Namhlanje ndiye ndaqonda ukuba ndiyifikelele into ebendizibekele yona kwiinyanga ezidlulileyo . Ziintsuku eziyi 133 ndiqalile oluhambo kwaye ndinezinto ezimbalwa ekufuneka ndizisuse esifubeni sam .
1. Xa ndiqala olu hambo ndikwindawo apho andizange ndicinge ukuba kunokwenzeka nangayiphi na indlela ukuba ndikhululeke kwi-pornography kunye ne-PMO, ndandineminyaka eyi-15 enzulu kulo mlutha.
2. Ndaye ndaqalisa ukuqaphela iimpawu zePEID kwaye nangona ndandikhe ndafumana isihlandlo esinye okanye ezimbini kwixesha elidlulileyo apho incanca ingazange ivele khona, ndacinga ukuba mhlawumbi ngenye yezo ntsuku. Kwaye kwade kwafika uNovember kulonyaka uphelileyo ndoyisakala 3 amaxesha back to back to back yandidlikidla mpela .
3. This journey has been hard at times , I've fighted through some unstandable days , iintsuku apho uBrian wam wayerhalela kumanqanaba anganyamezelekiyo kwaye ndakwazi ukuphumela nakubukho bezinto ezazixhokonxa kakhulu kwi-intanethi. Le nto ndiyenze ngokuthanda okumsulwa kuba bendizimisele ukungabuchithi ubuhlobo bam nomntu endadibana naye ngoNovember ndamthanda kakhulu
4. Kulo hambo ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ndiphulule i-3 amaxesha ngaphandle kokusetyenziswa kwe-porn. Eyokuqala yayixa ndandilala ngefowuni nabanye abantu ababalulekileyo, amanye amaxesha amabini ndindedwa xa i-libido yam yayiphezulu ngokuphambanayo kwaye ingenaye enye into ebalulekileyo kufutshane nam kwaye ndandingafuni ukumqhatha. Amatyeli amabini okugqibela nam ndingakhange nditye okanye ndijonge i-porn, i-hormones yam kunye nomthondo omile ndicela isex.
5. Ndaye ndangena e gymni ndajima kakhulu umzimba wam waba sempilweni , ndandingenayo iPEID yenyanga yesibini kodwa ndandinexhala ndade ndaphela . Ndikwinqanaba apho ndingacingi nokucinga ngephonografi, akukhathaliseki nokuba yintoni endiyibonayo kwi-Intanethi nokuba icaphukisa kangakanani na. Ingathi iNgqondo yam iyivalele ngaphandle .
6. Ndiphilile, ingqondo yam iphilile, ipipi yam isempilweni. Namhlanje ndivala lo mtya kwaye ndiyathemba ukuba umntu unokuyibona le nto kwaye azi ukuba banokulwa nalo mkhwa, nangona uhambo lwethu lwahlukile kwaye lunokukuthatha ixesha elide kodwa ndinokuthi ngoku ndilungile kwaye andinanjongo yokubuyela umva, ngamanye amaxesha andikholelwa nokuba bendikhe ndaxakwa yile nto kwasekuqaleni . Ndingahlala ndijikeleza ngamaxesha athile kodwa ndisenokungabi nawo amandla okanye ukungaguquguquki ukuhlaziya lo msonto ngoko ke ndigqibe ekubeni le inokuba ngowokugqibela kwam.
Kwelo nqaku, Manene ! Ndithatha isaphetha.
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