Kunjani ukusebenzisa iphonografi emva kokuqalisa kwakhona?

Funda kwabanye malunga nokuba kunjani ukusebenzisa i-porn emva kokuqalisa kwakhona.

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Abantu, abaye babecala ukuba babe nolwazi lokufunda kumava kwabanye, banokumangalisa ngokubonakala kwabo ukungcola ukuba benze njalo.

Kufuneka kubonakale ukuba ukuba ubuchopho bakho bobuchopho, kwisimo sawo sokuqala, singene likhoboka kunye / okanye iingxaki zentsebenzo yesondo- ubuchopho bakho bokubuyiselwa kwakhona buya kuba yingozi, nangona i-penis yakho isebenza ngokugqibeleleyo kwakhona. Enyanisweni ungazibuyisela kwiingxaki ngokulula.

Ngenxa yokuba unaloo mdala, unengqondo yengqondo indlela omele ulindele ukukhanya njengemithi yeKrisimesi xa ubabetha nge-dopamine eyongezelelweyo yokuphindaphinda.

Hayi, uninzi lwethu kufuneka sifunde ngendlela enzima, ngamava ethu, nangaphezulu kwesinye. Nantsi intambo yeReddit apho abafana baxoxa ngeempembelelo zokubuyela kwakhona.

Ukuba ungomnye wabo bantu banqabileyo unako funda kumava abanye, Nazi ezinye iingxelo zabo baphinde baqala kwakhona kwaye baphinda babuya:

Ngaba ucinga ngokujonga kwakhona kwi-Porn? Nasi isizathu sokuba kungumbono ombi….

Ndifuna nje ukuthumela into esekwe kumava am malunga nengcinga uninzi lwabantu lubonakala ngathi lunalo. Ingcinga ithi, 'andikhange ndijonge iP ixesha elithile ngoku, kuya kuba ngumdla ukujonga nje ukubona ukuba ndiyifumana njani'. Ndenze le ngcinga malunga neminyaka eli-10 eyadlulayo, ndayeka iP iminyaka embalwa ngaphambili kuba ndandisazi ukuba ukusebenzisa kwam kunyanzelekile.

Kum le ngcinga yayihamba kunye, 'ewe, ndikwazile ukuyishiya ixesha elithile. Ke ukuba kuyingxaki ukuyijonga, kuya kuba lula ukuyeka kwakhona. Ubuncinci ndiyayazi indlela yokwenza '. Ngapha koko, ndasebenza kule ngcinga kwiminyaka elishumi eyadlulayo. Ndaziva ndothusile ukujonga iphonografi ekuqaleni- 'Yintoni? Ndandiqhele ukuyonwabela le nto? Iziva ngathi ityhafile kwaye iyanwen '. Nangona kunjalo ndingu-M'd no-O'd kwaye malunga neveki kamva ndaba nombono wokuyijonga kwakhona. Izinto zehla ezinyangeni ezimbalwa kwaye ukusetyenziswa kwam kwaphela ngaphandle kolawulo kwakhona.

Emva kweminyaka emi-5, ndaye ndaya kwiintlanganiso ezili-12 (njengotywala abangaziwayo, kodwa ukuba likhoboka lesini) elanceda ukundinciphisa kodwa alizange liyeke kwaphela. Elona xesha lininzi ngaphandle kweP endinalo kule minyaka ilishumi idlulileyo belimalunga neeveki ezi-6-endizilawule amaxesha ambalwa. Kodwa ngamanye amaxesha ibibi kakhulu. Ndandihlala kude kube sebusuku ndijonga uP phantse yonke imihla ngoJanuwari ngokomzekelo.

Ke, bekungekho lula ukuncama kwakhona njengoko bendicinga! (Emva kweminyaka elishumi ndicinga ukuba oko kubalwa njengesiqhelo). Ngoba?

Ewe, okokuqala, into ebendingayazi ngelo xesha kukuba ngenxa yokuba ukusetyenziswa kwam kwe-P kwakukudala, ndamisa isekethe kwingqondo yam eya kuhlala ikhona. Inokuba buthathaka, kodwa ngokwenyani, inxenye yam iya kuhlala ikufumanisa kulula ukubuyela ku-P.

