Le yi-repost evela kwiqela lam lobudala, i-25-29yrs: iintsuku ze-90 !!!!!!!!!
- Ngaba ndiphilile? Mhlawumbi, makhe ndicacise ngezantsi.
- Ngaba ndizibonile izibonelelo? EWE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ikrakra. Ndiyazi ukuba "andifumananga" kuba i-libido yam ayikabuyi okwangoku, kwaye ndinexesha lamandla amakhulu kodwa hayi i-24/7 amandla amakhulu. Ukubona kunye nokunxibelelana nabasetyhini akubangeli naluphi na uhlobo lokusabela kwi-libido yam okwangoku. Ndakhe ndacinga ngenye imini ukuba usuku lokuqala lwe-90 yi-DETOX nje, kwaye ukusukela kwi-90 usuku ukuya phambili kulapho kuqala khona ukuchacha. Kwada kwaba yimini ye-85 apho ingqondo yam engaphantsi kwengqondo yahamba ngokuzenzakalelayo. Into endiyithethayo kukuba izinto ebezikade zifuna amandla entando azisekho:
- Ndiya ejimini ndingacinganga
- Ndithatha ishawa ezibandayo ndingacinganga
- Ndayeka ukutshaya ndingacinganga
- Ukutya okunempilo akulongxaki kwaphela
- Ndivuka ngokwemvelo ngaphandle kwewotshi ye-alarm
- Ngokwendalo ndincokola nabasetyhini endisebenza nabo ngaphandle kokucinga. KODWA, andikaphumi ndiye ebharini okanye kumjuxuzo wasebusuku okwangoku ukususela kwintlekele yam ngemini 61. Kwaye ngoku ndiyoyika ukuba ndiye 'kuvavanya' ukuzithemba kwam ukuba buya kuba bobunye ubusuku obubi: ngenxa yoko le nto ndicinga ukuba andikaphili okwangoku)
- Ngokwendalo ndinxulumana nomntu wonke ngaphandle kokucinga
U-Simpy uthe: ekuphela kwamandla okufunayo kukunqwenela ukuba ungabi yi-PMO. Kwaye ukuba ungayenza loo nto kangangeentsuku ezingama-90, UYA KUVUZWA NGE-Auto-PILOT, oko kuthetha ukuba impumelelo isondela kuwe kwaye awufuni nokuzama (kuba ukuzama kuthetha ukuqinisa amandla), wolula nje isandla sakho. ukufumana. Kwaye mandiyithethe le nto, iintsuku ezingama-90 ziyifanele ngokupheleleyo (DUH). Enyanisweni ziintsuku ezingama-60 kuphela zesihogo, iintsuku ezingama-30 zokurhoxiswa okuthambileyo/okunyamezelekayo. Oku kufutshane kakhulu xa kuthelekiswa neminyaka engama-60 ezayo yobomi bakho!
Ngakolunye uhlangothi, uphando lwezemfundo lubonisa ukuba kuthatha iiveki ze-6-12 ukuyeka ngokupheleleyo ukutshaya. Ithetha ukuba UKUBA ngokwenene ndinyange i-PMO, ukurhoxa kwam nicotine kuthintela amandla engqondo yam ukonwabela umvuzo. Kufuneka ndilinde de kube sekupheleni kukaSeptemba ukuze ndivune umvuzo OPHELELEYO we-nofap KWAYE akukho msi. Into endiyithembayo ngelo xesha ngama-24/7 anamandla amakhulu kunye nokuhoywa okuninzi okuvela kwabasetyhini, kodwa ukuba kufuneka ndilinde enye i-3, 6, okanye iinyanga ezili-9, ndingayenza ngokuqinisekileyo!
Ndisamkhumbula ex yam… ke olo hlobo lunditya. Ngethamsanqa ndine "barrage" yabasetyhini abasebenzisana nabo kunye nabasebenza nabo ngokubanzi ukugcina ukuzinza kwam ngokweemvakalelo.
Ukurhoxiswa kuphelile, ukuba ujonga kwisithuba sam sokuqala ndidwelise ukuba bebeyintoni. Ekuphela kokurhoxa endikufumanayo kukutyhafa rhoqo, kodwa ndiyakholelwa ukuba kungenxa yokuba ndiphakathi kokuyeka ukutshaya. Andifane ndizive ndidakumbile, andikhumbuli nexesha lokugqibela ndiziva ndidakumbile, njengeentsuku eziyi-15-20 ezidlulileyo?!?!
Olona ncedo lubalulekileyo nolungalindelekanga kukuba ingqondo nomzimba wam uqhuba i-auto pilot. Into yokuba ndihambe ndenze izinto ngaphandle kokuzama ivakala iyamangalisa. Ndivakalelwa kukuba ndiphila kwixesha langoku, andisoloko ndicinga ngexesha elidlulileyo, kwaye andisoloko ndicinga ngekamva. Ndiziva ngathi ndingumntu, hayi nje umatshini ongenangqondo osebenzayo, utye, ushiti, kwaye ulale.
