… Kwaye ndonwabile ukuba lapha. Ndingu-36 kwaye bendizama ukuyeka iphonografi ubuncinci iminyaka eyi-7, ndiyijongile nge-18. Ndingabhala imihlathi ngaphezulu kweziphumo ezibi zeentsuku, iiveki kunye neenyanga zobomi bam endizichithe phambi kwe-computer jacking ndiye kwi-porn, kodwa ndiza kuyitsiba loo nto. Kwiminyaka emibini eyadlulayo xa ndaye ndazenza malunga neentsuku ze-35 emva koko ndangena ngaphakathi ndiyekile ukuzama. Ndacinga ukuba yeyona nto ibalaseleyo endinokuyenza. Ndazinza kwisingqisho sokujonga iphonografi rhoqo kwiintsuku ezimbalwa, ndizama nje ukulawula ityala kunye nokuzicekisa kunokuba nomkhwa kwaye ndingakholelwa ukuba ndingazifaka kwimeko yengqondo apho bendinamandla engqondo okulwa ne-porn.
Le mini ye-90 streak yaqala njengoko ndibukele enye intombi ihamba kude njengoko ndaza ndaza ndaza ndayeka ukuzinyanya kunye noononophala. Andicingi ukuba ubudlelwane buya kuphila, kodwa ndaqonda ukuba ukudakumba kwam kuya kusiba mandundu kwaye ndifuna uncedo lwangaphandle. Ndiyazi nokuba andifuni ukuba abe nguye oza kundixhasa ngayo. Ukuqala unyango kunye nokuthetha nomntu oqeqeshiweyo okwaziyo ukubonelela ngesikhokelo esingagwebiyo wenze umahluko omkhulu. Ndiyaqonda ukuba ayisiyonto intle umntu wonke anokufikelela kuyo, kodwa ukuba ungafikelela kuyo kwaye ufumane umntu olungileyo, zibonise ububele kwaye uzinike ithuba! Ukusilela oko, yiya kwintlanganiso yelinye lamaqela axhasayo. HAMBA nje. Unayo yonke into onokuyizuza kwaye akukho nto uzakuphulukana nayo xa usiya kwenye, nokuba uzokuya kwintlanganiso enye.
Into endiyifundileyo ngeli xesha, eyahlukileyo kwabanye ndiyamangaliswa yindlela ENGCONO ngayo le malunga nemifanekiso engamanyala kwaye ingakanani into efanayo ngezinto ezifanayo ezibangela zonke iziyobisi: ukwahlulwa ngokweemvakalelo kunye neendlela zokulwa ezichaseneyo. Ukubuyiswa kwam kuninzi ngakumbi malunga nokucebisa uxhulumaniso lwam kunye nokuvuleka nabantu ebomini bam kunokuba bekucinga malunga nokuba kutheni ndijonga kwi-pornography. Nangona ukuhlela iifayile zam zehostin kwiikhompyuter zam ukuvimba zonke iisayithi zam eziqhelekileyo yayikukuthintela okukufutshane.
Ukuba uyasokola ukuqala, ubambekile kumzamo wokuzama ukuya kwiintsuku ezintlanu okanye kwiintsuku ezili-5 kwaye uqhubeke nokusilela… ungayenza le nto ngokupheleleyo. Kodwa ifuna ukuba utshintshe. Mhlawumbi kuya kufuneka ukulungele ukuvuma ukuba awukwazi ukwenza oku wedwa. Mhlawumbi kuya kufuneka uxelele omnye umntu ebomini bakho indlela oziva ngayo nangona uneentloni kwaye usoyika. Akunjalo malunga nokusetyenziswa koononophelo, mhlawumbi malunga nenye indlela oziva ngayo. Khange ndifike apha ngamandla engqondo: andinakukwenza ngokwam oku. Ndafika apha ngenkxaso nothando oluvela kubantu abandijikelezileyo endandivulela kubo.
Ngaphezulu kweentsuku ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo ndikhe ndankqonkqoza ezimbalwa, ndibuyile kwindawo yokuthandana kwaye inokuba yirollercoaster, ngakumbi njengoko ndinengxaki yoxinzelelo kwi-ED. Kodwa ndifumana iindlela ezisempilweni zokujongana nazo zonke ezo zinto zingabandakanyi ukuqaqanjelwa kukonzakala. Enkosi kwinxalenye enkulu kuyo yonke inkxaso kunye neengcebiso ezivela kule subreddit, ke enkosi.
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