Emva kokuba ndiyiqonde kakuhle indlela i-porn kunye ne-fapping isebenza ngayo kwingqondo, kwaye ndiqonde umonakalo owenziwa yi-PMO, into yatshintsha. Kukho into engaphakathi, kwaye ndathi "Ndiyenziwe nge-porn kunye ne-fapping ngonaphakade!"
Lihlala likhona ithuba lokuba ndingatyibilika ndiphinde ndiqale, kodwa ndiyazi ukuba andisoze ndiphinde ndiphile ngale ndlela ndiphila ngayo. Iphonografi iphelelwe ngamandla phezu kwam. Iphulukene namandla okundinika nenkohliso yolonwabo. Yayisoloko iyinkohliso nje, kodwa ngandlel’ ithile ndandikholelwa kuloo ngcamango. Ngoku, ndibona ngokucacileyo ukuba i-PMO imbi, ayinalutho, kwaye imbi.
Ndiqale ndafumanisa malunga ne-yourbrainonporn.com kunye neNoFAP ngosuku olusemva koMbulelo. Yayiyinto engakhethiyo, kwaye ndandingenanjongo yokubafumana, okanye ndiyeke i-PMO. Ndandineminyaka engama-40 ngelo xesha, kwaye ndandihlala ndihlala ndihlala ndineminyaka eyi-13, kwaye ndiba ngumlutha we-porn ukususela malunga ne-20 yobudala (ientsuku zokudayela). Ndiyindoda etshatileyo, kodwa kwiminyaka yamuva nje, mna nomfazi wam sasilala ngesondo malunga nenyanga enye, ngelixa ndidlala i-porn 3-5 amaxesha ngeveki, ndihlala ndidibanisa i-porn iiyure ezininzi ngexesha.
Ngomhla emva koMbulelo, ndafunda ukuba i-PMO yenza amadoda athambileyo, abuthathaka, adandatheke, angabikho kwintlalontle, kwaye angabinamdla. Ndifunde ukuba ibangela ukungasebenzi kakuhle ngokwesondo njenge-PIED kunye ne-DE. Zange ndixakene nezo zinto, kodwa ukucinga nje oku kwenzeka kum kwandoyikisa. Ukuqonda umxholo wempendulo ye-dopamine kwandikhanyisela ukukhanya.
Ndayiyeka i-porn kunye ne-fapping, kwaye ndaba yi-lurker kule reddit ndifunda yonke into endinokuyenza. Ndahamba iintsuku ezili-19 kumzamo wokuqala, emva koko ndaphinda ndabuyela kwimikhwa yam yakudala iveki.
Ngandlela thile, ngelixa uvuselela ngokwesondo, i-porn kunye ne-fapping yayingasafani. Ndandisazi ukuba i-PMO “yi-bullshit” nje enganelisiyo ngokwenene. Ndaphinda ndema nge-23 kaDec. Oko kwakukwiintsuku ezingama-69 ezidlulileyo, yaye ngoku ndiyazi ukuba sele ndiphile ngaloo ndlela.
Ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo, ndiza kubuya kwiiveki ezintathu ukuze ndikunike ingxelo yam yeentsuku ezingama-90.
Ngeli xesha, ndajoyina i-NoFAP reddit, kwaye ndaqala ukwenza izithuba, kunye nokunxibelelana nabanye abantu. Oko kube luncedo kakhulu. Ndibakhathalele kakhulu abantu balapha. Sonke sikule nto kunye. Kuhle kakhulu ukuba nomntu othetha naye ngezi zinto. Ndizama ukukhuthaza, kwaye ndithandazela amanye amalungu xa kunokwenzeka. Andifuni kuphoxa wonke umntu ngokubuyela umva, kwaye ndiqinisekile njengoko heck andifuni kuphinda ndisete ibheji yam encinci yobudenge.
Kwiiveki ezimbalwa emva kokuqalisa iNoFAP ngeli xesha, mna nomfazi wam saba nomlo omkhulu. Emva koko, asizange sibe neentlobano zesini kangangeeveki eziliqela. Ngaphambili, iingxabano nomfazi wam bezisoloko zingunobangela oyintloko kum. Ukuziva ndinomsindo, kwaye ndibuhlungu, ndandinqwenela ukuba iphonografi isuse usizi lwam, kwaye indinike uthando kunye nolwamkelo endilulangazelelayo. Iphonografi yenza kube ngathi andimdingi umfazi wam. Ndiyakwazi nje ukuzanelisa.
