Molweni bahlali. Ukuba izibalo zam zichanekile, ngomso, nge-17 kaJuni, ndiphawula iminyaka emi-2 yam ngaphandle kwe-porn. Kuphelile ezinzulwini zobusuku apha, ngokobuchwephesha sele sisikhumbuzo sam, ke ndiza kuqhubeka ndiyibize ngoku! Kudala ndibamba ukwabelana ngamava am, kwaye amanqanaba afana neli ahlala ilixesha elihle. Ilungile kum, kuba indenza ndizive ndilunge ngokwenene ndisazi ukuba ndinento exabisekileyo endinokwabelana ngayo. Kwaye indivumela ukuba ndikhumbule apho ndivela khona, apho ndikhoyo, nalapho ndiya khona. Ke, ngaphandle kokuqhubela phambili, masingene kuyo!
Kwakunjani, kwaye kwenzeka ntoni
Ndiyicinga ukuba ndingathetha nantoni na malunga nohambo lwam lwamahhala, kukuba i-porno ikhululekile kum sele ithi "ewe" ebomini. Uyazi… uphuma ecaleni, ungena emseleni. Nokuba ungangcola kangakanani, uyarhabaxa, umbi okanye woyikisile. Ndikhethe ukuyeka ukubaleka, kwaye ukujongana nenyani yam ngqo.
Ndiyathetha, emva kwayo yonke loo nto, yayiyeyona nto iphambili kum: yayikukubaleka. Ngaphambi kokuba ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi, ndandisele ndiyibonile indlela endilusebenzisa ngayo ukhula kunye notywala ukubaleka iimvakalelo zam / ubunyani bam, kwaye ndandisele ndikuyekile ukuziphatha. Kodwa i-pornography yayincinci kum. Ndiyathetha, yinto eqhelekileyo ukuba andikaze ndibuze nokuba akukho nto iphosakeleyo ngayo. Kude kube ngamanye ama-dudes endihlangane nawo awayengenangqondo aqala ukundinika loo macebo.
Andikhange ndisebenzise iphonografi iiyure ngosuku okanye nantoni na (ngaphandle KWENYANISO ngosuku olubi kakhulu lokuzinkcinkca), kwaye ndingenzi nantoni na enje ngomsebenzi ongekho semthethweni okanye ukurhola ityala letyala lekhadi. Ke kwakulula kum ukuba ndicwangcise indlela yokuziphatha kwam. Kodwa into endiyifumeneyo kukuba iphonografi yayithathe indawo yokwenyani ebomini bam. Ndandisoyika isini sam, ndisoyika iimvakalelo zam, ndisoyika ukujongana nenyani yentloko kwi ... kwaye iphonografi yayiyivevethi yam yokuphuma.
Ndiyathetha, njengoko benditshilo, bendisebenzisa kuphela imizuzu eyi-15-30 (ngamanye amaxesha ngaphezulu) ngemini (yonke imihla, ewe). Kulungile kuluhlu lwento abanye abanokuthi bayithathe "njengesiqhelo". Kodwa ndicinga ukuba ibonakalisa into enzulu kum. Njengoko, ndacinywa kubomi NGOKUBANZI. Ndandihlala ndiphakamile entlokweni yam, ndicinga ukuba ndimbi kunabanye abantu, ndisoyika ukuthetha namantombazana, ndibaleka unxibelelwano lwasentlalweni, njl. Ndidinga ukufumana uvuyo lwam kwenye indawo, akunjalo? Kwaye ngotywala kunye nokhula ngaphandle kwe-equation, i-porn yaba yinto entsha yokuya kuyo.
Indlela emnandi yokufumana uvuyo lwakho, ngokucacileyo, kodwa indlela ekhuselekileyo. Indlela ekhululekile. Indlela engafunanga ukuba ndishiye indawo yam yokuthuthuzela okanye igumbi lam lokulala. Ke kulula ukubambeka apho.
