intro: Okokuqala, umbulelo ongazenzisiyo kule ndawo yokuxhasa nenkathalo. Olu lwazi, oko ndafumanisa malunga nalo kunyaka ophelileyo litshintshe ubomi bam kunye nokusebenza ngokwesondo. Ngoku ndifuna ukwaba ibali lam lempumelelo. Ndiza kubhala kwifomu yamanqaku kwaye ndiyenze ibe mfutshane kangangoko ndinakho.
Ndiyazi ukuba kuninzi ekufuneka kufundwe kule foram ke ndizakuhlala ndibalulekile kwaye ndimfutshane ngemihlathi yam.
Ingxelo: Iminyaka engama-25 ubudala. I-190lbs inezihlunu kakhulu kwaye ilungile. 5'9 ”(tsala amantombazana ngokulula). Ngaba amaqabane ama-6 kunye nolwalamano olu-4. Uye wabandezeleka ngenxa ye-ED ukusukela nge-16, wahlukaniswa namantombazana amaninzi. Kwakusoloko kufanelekile kwaye kunezihlunu.
imvelaphi:
Ixesha lokuqala lokudibana ne-ED ngenxa yexhala kunye neentloni kubudala be-16. Okokuqala i-gf izamile ukundinika intloko kwaye andikwazanga kuyinyusa. Nokuba kwakuloo minyaka yayindim ndonwabile kwaye yonke into yayisebenza kwaye sasisabelana ngesondo rhoqo ngemini ebusuku. Sobabini sahleka kwaye saba nesondo okuninzi ekugqibeleni. Kwaye ngamanye amaxesha, thru nje iminyaka ebengayi kuba nakho ukuyinyusa ngamanye amaxesha kwaye ndinxibe iicondoms ibingumngeni. Ngoku ndiyazi ukuba ibangelwa yimifanekiso engamanyala namaxesha athile. Kodwa emva ngelo xesha ukuba ndiye ndamisa i-PMO yosuku okanye i-2 ndibuyile kwimeko yesiqhelo entle.
Ixesha lokuqala elibi: Emva koqhawulo-mtshato kunye ne-1st gf yam kubudala be-20 bendizama namantombazana ahlukeneyo. Bendingazi ukuba ndinayo i-ED ngelo xesha, okanye luhlobo luni lwempembelelo endikhe ndazijikeleza ngokubukela i-porn rhoqo ebusuku. Kwaye ngexesha elinye andinakukwazi ukuyinyusa kunye nentombazana. Uye waphakama, ndamkhumbula. Andiqondanga ukuba kutheni, nangona bendabelana ngesondo okumangalisayo ngaphambili kwaye yayingelilo ixesha lam lokuqala. Ngoku ndiyazi ukuba yayingu-PIED.
Ukuqala kwam ukubuyela kwesiqhelo: Omnye umntu uye wandixelela ukuba ndigcine isidoda ukuze sibe neentlobano zesini ezilungileyo nge-erection enzima. Ngaphandle kokwenza uphando oluninzi kunye nokwazi malunga nofap okanye isayensi emva kwayo, ndimise nje i-orgasming kwiinyanga ezimbalwa. Ukusa kwasekuseni kubuya, kwaye yayifumana namaphupha amanzi. Ndakhe intombazana (intombazana #3) kwaye yaqala ukwenza ukuba umzimba wayo uphela ungabelani ngesondo oluhle rhoqo.
Ukuphinda ku-ED: Emva kokuphulukana nentombazana (amantombazana #3) emva kweminyaka eyi-2 (ngokuyinxenye ngenxa ye-ED, intombazana enye endandisenza i-cum kaninzi ngemini, ndiza kungena kuyo ngezantsi) Ndandixinezelekile kwaye ndaba ngumlutha we-porn ndingazi ukuba yintoni yayisenza kum. Ngeli xesha kwakuthatha ixesha elide ukuphilisa. Ndaya eCancun, kwaye intombazana eshushu ethandekayo yaseDenmark yayiphezu kwam kwaye ndandingakwazi ukuyinyusa (yabukela iphonografi kusuku olungaphambili).
