathi ndilawula ngoku. Ndilahle into embi kum kwaye andicingi ukuba ndizakubuyela umva.
Abantu baneengxaki ezahlukeneyo ezinxulumene nokuphulula amalungu esini kunye ne-porn. Ukuba ucinga ukuba iNoFap inokukunceda, yizame! Ndingumntu wokwenene, ndikubhalela le nto ukukungqina ukuba iyasebenza:
- Yiba neenjongo zakho engqondweni kwaye unganikezeli.
- Nokuba uziva ufuna ukuyeka, musa. Imivuzo iya kulunga.
- Ukubuyisela kwakhona ayisosiphelo sehlabathi! Kuya kufuneka usoloko unekratshi malunga nokuba ufike phi. Zama ukuba ne-NoFap streaks ende kunye nexesha elide, de ufikelele kwiinjongo zakho.
- Ukuba ufunda le nto, musa ukuphulula amalungu esini mihla le, ngokujonga iphonografi, ngokubamba ngokuqinileyo, ngokuhamba ngokukhawuleza okukhulu. Leyo yayiyindlela yam yentlekele lol
Ukuqukumbela: Sonke siyakwazi ukuba likhoboka. Kodwa ayinguye wonke umntu owaziyo ukuba iphonografi kunye nokuziphulula amalungu esini luhlobo oluqhelekileyo kakhulu lokulutha, ubukhulu becala umonakalo abanokuwenza ngokuhamba kwexesha! I-NoFap isenokukunceda, ukuba uyinika ithuba.
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Kude, awufundanga:
- Ubenetyala elibi kakhulu le-DE (ayikaze ivuswe xa usabelana ngesondo, nokuba emva kweenyanga zokuzama).
- Emva kweeveki ezimbalwa ndizama kwaye ndisilela, ndiye ndakwazi ukuya ngaphezulu kweenyanga ze-1 ngaphandle kokushaya indlwabu.
- Ngokwenza njalo, ndakwazi ukuba ne-orgasm ngexesha lokwabelana ngesondo okokuqala!
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Ke lelo libali lam. Ukuba nina bantu ninayo nayiphi na imibuzo, ndingavuya ukuphendula. Nceda uxolele naziphi na iimpazamo zesingesi (ndinguBrazil), kunye neposti ende!
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