Kodwa kungekudala okanye kamva ndaqonda ukuba into endandiyifumana kwi-porn yayihamba kancinci. Kwanele kwakungonelanga. Ke yayiyekile ukusebenzela mna. Ukuqonda ukuba emva kokusebenzisa iphonografi ndaziva ndisiba mandundu, kwaye ndifuna ngaphezulu… kwaba nzima kakhulu ukuqhubeka ndilele kum. Kwafuneka ndikhangele enye indlela. Kwaye loo ndlela, kum, yeza ngohlobo lokunyaniseka.
Ubunyani, ndicinga ukuba, yile nto bendithetha yona xa ndisithi "ewe" ebomini. Oko kwakuthetha kwaye kuthetha ukuhlala kwinyani eyiyo, hayi ilizwe lamaphupha.
Oko kwakuthetha ukuba ndizijonge kwaye ndiqonde ukuba bendiyintoni: umfana owayeneengxaki ezininzi kwezokwabelana ngesondo, ukusondelelana, kunye neminye imiba yeemvakalelo kunye neyokomoya. Ndiyathetha, akukho lula ukujonga.
Kodwa ucinga ntoni? Ndifumene, xa ndithabathayo, xa ndizimisele ukuyijonga ebusweni ngaphandle kokukhohlisa okanye iintonga… ndafumanisa ukuba kwakungekho mbi kangako. Ngapha koko, andifumananga nje ukuba kwakungekho mbi kangako, ndafumanisa ukuba yayintle kakhulu! Ndifumanise ukuba ndiphila ubomi obunentsingiselo.
Khumbula: HUMANANI. Hayi irobhothi!
Kwakungekuhle kuphela, ndafumanisa ukuba andinakuchukumiseka. Zonke ezo zinto bendizibalekile… ndakuba ndizijonge ebusweni, ndiye ndafumanisa ukuba ingozi ibiyinto yokucinga. Ndifumene into ngaphakathi kwam engenakuze ichukunyiswe, nokuba kuqhubeka ntoni kum. Luhlobo lolwazi oluqhubeka ngaphakathi kuthi ngaphandle kokutshintsha kwenyani yokwenyani. Kwaye ndakuba ndiyifumene loo nto, ndayeka ukoyika UKUPHILA.
Kuthatha nje isibindi kancinci ekuqaleni ukwenza oko kungaxhuma kuqala. Ndide ndenze loo nto, uloyiko lwaluya kuhlala lundilawula, kwaye andisoze ndifikelele kweli ziko lingafikelelekiyo. Ke, inkalipho encinci, intembeko encinci, kunye nentembeko enkulu.
Kwaye ucinga ntoni? Xa ndiyekile ukukhangela ebomini, kulapho ndaqala khona ukukwazi ukusombulula iingxaki zam. Ngomonde, ukuzingisa, ukuthembela, kunye nesibindi esincinci, ndikwazile ukusebenza uninzi lwemicimbi yam. Ndiziva ngathi "ndikhula".
Ke ngoku ndiphi?
Ewe, izinto ziye zafika kakuhle. Ukunyaniseka, anditsho ukuba ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi, hayi… ukuba UNGAYEKI iphonografi, ndicinga ukuba uyakuphulukana nenqaku. Ndiyazi ukuba sahlukile ngamava ahlukeneyo, kodwa ndicinga ukuba ukuba uyenzile kwaba bantu unemicimbi ethile yokuba sesichengeni, ukuthembeka, ukusondelelana, njl. Nditsho, nabantu abakhoyo apha loo micimbi ... ibonakala ngathi ingubhubhane kuluntu lwethu (kungoko ukuxhaphaka kwe-porn!)
