Emva kweentsuku ze-150 ndiye ndaphinda ndabuyela emva kwaye ngoku ndibuyele kwiintsuku ze-90 ngaphandle kwe-porn okanye i-masturbation. Ukufikelela kummakisha weentsuku ezingama-90, ndithathe ixesha lokucingisisa ngendawo ebendikuyo malunga neentsuku ezingama-250 ezidlulileyo.
Ndaziva ndingenathemba. Andizange ndicinge ukuba ndiyakwazi ukukhululeka kwi-porn kunye ne-masturbation, ndijikelezwe yimpembelelo ebomini bam abavakalelwa kukuba akunakwenzeka, ukuba amadoda axhunyiwe ukuba anelise iminqweno yesini ngendlela elula kakhulu (i-porn, i-masturbation).
Ndaziva ndililolo. Ndandiqhelisela ukusondelelana nabantu endingabaziyo kwiscreen, ndibona ukubaluleka kwabo ngokwasemzimbeni nangobuhle. Imikhwa yam emva kweengcango ezivaliweyo yangena kubomi bam bemihla ngemihla ngendlela endandibaxabisile ngayo abafazi, njengoko ityhefu yayisasazeka ndandilalana nabo ngeendlela ezimbi, kwaye ndaziva ndinetyala ngenxa yoko. Eli tyala libe nefuthe elithe ngqo kwindlela endiphatha ngayo abahlobo, kunye nabalingane, ndingathanda ukutsalela kum kunokuba ndifikelele kubuqabane. Ukuzithemba kwam ekuhlaleni kwakukrwitshiwe kwaye ikheswa ngumbulali onamandla.
Ndaziva ndiphelelwe lithemba. Andizange ndikwazi ukubala izihlandlo ezininzi endandizama ukunqumla isibetho esasifaka ityhefu entliziyweni yam. Sihlandlo ngasinye ndandingahlali ixesha elide, ndandidimazeka. Bendirhalela ukukhululwa ebumnyameni bam, bendirhalela ukuqheleka. Phezu kwayo nje imigudu yam, andizange ndikwazi ukuzibophelela. Ndide ndajoyina iqela lamadoda, kwaye ndazibophelela ekubhaleni ijenali yonke imihla kwiNoFap.
Nangona iqela lamadoda lindikhabileyo, iNoFap yeyona nto indigcine ndisendleleni yokuphendula ngobulumko. Yonke imihla bendisilwa neminqweno, kwaye yonke imihla bendibhala ngendlela endoyise ngayo loo minqweno, kwaye indenze ndaziva ndinelunda. Kwathatha ixesha ngaphambi kokuba ndizive ngathi ayisengomzabalazo wemihla ngemihla, ekugqibeleni kwadamba kumlo weveki emva koko ndakhululeka kulo lonke ixesha. Impumelelo iye yaxhobisa.
ndiyeva khulula. Andinayo loo mvakalelo ingenanto, ukuthumela i-masturbation, ndiqonda ukuba ndoyisiwe kwakhona. Andingomntu olahlekileyo, Ndingophumeleleyo. Iingcinga zam azisakrwitshwa ngulo mzi unetyhefu.
ndiyeva ungaqiniseka. Ndiyakwazi ukuthetha kunye nokuqhula nabasetyhini ngokuzithemba kwaye ndingabi neengcinga ezirhubuluzayo ezimnyama zibe nefuthe kwindlela endinxulumana ngayo nabanye. Ndibuyile ndijola nentombazana endajola nayo ndisesigqila sokuphulula amalungu esini, umahluko wendlela endimxabisile ngayo uyamangalisa. Ubudlelwane bethu busempilweni ngakumbi kwaye ndiziva ndimthanda ngokufanelekileyo lo mfazi. Akazi kakhulu malunga nokundibamba kwam, kodwa ndiyazi ukuba uyandihlonipha njengendoda kwaye ukuba ndingaphinda ndiqale umkhwa wam omncinci omdaka, loo ntlonipho ingaphela.
Ndiziva ndiphilile. Ndiqhelekile kwakhona. Andinasathana andihlalele egxalabeni. Oko kuxabiseke kakhulu kum kwaye ukuba uyindoda okanye umfazi ufunda le nto ndifuna ukukhuthaza ngentliziyo epheleleyo ukuba uwuthathele umlo kwaye uhlale kuwo. Unokuphinda ubuyele, njengokuba ndenzayo emva kweentsuku ezili-150. Kodwa musa ukuba likhoboka. Vuka ulwele inkululeko yakho, ulwele ukuba nengqondo kwakho, ulwele ubomi bakho.
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