Ndifumene enye intombazana entle (intombazana #4) emva konyaka we-1 kwaye ngalo lonke ixesha ndizama ukuba neentlobano zesini bendiya kuba ngokukhawuleza kakhulu ngaphambi kokufika kulwakhiwo okanye ndingabi nzima nokuba nzima.
Ityala lam kunye neempazamo nokufunda: Ngethuba le ntombazana inombolo 4 ndandinzima kakhulu ukulungiswa. Andizange ndiqonde ukuba kutheni ndiza kukwazi ukuma ngokugqithiseleyo ngoononophala kodwa kungekhona nentombazana yangempela. Andizange ndiqhube nokuba wayendigaya, endivuthela okanye endirhuqa. Wayemhle ngeyona ndlela engu-5'11 ”njenge-hottie enomzimba eneenwele ezimhlophe kunye nobuso obugqibeleleyo. Ndingaba cum kwii-2 secs ngaphandle kolwakhiwo okanye ndingaziva tu kwaphela. Kwaye ndaqala ukubukela iphonografi ngakumbi, njengoko iphonografi kuphela kwento endincedileyo ndafumana ulwakhiwo kwaye bendicinga ukuba ndiza kuba nolawulo ngakumbi kunye naye kwixesha elizayo. Zonke zibuye umva kunjalo…
Nasi isizathu: Njengokuba wayeshushu kakhulu Ndaziva ngathi ndiza kuthi ga kwi-2 secs ngoko ke bendiya kuthi xha phantsi phambi komhla, ngalo lonke ixesha. Oko kukhokelele ku-ED izihlandlo ezininzi. Ke emva kokufunda kule foram ndiye ndaqonda ukuba yonke into endiyaziyo nge-PMO ayilunganga.
Buyela kwintombazana 3: Ndisebenzise umbono ofanayo nale ntombazana, ndicinga ukuba ndiqala ukubukela i-porn kunye ne-cum ngaphambili kuya kuba nakho ukuhlala ixesha elide. Kwaye ekugqibeleni ndakhula ubudlelwane be-mid mid, ubudlelwane bezesondo buhamba kwinqanaba le-porn star ukuya kwi-erection okanye kwi-cumming kwii-2 secs kwiinyanga ezininzi (bendijonge i-porn kwiinyanga zokugqibela kobudlelwane)
Buyela kwintombazana 4: Ndayeka ukubukela i-porn emva kokufunda kule foram kwaye kwiiveki ze-2 ndabuya ndathandana. Waba neentlobano zesini naye emva kweenyanga ze-4 yokumazi. Ndize ngokukhawuleza ngokukhawuleza kwi-1st round, kwaye ke ukusuka kumjikelo wesibini kwakulungile kwakhona de sahlukana.
Ukubuyela kwakhona: Ndaphinda ndadandatheka ndaza ndangumlwelwe. UDick wayeka ukusebenza. Ayikwazi ukuyifumana kunye namantombazana amaninzi nokuba ayazi ukuba kutheni ngeli xesha. Andikhathali tu…
Impumelelo kwakhona: Kungekudala intombazana yandibuza xa ndenza iNoFap yam kwaye ndandichukumisa ngelo xesha. Ndandisoyika. Kuthekani ukuba andinakukwazi ukuyifumana? Ngobusuku bokuqala wandithatha ndaya kwindawo yakhe ndaza ndafumana izizathu zokungayikhuphi ibhlukhwe yam (bendinepenisi efileyo, mhlawumbi engaphantsi kwe-intshi ende engafakwanga). Ke amaxesha ambalwa kwiveki ezayo bendinengxaki efanayo. Andikwazi ukuyifumana amaxesha ama-4 ahlukeneyo ewonke. Ke ndimxelele nje ukuba kuqhubeka ntoni kwaye ebendixhasa. Ngamanye amaxesha wayecaphuka ngathi "enkosi ngokundilahla lol". Wayecinga ukuba andimfumani eshushu ngokwaneleyo.
