Iintsuku ze-90 - Oku emva kokuzama ukuyeka kunye nokucima iminyaka eyi-5: Ndenze njani ekugqibeleni.

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Ibiluhambo olude, kunye nexesha elide lokuzabalaza ngokuzama ukumisa i-PMO, kunye nexesha elide lokuthi "fuck this" kunye ne-PMOing amaxesha amaninzi ngemini (yonke i-2017). Masingene kanye kwinto eyandivumelayo ukuba ndikhululeke kwi-PMO-

Ukugcina i-PMO Journal.

Umbono waqala xa ndandigcine ilog yokutya (nje ngeenjongo zokulandela umkhondo, ndingazami ukunciphisa umzimba). Ngokuzinyanzela ukuba ndiphendule kum, kwaye ndijonge ngokwenene into endiyibekayo emzimbeni wam, ndacotha, kodwa ngokuqinisekileyo (kwaye ngokwemvelo) ndaqala ukudibanisa ukutya okunempilo, okunexabiso elingaphezulu kwisondlo sam. Ndilahlekelwe ngokufanelekileyo nge-15lb kwiinyanga ze-8 ngaphandle kokuzama, ngenxa yokuba ngokuzinyanzela ukuba ndijonge into endiyidlayo, ndaye ndadinwa kukutya izinto ezinzulu (kwaye zibiza) kwaye ndatshintsha ingqondo yam. Kamva ndafumanisa ukuba le yindlela eyaziwayo, esebenzayo yokunceda abantu ukuba banciphise umzimba.

Kungekudala ndaqala ukuzibuza ukuba le nkqubo yokubhala ingasetyenziswa na kwi-PMO, kwaye ndazinika lo mgaqo ulandelayo:

Unokwenza i-PMO kangangoko ufuna. Kodwa wena kumele ijenali ngaphambi nasemva.

Ndagqiba ekubeni ngaphambi kokuba ndibe ne-PMO, ndiza kubhala phantsi:

  • Yintoni eyabangela umdla kwasekuqaleni (oko kukuthi “uphawu”)
    • Ndifumanise ukuba le nto iyiyo nantoni na ukusuka ekudikweni, ukuya kwixhala, ukuya ekuboneni intengiso ngendlela egodukayo.
  • Into endicinga ukuba kufuneka ndiyizuze nge-PMO, into endicinga ukuba isiphumo siya kuba (okt "umvuzo")
  • Ndifumanise ukuba amaxesha amaninzi, oku kusenokuba “sisithomalaliso soxinzelelo” okanye into engafanelekanga “njengokuswela isithukuthezi”

Ndagqiba kwelokuba ngokukhawuleza emva koko, ndiza kubhala phantsi:

  • Indlela endaziva ngayo.

Kwafuneka ndiqinisekise ukuba ndibhale i-100% yexesha, ngaphambi nasemva. Kwaye bendinyanisekile nge-100% kum kuyo nantoni na endiyibhalayo.

Ngokuzinika imvume kwi-PMO, ndisuse imvakalelo yokuba “Fuck, andikwazi kuphinda ndiyenze le nto,” yeyona nto ibindoyikisa kakhulu kwixesha elidlulileyo.

Ukubhalwa kweendaba kukwadale uxanduva lokuphendula. Ekubeni kufuneka ndibhale phantsi indlela endiziva ngayo emva koko (i-spoiler alert, ayizange ibe mkhulu) kufuneka ndijonge imiphumo yayo, kwaye andinakukwazi ukwenza njengokuba "eli xesha lahlukile". Kwaye oku kwenzeka ngokwenene.

Emva kokuba ndiqale ijenali yam ye-PMO kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo, ndaye nda-PMO ngexesha elinye (ngosuku lokuqala) kunye nento endiyibhale kwijenali “Emva”… .

Ekubeni ndandinazo iijenali "Ngaphambi", ndinokufumana umbono ochanekileyo onokundenza ndifune i-PMO kwindawo yokuqala, kunye nento endicinga ukuba kufuneka ndiyizuze ngokulandela ngayo, kwaye ngoku ndingasebenzisa ezi zinto buyisela ingqondo yam. Nantsi imizekelo embalwa.

Ndikhawuleze ndaqaphela ukuba enye yezona zinto zindibangelayo / izikhokelo zam yayikukuba “kukruquka”. Ndandifuna into yokwenza, ukugcwalisa ixesha. Kwaye umvuzo wam wethiyori “yawukukonwabisa / ukungabikho kokukruquka”. Ngoko ke ndazixelela ukuba nanini na ndiziva ndikruqukile, ndiya kwelinye igumbi, ndiqalise ukufunda incwadi. Ngoku nangoku. Kwakungakhathali nokuba ndiyafuna ukufunda okanye hayi. Ndaqalisa ukufunda. Kwaye kwiiveki ezimbalwa, ndandifunda i-LOT. Nditshintshe ngokufanelekileyo umkhwa wam we-PMO ngokufunda, kuba xa i-PMO yam ibangelwe kukukruquka.

Omnye umzekelo kukuba ndiza kubona iintengiso kunye nabasetyhini abashushu kubo, kwaye emva koko ndiqala ukukhangela phambili kwi-PMO'ing, kulo mzekelo, ndijonge phambili kuloo mzuzu wokukhulula amandla okwakha ngokucinga. Ukutshintsha lo mjikelo, ndigqibe kwelokuba imvakalelo umntu ayifumanayo ekusebenzeni nzima / ukubaleka yayiyeyona nto ifana nemvakalelo ye-orgasm kunye negama elitshisa amandla amaninzi, ubuncinci kwinjongo ebonakalayo. Ke ndikholelwe, ndiqale ukusebenza kwaye ndibaleka kakhulu.

Ziintsuku ezingama-92 emva koko, kwaye olu lolona luhlu lude endinalo kwiminyaka ~5. Ndiye ndakwazi ukuzikhwebula ekukrobeni (eyayingumba kuluhlu lwam olufutshane) ngokunjalo. Kukho inxalenye yam ecingayo (kwaye inethemba) ukuba andisayi kuphinda ndibuyele umva (eyayingazange ibekho ngaphambili, ukubetha kwam kwabonakala okwethutyana, de ingqondo yam “iphinde yabanjwa”).

Ndiyathemba ukuba esi sithuba siyanceda umntu. Kukho ithemba, kukho indlela ebonakalayo yokufikelela kule nto. Kufuneka nje sikhuthale kwaye siwubeke umsebenzi.

TLDR -Gcina ijenali ye-PMO. Ngaphambi kwe-PMO, bhala ukuba yintoni ekubangeleyo kwasekuqaleni, kunye nento ocinga ukuba uza kuyizuza ngokuyenza. Emva koko, bhala indlela oziva ngayo ngelo xesha. Musa ukutsiba ijenali. Umzuzu owenzekayo ngulo mzuzu ubuyela umva. Sebenzisa ijenali "Ngaphambi" ukukunceda uhlalutye kwaye utshintshe imikhwa yakho.

LINK - Iintsuku ezingama-90 emva kokuzama ukuyeka nokuvala iminyaka emi-5. Ndenze njani ekugqibeleni.

by Ileta yoLawulo