Ngokukrakra, emva kokuba ndiye ndangumntu ongumlutha we-porn kangangesithuba seminyaka eyi-7-8 kwaye nge… Andizange ndiyiqonde kakuhle indlela ekwakukubi ngayo kum de ndafumana ubomi ngaphandle kwayo.
Nditsho ngokunyaniseka, i-100% ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo engqondweni yam, ukuyeka i-porn kuye kwaba sesona sigqibo sibalulekileyo sobomi bam bonke. Ndiyazi ukuba kuyaphambana ukuba nditsho emva kweenyanga ezimbini kuphela… kodwa ayisihluphi ukuba uyaqonda. Ukusukela ndiyeke i-porn, ubomi buguqukele kum. Ngokuqinisekileyo onke amabakala obomi bam aphucule kakhulu.
Ngoku, ndiyazi ukuba andizukuyichaza yonke le nto ngokujonga iphonografi, njengoko ndenze utshintsho oluninzi ebomini bam… kodwa ngaphandle kokuyeka iphonografi, akukho nanye inokwenzeka. Ukuba ne-porn simahla kubeka isiseko sayo yonke enye into ebomini bakho ukuba ibe yinto emangalisayo.
Inkungu, inkungu, ukudakumba, ukuzicaphukela, unxunguphalo, ubukho obungenangqondo nobungento… konke kuhambile ngoku. Ndiyindoda entsha. Ndingumntu ozithembileyo kwakhona. Ndiqhutywa, ndijolise, ndiyalwa. Ndinothando ngakumbi, ndincuma ngakumbi, ndihleka ngakumbi, andiziva ukuba ndifuna ukuzifihla. Akufuneki ndivalwe emhlabeni. Ndiphume phandle. Ndiyakwazi ukujongana nentloko kwaye andiyiki ukuthetha nabantu. Ndiyabathanda abantu nabafazi kwakhona kwaye indoda bendingaqhubeka nokuqhubeka ngale nto ...
Yonke imihla. Imikhwa. Ngaba. Yonke into. Andikwazi ukukunyanzela oku ngokwaneleyo kwaye uyakuqaphela ukuba le yimeko yokuba wonke umntu oyeka I-porn okanye nasiphi na isiyobisi. Kuya kufuneka ubuyise umkhuba wakho ombi ngento enkulu, enezinto ezininzi. Imikhwa iyinto yonke. Kwaye awungekhe uyeke ukubukela i-porn kufuneka uyeke NAYIPHI NA YONKE into ebakhobokisayo ebomini bakho esenokukuvimba okanye ikujongele phantsi nangayiphi na indlela.
Oku kulandelayo zontathu zeenguqu ezinkulu endizenzileyo endikholelwa ukuba ziye zandigcina ndingenamanyala, kodwa zininzi ezinye izinto ezitshintshileyo endizakuqhubeka nokutshintsha xa ndiqhubeka nohambo lokuziphucula:
- Ezempilo /okomelela
Ndiqale indlela yokuzilolonga kwaye ndibulela imifanekiso engamanyala, ndikwazile ukunamathela kuyo kwaye ndakwazi ukuzigcina ndiqeqeshwe. Ndiya ejimini yonke imihla kwaye ngeentsuku zam zokuhamba ndenza i-abs kunye ne-cardio. Oko ndaqala, ndifumene phantse i-8 yeepawundi esele izihlunu, ke loo nto intle ngokubona njengoko bendihlala ndingumntu onobuqhetseba!
Nangona bendisitya ndisempilweni ngaphambi kokuba ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi, ukuqhubeka nokutya okunempilo kubaluleke kakhulu njengoko ndifumene ukuba xa ndisitya ukutya okukhawulezayo okanye ukutya okungenamsoco kuyandidinisa kwaye ndonqene, kunciphisa ukuzilawula kwam kwaye ndifuna ukulala okanye ukulala kwigumbi lam, ebeka imeko efanelekileyo kwi-PMO.
