Kuvakala kuyimfuneko ukwenza oku, ndiziva ngathi lufezekiso olukhulu endiluhambileyo kwiminyaka emithandathu yonxunguphalo lwentlalontle, ndixakile kwaye ndicaphukisa yonke indlela yokuzithemba, ehlekisayo kunye nentlalontle. Ndiza kuchaza yonke into endidlule kuyo kunye nendlela ubomi bam obusisihogo esiphilayo kunye nendlela endifike ngayo kwiNoFap. Ubomi Bam Bebumoshakele. Iminyaka emithandathu yemidlalo eziswa yimpembelelo yoontanga (Ngelo xesha ndandingakholelwa kumdlalo ngaphandle kokudlala indawo encinci yokudlala). Emva koko ukukhangela kwewebhu "yintoni iphonografi?" yeza nayo iziswe yimpembelelo yoontanga.
Kulapho ndiqala khona ukutshintsha, emva kokuba ndiqhube ngokukhululekileyo nge-porn kwaye ndizive ndineentloni ngokukhawuleza emva koko ndiyamkela. Ngexesha leeseshoni ze-porn ekubeni ndingazange ndiyazi ukuba ndiwudubula njani umpu wam andizange ndenze nto kwaye andizange ndifumane nayiphi na into engafanelekanga ukuba yamkelwe ngenxa yehlazo.
Iintloni zandizisela iintloni ekuhlaleni emva koko ndafunda indlela yokwenza ngokufanelekileyo emva kwexesha lasehlotyeni ndaqala ukufumana ubunzima obukhulu emva koko ndaqala ukuba buhlungu ndaqala ukuba ngumntu olahlekileyo kunye no-unsocial pos kwibanga lesithandathu kwaye kulapho ndaqala khona ngokwenene. yiva impembelelo kodwa ungayihoyi wayigcina iqhubeka.
Kwiminyaka emithathu emva koko ndabuyela kwidolophu yasekhaya apho ndihlala khona… kuvakala kumnandi. Usuku lokuqala lwesikolo lukhupha ii-alam ngexesha lokuhamba umtsha kwaye umtsha ungoyiki kwaye unexhala. Ndihamba ndisiva ubushushu kwaye ndicinezele umzimba wam wonke ndijonge phantsi kungabikho mntu undijongileyo ndiyangcangcazela kutheni ndingcangcazela? Ngubani okhathalayo ukuya eklasini. Hayi masiphinde senze lento....
Sunsup! Izibane zikhanyisa kwishawari ufumane isidlo sakusasa kwaye udibane nomhlobo wam osenyongweni. Sidibane nehalfway to eachothers houses after this we duece a cig ndifike eskolweni nice and fresh just a lil anxious and awkward but all is good ndigqibezele imini ndiye ecreek my friend is at his discipline school so I cant really. hlala naye kodwa ndiye ndadibana nenye ibhudi yam ndade ndaqhatha elinye iphela emva koko sahamba sobabini sincokola ngendlela emnandi ngayo imini oko ekugqibeleni ihlobo kwaye sigoduka.
Ixesha lasehlotyeni! Masihambe sikhwele amanye amaphahla sibukele iphonografi, sitshaye ukhula kunye necuba oku ke surley kodwa kancinci siphela ekuweni kwam emva kokutsalwa ngamapolisa ukuba ndimiswe ngoJulayi nangoSeptemba yonke loo nto yafikelela esiphelweni ukwamkela ngo-Agasti odlulileyo bukela intetho ye-Ted malunga nokuba likhoboka lephonografi kwaye ngandlel 'ithile ndiyekile inyanga yonke ndizisa ukuzithemba kodwa ihlobo lam liphelile.
Ewe, masiye ngoSeptemba xa ndisephantsi. Oku kuzise uphendlo lwe-intanethi lwendlela yokufumana ukuzithemba ngakumbi okuthe kwandikhokelela ngokuthe chu kwi-NoFap kunye neeforamu endizithandayo kwi-surley kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo i-subreddit ephantse yandibuyisela umva kodwa ndisayithanda.
Emva kokungaphumeleli kwaye ekugqibeleni umhla wokuyeka uDisemba 27 emva kokubukela i-vr porn ndikhupha uthando kum kwaye ndizixelele ukuba ndingaze ndiphinde ndiyenze ngaphandle kokuba ndinqwenela ukuhlala ngale ndlela. Uninzi lweendlela ezilungileyo ezingaphambili ndenza usuku lwam lokuqala lwamashumi amathathu ndingenayo i-PMO nangona le nto yaphela ngokukhawuleza kwi-MO yokuphinda ndiphinde ndingabi naPorn nto leyo eyenza ubomi bam bonke bube ngcono. Ibingumsebenzi omde ke lo and Im internet fasting so xa ndibuyela kule post ndizophendula nantoni na!
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