benefits
- Amandla amaninzi
- Amandla angakumbi
- Unyamezelo ngakumbi
- Ixhala lihambile
- Ukuziva ubonwabile ngamanye amaxesha
- Ukuzithemba kancinci
- Ilizwi elinzulu kancinci
- Ukuzithemba ngakumbi
- Iimpawu ezimbalwa ze-OCD
- Phantse imise izikhonkwane ziyaluma
- Inkungu yobuchopho ihambile, inemveliso ngakumbi
- Ngaphantsi ayicaphuki
- Isimo esingcono (ukuhamba ngokuthe tye)
- Abafazi bajonge, ngamanye amaxesha bandijonga ngokungathi baxolile
- Ukufuna ngenkuthalo nokugcina unxibelelwano lwamehlo
- Unobuhlobo ngakumbi
- Iimvakalelo zothando ngakumbi kwabanye
nezingeloncedo
- Ngamanye amaxesha ubundlongondlongo ngendlela engeyiyo
- Ngamanye amaxesha bebengakwazi ukulala ngenxa yamandla amaninzi kunye / okanye nobuchule bokugqabhuka
Stats
- ubudala: 45
- PMO wokugqibela: Ngomhla ka-Matshi 31st, 11: 25 AM
- Isiphelo sesiphelo: Epreli 30, 11: 40 AM
- Ixesha lokuqaqambaI-30 x 24 hrs
- UkhuthazaMalunga nesandla (Xolisa i-pun)
- PMO: Ndikhangele amatyeli ambalwa, khange ndiyenze indlwanyane, khange i-orgasm, kude kube yimini 30 (jonga ngezantsi)
- FlatlineIimpawu zobumnene izihlandlo ezininzi kwiintsuku ezimbalwa, ungaqinisekanga ukuba yibhrawuthi
- ifashoniImowudi eqhelekileyo
- omnyeAmaxesha okubanda
Iinkcukacha zeenzuzo ** \*
I-Streak
Le yeyona ndlela yam inde. Ndizimisele ukuqhubeka ixesha elide kodwa ngo-Epreli 30 ndaphinda ndabuya. Ndandijonga ezinye i-porn, ndavuswa, kwaye yonke enye yimbali. Oku kwenzeke ngokoqobo kwiyure yokugqibela phambi kweeyure ezingama-30 x ezingama-24, ndiye ndalinda de ndiyidlulise, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyenze. Khange ndizive ndimbi emva koko kuba sisigqibo esaziwayo. Ndicinge ukuba inokongeza kumava am okufunda. Ndaqala i-streak entsha emva kokuba ndi-PMO'd (ngexesha le-4th ngaloo mini) kwi-11: 46 PM. Ngoku ndingumhla we-5.
Ngokoluvo lwam, kwaye esi ibisisifundo sam, ekuphela kwendlela i-streak enokugcinwa ngayo kukuphelisa ngokupheleleyo (ukujonga) iphonografi kubomi bomntu.
Ukhuthaza
Njengoko benditshilo ngasentla, bendinemibongo embalwa kuphela. Andinayo nayiphi na imithi yentsasa (ndenza ngexesha elide langaphambili leentsuku ezili-15). Malunga neveki yesithathu ndaqala ukuzibuza ukuba ingaba ayinanto yakwenza nobudala bam. Kwakungenangqondo, kuba ngaphambi kwe-nofap ndandiyifakile kakhulu imihla ngemihla kwaye ndandibongoza yonke imihla. Ndifumanise ukuba iimfuno ziyanda ngakumbi xa usenza, kodwa xa uyeka ukuyenza inani lezinto ezibongozwayo zichongiwe kuphela kwimveliso yesidoda (ephezulu kwiminyaka yobudala). Andazi ukuba kunjalo kodwa.
amandla
Ndizama ukugcina esi sithuba sicacile, kodwa kumcimbi wamandla ndinokuqhubeka nokuqhubeka. Ke, ke, amandla amaninzi, wow! Ndiye ndahamba ndafuna ishawa ebandayo okanye ikofu (ngamanye amaxesha zombini) ekuseni ukuze ndivuke, ndivuke ngaphambi kokuba iwotshi yam yealam ihambe kwaye nditsiba ebhedini! Ukuba ndingatsiba ubusuku okanye ndilale iiyure ezimbini kuphela, andizukuziva ndidiniwe kwaphela kwaye bekungafuneki ukuba ndilale emva kwemini. Khange ndikwazi ukuyikhupha kwakhona ukusukela kwi-43 yam. Ngaphambi kwe-nofap ndandisoloko ndilala nge-4 PM. Ndaziva ngathi ndingu 25 kwakhona. Ngokwenyani, ndaziva bhetele! Andinawo amandla angako nangaliphi na ixesha ebomini bam.
