Iinyanga ezingama-20, kwaye yintoni umahluko. Ndinabafazi ababetha ucango ukuba bandihlangabeze, ndinabahlobo abambalwa abandixhasayo, ndizithembile ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndibambe iincoko nabantu endingabaziyo kwaye ndikho kakhulu ngalo mzuzu. Umsebenzi wam MHLELI, ndiba nobuchule mihla le kwaye ndibhatalwe isixa esikhulu semali kwaye ndiyazithemba kunye nabanye.
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1. Unontlalontle. Sonke siye saphila ubomi bentlalo, kwaye phantse akunakwenzeka ukuba silungise ngokwethu. Ukukwazi ukuya emntwini kwaye unyaniseke ngokupheleleyo kwaye ubenze bathethe nawe malunga nento omawuyenze ngokulandelayo kukukhulula.
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3. ISINI asinto. Kukufaka incanca yakho emngxunyeni omanzi. Uthando, ubuhlobo kunye nonxibelelwano yeyona nto ufanele ukuba uye kuyo ngokwenene
Umlutha we-Fucking, uyinjakazi. Iinyanga ezingama-20 zicocekile kwaye zisasokola.
Ndiyaqala ukukwazi ukunxulumana nabantu, kodwa ndiqaphela ukuba ndiphantse ndibe “netanki yegesi yentlalontle”. Ndiyakwazi ukuthetha nabantu kwaye ndibambe incoko, kodwa ke ndiyalahleka kwaye ndirhoxe kwaye andikwazi kubuyela kuyo. Ndisazibhaqa ndifuna ukulala intombazana ngokukhawuleza nje ukuba ndidibane nayo kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ndibambe ongezantsi, kodwa ndiya ndibangcono kwaye ndonwabela izinto ezincinci ezifana nokuhambahamba, ukonwabela ikofu kunye nokuthelekisa izinto ezithandwayo nezingathandwayo. Abafazi baye baqala bandijonga ndasondela kubo, ndicinga ukuba sendizoqala ukuvala ndifumane iziphumo. Ndaya kwindawo yokuzivocavoca ndineminyaka engama-31 ubudala okokuqala ngqa. Kwaye kwakumnandi ukuhamba nomntu kwaye ufundiswe indlela yokwenza ngokufanelekileyo. Ndandinesimo esibi kakhulu, kodwa umhlobo wam endandihamba naye wandinceda kakhulu.
Enye yezona zinto zinomdla kakhulu endiziqaphelayo yindlela abantu endihlala ngayo kunye notshintsho. Emsebenzini ndinabahlobo abatsha nabantu endithetha nabo, kwaye andikwazi ukuthetha “nabahlobo” bam bakudala. Kubomi bam basekuhlaleni nditsaliwe kwaye ndihlala nabantu abasempilweni, abalungeleleneyo nabakhaphukhaphu. Kuya kuba lula ukwenza amagqabantshintshi, ukuziveza kunye nokunxibelelana nabantu kwizinto ezilula.
Okokugqibela, usapho lwam luseyikaka. Okubuhlungu kwaye kuyadanisa. Bonke baxhomekeke kakhulu, baqhutywa yimali kwaye bagxile kwiziqu zabo. Kukho uthando apho, kodwa lungaphakathi, hayi ngaphandle, kwaye babi kakhulu. Ukugqibela kwam ubhuti wam wathetha izinto ezibuhlungu kum, kucaca ukuba wenzela ukuzikhusela nobomi bakhe obumoshayo. Nosisi wam ngokunjalo. Eyona nto yayintle kukuba andizange ndiyivumele ukuba indichaphazele. Ulonwabo lwam ngokweemvakalelo zenziwa ngokwam kwaye alusekelwanga kubantu endinganyanzelekanga ukuba ndibavumele. Ndazama ukubuza ngobomi babo, kwaye siye sancokola kancinci malunga nemidlalo yevidiyo kunye nezinja. Kodwa ubukhulu becala, bubuze babo obukhulu, obungathandekiyo kusapho lwam. AKUKHO kum.
Ndiyathemba ukuqhubeka nokukhula kwam okucothayo, okunyukayo, ndibulale ilizwi lokulutha, ndisebenze ngesondo, kwaye ndiphephe iphonografi kunye ne-fake stimulus ngazo zonke iindleko.
Enye into yokugqibela enomdla malunga nelizwi lokulutha. Xa ndisebenza ndikhona. Bendingekho kwenye indawo kodwa apho kwaye bekumnandi. Sahamba ke sayokwenza i crunches endingazithandiyo kwabe sekungena nelizwi lam le addiction ndangena ngaphakathi ndaziva ndibindekile ndaqhawuka. Ilizwi lathi “yeka. Yeka. Zikomore. Tsala idick yakho kwaye ucele abafazi baseAsia ukuba bamunce idick yakho. Gxotha elantshontsho limdaka kwigumbi lokuhlambela.” Ndikunye nomhlobo wam apho ndalwa ngayo kwaye ndenza umsebenzi, kwaye kwavakala kukuhle ukuba zombini ilizwi likhona kuphela ekupheleni komsebenzi kwaye ndityhala ngalo.
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