Andizange ndicinge, ukuba ngenye imini-namhlanje- ndiza kubhala ibali lam lempumelelo. Kodwa emva kweentsuku ezingama-525 kungekho-PM, ndingathi, loo nofap iyasebenza! Wonke umntu, onamathandabuzo ngayo, okanye ophelelwe lithemba (bekunjalo kum ngexesha lohambo lwam) kufuneka ayazi le nto! Ndicinga ukuba yeyona nto ibaluleke kakhulu kolu hambo. Bonke abantu bahlukile, kodwa sonke senza olu hambo, kwaye iyafana kuye wonke umntu. Uxinzelelo, akukho mvakalelo, akukho libido, flatline, anhedonia, akukho khuthazo, ukubongoza, ukungabi nathemba, njl. Kum, yayiyeyona f * cing inzima ebomini bam bonke !!!
Ndineminyaka eyi-24 ngoku, kwaye bendineminyaka eli-8-9 ndingumlutha wale nto. Xa ndifumana intombi, i-2,5 kwiminyaka eyadlulayo, ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyeke lo mkhwa. Isini sasisoyikeka ngala maxesha. Bendihlolile, ke oko yayizezinto ezininzi kum. Ndandinonyaka we-1 ukuqala le 525 kwiintsuku ze-XNUMX, ngaphambi kwayo, ndandinokubuyela umva kakhulu. Ngexesha lokuphinda ndiqalise ukusebenza, bendinalo uhlobo loxinzelelo, ukungakhathali, ukungonwabi, eyayisisihogo uqobo Andikwazi ukuyibhala ngamagama, ukuba kunzima kangakanani kwaye kufanelekile le nto! Ndaphelelwa lithemba, kwaye ndafunda uninzi lweeforamu kwi-nofap, encedisa kakhulu.
Malunga nokuqalisa kwakhona kwexesha elide, iintsuku ezingama-90 azonelanga, iintsuku ezili-150… azonelanga, unyaka omnye… ayonelanga… Ke yeyona nto inzima kakhulu kule, gcina ithemba ... Ukuba awunikezeli! Ndikwiminyaka eyi-1, kwaye ndiziva ndisiba ngcono kwaye ndingcono. Ngoku ndingaphila ubomi bam bemihla ngemihla ngenkuthazo, hayi uxinzelelo. Ubomi bam bobulili buyamangalisa. Ndaye kwinqanaba elisezantsi lokuhamba kulo lonke uhambo lwam, oko kuthetha ukuba bendingenayo i-libido, isini besingalunganga.
Uyaphumelela, kodwa akonwabisi. Kodwa ngoku, zonke iinkalo zobomi ziyaphucuka, iimvakalelo zam, inkuthazo yam, andiziva ndonwabile kwaphela (mhlawumbi ngamanye amaxesha, kodwa akunzima kangako kunyaka ophelileyo…).
Namhlanje kunye nezolo ndigqibe kwelokuba ndizame. Ndabona ividiyo ye-1-2, ukuzama ukuba ndingamelana nale mvakalelo. Yenye impumelelo kum, emva kweentsuku ze-500, ungayenza le nto, kodwa ngaphambi kwayo, andizukucebisa ngoku Ndiqinisekile, ndisendleleni elungileyo, andisokuze ndibone naluphi na uhlobo lwezi zinto , kodwa Yayiyimpendulo elungileyo kum. Ngoku ndinokholo lokuqhubeka kolu hambo, ngexesha lobomi bam bonke. Kukuphucuka okungafezekanga, Ukuba womelele ngokwaneleyo (kwaye ndiyazi ukuba nonke ninjalo), ungabuphucula ubomi bakho ngokumangalisayo!
Ndingatsho ukuba, loluphi uhlobo lwezinto ezindincedileyo kolu hambo lokufika apha, kodwa eyona nto ibalulekileyo liXESHA! Bala iintsuku zakho, ukuba uyaxhathisa ubomi bakho buya kuba ngcono kwaye bungcono kwaye kungcono.
Ngamana amandla kunye Nawe nonke!
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