Ke, ndicinga ukuba eyona nto ibalulekileyo kukuthatha okuhle, ukujonga nzima oko. Ukuthatha amanyathelo okunyaniseka, ukuba sesichengeni, ukubonisa ubuso bakho bokwenyani kwaye uyeke ukuzama ukubeka phambili wena kunye nehlabathi. Kwaye, oko kwaqala kunye nabanye abafana abanobuchule endadibana nabo ekubuyiseni ... Abahlobo abasondeleyo, amalungu osapho athenjiweyo, abanye abalulekileyo… ayinamsebenzi nokuba ngubani, yinto engakumbi malunga nomgangatho okhetha ukuphila ngawo. Kwaye oko kufanele ukuba kube nomgangatho wokunyaniseka kunye nokuba sesichengeni.
Ukujongana naloo nto, kwaye ndibona ukuba iphonografi iya kuqala ukuzinyamekela. Kuya kuba lula ukuyeka, kuya kuba luhlobo lwesibini. Eli ngamava am.
Ndisafumana izibongozo, kodwa ndibagxotha ngokukhawuleza. Ubomi, buphila ngokwenyani, bulungile kangangokuba andisayi kuphinda ndibenayo iphonografi… inehlobo lokulahleka kwayo.
Ulwalamano lwam luphuculwe kwibhodi yonke. Ubudlelwane bam nentombi yam bungcono kunangaphambili (isihogo, mna ukuba nentombi kwindawo yokuqala ihambelana nemizamo yam yokuyeka iphonografi) - ngokweemvakalelo, ngokomoya, kwaye ewe, kwisini. Asinayo into yokuba neentlobano zesini zasendle, akunjalo konke konke… Kodwa siyonwaba ngayo, kwaye senza njalo ngendlela engeyiyo eyokhuphiswano okanye engqina nantoni na kwaye engakumbi ngokuthandana, ukuqonda kunye nokonwaba.
Ah, kwaye khange ndiyifumane kwasekuqaleni. Kum, ukubuyela umva kwakuyinxalenye yebali lam. Kodwa bendihlala ndisithi-ndikhethe ukubuyela umva ngokunyanisekileyo kubuyiso olungelulo. Inxalenye yokuba sesichengeni kwaye uvulekele ebomini… ukuba andikulungelanga ukuyeka, akukho sizathu sakuzama ukuyikhohlisa. Ngale ndlela, xa ndikulungele ngokwenene ukuyeka, kukho isiseko sokwenyani. Kodwa isiseko kukunyaniseka nokuba sesichengeni… akayeki ukuze afezekise into kwaye abe "womelele". Ngokuchasene noko, ngokwenene.
Ndibhalile, kholwa okanye akunjalo, Iincwadi ezifutshane ezi-5 ngesihloko sokomoya, ukwamkelwa, uthando kunye nokulutha. Ndirekhode i-EP ye-5-track kunye nebhendi yam. Ndifumene intsingiselo, injongo, uvuyo nothando. Ndinombulelo, nakwizinto ezincinci. Ukuhlalisana kube lula, kwaye kumnandi, nkqu. Ndikhululekile ngakumbi ukuba ndingubani, kwaye ndiye ndakwazi ukuthi "hayi". Andisenguye umati emnyango.
Konke okuthethileyo, ndiseneengxaki. Anditsho ukuba ubomi buhlala bumangalisa, kodwa ukunyaniseka, iintsuku ezimbi zibonakala ngathi azikho ngaphandle komgaqo. Nokuba ngeentsuku ezimbi ndihlala ndifumana into yokubulela. Oko, kwaye ndiyaqhubeka nokuzabalazela phambili, ngomonde, nditsho nezinto ezingcono.
Yintoni elandelayo?
Ewe, namhlanje ibiyenye yeentsuku ezingakhange zilunge kangako. Ndijongane nezinye iidemon zam ezindala, kwaye ndicinga ukuba into endiyifumene ngaphezulu kwako konke ibiloluhlobo lwesikhumbuzo esimnandi sobomi ukuba ndicothise, kwaye ube nomonde.