Ndingayifanisa indlela oziva ngayo ukuba ungaze ulibale ukukhwela ibhayisekile- okanye ukwenza umkhenkce wokutyibilika emkhenkceni. Ndityibilikise kutshanje okokuqala kwiminyaka engama-20. Ndandinokuncipha ekuqaleni, kodwa ndafumana ibhalansi yam malunga nemizuzu engama-20. Thelekisa oku nomntu ongazange atsibe ngaphambili, onokufuna iiyure ezininzi zokuziqhelanisa ukuze aqalise ukuxhoma. Ke, ngenxa yokuba ndiqhele, ingqondo yam iyayazi indlela yokusebenzisa i-P ngokunyanzelwa, kwaye ifumanisa ukuba kulula kakhulu ukubuyela kuloo ndlela inikwe ithuba lesiqingatha.

Ke ukuba usebenzise i-P ngokunyanzelwa, ukuvulwa kwakhona, kwaye khange uphinde ubuye, kunokuba lula kunokuba ubona ukuba likhoboka kwakhona. Ukuba ucinga ngayo ndingakucela ukuba ucinge ngale nto ndiyithethayo kwaye ubuze: kufanelekile umngcipheko? Kwaye ndaqala ukonwabela kunye nokunqwenela u-P ogqithileyo emva kweeveki ezimbalwa, ndingakhange ndicinge ngayo kwaphela kangangeminyaka embalwa.

Esinye isizathu ndicinga ukuba ndikufumene kunzima ukuyeka i-P, kukuba ukubuyela kwimeko yesiqhelo akuyonto imnandi okwesihlandlo sesibini. Ndiyarhana ukuba oku kunokuqondwa ngokubhekisele kubuchwephesha bobuchwephesha (nangona ndingeyiyo i-neuroscientist, ndicinga ukuba oku kuyavakala). Ukuqala kwam ukuyeka i-P kwakumnandi ngokwenene. Ingqondo yam ibigcwele imibuzo: Ndingayenza? Ngaba ndiza kuqhuma ngomsindo? Ngaba ubomi bam buya kumangalisa ngokupheleleyo? Okanye ndiza kutyhila nayiphi na imiba engokweemvakalelo? Kuyonwabisa kwaye kuyothusa ukucinga malunga- ndifuna ukukhula, kodwa ndingamelana nomceli mngeni? Le mibuzo ikwenzile ukuba uhambe kwi-P ibe yinto enomdla, ukuba kunzima kakhulu ngamanye amaxesha, uhambo.

Enye yezinto zokuqala endazenzayo yayikukuxelela umhlobo wam naye onamakhoboka ebali lam. Oko kwakoyikisa, kunika umdla kwaye kwandenza ndaziva ndixhumeke kuye ngendlela entle. Ke uyabona kule nkqubo kukho inkuthazo kunye nolonwabo (kubangela ukukhutshwa kweekhemikhali zobuchopho ezinjenge-dopamine kunye ne-adrenaline) kwaye kukwakho namava amnandi oxhulumaniso (ukukhulula ii-opioids zendalo).

Ngoku enye yezinto ebangela ukuba i-dopamine yinto entsha-ke ukuyeka okokuqala yinto encinci ye-buzz-kufana nokufumana inkwenkwezi entsha ye-P ocinga ukuba iyamangalisa! Kodwa ixesha lesibini luhlobo lomnqwazi omdala - uyazi ukuba P inkwenkwezi sele, kwaye ufuna eyahlukileyo. Uyazi ungancama. Umceli mngeni awonwabisi kangako. Ukuxelela ibali lakho komnye umntu okwesibini ayisiyonto imnandi okanye yoyikisayo, kwaye ayenzi ukuba uzive udibene nokuba. Ke inqaku kukuba ukuyeka okwesibini (kum ubuncinci) kunzima kakhulu, kuba ayonwabisi okanye intsha njengexesha lokuqala.

Yongeza kuyo yonke into yokuba abanye bacinezelekile ukuba nokuba unganikezela kwakhona, unokuphinda uqalise kwakhona njengoko sele ukwenzile kube kanye, ithini into? kwaye unayo into endiza kuyibiza ngokuba yi-doozy yokwenene yemeko.

Ke ingcebiso yam, kumava obuqu, ukuba uyekile ukujonga i-P kuba yayinyanzelekile, kwaye ucinga ngenqaku lokugqibela elidumileyo?

Musa.