amandla
Ngomhla we-11 ndaqala ukufumana amandla e-CRAZY ngokupheleleyo kwindawo yokuzivocavoca kwakhona, njengakwindlela yam ende kakhulu! Ngokomndilili bendiphakathi kwama-20 ukuya kuma-33% ngaphezulu kwamandla; umzekelo ndiye ndasuka ekuphakamiseni i-44 lbs (20 kg) kwi-triceps ukuya kwi-66 lbs (30 kg). Ukuba usempilweni, okanye umakhi womzimba, sukuyijongela phantsi le nto, okanye uyiqhekeze njenge-placebo. Into enomtsalane yabasetyhini (jonga ngezantsi) inokuba yindawo ye-placebo, kodwa ukubanakho ukuphakamisa ubunzima obungaphezulu kwesithathu ayisiyiyo i-placebo!
Ukunyamezela
Ukubeka nje, ngexesha lokuzilolonga bendinokuqhubeka ixesha elide, ngamandla ongezelelweyo achazwe kumhlathi odlulileyo. Ndiza kuqala ukuzilolonga kwam nge-10 AM kwaye ndiza kushiya i-1 PM (ndisebenza ngokuchanekileyo iiyure ezingama-2.5 nge-2 x 15 imizuzu yekhefu phakathi kwamaqela emisipha) kodwa ndingaziva ndidiniwe. Ngaphambi kwe-nofap ndiza kwenza iqela elinye le-muscle kwaye ndiza kuba yitapile yokulala kwiiyure ezimbalwa ezizayo.
Ukuxhalabisa
Ixhala lam liphelile. Elona xesha ndandiye ndilive lincinci yayilusuku lwe-21, kuloliwe. Kodwa emva kwesiqingatha seyure kudlule, ngelixa besisesidlangalaleni kwaye phakathi kwe nditsho ndixakekile isihlwele.
Euphoria
Ngamanye amaxesha ndingavuya kakhulu, andikwazi ukuyichaza. Ngokukodwa ukumamela umculo, i-OMG, iya kundityhafisa kwaye ndizive ukuba eli gagasi lamandla ligubungele nje umzimba wam!
I-self-esteeem
Bendingazithembi kangangeminyaka kodwa ndikwazi ukuyeka oku ixesha elide (nangona bendingenazo izibongozo ezininzi) kuye kwandenza ndaziva ndilungisiwe. Andikaze ndizibone njengomntu ongenalo uqeqesho emsebenzini wam, kodwa izinto zobuqu zazilibali elahlukileyo.
Voice
Ndinelizwi eline-baritone, ngakumbi kusasa naphambi kokuba nditye, kodwa kwi-nofap yaba nzulu ngandlela ithile.
ukuzithemba
Ukuzithemba kwam ukunyuka kwiplate kunye nokusondela ebantwini kunye neemeko kuye kwanda kakhulu! Ngokukodwa ndenza incoko elula nabantu apho kwixa elidlulileyo bendiya kuthi kuphela ukuba ndizive ndinamandla (endihlala ndingasaziva kwakhona ngenxa yokutshintsha izihlandlo ezininzi ngemini).
I-OCD (Ukuphazamiseka okunyanzelekileyo)
Ndinqwenela ukuba ndiyifumane le, kodwa andikwazi. Iimpawu zam ze-OCD zehla malunga neepesenti ezingama-80.
iinzipho
Ndizilume iinzipho zam kwingozi endandinayo ngomhla wam we-9 apho ubhontsi wam watyunyuzwa. Andizange ndikwazi ukukhaba ngokupheleleyo umkhwa. Ndiphantse ndanxusa ukuba ndilume ngelixa ndikwi-nofap. Ngokukhawuleza emva kokuba ndiphule umgca wam umnqweno wokuluma iinzipho zam zabuya. Ndabona ukuba umnqweno wokuluma iinzipho zam uyafana nomnqweno wokufap; ukubaleka.
Inkungu yobuchopho, imveliso
Kwakulula kakhulu kum ukuba ndenze umsebenzi kwi-nofap, inkungu yam yengqondo (endihlala ndiyichaza kwi-ADHD yam) yayisele ihambile kwaye ndandivelisa izinto ezinje ngomhlanya. I-ADHD ngokusisiseko yayeka ukuba yimeko kum.