Izolo emva kweeveki ze-2 ze-NoFap, akukho porn, kungekho jerking off, kunye ne-1 veki yokumbona ndaphuma ipilisi kwaye ndimxhwila amaxesha e-5 (okokuqala ndiyenzile, kwaye ikhawulezisa inkqubo ngokwasemzimbeni).
Ekuqaleni ipilisi yayingasebenzi njengoko i-ED yayisengqondweni, hayi ngokwasemzimbeni. Uzamile ukundinika intloko kwaye i was just not responding to it. Kude kube kudala ngaphandle kwentombazana yokwenyani kwaye ingqondo yam yayixhonywe kwi-porn. Ndisayolala apho kunye naye ze, ndibukele iNetflix emva kokwehluleka kwesi-5. Wayebuhlungu kancinci.
Emva koko ndaqala ukumcofa kwaye kwangoko ndanzima emva kokuba ndimvile ubumanzi kunye nokuqonda indlela endifuna ukungena ngayo kakubi. Ngokukhawuleza ndambuza ukuba ndiyakwazi ukunqumla ikhondom nje ukuqinisekisa ukuba andiyikulahlekelwa ukulungiswa, wayelungile kunye kwaye emva kwemizuzu embalwa yokuqala ndambatha ikhondom kwaye ndaqhubeka emva kokuba ndiqinisekile ukuba andiyi kulahlekelwa ukulungiswa . Ndimenze umzimba wonke wangcangcazela. Isondo lokuqala kwiinyanga ezi-6…!
Namhlanje ndimcaphukele kwakhona amaxesha e-3. Ngoku ndiziva ngathi ndibuyele kwesiqhelo. Kwaye andisayifuni ipilisi kwakhona. Kwaye ndiza kuyigcina inje ngokuqiniseka ngalo lonke ixesha ukuba ndi-horny ndiza kuwondla umzimba nengqondo yam ngesondo, ukuze ingazi nto.
Ukusukela ngoko, bendine-erection epheleleyo kwaye enzima, nditsho ngokuzonwabisa yonke imini. Nokuba ipenisi engalunganga ixhome i-intshi ye-3 elungileyo nge-Sac.
Isiphelo kunye nengcebiso yam:
Ukuba ufuna ukwabelana ngesondo yeka nje ukwenza ezinye izinto, ixesha. Sinda kumgca othe tyaba kwaye ubuyela kwimeko yesiqhelo. Zinike ixesha. I-Jerking off okanye ukubukela i-porn ayizukukwenza ukuba uhlale ixesha elide okanye unike ilitye nzima.
Kukuba ngokwesondo okuqhelekileyo kuphela ubomi obuqhelekileyo kunye nobomi bendalo obuya kubakho. Awunakusebenza ngezinto ezahlukeneyo. Nokuba kungamanyala nje, sisini nje, okanye kuthathwa nje okanye nantoni na eyenye.
Kwaye ukuba ufuna ukuzinceda ngepilisi okanye into ethile ngalo lonke ixesha zinike ithuba. Kuya kukunceda ubuncinci ngengqondo. Kwaye unxibelelwano kunye namantombazana. Ukuba ulungile uza kukunceda ngaphandle, ngokulinda okanye ngokukunika isandla okanye intloko okanye into.
Konke kuyaphiliswa ngexesha ndiyakuthembisa. Gcina nje kuyo. Kufana nokusebenza, uya kuyikhulisa kuphela indima oyenzayo. Ukuba usebenzisa inxenye ye-porn, hayi eyokwabelana ngesondo; uyakwazi okunye…
Konke okugqibelele! Buza nawuphi na umbuzo owufunayo
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