Ndandineminyaka engama-23 ukuqala kwam ukuya kolu hambo… ngoku ndingu 29. Unokujonga kwizithuba zam zangaphambili ukuba ufuna ukubona ngaphezulu, kodwa bendinama-ED kunye namava am kuphela ezesondo ayene-porn, kunye ne-masturbating phantse yonke imihla. I-streaks yayiyindawo efanelekileyo yokuqala, kwaye ngekhe ndinyangeke ngokukhawuleza ukuba bendinokuziphatha ngakumbi.
I-streak yokuqala yeentsuku ze-30 ibikukuvulwa kwamehlo koko bendilahlekile. Ndaziva ndhlukile; Izenzo zam zazinzima kunangaphambili. I-porn yayindenzele umngqungqo wefoggy ngokuzithemba okuphantsi, nangona kufuneka nditsho ukuba ubomi bam bonke buphina ukuba nempembelelo enkulu malunga nokwabelana ngesondo.
Ngamaxesha athile ndandiye ndicinge ukuba ndigqibelwe, ndikwazile ukufumana intombi yam yokuqala, kwaye lonke ixesha besindawonye (unyaka we-1) bendino-ED rhoqo. Ekugqibeleni kuye kwafuneka ndihlukane nezinto ngenxa yoxinzelelo lwayo yonke kodwa indishiya ndonakalisiwe. Olu lwalamano lwalukwiminyaka ye-4 emva kokuba ndifumene ingozi ye-porn kwingqondo. Ndacinga ukuba ngekhe ndikwazi ukugqitha kolu hlaselo.
Ekugqibeleni ndafumana intombazana entsha, endaziva ndihlaziyekile kwaye kum ukumangala izinto zihambe kakuhle, akukho-ED nakanye. Andikaze ndikwazi nokulawula i-90 kwiintsuku ze-PMO kodwa into enye endiyenzileyo kukuba ubuncinci ndisike i-PMO ukusuka mihla le ukuya kutsho kanye okanye kabini ngeveki. Mhlawumbi kutheni ndithathe ixesha elide kangaka ukuphilisa.
Ukuyeka ukusebenzisa imifanekiso engamanyala mihla le kwakuthunyelwe nguThixo kum, kodwa kuya kufuneka uphumeze olunye utshintsho kubomi bakho ukuze ufumane iziphumo. Ndayeka ukudlala imidlalo yekhompyuter ndisiya kuqeqesho lomdyarho endaweni. Ekugqibeleni, ndaye ndaphawula ukuba ndinomdla kakhulu ebomini, kwaye okokuqala oko ndisengumntwana, ndandiqala ukuzonwabisa ngezinto kwakhona.
Ukufumana intombazana elungileyo nako kunyanzelekile. Ndibe nethamsanqa lokuba intombazana endinayo ngoku yayiqonda kakhulu, kwaye amaxesha ambalwa okuqala sasisabelana ngesondo, bendingekho nzima kwi-100% kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ndilahlekelwe kukwakhiwa kwam. Khange akhathazeke kwaye xa ndisiva oku, kwaye ndathomalalisa imithambo-luvo yam, ndikulungele ukuya. Ndiya kuthi inxalenye yengxaki yam yayiyixhala lokusebenza, isondo siziva sihluke ngokupheleleyo kwi-pornography. Kuya kufuneka uqhele into enje kwaye ingqondo yakho iya kuqala ukuyirhalela kwaye ekuhambeni kwexesha ii-erections ziya komelela, kwaye uxinzelelo luya kufunda. Ngethuba lokuqala ebomini bam, ndiziva ndiqhelekile!
Ndicinga ukuba wonke umntu wahlukile, kodwa ungoyiki ukuya, kwaye ukuba uyasilela ekuqaleni, qhubeka uzama. Ingqondo ayimangalisa, utshintsho lwam ndicinga ukuba belucotha ekuqaleni, kodwa kwiminyaka embalwa edlulileyo izinto ziye zaba ngcono kakhulu.
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