Ukucaphukisa
Ndiye ndachaphazeleka kakubi yingxolo yangaphakathi efana neekati ezirhona (ngaphakathi), izinja ezikhonkothayo kunye nabantwana abangxolayo ngaphandle, ii-ambulensi ezirhuqwayo, njlnjl kwi-nofap, bendisaziva ezo zandi kodwa khange zindikhathaze nakancinci. Le yayiyinto yokuvula amehlo kum. Khange ndibenangxaki nokuphazamiseka ngabantu; Kwixesha elidlulileyo oku kungaphula uxinzelelo lwam kodwa kwi-nofap ngekhe.
Ukuzimela (ukuhamba nkqo)
Ndaphakamisa amehlo, hayi ezantsi, kwi-nofap, ngamagxa ngasemva kwaye ndihamba nkqo, kwaye bendiya ndizikhumbuza ukuba ndenze njalo ukuba imeko yam yeyokwenza okuchaseneyo.
Umtsalane wabasetyhini
Ukuqala kwam ukufunda ngale nto ngaphambi kokuba ndizame i-nofap ndiyilahlile njengembudane. Kwindawo yam ende emide ngaphambi kwale inde (iintsuku ze-15) ndaye ndadibana ne-3 ngosuku olunye. Kodwa emva koko khange iphinde yenzeke. Ke kulo mzila… kulungile, masithi kukho iintsuku apho bendicinga ukuba kukho into ebusweni bam okanye enye into, njengophawu lwephepha umntu othile andihlekisile ngalo; Ndijonge esipilini yonke into ibilungile. Ingqwalaselo endayifumana kubafazi yayiphambene! Ndifuna ukubhala iposti eyahlukileyo koku. Okanye ndibuze kumagqabantshintshi ngeenkcukacha. Abanye babo bajonga nje kum, kodwa bangandijonganga ebusweni, kodwa bevale amehlo. Ingathi banokunuka awukakhuphi ixesha elide. Ndikwabonisa uninzi lwenkangeleko kum ekubeni ndibandakanyeke ngakumbi kwaye ndincumile ngakumbi. Kodwa, khumbula, ngenye imini ndandinomfazi ovela ngaphesheya kwesitalato malunga neemitha ezingama-50 kude ndincuma kwaye ndidlala ngothando kunye nam ngelixa ndisejimini. Andizange ndincume, kwaye nokudlala ngothando kwakucacile.
Uqhagamshelo lamehlo
Emva kwamabhinqa aliqela endijonge emehlweni ndaqala ngokujonga abantu basetyhini emehlweni, ndiphantse ndabafuna esidlangalaleni. Kwakungakhathali nokuba ndibabone benomtsalane, yayiphantse yangathi yaba ngumdlalo. Kwaye ke ndenza okufanayo nabasetyhini endinokuziphepha kuba ndiziva ngathi baphumile kwiligi lam; Amandla am kunye nokuzithemba kwam kwakuphakame kakhulu ngamanye amaxesha kangangokuba kwakungabalulekanga Intoni Uhlobo lomfazi endimbonileyo, ndingamjonga ngamehlo kwaye ndincume. Lo mkhuba, ukukwazi ukwenza oku kwaye ukuqonda wenza le nto ngaphandle komzamo okhawulezileyo… ngokunyaniseka kuye kwandenza ndaziva ngathi ndinguthixo, ongenakoyiswa. Akukho luvo lungcono, kuba yeyona nto iphikisayo * umntu endandinguye ngaphambili. Ndiye ndadibana nabantu ngamehlo, kodwa hayi ngendlela yokudlala ngothando kuba ndithandana nabantu besini esahlukileyo.
Social
Ngenxa yezinto ezininzi ezichazwe ngasentla (amandla, ukuzithemba, ukudibana kwamehlo, njl.) Ndiyifumene indlela, INDLELA elula yokubandakanya abantu ekuhlaleni. Ndiyathanda ukwenza incoko ngakumbi ngoku nabantu abakwi-60's, 70's, nangaphezulu, kwaye kunjalo Umdla into endixelela yona.
uthando
UNofap undibuyisele uxabiso lwam lothando. Uthando lwezithandani, kodwa kakhulu luthando ngokubanzi. Umzekelo, umhlobo womhlobo wam ungeniswe esibhedlele, kwaye bendifuna ukubandwendwela ngeentyatyambo, nangona ndingazange ndathetha nabo ngaphambili. Ndiva nothando ngabemi bam kwaye ndithanda nabo bandidelelayo. Ndiye ndaqonda ukuba abantu abathiye abanye abonwabanga nje iziqu zabo. Ngelixa bendikhe ndakuva oko ngaphambili, kwafika kum emva kokuba ndizibuze lo mbuzo: "Ukuba abantu bangaziva ngathi ndenza ngoku kwi-nofap, ngaba bafuna ukubathiya abanye?"; hayi, ngekhe kufuneke. Ke xa umntu endithiyile, abekho kwindawo elungileyo kwaye kuya kufuneka ndizame ukubanceda (ndibathande), okanye ndibashiyele kwizixhobo zabo.
ezahlukeneyo
- Ngenxa yokuqiniswa kokusebenza kwam okwenziwa lula nge-nofap ndiziva ndomelele, ndimncinci, kwaye ndiyindoda ngakumbi!