Ndiyathemba ukuba inceda nokuba ngumntu omnye. Ukuba kunjalo, ubuncinci oko kunika injongo kule minyaka ilishumi idlulileyo yosizi olunxulumene ne-P…

Re: Ngaba ucinga ngokujonga kwakhona kwi-Porn? Nasi isizathu sokuba kungumbono ombi….

Inqaku elinzima kubantu ababuyela umva kwaye bafuna ukushiya ngqongqo kwakhona kukuba bonke bathi ibango elibi kangakanani kubomi babo. Emva koko baphinda babuye kwaye nengqondo yabo ibavuze. Ihlabathi lisajika. Ukukhanya kusakhanya. Kwaye kuyavakala! Akukho nto imbi yenzekayo ngoko ke sigqiba kwelokuba akunakuba kubi ukubuyela kwimeko yesiqhelo… nto leyo eyenza kube nzima ukugcina inkqubo enzima. Bayasilumkisa. Siyakwazi okuya kwenzeka. Siyazi ukuba siya kuhendwa; Kodwa ngaphandle kwazo zonke iinjongo ezilungileyo sonke sifikelela kwelo nqanaba linye apho ububi egxalabeni lethu busicacisela ngokweenkcukacha ukuba kutheni kungenakuba licebo elibi ukuzama kanye nje kwakhona. Izizathu zilungile kwaye siyabuza le projekthi. Kwaye siyazibuza: ngaba kunokuba buhlungu ukubamba nje kancinci?

Impendulo ithi: ewe. Ewe kunokuba buhlungu. Kufuneka sizibophelele epalini. Isilingo siyakudlula emva koko sihambe ngathi "oh boy, sonwabile khange sinikezele".

Ngale ntsasa ndivuka ndisiva isikhalo samanenekazi aliwaka… ..ndikhwaza, ndibiza igama lam. Ndilandela ingxolo egumbini lam ndabona ukuba imoto yam eshushu iyangena esandleni sam kwaye indinyanzela ukuba ndiphulula amaphambili!

……… ..Ngoku ndinedick eshwabeneyo kwaye ndiziva ngathi ndidandathekile. Ndenza ntoni bafo? Ngaba amandla am amakhulu aya kuze abuye? I-PIED iphilise kwiintsuku ze-50. Emva koko ndasebenzisa iifoto.

Ubudala 18 - Emva kwenkqubela phambili enkulu, i-PIED yam ibuyile: Ndaqala ukubukela iphonografi kwakhona - nditsho nokuhlaziya amalungu esini

Ndizabalazile ngePIED iminyaka ngaphambi kokuba ndifunde ukuba kwenzeka njani ukuba iphonografi ibenzakalise kwiminyaka emihlanu eyadlulayo. Umfazi wam wayesele eza kundishiya kuba ubomi bethu bezesondo babubi kakhulu. Ndijolise kwi-laser kwaye ndiyeke iphonografi / i-masturbation kwiinyanga ezili-18. Sifumana ukulungiswa okukhulu kwaye sasinomdla omkhulu wesini. Ndawa enqwelweni kwaye emva kweenyanga ezimbalwa i-PIED yabuya. Kwiintsuku ezingama-41 ezidlulileyo ndaye ndabona ukuba kufuneka ndibuyele kwi-porn / kwi-masturbation indlela yokuphila yasimahla.  Permalink

Ndakwazi ukuyeka ukubukela i-porn malunga neenyanga ezimbini, kwaye ndenza inkqubela phambili kunye ne-PIED yam, ndakwazi ukuhlala nzima ngexesha lokwabelana ngesondo. Ndandiqala ukubukela iphonografi kwakhona ngokungaqhelekanga kwezi veki zimbalwa zidlulileyo, nditsho nokuba ndiyijongile, ndiyibukele nje. Andikwazi ukuphakama nentombazana. Kuyamangalisa ukuba ukubukela nje into kunokuguqula yonke inkqubela phambili endiyenzileyo. 🙁

I-Gay - (ED) Ingqondo yam yaphiliswa, ndingavuswa ngoncumo

I-PIED yonyango: isini esimangalisayo kunye nokulungiswa okuhle. Ukubuyela umva kwaye kuphuculwe i-ED kwakhona

Emva kokuba emkile ndakhangela kwiwebhu kwangoko impendulo kwaye ndafumana i-YBOP.com - inkwenkwe ndonwabile ukufumana impendulo. Yonke into yacaca gca kwaye ndandingakholelwa kulento bendisenza kum.

