Imowudi ye-90 yeentsuku ezithambileyo. Iintsuku ze-90 ngaphandle kwe-90 yeentsuku ngaphandle kokuhluma. Bendingazukuchitha iminyaka yobomi bam ndiyilungisa lento. Ndidinga ukuphumelela okokuqala. Ubomi bufutshane kakhulu. Ndenze imowudi enzima yeentsuku ezingama-56. Ndibuyele kunye ne-ex ke ukukhutshwa ngomhla we-54, 56 kunye no-57. Okwangoku ndibuyele kwimowudi enzima yeentsuku ezingama-33.
Le yeyona nto inzima endiyenzileyo kwaye ayikapheli. Andiziva ndilungisiwe. Ndenze inkqubela nangona. Utshintsho lokwenyani lufuna unyamezelo.
Ndingu 30. Ndiqale ngo-M ngo-11 no-P ngo-13. Ngaba ezona ntsuku zininzi de kwaba yiminyaka eyi-6 edlulileyo ndikubudlelwane. Andizange ndizive ndinelunda ngesiqu sam. Ndisoloko ndizinkqonkqoza ndilele. Ayikwazanga ukugcina i-E yam ngelixa ndizama ukusebenzisa ikhondom kwaye yayihlala ixinezelekile ngexesha lokusondelana. Soloko igxile kwintsebenzo yam kunye nokungoneliseki. Zange khe ndiyonwabele. Ibuyile yabuya yaya ku-P njengoko kwaye yancama njengoko yayinoxinzelelo kakhulu.
Ulusu lwam lubhetele kakhulu. Ndiye ndageza ubuso kabini ngemini kwaye ndisebenzisa imithambo kabini ngeveki ke andinakho ukubeka phantsi kuphela kule nto kodwa umqolo wam ubuye wacoca kwaye wajongana nobuso.
Ndiyakwazi ukudibanisa amehlo ngamehlo ngokokuqala ngqa endikukhumbulayo. Khange ndikwazi nokubamba ngamehlo okomzuzwana. Ngoku ndingayibamba okwethutyana.
Ndivakalelwa ngakumbi ngamadoda, ndiqinisekile kwaye ndizingca. Ndijolise ekunxibelelaneni kwam. Uqalise ubugcisa bekarati kwaye ujolise ekunandipha ubomi.
Ukuthanda kunye nokusondelana ngokwenyani ngoku, ndingonwabela umzuzu, ndingangxami ndiye ku-O. Ukumanga kungandibekela. Ukudakumba kwam ngokwesondo akuhambanga kodwa kuphuculwe. Luhambo olude.
Ndivakalelwa kukuba ndiyiphumezile loo nto kodwa ndisafuna ukubhengeza kwaye ndisajolisa kwabasetyhini. Andiqondi ukuba ndacaba kakuhle. Ndiyathemba ukuba oku kuyalungiswa kwaye kunxulumene neziyobisi endaweni ye-libido ephambeneyo. Ndisajonga ngaphandle ukuqinisekiswa. Ndisebudlelwaneni kodwa ingqondo yam ayibuyanga kuloo ndlela, ndisafuna uninzi lwabasetyhini endikhe ndababona. Okwangoku akulawulwa ngokupheleleyo kwenqanawa. Ndifuna ukulungisa loo nto kubudlelwane bam. Ndithintelwa ngokulula emsebenzini. Soloko ufuna ukoneliseka kwangoko ke mhlawumbi andisekho apho ndifuna ukuba sisilumko kwi-dopamine.
Olu luhambo kwaye uphumelele, kufuneka ufune ukuzinceda. Kufuneka uqeqeshwe. Musa ukujika. SUKUYIBAMBA IHOKHWE YAKHO! Awusayenzi lonto ngoku. Ixesha elide. Ndiyathemba ukuba andisayi kuphinda ndithinte uP. Ibulala ubudlelwane. Kukwenza ube yindoda eqhwalelayo engatshatanga. Iyakudlulisa. Ayiboneleli sibonelelo ebomini. Phuma, xakeka. Yenza wonwabe. Zenze mkhulu. Ixesha elide ndinokuthi M kube kanye ukuya kabini ngeveki kodwa ndide ndilungiswe ndiza kuyiphepha. Ujoliso lwam olulandelayo ziintsuku ezingama-120, kunye ne-60 emva kweentsuku ezingama-90 kwimodi enzima.
Ndifuna ukwazi oyena mntu ungowam, iimvakalelo zokwenyani. Andizange ndimazi. Ndiqale le shiti inde kakhulu. Lo mkhwa uzinziswe iminyaka eyi-19. Isibini kwisithathu sobomi bam. Ingathatha ixesha elingaphezulu kweentsuku ze-2, kodwa ndinethemba lokuba ndinokuba yinto eqhelekileyo kwaye ndiza kunika elona thuba lam lilungileyo lokuyibona loo nto.
LINK - Iintsuku ze-90! Ukuqalisa nje.
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