Ndim ngemini ye84. Ndisandula kufumana i-NoFap kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo. Ukuba ubunokundixelela ngoSeptemba wonyaka ophelileyo ukuba ndiza kuhamba iintsuku ze-84 ngaphandle kokufota, bendicinga ukuba uphelelwe ziingqondo. Kodwa ndilapha. Ndizele izibonelelo. Ndize kuba ndifuna isithembiso sobomi obungcono. Emva kweentsuku ze-84, ndiyayibona loo nto. Kodwa ndibona enye into, nayo.
Ndaye ndafumanisa ukuba ndisebenzisa ifowni ukubala iintlungu zobomi bam. Ndiyisebenzise njenge-crutch kunye neendlela zokucoca ukuphepha ukujongana neengxaki zam.
Ndaqala ukuhlaziya i-masturbating xa ndingu 14 kwaye ndenza kwimifanekiso ethile yabasetyhini abathandekayo. Ukunyuka kwam okokuqala kwakulungile kakhulu. Khange ndikwazi ukuyeka. Ndathandaza ke kuThixo ukuba andincede ndiyeke. Ndikwazile ukuyisika. Yonyaka. Emva koko ndaqala kwakhona. Khange ndiqale ukubukela iphonografi kude kube yiminyaka eyi-2 eyadlulayo. Ndineminyaka eyi-19, ndijika i-20 ngenyanga.
Ndakwazi ukusebenzisa i-fapping njengendlela yokufumana ukuxhamla ngokwesondo ngaphandle kokwenza umsebenzi onzima wokuthetha namantombazana. Ndandizibona ndimbi kwaye ndibuthathaka, kwaye andikaze ndibelane ngesondo namantombazana. Ndandisoloko ndixhatshazwa esikolweni ingakumbi ngabantu endandibathatha njengabahlobo bam.
Ibali lam mhlawumbi lelona bali linye njengabafana abaninzi apha, abasebenzisa ukufota njengendlela yokujongana nentlungu yobomi. Ndayisebenzisa ukususa umda. Kwakunentsuku ezininzi ndiziva ngathi ndilila kwaye ndiyakhala. Nam ndafota. Bendifuna ukuthoba lonke ithontsi lokuxakaniseka kwezesondo. Ndifuna i-orgasm yokugqibela enokwenza ukuba yonke into izive ilungile.
Ukususa ifayile kufana nokothuka kwinkqubo yam. Ngeentsuku ezininzi ndaziva ndinomsindo, ndinomsindo, ndinxunguphele, ndizele ngumsindo. Ndaziva ndinomsindo kuwo onke amantombi endichasa kunye nabafana ababonileyo kunye nabo. Ndaziva ndinomsindo ngendlela andidlulisela ngayo kwabanye abanye abafana. Emva koko ndaqonda, yintoni ebangela ukuba ndihluke kumntu njengo-Elliot Rodger? Ndihluke njani kuye? Ndingomnye nje umfana olungileyo owoyikayo ukubuza amantombazana phandle kwaye woyika kakhulu ukuzimela.
Ngoku ndiyaqonda ukuba kufuneka ndenze ubomi bam bube bobulungileyo, akukho mntu uya kundenzela loo nto. Akakho omnye umntu okhathala ngokwenene. Ndivakalelwa ngokungathi ndishiywe ndifile kwaye ndatsalwa uboya ngamehlo am. Ndinokucinga kuphela ukuba kuya kwenzeka ntoni ukuba ndiqhubeka kule ndlela.
Oko bendikhuphile ndisiya ejimini kusasa. Nditya ukutya okona kutya imifuno, ukutya okuziinkozo kunye namandongomane. Ndivuka kusasa ndicamngce.
Ngoku intloko yam icacile kwaye ukubona kwam pristine. Kufana nokukhutshwa kwiMatrix.
Ndilile kule veki iphelileyo kuba ndingakholelwa ukuba sendifikile. Ndalila kuba ndinezinto ezininzi endinombulelo ngazo. Ndiyayiqonda into endiyiyo kubazali bam kwixa elidlulileyo kwaye ndiyaqonda ukuba ndibathanda ngaphezu kwayo nayiphi na into.
Ndikhale kwiveki ephelileyo kuba ndiyabona ukuba bendifumene amathuba okuphumelela. Ndililela iinyembezi zam ezidlulileyo.
Kodwa ndiza kuba yindoda entsha.
Ndicwangcisela ikamva lam emva kwekholeji ngohlahlo-lwabiwo mali, ucwangciso, kunye nokusebenza nzima.
Inyani iyinyani kwaye umoya uyabanda.
Andinawo kakhulu. Andikho kakhulu ngoku, kodwa ngethemba lokuba oko kuya kutshintsha ngexesha.
I-NoFap ayikuniki amandla agqwesileyo. Inika umbono wokuqonda ukuba uphi ebomini bakho kunye nento ekufuneka uyenzile ukuyilungisa.
Enkosi ngokufunda. Hlala Womelele. Hlala usikelelekile.
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Uziva ugcwele. Uziva ugcwele amandla kunye namandla obomi. Amandongomane akho awananto. Awuziva uphelile.
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Ndiyahamba-hamba ndiphakathi eluntwini namhlanje… kwaye ndijonge la "madoda"… kwaye ndibabona nje ubuthathaka kunye nokudinwa kubo. Bendihlala ndingomnye wala "madoda". Ndandisoyika amantombazana. Ndiyoyika ukuzimela. Ukoyikwa bubomi.
Amadlozi ngumahluko phakathi kwamadoda nabasetyhini. Abasetyhini abavelisi isidoda, siyakwenza oko. Le mbewu inokudala obunye ubomi bomntu! Kwaye abantu abayithathi nzulu. Iinwele zam ziyakhula zibuyile kwaye zigcwele, kufuneka ndichebe yonke imihla ngoku, ukusebenza kwam kukhulu kakhulu.
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Kwaye kufuneka ibhalwe ngoonobumba abakhulu, kuba xa oku kukuhlasela… yiyo yonke into enokuchazwa njenge. Kufana naxa ubiza ifowuni ngebhetri yangaphandle, emva koko uyiplagi loo nto kwisokethi yedamn. Uyaphambana umntu. Uziva ngathi ingqondo yakho ikhanya nje nazo zonke ii-neurochemicals.
Ndiziva ndixakekile kwaye ndilungile ngalo lonke ixesha elibi. Kutshanje ndibuyile ekhaya ndisuka ekholejini ndadibana nezinye i-buds zesikolo esiphakamileyo kwaye bothuka kum entsha. Baye bamangaliswa yindlela endandiphuma ngayo kunye nokumpontshelwa kwam. Babesoloko bendazi njengomntu othuleyo nozigcinileyo. Kwiimovie, ndandimpompiwe. Kwisikhululo serhasi, ndimpontshiwe. Kwivenkile yokutyela, ndimpontshiwe.
Kuyaphambana nje kuba ndiziva ndiphakamile kwaye ndizele ngamandla ngalo lonke ixesha. Ndizive ngale ndlela kwi2 edlulileyo ukuya kwiiveki ze-3.
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