Ngethuba lokuqala ndandidla i-masturbated xa ndingu 13. Kwiminyaka emibini ndenza i-masturbated ngaphandle kwe-porno, ngamanye amaxesha ndiza kujonga iipostile kodwa ke ndenze i-masturbate ngaphandle kwayo. Kukhuselekile ukuthetha ukuba xa ndiyi-13 Ndandibukela ngokuphandle ipaposenti phantse yonke imihla.

Ngoku kulapho kuyothusa khona. Umlutha wam onobugqwetha ekugqibeleni wandikhokelela ekubeni ndivulwe ngezinto ezintle ezifana ne-porn kunye ne-tranny porn. Ndineentloni zokuyithetha kuba i-100% ngokuthe ngqo, nangona kunjalo, ekugqibeleni ndaye ndaqala ukubukela kuphela la manqanaba kunye nokuzihlaziya. Ndiyazi, nangona kunjalo ukuba andinguye u-gay ngenxa yokuba emva kokuba ndenziwe i-pmo ndiza kuziva ngokukhawuleza. Ndizamile ukubukela iphonografi eqhelekileyo kunye nabasetyhini abathandanayo kodwa ndiza kusilela ukufumana ulwakhiwo.

Khange ndiyihoye yonke lento kwade kwafika lamini bendikunye nale ntombazana. Ngoku ndiza kukhawuleza phambili namhlanje ndineminyaka eli-18 ubudala. Ndiye ndaye ndavala kunye ne-pmo ukususela kunyaka odlulileyo. Kwaye oko ndikufundileyo kukuba ukuyeka iifostile kuyasebenza kwaye usebenza! I Ndide ndihambe malunga neentsuku ze-55 I kholwa, kodwa ndibone inkqubela phambili kuloo xesha. Ndikhumbula ihlobo elidlulileyo (xa ndifikelela kwiintsuku ze-55) Ndandinentombazana eyayingenanto yonke into ekhangayo ngelixa ndamanga, ndiza kufumana i-erection instantaneous. Ndakwazi ukubeka ikhondom ngaphandle kokuba ndikhathazeke ngokulahlekelwa ukulungiswa kwam.

Ndiyadabukisayo xa ndithi ndayinikela kwaye ndazinikela kwi-pornography.

Kutshanje bendikunye nenye intombazana kwaye ndinethuba lokuthatha ubuntombi bayo nayo, kodwa ndothuka kakhulu xa ndikhaba kakuhle ngeli xesha. Kwakumalunga neenyanga ezimbini ezidlulileyo kwaye ukusukela ngoko ndenyuka ndaya kumhla we-40. Ngexesha lomhla wama-40 siza kuthi kwiiveki ezimbini ezidlulileyo, bendikunye nentombazana kwaye bendinengxaki yokuba secaleni kwakhe. Ndandihleli naye malunga neeyure ezingama-2 kwaye ndiyafunga ukuba bendililungisa lonke ixesha kwaye ndithetha ngokuzeleyo!

Ngelishwa ndafika kwi-cocky ndaza ndagqiba kwelokuba ndihambe ngezo ntsuku ngaphandle kwe-porn. Ndaphinda ndambona kwiveki ephelileyo kwaye ndamanga ndangandiniki i-hardon. Uye wazama nokundinika i-handjob kwaye akhonto ... ndiyazi ukuba kungenxa yokuba ndizikhohlisile nge-MO.

Ewe kunjalo ndicinga ukuba siza kubiza namhlanje usuku lwe-3 kuba ndibuyile ndisuka kwi-MO ngecawa. Ndiyazi ukuba kusekude ukuba ndihambe kwakhona, kodwa ndizimisele ukuya apho kufuneka ndibekhona. Akukho mntu ingakumbi i-18 yo kufuneka ahlupheke ngu-ed. Ndiza kunigcina nonke nithumele ndiyathemba ukuba ndiza kubuyela kuni ngokufumana kwakhona ngokupheleleyo.

Ubudala be-50 - ED bonyango, wabuyela kwi-porn, ngoku i-ED enzima

Konke kwaqala emva kokuzama i-nofap ekuqaleni kwehlobo lasehlobo. Ngokuzenzekelayo ndandiqhuba. Ndenza iqela lehlobo lasehlotyeni (latry hard class). Ndaphuma ndaza ndadibana nentombazana ye-IRL (intombazane epholile kakhulu).

