Ibali nje elincinci elingemva, iminyaka ubudala ye19 yindoda entsha ekholejini. Andikaze ndithandane nentombi okanye nantoni na esondeleyo ngenxa yokuba ndingumlutha we-porn intle kubo bonke besikolo esiphakamileyo. Oku kukhokelele kulusizi ekuhlaleni kunye nokudakumba, (becinga ukuba akulunganga ngokwaneleyo ukubafanelwe yintombazana.) Kodwa ke.
Ubusuku obudlulileyo le ntombazana bendikade ndithetha nayo ukusukela kwisemester yokuqala yandicela ukuba ndize ndizokumnceda apakishe kuba etshintsha isikolo. Ndilale nje ebhedini yakhe emva kokunceda, kwaye ndiyifumene le nto, bendineebhola zokumxelela ukuba andishukumi, kwaye yena wayeyimpimpi kuye kwafuneka andinyanzele. Ewe into elandelayo ndiyazi ukuba wayelele phezu kwam, imizuzu embalwa idlula kwaye undiphuza nje esinqeni, kanye emva koko ndacela nje ukubuyisa ubabalo…. Yaya ngqo kwimilebe ... BAM !!!
Emveni koko wathi ukuzithemba kwam kunye nokuhlekisa kwam ngokusebenzisa uphahla kwaye yiyo loo nto ndiyifumene !!!
Ndifuna nje ukubulela kuba ndinetyala lokwenene kuluntu oluhle kangaka, nangona bendikhe ndanalo lonke ixesha ngoku yile ndiyayo yonke! Ndiyabulela kwakhona ngenkxaso ondibonise yona, nakw omnye komnye. Nina bantu niguqula ubomi ngcono
Hlela: Ndiyaziqonda ukuba usuku lwam alwenziwanga ngegama lam. Ndikwi-22 yemini enzima yemini. Ndiphantse ndayenza kwi-90 kodwa yaqala ngokutsha phambi konyaka omtsha. Eyona nto ndiyifunayo xa unje ngeentsuku ze-22 (yaqala kanye kwi-1st kaJanuwari.) Ndiya kwimodi enzima! Emva kweminyaka ye-6 yokulahla ubomi bam, ndacinga ukuba ndiza kuyenza, ndiza kuyenza ngokufanelekileyo!
Ngalo lonke ixesha kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo akukho ntombazana inomdla kum, kuba ndaphelelwa kukuzithemba kakhulu kwaye ukuhlala ndicinga ukuba i-porn ibingcono. Kodwa ukusukela ekuqaliseni i-NoFap ixeshana elidlulileyo, ndiye ndaphawula ukuba ndifumana umsipha ngakumbi, amabala am ayaqaqamba, kunye nezinye izibonelelo ezininzi zempilo. Ukuqhuba kwam ukuzithemba ngakumbi kuyamangalisa. Ndinyanisekile ndicinga ukuba amantombazana angayivakala nje into yokuba uyindoda. Kodwa kukuwe ukwenza ezo nguqu !!
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