Ngesi sihlandlo andizange ndinikezele kuloo mnqweno. Ndiyazi ukuba i-porn bubuxoki nje, kwaye "ukufafaza kukuzikhohlisa". Ndandisazi ukuba ndiyamdinga yaye ndiyamthanda umfazi wam. Ndahlala ndahlala, ndaza andanikezela. Eli “xesha le-hardmode” lahamba iintsuku ezingama-24, elona xesha lide endakha ndalihamba ngaphandle kokukhupha ubudoda. Yafunxa, kwaye ndinebhola eziblue.
Ukususela ngoko, ubuhlobo bethu buye baphucuka, kwaye siyabelana ngesondo kwakhona. Ubomi bujonge phezulu. Umtshato wam uyaphucuka. Ndiyithanda kakhulu inkosikazi yam, kwaye amaxesha ethu okwabelana ngesondo anomdla kakhulu kwaye uyonwaba. Ndonwabile ngakumbi, andinazintloni ngesiqu sam, ndinamabhongo ngakumbi, kwaye ndizithembile. Bendisebenza, kwaye ngoku ndiziva ndomelele ngokwasemzimbeni nangokwengqondo / ngokwasemoyeni/ngobudlelwane.
Hlalani apho bazalwane. Asinakuze sibuyele umva! Asinakuze siphinde siphile ngaloo ndlela! Iibhulorho zitshile.
LINK - Andinakuze ndibuyele umva. Andinakuze ndiphinde ndiphile ngaloo ndlela.
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Kunjalo kakhulu. Ndingu-41, kwaye ndineminyaka eyi-15 nditshatile. Ndenze i-13 yobudala, kwaye ndasebenzisa i-porn ukususela kwiminyaka eyi-20.
Ndiyiyekile iphonografi, kwaye andifane ndiphulule amalungu esini, kwisibini sokuqala esonwabileyo somtshato, kodwa ngokuthe ngcembe siye sehla induli ukusukela ngoko. Ubuninzi bethu bokwabelana ngesondo bunqabile, kwaye ukusebenzisa kwam iphonografi kuye kwanda. Imvakalelo yokusondelelana nomfazi wam yaphela ngokuthe ngcembe.
Izinto ziye zaba mandundu ngokucacileyo kule minyaka mi-5-6 idlulileyo. Ubuninzi bezesondo kunye nomfazi wam behla ukuya kuthi ga kanye ngenyanga, ngelixa ndidlala i-porn 3-5 amaxesha ngeveki, kwaye ndijonge ngakumbi kwi-porn malunga neeyure ze-10 ngeveki. Kwafikelela kwinqanaba lokuba kwavakala ngathi akuseyomfuneko ukuba umntu abe nesondo kwakhona. Umfazi wam wayeziva ngathi ndihlala naye.
Ndiye ndabuva ubukrakra ngakuye bukhula entliziyweni yam.
Ebesoloko ene-libido esezantsi kakhulu kunam, kwaye ucinezelekile kwinto azimisele ukuyenza ebhedini. Ngaphezu koko, akaze abonakale enomdla kwisondo (nangona ehlala, kodwa engasoloko eyonwabela isondo kunye ne-orgasms xa siyenza).
Bendisoloko ndifumanisa umfazi wam enomtsalane, yaye enqweneleka ngokwesini, kodwa ndandingafuni nokumbona. Ngokukwanjalo, bendihlala ndonwabela isondo sokwenyani ngaphezulu kwe-porn kunye ne-fapping. Nangona kunjalo, i-porn kunye ne-fapping ibisoloko iyinto eqinisekileyo. Ayizange indikhabe njengoko umfazi wam wayedla ngokwenza. Iphonografi, ngokungafaniyo nenkosikazi yam, yayisoloko ikhona kum xa ndiyifuna. Ayizange ibuze nantoni na kum kwaye ayizange indibambe.
Ngokungafaniyo nolwalamano nomntu wokwenene, iphonografi ayifuni mgudu.
