Molweni nonke,
Namhlanje lusuku olubalulekileyo kum kuba ndifikelele kwiintsuku ze-30 ngaphandle kwe-PMO (umceli mngeni ngu-PM kodwa eneneni andinantombi kwaye andinamdla kwisini ngamanye amaxesha .. akukho PMO) ndibhalela le post Yithi enkosi, ukwabelana nawe ngeemvakalelo zam kwaye nale nto incinci (kodwa ibalulekile kum) yebali lam.
Ndibe namaxesha ambalwa anzima kwezi ntsuku zingama-30, ngakumbi isiqingatha sendlela nangeentsuku zokugqibela, kodwa ndiphumelele ke ndicinga ukuba kuluncedo ukwenza ingxelo ngendlela endiziva ngayo emva kwenyanga ndicocekile.
Andiziva ndinayo “amandla amakhulu”, kodwa ndiziva ndinobuchule bokuyila, ndinezimvo ezingaphezulu (umzekelo malunga nentengiso yeshishini lam), kwaye ndinombono ocacileyo malunga nenyani. Ndizifumene ngokwasentlalweni ngakumbi (hayi kwiwebhu-kwezentlalo, kubomi bokwenyani!), Ndimamele ngononophelo ngakumbi kwabanye kwaye ndinomdla ngakumbi kubahlobo, kwaye ndiyanyamezelana. Ndiqaphele ukuba ixesha lam lichithwe ngcono (kufundwa, kufundwa, kudlalwa umculo, kuhlala nabahlobo) kwaye oku kuyayonyusa imeko yam.
Umnqweno wam womelele: ekuqaleni lo mngeni wawubonakala unzima ngokwenene, phantse ungenakwenzeka, kwaye ubulolo bam babungumcimbi omkhulu kum, kodwa ngoku banciphile, bancinci. Izinto ezininzi zisabonakala ziba nkulu kwaye zingenakufikeleleka (ndiza kuchaza ngakumbi) kodwa ukuba bendiphosakele kwezinye izinto, ndinokuba ndiphosakele nangezinye izinto!
Enye yezinto endicinga ukuba indinceda kakhulu, kukwabelana nabanye ngeemvakalelo zam malunga nengxaki yam, nokumamela indlela abavakalelwa ngayo abanye, kwaye kuyayikhulula imvakalelo xa umntu evakalelwa njengawe. NgoJanuwari, bendinokuthetha nomhlobo wam owaziwayo kutshanje, kwaye wandixelela ngesiyobisi sakhe i-heroin, ke ndamxelela malunga nam kwi-porn. Ndandiqala ukutyhila le mfihlelo komnye umntu. Sathetha ngeengxaki zethu, sabelana ngamava kunye neemvakalelo, ezinye izinto zahlukile kodwa ezinye ezinye ziyafana. Ucocekile kunyaka ophelileyo, esilwa imfazwe yakhe ngokuzimisela. Ndifumene umhlobo kuye (zange amqwalasele kwezothando kuba mncinci kakhulu kunam), oku kundinceda kakhulu. Kwaye ndafumanisa abantu abaninzi belwa amadabi anje ngam apha kwiNoFap, ezinye izithuba endizifundileyo apha zinentsingiselo, ke enkosi ngokuba ulapha.
Ukuba nesizungu ngumthwalo omkhulu emagxeni am, ibiyenye yezinto ekuye kunyaka ophelileyo zihlala zindityhalela kwi-PMO. Ukucinga ngokujonga izinto kwakuqhelekile kum, amaxesha amaninzi ngemini endandicinga ngayo, ndiphupha malunga nentombazana endiyithandayo, malunga neemeko, ezothando, ngakumbi ixesha lokulala, xa isithukuthezi sam sibonakala ngathi siza kunkqonkqoza ngakumbi. Kwiveki yokuqala yemiceli mngeni yam yeentsuku ezingama-30 ndaziva ukuba ezi ngcinga ziyingozi kuba zingakhokelela ngokulula ukuba ndibuyele kwi-PM, ke ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndizame ukubanqanda. Kunzima kakhulu ukutshintsha oku, kuba sele kuyinto eqhelekileyo, kodwa ngalo lonke ixesha ndikwazi ukuyiphepha ndiziva ndinamandla afumanekayo kum okwenza ezinye izinto, kwaye ndibona ngokucacileyo, ndimosha la mandla ekucingeni kakhulu . Ndiyakholelwa ukuba ezo ngcinga ziyabuthomalalisa ubulolo bam kodwa ngoku ndiyabona ukuba bandibiza amandla amaninzi, abandibuyiseli enye into ngaphandle kokukhohlisa. Ndisalwa nale nto, ndihlala ndicinga ukuba le nto iyenzeka kancinci kancinci, kwaye xa isenzeka, ndiye ndikwazi ukuyinqanda kwaye ndigxile kwenye into. Njengoko ndibhale ngaphambili, izinto ezininzi zisabonakala ziba nkulu kwaye kunzima ukuzitshintsha, kwaye le yenye yazo, kodwa ndiyasebenza kuyo.
