Sekudlulileyo unyaka-ndiye ndaqala ukuzibophelela kwam kwiNoFap ngoJulayi 27th, 2015. Ndisese-streak yam yokuqala, ndisomelela! Kuninzi okutshintshileyo ukusukela kunyaka ophelileyo.
Ndifudukele kwisixeko esitsha ndifumana umsebenzi omtsha, bendisebenza apho ngaphezulu kweenyanga ezili-9 kwaye ndiwuthanda. Ubomi bam obutsha buhle ngokwenene, kodwa bunamahla ndinyuka-ndade ndafika kwindawo ephantsi kakhulu kuxinzelelo lwam ngoJanuwari kwaye ekugqibeleni ndafuna unyango kunye namayeza. Oko kusebenza kakuhle kum ukuza kuthi ga ngoku, okuhle, kwaye kancinci ndiza kumzabalazo wam njengento enokuba yeyobomi bonke kodwa ilawulwa.
Ndisenentombi emnandi, nangona besisobudlelwane obuvulekileyo ukusukela ekufuduseni kude (isicelo sakhe ekuqaleni, kodwa kufanelekile thina sobabini). Ubudlelwane bethu kunye neqhina ngokweemvakalelo liqinile kakhulu, liyandixhasa kwaye ndilufumana isibonelelo esikhulu, oko kuhle. Ndabelana ngesondo, nangona umnqweno wam ungangaphezulu njengoko bendiqhele ukwenza ukuphulula amalungu esini imihla ngemihla. Ndikhwebuke kuyo yonke into eyabelana ngesondo ixesha elide kunye (iinyanga ezininzi) kwaye ndiyaphatha oko kulungile.
Ngokuqhelekileyo ndinamandla amaninzi, ndicinga ngokucacileyo, kwaye ndinemvakalelo ezinzileyo ngakumbi xa ndandidla ngokuhlaziya i-masturbating, kodwa ndiyaqonda ukuba amava am e-NoFap ahluke kakhulu kubantu abaninzi kuba, ngokunyanisekileyo, andiyikhumbuli. Ndiyeke imidlalo yevidiyo ngaphezulu konyaka odlulileyo ngezizathu ezifanayo, kwaye andikuphosi oko-kufana nokuba ndinexesha elininzi kunye namandla okwahlulahlula izinto ezibaluleke ngakumbi kum. Andizange ndilwe neengxaki, andiyi 'kubangelwa' ngoononophala okanye ngesondo / ubunqunu kwiifilimu, esihogweni, andiyi kuvuswa elunxwemeni okanye. Ndiyakwazi ngokufanelekileyo ukuvuswa xa ndifuna, okanye xa ndikunye neqabane, kodwa ukuzithiba kuloo nto akuyona into endiyilwa nayo.
Ndijonga iphonografi amaxesha ngamaxesha, kodwa ngokunyaniseka, andifumani nto ingako- ayibambisi umdla wam njengakuqala, njengemidlalo yevidiyo. Ndivakalelwa kukuba sendiphelelwe lixesha. Xa ndijonga iphonografi, isekwe ngakumbi ekufuneni ulwazi okanye ngokuzama ukuzama ukufunda kuyo (okt ukuba iqabane linomnqweno endingaqhelananga nalo).
Ndimele nditsho, xa into evusa inkanuko ingekho… i-90% ye-porn ibonakala ngathi isisidenge. Andiligwebi (ngaphandle kokuba alikho semthethweni ngandlela thile, eluhlobo oluthile lwesihloko), njengoko ndiyibona ukuba luhlobo lweendaba olwenzelwe isiseko sabathengi esithile - kodwa ngoku andikho kuloo nto Isiseko sabathengi, ndiphendula ngendlela engamanyala ngendlela endisabela ngayo kwinyani yesitayile seTV.