- Ndifumana umsebenzi wokuzimela ngokungathi yeyona nto ilula emhlabeni. Yenye yezinto endandifuna ukutsala ngayo ebomini bam ngoMthetho woKhenketho kwaye kwi-nofap yayisebenza njengomlingo kunye nokwanda kwam kwezentlalo kunye nokuphulukana noxinzelelo!
- Ndaziva ngathi ndilawula ubomi bam, ngelixa ngaphambili ndaziva ndingenamandla. Ndiva ngathi akukho njongo inkulu kakhulu ukuba ungafikelela kuyo. Kodwa kwangaxeshanye bendinengqondo yokwazi ukuba zonke iinjongo ezikhulu kufuneka zahluleke kwiinjongo ezincinci.
- Ngamanye amaxesha ndandiziva ngathi ndonwabile xa bendisenza nje izinto, ndicinga ngayo, ndaye ndaqonda ukuba zininzi kangakanani izinto endizibhijeleyo ngosuku olunye, ngelixa ngaphambi kokuba ndichithe iiyure ndisenza ukwazi-ntoni. Olu lolona luvakalelo lukhulu onokulufumana! Ndizibonile izithuba ezivela kwiichaps ezithi aziziva nto. Kuya kufuneka UTSHINTSHE la mandla ezesondo kwizinto, kuba oko kuyakwenza ingqondo yakho ikunike ngakumbi into oyifunayo ngokukubonisa ngezimvo kunye neendlela zokufumana ezo zinto uzifunayo (ngokusisiseko nguMthetho woTsala).
- Ndibuphucule ubomi bam ngeendlela ezininzi!
*** Iinkcukacha zokungalunganga ** \*
Ukuguquka
Ngamanye amaxesha iimvakalelo zam zokungoyiseki zandikhokelela ekubeni ndisabele kwabanye ngendlela eyoyikisayo (ilizwi eliphakanyisiweyo, ulwimi olomeleleyo, ndingoyiki nto). Ndikhe ndaphinda ndanamaxesha amabini apho bendiwela khona iqela labafana abajongeka kakubi (endiqhele ukukwenza (ngaphambi kwe-nofap) bendiya kuthintela) ukuhamba kwicala elichaseneyo kwaye bendiya kufuna ukudibana kwamehlo ndingakhathali ukuba kungakhokelela kuhlobo oluthile yokujongana. Emva kwexesha lesibini ndizikhumbuze ukuba le ayisiyondlela yokuphila esempilweni; isiphumo esecaleni kokuzithemba okukhulu.
Amandla kunye nobuchule
Amandla andisiweyo kunye nokuyila ngamanye amaxesha kundigcina ndivukile ebusuku, nokuba kungathiwa ndifuna ukuzula-zula ndenze izinto kunokulala, okanye ndizele imibono efuna ukubhalwa phantsi.
*** Ilizwi lengcebiso ***
Sukuyibona le nto ye-nofap njengomceli mngeni, kuba ngalo lonke ixesha uzikhumbuza 'ngomzabalazo', njengokulwa ubongoza, uzixelela ukuba AKUFUNI ukuyenza. Kufuneka uzixelele ukuba uphilisa ingqondo nomzimba wakho, ukuba yonke imihla oyongeza ngayo unyuka elinye inqanaba! Umelwe kukuwubona lo mdlalo wekhompyuter onje ngeDonkey Kong ukusukela kwiintsuku zakudala, apho unyuka ileli ukufikelela kwinqanaba elilandelayo yonke imihla ukhululekile kulo mkhwa ugulayo. Yindoda enamandla, nguwe olawulayo, nguwe indoda (okanye umfazi) omiselwe ukuba ube!
Ukuba oku kuyaphendulwa, kwaye ngenxa yobude endikuthandabuzayo, kuya kuba kuhle, kodwa ubuncinci ndiyathemba ukuba iyabanceda abanye abafana (kunye nabafazi mhlawumbi) phaya ngaphandle abasokolayo.
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