THEN. I-Midway ngehlobo-ndifake. Ndandixelele ukuba ndimele ndigubhide ukugqiba ikhosi yehlobo, impumelelo yentlalo, entsha inomdla wokuphila.

Nangona kuthathe iveki ukuyibona- andizukuphuma. Ndiyekile ukutya ngokuchanekileyo. Kwakungathi umntu onesilawuli kude ebomini bam ucinezele ikhefu.

I-semmester elandelayo kwikholeji ndoyisakele yonke iklasi (andikaze ndibekho nakuphi na iklasi ngaphambili). Ukuhlukumeza i-fuck ngaphandle kwe-psychedelics (yaba yingxaki / umlutha kunokuba ibe yinto engcono kum). Ndaza ndahlulwa ekuhlaleni noontanga bam. (ukuya kwinqanaba lokungayi eklasini.)

Ngenhlanhla abazali bam bayamxhasa ngokwenene. Ngaphandle kwabo babeya zingabi nakhaya ezitratweni ngoku. Ngobo busuku ubaba wandibuza, Wenza ntoni le nto ikwenze ukuba ube nemveliso kangaka kwihlobo elidlulileyo? ” kwaye ukukhanya kwaphuma kwintloko yam. http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1fq4jg/what_were_you_doing_that_made_you_so_productive/

Ubudala 25 - Ukuqalisa kwakhona kwesibini: Ukunyusa amandla, Ukuphucula imeko, Ukunciphisa uxinzelelo, Isini esingcono, Ukuzithemba ngakumbi, Ukonyusa inkuthazo

Ekugqibeleni ndixelele intombi yam kwaye ndathatha isenzo sokutshintsha ubomi bam ngemihla emva kweenyanga zokudandatheka.

Ndibe kwiNoFap malunga ne-3 iminyaka ngoku. Ndiye ndafumana amaninzi amaninzi kunye neentlupheko kuquka ne-streak enkulu ehlobo lasekuqaleni. Emuva ehlobo lase2014 Ndadibana nentombi yam kwaye sasisondele, kodwa kwafuneka senze izinto kude. Ngeli xesha ndihlambulule iinyanga kwaye ndiziva ndomelele. Izinto zazilungileyo ngelixa ndaya esikolweni kwaye xa sihlanganisene kwakuyimangalisa!

Ndithathe i-internship kweso sixeko intombi yam ihlala kuyo ehlotyeni saza sahlala kunye iinyanga ezintathu. Elo xesha lalilikhulu! Sasihlala ngokusebenza kakuhle kwaye ndingenabucala ukuba ndityibilike ndize ndibukele iphonografi. Izinto zazomelele kwezi nyanga kwaye ndaziva ndinethemba lokuya kwisemester yam elandelayo esikolweni. Isemester yokuwa yayingalunganga. Mna naye sahlala siqhagamshelene kwaye umgama omde usasebenzela thina.

Emva koko isemester yasentwasahlobo yaqubeka… ndathatha okuninzi ngelixesha lesemester. Ngaphezulu kwesikolo esigcweleyo, ndithathe iprojekthi yophando, imisebenzi emibini, kunye neklasi yeshishini elongeza ngeempelaveki. Ndikwanceda kwiklabhu yekampus kwaye ndahamba kakhulu ukuya kwiinkomfa ezinxulumene nesikolo / zeshishini. Ndibeka ngokwam kwisikhundla sokuba nendlela eninzi yokwenza ngexesha elincinci kakhulu. Ndacinga ukuba ndiza kuphila phantsi koxinzelelo. Wonke lo msebenzi wenza ukuba kube nzima kakhulu ukunxibelelana nentombi yam kunye nokuya kumbona.

Uxinzelelo olwakhiwe kwaye ndandicenga ukuba ndizive ngathi i-PMO encinci ingandinceda ndiphumelele koxinzelelo. Ewe, khange iyenze. Ngapha koko yenze mandundu ngakumbi. Ndaqala i-PMOing kunye namaxesha amabi kakhulu ngelixa bekufanele ukuba ndiklasini okanye ndihlale kude kube yi-4am endaweni yokulala okanye ukwenza umsebenzi wasekhaya. Ndaqala ukuba liqokobhe lenkungu. Ndayifihla loo nto kwintombi yam kwaye ndenza ngathi yonke into ilungile. Ndiye ndangena kwixhala lokudakumba.