LINK - ingxelo yeentsuku ezingama-90 ka-consuela
NGU- Consuela
IPOSI YOKUQALA - ijenali kaconsuela
Molweni nonke,
Namhlanje yimini yam 32 ye-PMO kwaye ndaye ndagqiba ekubeni ndibhalise kwaye ndijoyine iforum ukuze ndikwazi ukunika kwaye ndifumane inkxaso kuwo wonke umntu. Le yeyona nto ide kakhulu endiye ndahamba ngaphandle kwe-PMO ukususela ekubeni ndandineminyaka eyi-15 ubudala (ndiye ndalala nentombi yam kanye ngeli xesha).
Kancinci malunga nam: Ndingu-29 kwaye ndine-PMO ukususela ekubeni ndineminyaka eyi-15. Ngokufana nomntu wonke, yaqala ukukhanya (M zonke iintsuku ezimbini, kungekhona kakhulu P), kwaye iphelile nge-PMO phantse yonke imihla. Ukukhotyokiswa kwam kulonakalisa ubudlelwane bam nentombi endithandana nayo; izinto zinamatye kakhulu kwaye nangona singekaqhawuki ngokusemthethweni, ndiqinisekile ukuba sigqibile.
Ndingathanda ukwabelana ngeentsuku zam ze-32 ze-nofap njengendlela yokuphuma kunye nokukhuthaza nonke.
Iveki yokuqala yayinzima, inzima ngokwenene. Ndandinazo zonke iimpawu zokurhoxa ezidwelisiweyo, ukuba azikho ngaphezulu:
- ndigula ngokwasemzimbeni, ndihlala ndiziva ngathi kufuneka ndipuke, kodwa akukho nto ivelayo
-IZINKUNDLA zenkungu yengqondo, ixhala, kunye noxinzelelo
– ukutyhafa nokungakhathali
-ubomi BUYEFUTSHWA (kusenjalo kodwa kuncinci)
- akukho xesha kwiveki yokuqala ndibe neminqweno ye-PMO, kuba ndenze isigqibo sokuba andiyi kuphinda ndiyenze kwakhona. Ndiyakholwa ukuba kukho a umahluko phakathi kokuyeka nokuyeka!
Ukuqala kwiveki yesibini ukuya kuthi ga ngoku yi-flatline. Andazi ukuba ndingayichaza njani ngaphandle kweempawu zokurhoxa ezithambileyo, kuthatyathwe isigulo somzimba. Ngokuhamba kwexesha ndiyakwazi ukuva ukuba iya iyancipha kwaye iyancipha; kodwa nangona kunjalo ikhona 24/7. Kanye ngexesha elithile ndiza kuba neeyure ze-1-2 zefestile apho ndiziva ndiMKHULU, ndiza kuthetha naye wonke umntu kwaye ndigcine uqhagamshelwano oluqinileyo kunye nabo.
Nangona ndikwimini ye-32 ye-nofap yam, sele ndibona ezinye izibonelelo:
-amandla angaphezulu, kodwa andibonakali ndifumana inkuthazo yokwenza izinto eziya kuzalisa isithuba sento ebeya kuba ndilele kwaye ndifafa.
Njengomntu oneminyaka engama-29 ubudala oye wahlala naba bazali ubomi bakhe bonke, ndisanda kuthenga imoto okokuqala (umhloli we-2003 osetyenzisiweyo) kwaye ndithatha isigqibo sokuphuma endlwini yam ndiyokuhlala ndedwa.
-Kuloo festile yokuziva ndonwabile, ndingahlalisana kakhulu kwaye ndijonge wonke umntu endithetha naye
-njengoko kukhankanyiwe ngasentla, andinqweneli nayiphi na i-PMO. Nangona kunjalo ndinobunzima bokungacingi kwintombi yam, kufuneka ndifumane indlela yokuyeka ukuyenza. Ndiyazi ngenyani leyo yindlela echuliweyo yengqondo yam yokuvavanya ukubona ukuba umthondo wam usasebenza na. Iyenza kwaye ndiyazi ukuba ayifanga kodwa ingqondo yam iyawuphumelela umdlalo wefantasy okwangoku.
Andikwazi kulinda de ndifike kwiintsuku ezingama-90; hayi ngenxa yokuba ndingaphinda ndikwazi i-PMO, kodwa kuba ndinethemba lokuba ndiphilisiwe ngelo xesha ukuze ndiphile obo bomi bendibufuna. Kwakhona, ndiyathemba kwaye andinakulinda ukufumana la magunya amakhulu kunye nokuhoywa kwabasetyhini abantu abathetha ngabo. Ndiyazi ukuba oku akufanelanga ukuba kugxilwe kwi-nofap yam, ndiyaxolisa ukuyitsho kodwa yeyona nto iqhubayo yokuba kutheni ndisenza le nto.
BTW, ndithatha ithuba le-1-2 yeyure yefestile yokungacwangciswanga ukuchwetheza oku! Okumangalisayo kukuba, ingqondo yam ayazi ukuba mandiyiphendule njani. Sendiyiqhelile impilo yase flatline xa ndingekho kuyo ivele ibengathi iyandixaka, its like I miss flatlining. Ndiyathemba ukuba oku kuya kutshintsha kungekudala!
Kunzima kakhulu ukuyeka ukutshaya, kuba njengoko kukhankanyiwe ngasentla, ngoku ndiyayeka ukutshaya, kwaye andiyeki ngokwenene. Iyadika…. Ndiyathemba ukuba ndingakhululeka ngenye imini, kwaye kungekudala.
Ndiza kunikela ingxelo ngomhla wama-45.
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