Kutshanje ndipasile iintsuku ezingama-250 zokugcina amadlozi. Ndazithembisa xa ndiqala nge-23 ka-Agasti 2022, ukuba ndiza kubuyisela eluntwini kuhambo lwam. Bendizixelele ukuba ndizakwenza iposti nge250th 500th 750th & 1000th day.
Ngoko masiqale. Ndaqala i-PMO xa ndineminyaka eyi-15 ndivile malunga nendlela yokwenza ngayo kumhlobo kwincoko edlulayo. Ngaloo mini yaqala uthando lwam kunye nokulutha kwi-PMO. Ngoku ndibhala oku ndikwiminyaka yam engama-40. Ngalo lonke elo xesha, andizange ndidibanise ukuba isikhundla sam esibi ebomini sasiphantsi kokwenza lo mkhwa mbi endandiwufumene xa ndandikwishumi elivisayo. Andizange ndidibanise amachaphaza.
Ngexesha elithile ngo-2022 ndadibana noncwadi olucebisa ukuba i-PMO yayingalunganga kwimpilo yakho. Bendicinga ukuba bubuxoki obo. Ndikhumbula ndifunda iingcali zebhayoloji kunye neengcali zempilo ebutsheni bam ezazincomela ukufundiswa kakuhle njengendlela yokwenza isenzo sendalo, inxalenye eqhelekileyo yobomi bomntu. Ngoko yindlela endiyijonge ngayo.
Kwincoko yakhe nomhlobo osetyhini kulo nyaka uphelileyo, wachaza ukuba i-masturbation yayimbi kwaye into abantu abangafanelanga bayenze, nam ndamamela kodwa andavuma. Ukususela ngaloo mini, kwakungathi amandla aphezulu andityhala ukuba ndifumane malunga ne-PMO kunye nefuthe layo emzimbeni. Njengoko ndingena emngxunyeni womvundla kuye kwacaca ukuba mhlawumbi ndandiphazama. Emva koko ndajonga emva ebomini bam. Ngo-2008 ngelixa ndihlala phesheya kwiinyanga ze-6 andizange ndiyenze i-PMO kanye. I 6month streak nangona bendingazi nokuba yintoni ukugcinwa kwamadlozi. Ezo yayizezona nyanga zi-6 zibalaseleyo ebomini bam. Ke kwakhona ngo-2020 ngelixa phesheya ndahamba iinyanga ezi-3 ngaphandle kwe-PMO kwakhona, ndaziva ndimnandi. Ndithe chu ngathi ngumcuphi ekupheleni kwe Usual Suspects kwatsho kwasa kum. Ngokungazi, ngelixa ndikwiSemen Retention, bendinawona maxesha amnandi ebomini bam. Wowu. Zaphakama inwele zasemva kwentamo. Ndichithe iintsuku ezimbalwa ezizayo ndiqokelela ulwazi, ndiphanda iiyure kunye neeyure ngosuku ndingayeki. Emva koko yandibetha, i had messed up my life ngenxa yalo mkhuba mnye endingazange ndiwucinge nokuba umbi.
Ngoku ndiphumelele. Ndiye ndajikeleza ndisiya emsebenzini. Ungaze ukhuseleke kuyo nantoni na. Ukubetha ungatsho. Ukubetha obeza kuba yi-PMO phantse yonke imihla.
Ndaziva ndonyanya. Ndacinga ukuba kutheni ndingazange ndiyibone le nto ngaphambili. Ebendijonge ebusweni ngalo lonke eloxesha. Ndayeka ngoko nangoko. Iintsuku ezi-5 zokuqala zazinzima. Yayisisenzo se-reflex, ngelixa ndikwifowuni yam ukujonga i-porn. Loo nto kwafuneka iyeke. Ndandigqibile ngayo. IGQITYWE TU.
Ngoko nangoko ndaba namandla ngakumbi emva kweentsuku ezili-10. Ndandingathi EWE!, oku kuyasebenza. Indinike isibindi kunye nokuzithemba ukuqhubeka. Ngaphezulu kwenyanga ye-1, ndaqonda ukuba nangona ndenze impazamo yokubukela i-porn, nangona ndingayi kuphulula i-masturbate, ndaziva ngathi kuthatha amandla am. Ndiye ndaqonda ukuba mandizilinde iingcinga zam. Amaxesha apho ndandingqongqo kakhulu yayilelona xesha ndakha ndaliva. Ndifumanise ukuba kufuneka uzigcine uxakekile. Ndibeke isikrini sam kwi-GREYSCALE encede kakhulu. Indenze ndangafuni ukusebenzisa ifowuni yam kakhulu. Isebenzile. Iiveki zahamba kwaye ngokuthe ngcembe kwaba lula kwaye kulula.
Injongo yam yokuqala yokwenene yayikukufikelela kwiintsuku ezili-100. Yonke into ngam yaqala ukutshintsha kancinci kancinci. Imizwa yam, ukuhamba kwam, ulusu lwam, ubudlelwane bam, ukuzithemba kwam, ithamsanqa lam ... Yonke into. Yayicuthekile kodwa yayiphawuleka. Bendiyithanda into entsha mna. Bendingazokujika.
Emva koko ndiye ndadibana nabantu abambalwa kuYouTube (Amagorha Anamandla, amaCeaser, ooVimba baMandulo) bandinceda ngokwenene kuhambo lwam. Kanye nale webhusayithi kunye neforum. Kwakhona kumntu okanye abantu abadale eli qonga, Enkosi. Unceda abantu ngendlela ebekekileyo nangenkalipho. Intlonipho ephezulu.
Ngoku ndibujike kancinane ubomi bam, ngoku ndikufutshane ekufumaneni isiqalo esitsha ebomini ngobulumko. Ndinentembelo engagungqiyo yokuba ndizakuphumelela ebomini njengoko ngoku ndiyifumene injongo yam. Into endifuna ukuyenza kude kube yimini yokufa kwam. Ndiziva ndisikelelekile.
Konke oku ngeentsuku ezingama-250. Ingakholeleki. Indlela yam iquka iishawa ezibandayo ngelixa ndimamele iMotirversity kuYouTube. Iividiyo ezikhuthazayo endincoma kakhulu ukuzimamela ngelixa useshawari/ebhafini. Qala usuku lwakho ngokufanelekileyo kwaye kwicala elifanelekileyo. Ilandelwa ngumzuzu we-10 wokucamngca umoya okhokelwayo.
Ukuba ndinokunika ingcebiso, iyakuba kukungakhe wonwabise iNgcinga engalunganga ebomini bakho. Cinga Ngokufanelekileyo. Nantso ke into endiyifumene njengesitshixo soBOMI. Ukuba ungayilawula ngokwenyani loo nto, unokubonisa nantoni na oyifunayo ebomini. I-Master Key Society sisitishi esikhulu sikaYouTube esibalisa iincwadi ezitshintsha ubomi SIMAHLA, ndincoma ukuziva kuyiMfihlo nguNeville Goddard. Banokuninzi okunokukunceda uqalise ingqondo yakho kwaye uyilungiselele ukufumana eyona njongo ebomini bakho. Sonke sinenye.
Ndiyathemba ukuba abanye abantu bayakufumana oku kuluncedo, njengokuba ndifumene amabali aphambi kwam eluncedo. Ndikholelwa ngokupheleleyo kuye WONKE UMNTU ofunda oku ukuba banokholo kunye nokomelela nabo baphila ubomi obunemveliso nobunempilo.
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