Namhlanje lusuku olusemthethweni apho ndibethe khona iintsuku ze-150 ngaphandle kwephonografi. Ke ndacinga ukuba kulungile ukuba ubhale isiqwenga somfanekiso. Ndiqale ukuyeka ukutshaya kwam ekupheleni kwe-april, i-2017. Ndandiyi-19 ngelo xesha, kwaye ndandingazi, ndandilikhoboka lotyando lwezinto ezininzi ngaphandle kwam ndiyazi. Ndilikhoboka lemidlalo yevidiyo, inicotine, iphonografi kunye nokuhambisa amalungu esini.
Ndisengumntwana nje owayeya kuhlala ekhaya imini yonke aze adlale imidlalo yevidiyo. Ayibobomi obumnandi kakhulu, kodwa ndaziva ndonwabile kwaye ndibolile ngelo xesha, ngenxa yamanani amakhulu e-dopamine kwingqondo yam kunye ne-intanethi ukuba ngumthombo wam ophambili wobuhlobo.
Ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndibutshintshe ubomi bam ukuba bube ngcono, kuba ngenye imini, ndicofile ukuba andisayi kuphila ubomi obungenasiphelo. Ukugqiba kwam uApril, ndenza isithembiso kum sokuba andisokuze ndichukumise icuba kwakhona. Kwaye kwiinyanga ezintathu ezizayo, ndacinga ukuba isithembiso sesona mpazamo siphosakeleyo endakha ndasenza. Ndihambile ngokothuselo olubi kakhulu onokucinga, kodwa okwangoku, ndakwazi ukudlulela.
Emva kovuthuzi, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi. Ngoba? Kuba ndandilikhoboka. Imifanekiso engamanyala yandikhokelela kwindlela emnyama, ndandihlutha oonongogo (ndaphelelwa bubuntombi kwenye) imikhwa yam yamanyala kwaye ithatha kancinci kwaye andiboni ndlela ntle yokuphuma kuyo. Ke ndiyekile, ndadlula ezinye iinyanga ezintathu zokungalali, ukubila okubandayo kunye noxinzelelo olukhulu, kwaye namhlanje, nokuba umlo wam awukapheli, kubonakala ngathi ndinokwazi ukulawula iminqweno yam.
Ndivakalelwa njani ngoku emva kwazo zonke ezi mfazwe? Ngokwenyani, ndidiniwe. Ndifumanise ukuba kanye xa i-dopamine ye-dopamine icekisa, ayisihlali wonwabile umhlaba kunye nokuhlangulwa kwelinye icala. Yonke imvakalelo iza phezulu, iintloni obu uzifihlile, iimpazamo ozenzileyo kwixesha elidlulileyo, iziphoso zakho, imiba yomzimba wakho. Yonke into iza kumphezulu, kwaye ndizifumana ndiyilangazelela namhlanje indlela yokufumana iindlela zokuzikhulula kwezi mvakalelo zangaphambili.
Ndivakalelwa ngathi le yintsingiselo yonyango lwam. Ndikhwebile kuyo yonke i-anyanisi kwaye ndibambe ingcambu yengxaki. Kwaye ndonwabile ukuba ndifumana ithuba lokuzilungisa, ngenene ngeli xesha. Kufuneka ndihlale ndiqaphile, kufuneka ndiqonde ukuba ndingumntu othambekele kwiimpazamo. Kwaye ngenye imini, mhlawumbi, ndiza kuvuka kusasa, ngoncumo ngokuzithemba kwendoda eyabuguqula ngokwenene ubomi bayo ukuba ngcono.
Ndigqibile iintsuku ezili-100 zokuzivocavoca, kwaye ngoku ndenza iintsuku ezili-100 zomdaniso! Ndiyathanda ukudanisa kakhulu kunokusebenza i-tbh, kananjalo. Ndenza ukucamngca kwaba yinxalenye yobomi bam ngokunjalo. Ezinye izinto ezindincedileyo ngabahlobo, unyango kunye nokubhala.
[Ukucamngca kusebenza] Ngokumangalisayo kakuhle. Isebenza kakuhle xa unxusa okanye uxhalabile. Iyakuthoba phantsi, nokuba ayenzi njalo. Indinika umbono wokufezekisa. Ndiyenza kusasa ukuzikhumbuza ukuba ndingalahli umkhondo wento endiyilwelayo.
Ukurhoxa = inicotine nge-FAR. Ukurhoxa emva kwexesha elibukhali = fap kubi kakhulu. Ndifumanise ukuba inicotine yinto yasemzini onokuthi uyeke kwaye ungaze uphinde uyichukumise. Nangona kunjalo, i-fap yinxalenye yesini sethu. Ukuba i-nicotine ifana notywala, i-fap ifana nokutya okungenamsoco, sidinga ukutya ebomini bethu, zizinto ezisempilweni nje? Kodwa ngamanye amaxesha, ufuna loo micky D's ngo-1 kusasa. Kungenxa yokuba ulambile kwaye ufuna ukulungiswa ngokukhawuleza.
Thats that fap ithini into yam yesini sonke. Iminqweno ingahambi ngokulula njengecuba.
LINK - I-150 yeentsuku ezikhululekile kwi-porn, unyaka we-1 ukusuka kwi-nicotine.
by Brianlee1020
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