Ndibone amabali amaninzi kule Community I wanna tell my Story.
Ndineminyaka engama-24 ubudala, nditshatile, kwaye ndiqeshwe njengesixhobo se-Tool-Mech. Ndaqala ukudibanisa kunye ne-14 iminyaka ubudala, ngesizathu esinye: "wonke umntu uyayenza", ndafumana umlutha ngokukhawuleza kwi-Masturbate kunye ne-Porn. Ndacinga ukuba ndiyenza ngesizathu esiphilileyo esinempilo.
The times Passes after ndigqibile esikolweni ndangena kwi Profession School, (efana nekholeji kodwa eSwitzerland) ndaye ndagqiba nge Tool-Mech Graduate for 3 Years. Ngeli xesha ndaFapped kanye ngosuku. Ngamanye amaxesha bendiziva ngathi kukho into engekhoyo ebomini bam. Kwaba ngathi fap kwaye udlule kwiStress.
Emva kokuphumelela kwam isidanga se-Tool-Mech ndaye ndangaphangeli ngokusemthethweni iminyaka emi-3 ndizama imisebenzi emininzi yokuZama nokuQesha. Ibiluxinzelelo ngenene ukufumana umsebenzi omnye bekungekho I-Internship okanye Zama&ukuqasha. To that time I got Depressed and Anxiety there was a time I got Suicidal thoughts. Kanye ngelo xesha isiphumo sokuphulula amalungu esini sithelekisa nantoni na kum, andizange ndizive ndingcono emva kokubetha i-nut. Ndifuna nje ukuba ithi ngexesha lika-2015-2017 yayingathi lixesha lobumnyama kum.
Kude kube ndifumene i-nofap kuMbindi kaNovemba 2017 ndafunda imiphumo yokufafaza kwaye ewe yayiyinyani. Unobangela wam wokudakumba kunye nexhala. Unyaka omtsha we-2018 waqala kwaye ndazixelela ukuba ndiya kwenza iNofap. Kwaye andiyi kuphinda ndiphulule i-masturbate.
Iiveki ze-3 uNofap ekugqibeleni ndafumana umsebenzi kunye neNtombazana. Yayingumsebenzi osisigxina ngeli xesha. Nangoku ndisaphangela. Ndazifungela ukuba andiyi kuphinda ndiphinde ndifake. Kuba nje ubomi obulungileyo.
Ngelo xesha kunye ne-nofap. Ndaba manzi amaphupha okokuqala, emva koko kwakulungile ndafumanisa umzimba wam ngakumbi. Ndatshata ngo-august 2018. kukho ixesha ndafumana ubuxoki Uxilongwe nokudumba kwedlala lobudoda kodwa ndamangalela ugqirha ngale nto.
Namhlanje ngelo xesha. NgoSeptemba 2019 ibe ngunyaka we-1 kunye neenyanga ezili-9 ngaphandle kokuphulula amaphambili. Kwaye ndiziva ndingcono ngokwasengqondweni kuneminyaka yam yobumnyama.
LINK - Ibali lam (nofap ukusukela nge-01.06.2018)
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