Izolo ndibetha umzuzu we-pivatol. Ndaqala ukuziva ndifile kwaye ndandithukuthele kwaye ndidiniwe kukuba ndibuhlungu. Ndabiza intombi yam ukuba ndivume yonke into endiyidlulileyo kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo. Wayithatha nzima. Inzima kakhulu. Wayecinga ukuba yinto ebangela ukuba angabikho intombi okanye ukuba angandithandi. Ekugqibeleni ndafuneka ndichaze indlela i-PMO eyenza ndive ngayo kwaye ndiyisebenzisa njani enye. Kwakungekho nto enokuyenza ngayo okanye ubuhlobo bethu. Siyakwazi ukucwangcisa izinto, kodwa ngoku uyazi ukuba le nxalenye yam kunye nenxalenye yolwalamano lwethu.

Kube ziiyure ezingama-24 ezidlulileyo. Ndanxibelelana nonyango kwaye ndizama ukufumana umhla wokuqeshwa. Ndathumela nge-imeyile umcebisi wam ndalahla iprojekthi yam. Ndiphantsi komsebenzi omnye ngoku. Ngokusisiseko ndalususa ixhala elininzi ebomini bam. Ndide ndiphume ngaphandle kwesiqhushumbisi esasibekelele kwindlu yam.

Ngapha koko, konke oku kuthetha ukuba ubambe le nto kwi-SO yakho yiyeke. Mxelele kuba eli shiti lityumza ngokwakho.

Iintsuku ze-500 + - ndineziganeko ezininzi zokutshintsha ubomi kunye namava avela kwingqondo yam engathembeli kwi-PMO

Ndakhe ndenza i-nofap ngaphambili. Ukufezekisa malunga nomhla we-90 kwaye ngelo xesha ndafumana umsebenzi omtsha, intombi entsha, yayisebenzisa. Izinto ezininzi ezipholileyo. Kodwa ndenze impazamo yokucinga xa yonke into ihamba kakuhle yonke into isetiwe. Ndabuyela kwi-PMO kwaye yonke into yabuyela esiqhelweni. Andiwuthandanga umsebenzi, wonqena, utyebe kakhulu, ulwalamano olubi. [Funda ibali malunga nokuchacha kwesibini]

Ndiphinde ndabuya emva kweminyaka eyi-1.5 kwaye ndiyavuya xa ndenzile

Ndonwabile ukuba ndibuyele umva… kuba ngoku ndiyazi ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba ndifuna ukuyeka ukufota kwakhona kwaye ngeli xesha lilungile. Nantsi into endiyiqapheleyo:

1. Kungakhathaliseki ukuba ndizama kangakanani ukuthethelela isenzo kunye namanqaku malunga nokuba uphile kakuhle, ndihlala ndiziva ndibi xa ndigqibile. Nina niyayazi imvakalelo.
2. Ndiba ncinane kwaye ndingazithembi.
3. Ndiye ndizimisele ngakumbi ukusondela ndilandele abasetyhini. Ndicinga ukuba oku kungenxa yokuba ndiyazi ukuba ulonwabo luphela nje kwaye akukho mfuneko yokuba ndizibeke apho okanye ndibeke nayiphi na imizamo ekufumaneni iqabane ukuba libe namava amnandi nalo (elingasoloko libandakanya isondo okanye izinto zesondo).
4. Kwakumangalisa ukuba ndafika ngokukhawuleza kangakanani kwi-orgasm. Ndandihlaziya i-masturbating imihla ngemihla phantse yonke imihla kuba ndingu 14 (ngoku i-27) - oku ngaphandle kwemizamo emininzi yokumisa eya kuhlala iiveki ezimbalwa. Ngenxa yoko, ndiye ndaziqeqesha ngesantya, kangangokuba ndinako ukwenza i-orgasm kwimizuzwana engama-30 ukuba ndifuna njalo. Ayizukuba yinto elungileyo ukuba ndifuna ubudlelwane obunempilo obusempilweni, obudlamkileyo nobulungileyo kunye nowasetyhini.
5. Ukuphulula amaphambili akuncedi "ukuvavanya" umzimba wakho njengoko besitsho kodwa kuyanceda ukuxhaphaza isini kunye nomzimba wakho kunokuba bekuxelela. Ukunyaniseka, emva kweminyaka eyi-13 + yokuphulula amalungu esini kunye "nokwazi umzimba wam" akufuneki kubekho nto ingaziwayo. Lixesha lokuba uyeke, ngokulungileyo ngeli xesha