- Unxibelelwano / Intlalontle
Ndicinga ukuba le nto ihlala ihoywa kancinci, kodwa ndiyakholelwa ukuba inokuba yenye yezona zinto zibaluleke kakhulu. Ndiyazi ngam, ndisebenzise i-PMO njengendawo yokuqhagamshela. Unxibelelwano, uqhagamshelo, uqhagamshelo. Andikwazi ukugxininisa oku ngokwaneleyo. Ndiqaphele ukuba iintsuku endizichitha ixesha elisemgangathweni nabantu ebomini bam okanye nokuba ndinencoko yokwenyani kunye nomnye umntu yenza konke umahluko. Konke malunga nokufumana olo nxibelelwano komnye umntu imini yonke, nokuba ngumntu osebenza naye okanye umhlobo osenyongweni okanye umntu okuhlekisayo… yenza unxibelelwano, kangangoko unako… yindlela onokuthi ubuphephe ngayo ubulolo. Yiyo le nto ikugcina ekufuneni iphonografi. Oku kunokuba nzima ngenene nangona ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo… ingakumbi xa ungasoloko unezinto ezininzi ezifanayo nabantu ohlala nabo / usapho okanye ukuba unexhala kwezentlalo, okanye ukuba awunabo abahlobo abaninzi abasenyongweni, okanye ukuba awunayo Ukuzithemba, njlnjl apho ndibenazo zonke ezo ngxaki xa ndibukele iphonografi.
Oko ndiyekile, konke kutshintshiwe. Uxinzelelo lwam ekuhlaleni luye lwehla kakhulu. Ndivakalelwa kukuba ndiyakwazi ukuthetha naye nabani na ngoku kwaye andinaxesha linzima kangaka ukuphuma kwindawo yam yokuthuthuzela. Ndidibana nabantu abatsha kwaye ndibomelezile ubudlelwane bam. Ndizifumana ndifikelela ebantwini ngakumbi kwaye ndizama ngakumbi ukuphucula ubuhlobo bam. Vele uyenze. Yeka iphonografi, yinike iiveki ezimbalwa. Kulaa veki qala ukusebenza, mhlawumbi ufunde ezinye iincwadi, uchithe ixesha ngaphandle okwethutyana. Chaza iinjongo zakho, yenza uluhlu lwezinto oza kuzenza, sebenza nzima emsebenzini nasezikolweni. Vele uyenze. Nika nje iiveki ezimbalwa kwaye ndiyakuthembisa ubomi bakho buya kutshintshwa.
Into emnandi malunga nemikhwa kukuba zonke zakha phezu kwenye kwaye zenza ukuba kube lula ukugcina ezinye. Umzekelo, ukusebenza kunye nokufumana umzimba endikade ndiwufuna kuphucule ukuzithemba kwam kalishumi, kwaye kundivumele ukuba ndithethe nabasetyhini ngcono, ndenze nabahlobo abatsha! Ngoku ngoku ndinokunxibelelana okungakumbi kwaye ndichitha ixesha elininzi ekuhlaleni, andinamntu wedwa ebusuku kwaye ndilala ngcono kwaye andidingi ku-PMO ngaphambi kokulala.
- Akukho tywala / Ukhula
Awunyanzelekanga ukuba ube yi-100% ulukhuni kweli, kodwa ndicinga ukuba kubalulekile. Ngokukodwa kwezo ntsuku zokuqala ze-30. Kuya kufuneka ube neentloko ezicacileyo kwaye ugxile kwaye uhambe iintsuku eziPheleleyo ze-30 ngaphandle kwe-porn nangaphandle kokufota. Eyona nto ibaluleke kakhulu kum kukuseta kwakhona. Ndisasela ngeempelaveki rhoqo kanye, kwaye ndiya kuba nebhiya nabahlobo amaxesha ngamaxesha… kodwa ndimelwe kukuthetha… le intle kakhulu. Ukusela kunye nokutshaya zombini kunciphisa ukuzilawula kwaye kunokukhokelela ngokulula kwi-PMO ukuba awalumkanga.
Ngapha koko, cinga nje ukuba ndingabelana. Ukuyeka i-porn akuyona into yethutyana. Kubandakanya utshintsho kwindlela yakho yokuphila ukuba ufuna ngokwenene ukukhaba umkhwa. Into emnandi kukuba, ubomi bakho bonke buza kutshintsha xa uyekile kwaye yonke into izakuba lula.
Nditsho nokuba andinakuze ndiyenze le nto ngaphandle kwakho bantu. Andikwazi ukukubulela ngokwaneleyo ngayo yonke into, ubomi bam butshintshile ngonaphakade. Qhubeka usilwa umlo olungileyo!
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