Ndicinga nje ukuba ndiza kuthatha umzuzwana ukuba ndihlanganyele uhambo lwam kwiintsuku ezingama-90 ezidlulileyo. Ngokuqinisekileyo ndifumene ukhuthazo kunye namandla kuzo zonke iiposti zakho ke ndiyathemba ukuba oku kuluncedo ngandlela ithile okungenani komnye wenu. Injongo yam kwiintsuku ze-90 ezidlulileyo yayikukuyeka ukujonga iphonografi kuphela. Ndine-MO 2 ukuya kuma-3 amaxesha ngeveki kwaye ngamanye amaxesha kuncinci ngaphandle kwescreen phambi kwam.
Kwixesha elidlulileyo, ndenze indlela epheleleyo ye-PMO ndineentloni nje zonyaka kodwa ekugqibeleni ndabuyela ekusebenziseni ngokupheleleyo xa ndiqhawule umtshato. Ndinemeko entle ye "f!@# yayo" ngokunyaniseka.
Ndifumene iNoFap ndaza ngethamsanqa eli qela (iqela leNoFap alindilungele) ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba xa ndiphinda ndafuna ukujonga kakuhle iziphumo zokusebenzisa iphonografi kum nakubudlelwane bam. Ndiza kuthi i-PIED ihambile, ukuxhalaba kwigumbi lokulala kuhambile, kubonakala ngathi konke ukuxhalaba kuye kwancipha kwaye ukucinga kwam kubonakala kucacile.
Ndikulwile oku ixesha elide. Ngokuqinisekileyo ndilahlekelwe ngumtshato wam iminyaka eyi-13 ngenxa yayo. Ndandihlala ndinomdla wokwabelana ngesondo njengomntwana kwaye ndixhonywe nabantwana abadala ababendazisa ngesondo ngokuthetha kunye nemifanekiso yamaphephancwadi (ndisakwazi ukubona ukuba indlela yokuqala yokubonisa iphonografi endakha ndayibona. Cinga ukuba ayinampembelelo?) Njl. akazange abe ngumfana owayethanda ukuxhonywa kwiiklabhu zemicu okanye athenge iividiyo okanye iimagazini ngaloo nto. Kodwa yaphuma i-Intanethi, yaqala yenyuka yenyuka. Ububanzi bebhendi ngakumbi imifanekiso, emva koko iividiyo kwaye bendirhintyelwe.
Ukusetyenziswa kwam kuya kuhamba kwaye kuhamba. Ngamanye amaxesha ukuzinkcinkca nge-3x ngemini kwaye kungabikho nto kwaphela kwezinye iintsuku. Umxholo waqhubeka ungena nzulu emngxunyeni omnyama "awonelanga". Yiloo nto eyayindikhathaza kakhulu ndicinga. Kwakungekho nje ukutyekela kwam kwendalo ukuguqulwa ngezinye zezinto endizisebenzisayo kwi-PMO.
Ndikhe ndanikwa iingcebiso, iSexaholics engaziwa, unyango ngesondo, ukufunda iincwadi… njlnjl. Ezi ntsuku ezingama-90 zahlukile kuba eyona nto indincedileyo kukwazi ukuba ndilikhoboka lomzimba ngokwasemzimbeni. Ingqondo yam ithathiwe. Inkcazo "Yengqondo yakho kwi-Porn" yayiyeyona nto iphambili kulo msebenzi. Ukwazi ukuba ndilikhoboka lemichiza kwaye andinguye nje umntu obolileyo ongcolileyo onemfihlo engcolileyo (umjikelo wecala kunye nehlazo) undikhulule kumjikelo ngesizathu esithile. Kwakunjengokuthi "Owu, ukuba ndiyeke ukondla eli ziko lokonwaba yonke into iya kuyeka ekugqibeleni". Kwaye kunjalo. Ndijonge ngoku njengokuyeka ukutshaya okanye ukwehla kwisoda. Andiyidingi KUNYE ndingcono ngaphandle. Andazi ukuba kutheni kodwa le nto ivakala kum.
Ngale nto ithethwayo, ndingaphulukana nayo ngomso kwaye ndizinkcinkce iiyure ezili-10. Ndiyayihlonipha ngokupheleleyo into yokuba ingqondo yam ikhohlise kakhulu, inesigulana kwaye iyabala. Iindaba ezimnandi ngoku xa iminqweno isiza ndibaqwalasele, musa ukulwa nabo, thatha umoya, ngaphandle kokuba ingqondo yam iyayifuna le nto kodwa ndikhetha ukuyishiya. Ingcinga nje. Akunyanzelekanga ukuba ndenze. Kulula ukutsho kunokuba kwenziwe ngamanye amaxesha kodwa KULULA ngokuhamba kwexesha.
Kungumzabalazo wamandla onjalo. Ndiye kuzo zonke iintlobo zesihogo ngale nto kwaye ndiya kuhlala ndinayo. Ndiyathemba nje kwaye ndithandaza yonke imihla ukuba ndifumane isipho sokuyiyeka. Ngenye imini ngexesha.
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