Kubafana abaqalisa kwakhona okwesibini

Ndenze ukuqala kwakhona kweentsuku ze-110, kwaye ngomhla we-95 wam u-ED wayehamba ngokupheleleyo kwaye walala kakhulu. kodwa .. ngelishwa ndabuya ndaza ndazibhenela kwi-6 iiveki. (i-pmo (i-2 ngamanye amaxesha ngama-3 ngeveki) kwaye ndandifuna ukwazi, ndingowesibili sokuqalisa kwakhona kwiiveki ze-2 ngoku kwaye ndikhululekile.

Ngoko umbuzo wam uthi: KUNYE NJANI / INGXELO YAKHO YESIBONDO YENZA NJANI? INGABE YENZA NJENGOBA NJENGOBA UKUQHUBEKA KWOKUQALA KUCWADI (KUYA ED?)

Ndinelayisenisi yam, umsebenzi wam wokuqala, kunye nolwalamano oludityanisiweyo (kwaye ke waphosa konke)

Kwenzeka ntoni emva kweentsuku ze-90? Abaphathi bezilwanyana bajonga

Kwiintsuku ze-441 ezedlule ndaqalisa uNofap okokuqala. Kwakuyixesha lokuqala ukuba ndingagxeki kwiminyaka engaphezu kwe-12. Amava ayengummangaliso. Ngokukhawuleza ukuxinezeleka kwam kwaqala ukuphela, ukuzithemba kwam nabesetyhini kwandisa kwaye mna njengomntu waba namandla kwaye unamandla. Unokufunda ngeentsuku zam zangaphambili ze-90 apha: http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/21nhjz/90_day_report_how_i_did_it_and_how_you_can_do_it/

Emva kweentsuku ze-180 zeNofap ndaqala ukuzibuza-yintoni elandelayo? Ngaba ndimele ndingabi nakuFap ngonaphakade? Ngaba akunakunceda ukufunda ukuphinga ngeendlela eziphilileyo? Ngothando nangentlonelo emzimbeni wam? Andiqinisekanga ukuba ndenzeni. Ndakhangela ngeNofap kodwa kwakukho abantu abambalwa kwindawo yam ekwabelwana ngayo ngeengcamango.

Ngoko malunga neentsuku ze-220 ndaqalisa ukuphinga kwakhona, ekuqaleni, ngendlela encinci yokunyanzelisa. Ngaphandle koononophala kwaye akukho mbono, uthanda ukuva. Ekuqaleni ndenza oko kanye ngeveki. Kodwa ngokukhawuleza, ndagqogqa. Kwiinyanga ezilandelayo ze-4 ndandisoloko ndilahlekelwa yinto yokunyanzelisa i-masturbation.

Ngokumangalisayo, zonke iimpawu ezimbi zibuyiselwe. Ndilahlekelwe yintembelo yam, ndaqala ukuziva ndixinezelekile kwaye ndaphinde ndaqala ukuziphatha njengenqatha. Ndaxosha amantombazana endaweni yeenxa zonke, ulwalamano lwam lwaluqhaqhayisa kwaye ndaphelela elwandle lokuzihlambalaza.

Ngoku ndisemini 21 kwaye ndivakalelwa kwakhona. Njengento enhle, ubusuku nemini kakuhle. Ndibe kulolu hambo ixesha elide ngoko ke ndivumele nje ukuba, uNofap usebenza!

Kulabo oku kukuqala kokuqala kwakho, ndithembele ukuba yonke imiphumo emihle yecalaf is true. Kwaye kwadlulileyo imihla ye-90, esi sikhundla sinjalo kuwe. Uza kwenza isigqibo sakho kungakhathaliseki ukuba unelungelo lokuba. Kodwa ngethemba lokuba ibali lam liza kuba lizwi elikukhokela kuyo nayiphi na indlela oyikhethile.

I-PIED, ukulibazisa ukulibazisa, ukuzibophelela.