Ezinye izinto ezimbini endifuna ukuzongeza njengezibophelelo kwiinyanga ezizayo kukugcina indawo endiyicwangcisiweyo ndicocekile (ndibhidekile, kwaye kukho imisebenzi emincinci ekufuneka ndiyenzile ukulungisa indlu endihlala ndiyirhoxisa- kufuneka yenza ezi) kunye nokulungisa umdlalo wam. Ndenza imithambo rhoqo kodwa ndisaiyekile kwaye ndifuna ukuzama ukuba nocwangco ngakumbi kwezi zinto zimbini.
NgoJanuwari ndangena kwiqela lokucamngca, kuba ndandicinga ukuba lingandinceda ngandlela thile, kwaye ndafumanisa ukuba linokundinceda ngeendlela ezininzi. Ndicinga ukuba ayifani kuye wonke umntu, kodwa kum isebenza kakuhle. Kusenzima ukugxila, ukukhulula ingqondo kwiingcinga, kodwa kolu hlobo lokucamngca (iSumarah) eyona nto ibalulekileyo kukuzamkela ngalo mzuzu, unganyanzelisi ingqondo yakho ukuba yenze into kodwa ukhokele ngobunono ingqondo yakho umamele. Inxalenye yakho yangaphakathi. Kwaye ndifunda okuninzi koku, ndikhangela ubulolo bam, uloyiko lwam, iminqweno yam, ukuzazi ngcono. Kwaye kokukhona ndizazi, kokukhona ndizithanda. Oku kwandothusa, kwaye ndiyazibuza ukuba kusafuneka ndifumanise ntoni. Ayilogolide yodwa, kusekho udaka oluninzi ngaphakathi kwam ekufuneka ndingene kulo, kodwa sendivele ndaziva ndikhathazekile, uyazi, ke le ayindoyiki. Kwaye ubuhle endibufumene ngaphakathi ngokuqinisekileyo bufanele umgudu.
Ukucamngca kwandikhokelela ekufumaneni kwakhona unxibelelwano nendalo. Xa ndandisengumntwana, ngaphambi kokuba i-porn ifike ebomini bam, ndandikuthanda ukuba kwindalo, abazali bam babedla ngokundizisa ezintabeni, amachibi, elunxwemeni, bandinika ithuba lokuba ndizive ndiyinxalenye yobuhle. Emva koko ndaqala ukuzivala kwi-PMO, ndiphulukana nonxibelelwano lwenyani, ngesipho sobomi, kunye nendalo. Kwinyanga ephelileyo bendiye entabeni yonke impelaveki ebinayo, bendinabahlobo, kwaye bendiziva ngathi ndisengumntwana, ndisiva ukugoba kwezandla zam ematyeni, umoya ebusweni bam, bendonwabela ukuthula nokuzola yeendawo ezikude, ekhawulezayo, eqonda ukuntsokotha kwemithi kunye nokubukela ukubaleka kwenkuku. Ndicinga ukuba siyinxalenye yobu buhle, kwaye obu buhle buyinxalenye yethu, bujikeleza nento engene ngaphakathi kuthi kuba siyafana.
Into yokugqibela endifuna ukuyibhala sisicatshulwa. Ndiqale ukufunda ezinye iincwadi endizithengileyo kwithuba elidlulileyo kodwa khange ndifunde, kwaye enye yazo (UkuPhulukisa Umsindo-UDalai Lama) iluncedo olukhulu ekuqondeni inxalanye yam kunye nomsindo. Kule ncwadi ndifumene ibinzana elindincede kakhulu, kwaye ndifuna ukwabelana ngalo:
“Kutheni ungonwabanga nje ngento xa unokutshintsha? Ukuba awukwazi, kuya kukunceda njani ukungonwabi? ”
Ndiva eli binzana lindixelela: ungakhathazeki, ungatshintsha.
Kunye nokucamngca into ngaphakathi kum yayindixelela into enye.
Kwaye la matye aphantsi kwezandla zam andixelele okufanayo.
Kwaye loo mhlobo, kunye noNoFap, kwaye ezi ntsuku ze-30… izinto ezininzi ezintle kunye neenyaniso kunye nabantu bandixelela le nto inye: ungatshintsha.
Ke, masitshintshe.
Ngomhla we-31, ndiphumelele idabi, ndikulungele okulandelayo: Iintsuku ze-90 ngaphandle kwe-PM.
Enkosi ngokufunda amazwi am, gcina amehlo akho uqhubeke!
Iingcebiso kunye nezimvo zihlala zamkelekile.
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LINK - Iintsuku ezingama-30 azikho ii-PM (O), kwaphumelela idabi elinye.
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