Ndandingasoloko ndinexhala – yayiyinto endayiphuhlisa kamva ebomini. Xa iye yakhula nangona yaba mbi kakhulu. Kwandiqhwalelisa kakhulu kwaye kwachaphazela iinkalo ezininzi zobomi bam. Ndaqala ukuyibona phakathi kwiminyaka yam yasesekondari.
Ngeli xesha bendisuka ndimane ndiphulula amaphambili ndiyenze yonke imihla, ngamanye amaxesha amaxesha amaninzi ngemini. Lo mkhwa waqhubeka ixesha elide.
Ndithathe iminyaka emi-2 phakathi kwesikolo samabanga aphakamileyo kunye nekholeji kwaye ndasebenza ukonga kwaye ndifumanise ukuba ngowuphi umsebenzi endifuna ukuwulandela. Ngexesha lokuphela kwaloo minyaka mi-2 ehlotyeni ngaphambi kwesemester yam yokuqala yekholeji ndafumana ulwazi olunxulumene nokungaziphululi amalungu esini ukuya kumanqanaba asezantsi okuxhalaba. Ngelo hlobo mhlawumbi ndaphulula i-masturbated amaxesha ambalwa kwiinyanga ze-3-4. Ngeli xesha ndaziva ndikhululekile. Ukuzithemba kwam bekuphezulu, bendikwazi ukuthetha nabani na sincokole. Ndaziva ndithe qwa kwaye ndiphila kwaye ndiziva ndilungile nje jikelele macala onke.
Ngokukhawuleza phambili kwisemester yam yokuqala kwiKholeji kunye ne-acne embi kakhulu. Ndandiziva ndimbi ngesikhumba sam, kodwa ixhala lam lalisakwazi ukulawuleka. Nangona kunjalo ndaziva ndimbi ngenkangeleko yam kwaye ndandifuna ukukhululwa. Qikelela ukuba ndiqale ukwenza ntoni kwakhona. Yaba amaxesha amaninzi ngemini ngokukhawuleza kakhulu. Kwavakala kukuhle ukuyenza kwakhona kwaye ndikhulule nje. Ndaqhubeka ndiyenza amaxesha amaninzi ngemini kangangexesha elithile. Amanqanaba okuxhalaba kweli nqanaba aphezulu kakhulu.
Ndaqaphela oku kwaye ndayeka ukuphulula i-masturbating, ndicinga kwakhona ukuba le nto ingaba yimbangela enkulu yokukhathazeka kwam. Ukukhawuleza ukuya phambili kwezinye iinyanga ezimbalwa ulusu lwam lucace ngakumbi ndiziva ndilungile malunga nenkangeleko yam kwakhona. Andizange ndibe ne-masturbating kunye nokuzithemba kwam kwakhona, kodwa ndifumana ingcinga encinci .. Mhlawumbi kwakuyi-acne eyabangela i-spike yam yokukhathazeka kwaye kungekhona ingxaki yam ye-porn kunye ne-masturbating. Ndikhe ndacinga ngale ngcinga ngamanye amaxesha kwaye ndiyabona ukuba ndiziva ndilungile kwaye ndiqinisekile. Ndicinga ukuba mhlawumbi yayiyi-acne kwaye ndiziva ndingakhuselekanga malunga nenkangeleko yam.
Ndivuka ngenye imini ndagqiba kwelokuba ndikhuphe ilaptop endala. Ndiyazisola ngoko nangoko. Oku kunokuvakala kungaqhelekanga, kodwa ngokukhawuleza nje ukuba ndiqhume i-nut yam ndeva ukuba kukho into eshiya umzimba wam (ngaphandle kwesidoda.) Ndaziva ndiphelile kwaye inkungu yengqondo ndaziva ngathi kukho amandla amaninzi ashiye umzimba wam. Ixhala liyabuya. Ibuya nzima. Yayingeyiyo irhashalala yayiyisiqhelo sam.
Ndiye ndagqiba ekubeni ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi kunye ne-masturbating. Ndiyiveki kuphela okanye ii-2 kuyo kwakhona, kodwa ndiyayiva intembelo yam ikhula kwakhona. Ndiqhagamshelene nam kwaye andidingi zizathu zokwahlukana nomkhwa wam. Andisafuni kubukela abantu besenza isex fake ndihle.
Ukuba ndifuna isex that bad ndizophuma ndiyozikhangela ngokwam. Andizimiselanga ukurhweba ndiziva ndizithembile, ndiphila kwaye ndiphaphile okomzuzwana wolonwabo. Ndiyathemba ukuba nabani na unengxaki yokuxhalaba baya kuzama oku kwaye baphumelele ngaphandle kwe-fap.
Masibe ngabona babalaseleyo kwaye siphile ngeentelekelelo zethu kubomi bokwenyani kunokuba sibukele abantu esingabaziyo besabelana ngesondo lomgunyathi kwiscreen kwaye sizonwabise thina. Ndinazo zonke izizathu endizidingayo zokuyeka umjikelo wam, ndiyathemba ukuba nonke niyayifumana eyakho. Hlala womelele kufanelekile.
Ndina-20 ngoku. Bendisebenzisa oko ndandikwibanga lesi-8, kodwa ukusetyenziswa kakhulu kwaqala kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo.
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