Ingqondo yam ibidla ngokubhadula xa ethetha nam (Abafazi bathetha kakhulu andithi?). Ngoxa ndilala naye, ngamanye amaxesha ndandiye ndicinge ngemifanekiso engamanyala endandiyithanda.
Ndijonge phambili ekuphumeni kwakhe endlini ukuze ndikwazi ukwenza i-porn. Ndandikuthanda ukuya kwiihambo zeshishini ukuze ndinxile ngokupheleleyo kwihotele yam, kwaye ndizinkcenkceshe iiyure ezininzi kwi-porn kunye ne-fapping.
Usebenza iingokuhlwa ezininzi ngeveki, egoduka malunga neeyure ezintathu emva kwam. Ndihlala ndichitha eli xesha ndifaka i-porn, emva koko ndenze izizathu zokungenzi nto ngeli xesha (ngendlela - asinabantwana).
Kwakukho amaxesha apho ndandisenza i-porn, kwaye ndandisoyika ngokungalindelekanga ukuva umnyango wegaraji uvula umnyango kunye nokufika kwakhe ekhaya evela emsebenzini 30-60 imizuzu ngaphambi kokuba kulindelwe. La maxesha abandakanya i-dash ephambeneyo yokucima imbali yesikhangeli, ukucima ikhompyuter, kwaye kujongeka ngathi bendisenza enye into ngaphakathi kwemizuzwana engama-30 okanye ukuze kumthathe ukuba aphume emotweni aye endlwini.
Ngamanye amaxesha ndandizisola ngokutshata naye, kwaye ndandifuna ukufumana omnye umfazi (oza kunandipha isondo, kwaye akwazi ukundizalela abantwana).
Ngamafutshane, bendingumyeni onobubele ngeendlela ezininzi.
NgoNovemba ophelileyo, ndiye ndafumana i-yourbrainonporn.com kunye ne-nofap, kwaye ndaqonda ukuba kufuneka nditshintshe.
Ndagqiba ekubeni ndiyeke ukujonga i-porn kunye ne-fapping. Ndahamba iintsuku ezili-19 kumzamo wokuqala, emva koko ndaphinda ndayeka iveki. Ndaqala kwakhona ngoDisemba 23rd, kwaye andizange ndijonge i-porn okanye i-masturbated ukususela ngoko.
Ukusukela ngoko:
Umfazi wam ubonakala enomtsalane ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Andimfumani nje enomtsalane, kodwa emhle kakhulu, kwaye enqweneleka ngokupheleleyo ngokwesondo.
Izinto athetha ngazo zibonakala zinomdla ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Naxa ethetha ngento ekruqulayo, ndimfumana ethandeka kamnandi, kwaye ethanda nje ukumjonga, kwaye ndimamele.
Ndisukelana naye ngesondo rhoqo (kuphela kwendlela endifumana ngayo ukonwabela ngokwesondo). Ukuphindaphinda kwethu ngokwesondo kusanqongophele, kodwa kuphuculwe kakhulu. Sihambe ukusuka kanye ngenyanga ukuya malunga kanye ngeveki (kwaye ngokumangalisayo ngokwaneleyo, ndingahlala naloo nto). Nangona kunjalo ndiya kuqhubeka nokusebenza ekuphuculeni ukuba rhoqo, kuba ndicinga ukuba amaxesha angama-2-3 ngeveki alungile.
Ubunzulu beemvakalelo zothando lwethu luye lwaphucuka, kwaye mna ndiba “ngomzuzu” endaweni yokuthi “entlokweni yam”.
Ndiziva ndimthanda ngakumbi. Ndichitha ixesha elininzi ndincokola naye. Ndimwole, ndibambe isandla sakhe ngakumbi. Ndiziva ndisondele. Ndiyakonwabela ukuba kunye naye.
Ndiyavuya ngoku ukuva ucango lwegaraji luvulwa kwangethuba kwaye ndimamkele ekhaya.
Ndinomfazi wam kwakhona, kwaye ndiyamthanda. Ngoku, ndiyabubuyisela ubomi bam.
Guys, kufuneka siyeke iphonografi ngonaphakade! Ungaze unikezele, kwaye ungaze unikezele! Ubomi nothando, zifanelekile.
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