Ndineminyaka engama-20. Iimpawu yayikukuba bendiyenza rhoqo. Ibibuthatha kakhulu ubomi bam kwaye ngalo lonke ixesha ndiyenza bendivele ndizive sh*t. Kwakhona, ndivakalelwa kukuba yayinegalelo ekubeni ndibe neentloni. I wanted to prove to myself that I wasn't addicted but I kept relapsing so I clearly was, into ebendingayithandi. Ndandiyisebenzisa njengeziyobisi. Ngoku ndiziva ndikhululekile kwaye ukuzithemba kwam kubonakala kuphucuka. Ukufumana abafazi yokwenene ngakumbi ngokwemvelo enomtsalane kwakhona yenye ibhonasi. Ndikunqwenelela ithamsanqa qabane.
Emva kweminyaka kunye neminyaka yokuzama, ekugqibeleni ndiyenzile igazi! Iintsuku ezingama-90 zenziwe. Njani? Ukuqala kwam ndatshintshela kwisondlo esisempilweni endikholelwa ukuba akuncedi kwaphela. Nje ukuba uqalise umkhwa omnye olungileyo, abanye babonakala belandela. Uqala ukuziva usempilweni kwaye ngenxa yoko wonwabe ngakumbi kunye nawe kwaye ufuna ukuqiniseka ukuba oko kuyaqhubeka kwaye kuqhubekele kwezinye iindawo zobomi bakho.
Into endiyithethayo kukuba: 1. Ungaze unikezele, uya kuphumelela ekugqibeleni. Kudala ndizama ukufikelela kwiintsuku ezingama-90 malunga neminyaka emi-6 ngoku kwaye sisihlandlo sokuqala ukuba ndiphumelele. Zingisa! 2. Zama ukufumanisa ukuba yintoni ebangela ukuba wenze i-fap kwaye uzame ukulwa nayo*. Amaxesha amaninzi unobangela wokukhotyokiswa luzinze kuhlobo oluthile losizi lwangaphakathi. Mna ngokwam bendiphethwe sisifo kwaye ndithatha amayeza amaninzi abangela ukuba ndingaze ndizive ndisempilweni, nto leyo eyathi yandenza buhlungu ngamanye amaxesha. Ndasebenzisa i-fapping njengendlela yokubaleka. Ngethamsanqa, ndiye ndafumana uluntu olukwi-intanethi olwaluphathe isigulo ngokutya. Ndatshintshela ekudleni okunempilo kwaye iimpawu zam ekugqibeleni zanyamalala, ngaphandle kokusetyenziswa kweyeza, (oku kwakuyinkqubo ende, kodwa kufanelekile!) Ngoku ndiziva ndiphilile kwaye ndonwabile kwaye ndifuna ukuba kuqhubeke. Andiyi kuvumela iphonografi ukuba itshabalalise le mvakalelo yokuba sempilweni yokwenyani. *Ndiyaqonda ukuba oku kulula kakhulu ukuthetha kunokukwenza. Zama konke onako.
UNOKUKWENZA, nokuba kuthatha ixesha elingakanani. Unga! Ndibubungqina baloo nto. Emva kwakho konke ukuphinda ubuyele, qhubeka uqhubeka. 🙂
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