Ndisazama ukufumana indawo yam emhlabeni. Ukufumana into endikuyo, into ebalulekileyo kum, into endifuna ukuyenza, endifuna ukuba yiyo. Kwinqanaba elinzulu, elisisiseko! Ngamanye amaxesha oku kundizisa kwingxabano nabanye, nditsho nakweli sub! Kwaye kufuna ukuzicingela ngokunyaniseka ukuze ndikwazi ukubona ukuba loluphi na uqinisekiso lwam ndiluchanekileyo, kweliphi na kubo ndonile, kwaye kuyo nayiphi na imeko kunembono ezahlukeneyo.
Into endiyaziyo kukuba intliziyo yam iqhubeka indikhokela. Ndimamele intliziyo yam ngoku kunakuqala ... ingqondo kunye nokungaqiniseki kwayo kuphulukene namandla amaninzi phezu kwam.
Kwaye intliziyo yam, okanye ukuba ukhetha, intuition yam, ihlala indinika isibonakaliso esomeleleyo sokuba ndihamba ngendlela elungileyo na. Ngamanye amaxesha, kukho into ethi "ilungile", kwaye ndiqhubeke nayo. Ngamanye amaxesha, kukho into ethi "ayilunganga", kwaye ndithathe inyathelo emva ndiphinde ndaphinde ndazijonga izimvo zam. Kwaye ngamanye amaxesha, into ivakala ingacacanga… andinakuqiniseka ukuba ilungile okanye ayilunganga. Kwaye ndilinde ngomonde ubomi ukuba bandinike into entsha.
Kodwa ngumgaqo ofanayo njengamaxesha onke… umgaqo wokuba "Ewe" ebomini, wokuthi "ewe" kubani ukuba ndingubani, kunye nokuphila ubukho bam ngokuqinisekileyo.
Kwaye akusoloko kulula, kuba abantu bangcolile. Yinto endifanele ukuza nayo.
Kodwa mntu obhinqileyo, ndilapha, ndisalwa. Kwaye umlo awuphantse wabi njengakuqala. Ndinamava amaninzi amnandi, amaxesha amaninzi okukhanya, kangangokuba ukuyeka kunokuba yinto engenakwenzeka ngeli xesha. Ndiyazi ukuba ndiza kubafulathela into engenakuchazeka ngokumangalisayo. Kwaye andifuni ukufulathela.
Isifundo sam esiphambili?
Ngaphandle kokuthi "ewe" ebomini kwaye "ewe" kwisiqu sakho esinyanisekileyo, kufuneka ube nomonde. Umonde. Kuko oko. I-porn yayiyinyani yomonde. Andiziva kamnandi? Qalisa ividiyo oyithandayo kunye ne-voila, uzive ungcono kunqakrazo lweqhosha!
Ubomi bokwenyani abufani. Ubomi bokwenyani abuhlali bonwabile. Akusoloko kulula. Akusoloko kuqinisekile. Kunzima ndoda. Ukuba ngumntu akuhlambulukanga. Yinto yokwenyani yokwenyani. Kwaye ukufumana isiphatho kwizinto kuthatha IXESHA.
Kungoko nam “ndinetyala” lokungabi namonde unanamhla. Ndisaziva ngathi ndingxamele ukuyifumana yonke into. Namhlanje bekukhunjuzwa kabuhlungu oko.
Kodwa khawuqikelele ntoni? Izinto ziba ngcono. Ngomonde, unyamezelo, kunye nokuthembela, BAHLA bhetele. Ndiyayazi kumava am.
Ayisiyiyo loo nto kuphela, kodwa ukuba singathatha umtsi wokuba sibe nesineke ngokupheleleyo… sinyamezele kangangokuba singabinasikhalazo emhlabeni… ngequbuliso, sele siyifumene into ebesiyifuna.
Ngequbuliso, lo mzuzu wanele. Kwaye siyaqonda ukuba siphila ngamava achukumisayo aBANTU.
Kwaye umntu obhinqileyo, andifuni kuphulukana naloo nto. Andinaxesha lamanyala.
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