Molweni nonke. Ndisandula ukufikelela kunyaka omnye we-pornfree kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo kwaye ndifuna ukwabelana ngayo nawe.
Ukunika umxholo: Besendibukele iminyaka esixhenxe, kodwa bendingahlali ndibukele. Kungaba lusuku lwe-1-2 ngeveki ukuya kuthiwe mihla le. Kodwa yayihlala iyure.
Kunyaka ophelileyo ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndizame ukuyeka iphonografi. Ekuqaleni, andizange ndiyithathe ngokungathí sina. Iveki yokuqala yayilula ngokulula, njengoko bendisele ndiyenzile ngamanye amaxesha ngokwendalo. Emva koko iiveki zokugqibela zazinzima, kodwa ngeli xesha ndandiqala iiklasi. Ukungabukeli iphonografi makundenze ixesha elininzi, ndiye ndagxila ekusebenzeni kwiiklasi nasekuboneni abahlobo. Ndicinga ukuba ukuzigcina ndixakekile yayisisitshixo sokungabukeli iphonografi kulo nyaka. Ndaphinda ndasebenza kancinci kwi-intanethi.
Ngeli xesha, yonke into yayihamba kakuhle. I was a few months porn free, bendiqhuba kakuhle kwiiklasi zam, ndandingacingi nge-porn. Ke phakathi kuDisemba ixhala labetha. Andizange ndibenalo ixhala, ke le yayintsha kum. Ngeli xesha ndandinomsebenzi omninzi kwaye uviwo lusondela. Kangangeenyanga ezimbini, ndandinexhala, ndingenawo amandla amaninzi, ndingaziva mnandi. Ngokubuza emva kwexesha ndibuze lo mbuzo: kutheni ndingenaxhala kulo nyaka? Yintoni etshintshileyo? Ke ndacinga ukuba inokwenzeka ukuba andibukeli iphonografi. Undinike ukuqonda ngendlela endisebenzisa ngayo iphonografi: yayikukubaleka umhlaba wangaphandle, thatha i-dopamine ukuze uphathe ixesha loxinzelelo.
Emva kwezi nyanga zinzima, ndiye ndaziva ndingcono. Ndisenalo ixhala, kodwa oku kwakungafane kwenzeke. Emva koko kuza iiholide. Kwiminyaka edlulileyo, ihlobo yayilixesha lonyaka endandibukele kakhulu kwi-porn. Kwakunzima ukuxhathisa xa kuthelekiswa nomnye unyaka: Ndihlala ndingenalo ixesha elikhululekileyo ke andicingi kakhulu nge-porn. Ke ngequbuliso andinakwenza nto ihlobo lonke. Ke ndenze izinto ezininzi ukundigcina ndixakekile njengokubona izihlobo, ukufunda, ukudlala, ukuphuma ngaphandle.
Ekugqibeleni, uhambe njani kulo nyaka? Intle kakhulu, ndifumana ixesha elininzi. Ndizithembile ngakumbi, kodwa ndicinga ukuba ingaphezulu kwento yokuziphucula kwilizwe jikelele. Ndaqala ukuzithemba ngakumbi ngaphambi kokuyeka iphonografi, ke kunzima ukuba ndigwebe ifilimu. Kodwa kukwakhona ukubheka ezantsi njengokukhathazeka. Ngoku andinakubuyela umva, andinakuphuncula ebomini kwakhona. Kuya kufuneka ndithathe isigqibo, kufuneka ndisingathe ukungazithembi. Inzima le nto kwasekuqaleni kwaye isenzima nangoku, nangona sendiyiqhelile. Kodwa ndicinga ukuba kufanelekile.
Enkosi ngokufunda. Ndijonge kuzo zonke ezinye izinto ezizayo ziyeke ukumisa i-porn njengoko ezi ziphumo bezingalindelekanga kum.
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