Ndithatha amanyathelo, nangona kunjalo, ukuphonononga nokuqonda okwam, isini sokwenyani, okwangoku, esiluhlobo lwemfihlakalo kum. Kwakuqhele ukuba kucace kum into endandiyiyo ',' kodwa ekubeni ndaye ndabona i-pornography ndaqonda ukuba andiyazi into endiyiyo, okanye indlela endiphendula ngayo ekuvukeni. Ndithatha iindlela zam kwiqabane lam kulungile, kodwa ndiyaqonda ukuba kuyakufuneka ndizihlolisise ngokunzulu koku kwixa elizayo.
Nangona kunjalo, oko kungena kwam ukungenelela kwam, kunokuba ngamava e-NoFap.
Nxibelelanisa neposi yam yantlandlolo
tl; dr - Ngaphezulu konyaka weNoFap, ndonwabile ukuba ndiyincamile, ungaphoswa yiyo, ungalindeli ukuba ndiza kubuyela kuyo. Ayisiyongqondo okanye usozigidi, akufuneki ubenjalo, usenza into entle ngokwam.
Olona thamsanqa kuni nonke!
LINK - Ngaphezulu kwe-1 Unyaka we-NoFap
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Imibuliso, iiFapstronauts kunye neFemstronauts - iPipeOrganEnthusiast apha.
Ndiyiminyaka eyi-22 ubudala, kwaye ndihlupheke ngokuqhubekayo, ukuxinezeleka okuqhubekayo ukususela malunga ne-12, kwaye kuye kwaqhubeka kukubi ngaphezu kweminyaka. Andizange ndiqonde ukuba kutheni ndixinezelekile - ngokuqinisekileyo, ubomi bam buhle kakhulu. Ndisempilweni, ndinosapho olunothando, intombi eyoyikekayo, abahlobo abalungileyo, ndinamava obomi ahlukileyo, andikaze ndibenakho ukuba likhoboka leziyobisi, andinatyala kwaphela, kwaye ngoku ndigqibezela iminyaka eyi-4 eyimpumelelo yekholeji . Ndinomsebenzi othembisayo nowonwabisayo phambi kwam, kunye nezinto ezininzi zokuzonwabisa endizifumanayo endincoma ngazo.
Nceda, ungacingi ukuba ndiyaziqhayisa- enyanisweni, kuyothusa ukuba ndibhale ubomi bam ngokungathi bukhulu okanye bunomtsalane, kuba ndihlala ndiziva ngathi ndisisidenge, eyona inept, eyona nto inkunkuma yeeseli kwi iplanethi. Phezu kwako konke oku ndinako, andifumani luvuyo ebomini kwaye nesizathu sokuphila ngokuqhubekayo. Ndiyazenza izinto kuba ndiziva ukuba ziyimfuneko, kuba abantu baxhomekeke kum, kuba ndiyazi ukuba kufanelekile ukuba nombulelo ngobomi obunje. Ndihlala ndiphila ndiqhubeka ngenxa yamandla… kodwa olona lonwabo lobukho bam aluncinci, kwaye beluphela ngokukhawuleza kwaye ngokukhawuleza. Oku kungoneliseki kuye kwaba sisifo sobukho bam ngaphezulu kweshumi leminyaka, kwaye indiqhubele phantse ngaphaya komda amatyeli aliqela. Iya kuba yinto enye ukuba ubuncinci bendinesizathu sokudakumba kakhulu-kodwa ndingenalo nofifi lokuba kutheni ndiziva ndingento yanto kuyenza mandundu ngakumbi kum.
Kodwa phezolo, ndikhubekile kule sub ngelixa ndikhangela izithuba malunga noxinzelelo kunye nokungasebenzi ngokwesondo, kwaye ndafumana ikhonkco kwintetho kaGary Wilson's TedX kwibar esecaleni. Ingqondo yam yayiphefumlelwe ngokupheleleyo.
