(Uninzi) Iintsana ziyenziwa kwaye zithengwa nge-porn. Ndibubungqina obuphilayo. Mna, njengabaninzi kuni, ndakhula abantwana abagulayo abanamanyala. Ngokukhawuleza emva kokunyuka kwam ndaza ndazisola kwaye ndizithiyile ngenxa yemithambo endandiyamkela nje ngaphambili. Umntwana wenza indlela yam emaphupheni am rhoqo, ngenxa yokuba iphonografi yayihlala iyinto yokugqibela engqondweni yam ngaphambi kokuba ndilale ubusuku bonke.
Lifikelele kwinqanaba lokuba ndilibale ukuba likho ixesha endiphila ngalo ngaphandle kwale fetish, yokuba kunokwenzeka nokuba uphile ngaphandle kwale hlazo kunye nokuzisola okungapheliyo. Kwaye yonke imihla idlulayo le ntombazana yandomeleza, ndandiba likhoboka lalo mnqweno uhlala ukhula.
Ndibhalela oku ukunixelela iindaba ezilungileyo, ndiphume kwelinye icala, ngelixa uhambo lwam lungekapheli, ndingatsho ngokuzithemba ukuba lo mntwana uphulukana nokundibamba. Kuthathe ixesha elide kunokuba bendilindele. Kwaye bekunzima kakhulu kunokuba bendilindele, kodwa nceda unganikezeli.
Nceda ungamkeli ubuntwana kunye neminqweno yokuba iphonografi iphuhlise kuwe, kunokuba WAZI (kwezam kunye nabanye ubungqina) ukuba yayisisifo esinikwe kuphela ngoononophala esinokunyangeka kubomi bexesha lokuziyeka kwi-pmo. Ukuba ubuselikhoboka lomntwana othile iminyaka emininzi, kuyakuthatha malunga nonyaka ukuba akushiye, ke khumbula loo nto kwaye ungalahli ithemba kungekudala. Inkululeko ixabiseke kakhulu. Ukuphila ngaphandle kokuzicekisa kuxabiseke kakhulu. Ukuba ndiyakwazi ukuyenza, nawe unako.
Ndineminyaka engama-20 ubudala. Ndicinga ukuba ndibhale izithuba ezimbalwa malunga nezibonelelo ezahlukeneyo. Zininzi kakhulu ukuba zingabizwa; ingayincwadi epheleleyo. Ukukubeka ngokufutshane nangona, inkuthazo sesona sibonelelo sikhulu. Kwaye andithethi ngohlobo olukhawulezayo lokukhuthaza, ndithetha ngokuqhubeka komnqweno wokufezekisa iinjongo zam, kunye namandla okwenza konke. Njengenkuthazo engundoqo kunye nokuqhuba kuzisa izibonelelo ezingenakubalwa njengoko uqala ukusebenza usukelana neenjongo zakho.
I-TL; i-DR: I-porn yenza i-fetlings. I-NoFap IYA KUSusa i-fetish, kodwa iya kuthatha ixesha elide kunokuba bekulindelwe.
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