Ndim ke kwelona cala lithetha ngalo. Ndiqalise ukubukela iphonografi xa ndandineminyaka eyi-12, ehambelana nelo xesha uxinzelelo lwam lwaqala ngokwenyani. Ukucinga okungapheliyo kwezinto ezintsha nezingaqhelekanga, imvakalelo yokuqaqadeka kunye nesithukuthezi xa ubuyela kubomi bokwenyani, konke oku kufaka amava am ngokupheleleyo. Kwakukho amaxesha endandiyeke iiveki ezimbalwa okanye inyanga (njengoselula ngenxa yenkolo kwaye njengomdala nje ukuze ndivavanye ukuzibamba kwam ndicinga), kodwa ngokwedatha endiyifunayo kufutshane ne-4-5 iinyanga ubuncinci ukwenza umahluko, kwaye andikaze kwiminyaka eyi-10 ihambile ixesha elide ngaphandle kokuphulula amalungu esini kunye / okanye ukubukela uhlobo oluthile lwe-porn.
Into ebaluleke kakhulu kukuba, andizange ndicinge ukuba ndinomlutha, kuba, ngokunyanisekileyo, andiyithandi i-pornography yonke into eninzi, kwaye i-masturbation ayiyona yonke into ekhethekileyo kum. Ndiyenza nje kuba… ewe, inyani iyaziva ngathi NDIMELE ukuyenza- kwaye phezolo ndiye ndaqonda ukuba le nto yiyo eyenza ukuba ndibe likhoboka!
Ndiyamangaliswa ngokupheleleyo lulwazi lwenzululwazi olwenziwe nguWilson- Bendingazi ukuba into efana nokulutha kwi-intanethi inokubangela uhlobo olufanayo lweenguqu zomzimba kwingqondo enokulutha ngamachiza. Nje ukuba ndifunde ukuba, yonke into icofiwe kunye, kunye nesizathu sokudandatheka rhoqo, ukungabikho kwamandla, ingqondo yam ingathi kufuneka isebenze nzima ngalo lonke ixesha elibi ...
Ke ngokusisiseko, ndiqalisa kwakhona kuba FUCK. OKU. SHIT. Ukudakumba koFuck. Fuck ED. Ukuziva ndiziva ngathi ndisisidenge kwaye ndicotha kwaye andonelanga ngalo lonke ixesha lokuhamba. Ukugxotha kwi-hentai akufanelekanga ukuba umonakalo owenzayo kwingqondo yam. Ndiyabhenca KWENZIWE.
Ndigwetywe kakhulu ukuba ndingazibopheleli kwi-no-fap (injongo yam ikukufikelela kwi-Dec. 31st, 2015, ngeloxesha ndiza kuhlola imeko yam ndiqhubeke ukuba iyasebenza). Nangona kunjalo, ingqondo yam eyoyikisayo, edandathekileyo yokuthandabuza sele izama ukuthoba umzamo wam.
Umzabalazo wam awukho kunye nomnqweno wenyama we-fap - kukungathandabuzeki kwengqondo ukuba ndiyakwazi ukuphucula imeko yam nangayiphi na indlela. Ndihlala ndicinga ukuba 'kulungile, sele ndineminyaka engama-22, ingqondo yam isetelwe kwimithambo yayo ukuze ngekhe ndikwazi ukuyitshintsha ngoku ...' okanye ndibambeke kakhulu ekubeni ndizive ndineentloni kwaye ndinomsindo wokuba ndizizisele usizi olunje endicinga ukuba andikufanelanga ukuzama ukulungisa.
Ngaba bakhona abantu apha abaqale malunga ne minyaka yam kwaye banokundikhuthaza? Ndidinga ngokwenene ukwazi ukuba ubuncinci bethemba lam.
Nakuphi na ezinye iingcezu zeengcebiso okanye imibuzo yamkelekile.
TL; DR Ubomi bam bumnandi ngokugqibeleleyo kodwa ndiziva ndingento yanto, emva kokubuza imibuzo emininzi ndiyakholelwa ukuba ishumi leminyaka le-PMO libekek 'ityala. Ukuqalisa ngokutsha ngenxa ye-FUCK. LONTO. SHIT.
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