33yo watshata nomntu olwa nomlingo wokulibazisa ubomi bam bonke. Uphuhliswe into engicinga ukuba yi-PIED. Ndinexesha le-60 elula yemodi streak, kodwa ndibuyele ekuphumeni ngenxa yokutshatyalaliswa ngokwesondo. I-PIED kunye no-DE babuya ngqo.

Ndamiselwa iViagra, eyanceda kancinci, kodwa akukho ndlela ikufutshane neNoFap. Nangona kunjalo, ndinconyile. Ngeentsuku ezili-9 ngoku.

Isikhumbuzo Eside Eside Emva kokuba Uphiliswa (Ungalokothi Ulibale Konke Oku)

Ndiyenzile le nto kwiminyaka embalwa eyadlulayo xa ndafumanisa i-YBOP, kwaye [www.yourbrainrebalanced.com] ibilusana nje oluzalwe yimbewu echithiweyo yabaseki bethu (inkwenkwe ikhulile- ndiyacinga ukuba inento yokwenza nayo yonke 'amalungu anekratshi'

Kwandithatha inyanga ukufikelela kwiintsuku ezili-14 kuphela emva kokubuyela umva kwi-6 yeenyanga

Uninzi lwabantu luchaza umzabalazo wabo ngokubuyela kwakhona emva kokubuya kwakhona kwi-streak ende kwaye andingabikho. Emva kokugqithiswa koononopopayi nokuhlambalaza ngaphandle kweenyanga ze-6 kwaye ndafika kwinqanaba apho ndicinga ukuba andiyi kuphinda ndibuyele kumkhwa owawungumonakalo ebomini bam, ndifumene ndingakwazi ukufikelela kwiintsuku ze-4.

Kwakuyimibhobho ye-4 yesihogo kwaye ndaye ndahluke ngokuthe ngqo kwindoda ye-4 iveki eyadlulayo: ukunyamezela nokunyanzelisa ngokuguquguquka komsindo. Ukuxhalabisa ngokuqhelekileyo kwezentlalontle nokungakhathali, ukudandatheka kunye nezinye iziphumo ezichaphazelekayo ze-PMOIngxelo rhoqo.

Ndilahlekile kulawulo lobomi bam emva kokubambelela kulo. Into eyenze kwaba nzima nangakumbi ukuba ndamkele ukoyiswa kukuba ndaye ndazithandela ngokuzithandela ngaphandle kokubongoza- yayisisigqibo sobudenge esazi ukuba lo mkhwa uyingozi kangakanani.

Ke ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba iNoFap yayiyindawo ye-placebo, ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiqale ukubukela iphonografi 'ngamanye amaxesha'.

Ewe, ngamanye amaxesha ibijika ibeyimihla ngemihla, mihla le ijike ibe ngamanye amaxesha ngeentsuku ezithile… Imood yam iye yehla, bendingazukukhathazwa kukuzilolonga .. Andinakukhathazwa ndenza umgudu wokwenza izidlo ezisempilweni ngenxa yoko ndibiza nje microwaved ndaza ndazisa ngaphambili. Ndiziva ndidiniwe ngalo lonke ixesha, ndiziva ngathi ndiba nebala kunakuqala…

Ubuncinci ndibulele ilizwi entlokweni yam endixelela ukuba akukho nofap yayiyi-bullshit. Ixesha le-Sooooo lokuzama kwakhona, ndinqwenelele amathamsanqa! Ndithumele le nto ukuba nabani na ucinga ngokufanayo, mhlawumbi ukufunda oku kuya kukwenza ukuba ucinge kabini.

(UKUFUNDA)

Into oyichazayo yile ndlela nam ndibone ngayo. UZero unamandla okwenza nantoni na emva kokuzinkcinkca… I-Porn iyasinyusa.

Ukuphucuka okukhulu ebomini bam, kodwa….

Yonke into yayintle! Izibonelelo? Ngokubanzi ndingumntu onamandla, ndinomdla wokuhlala kunye nokufunda izinto ezintsha, kodwa ukongeza ndafumana amandla amaninzi. Ndaqala ukuphucula ngokwam; ukusebenza, ukuphucula ubuchule, ukufumanisa izakhono zentlalo, ukunciphisa ukulibaziseka, ukwenza izinto ezininzi! Ingqondo yam icacile, ndinokukwazi ukugxila lula, ngamanye amaxesha ndifumana imeko yokuhamba. Ngezinye iintsuku bendinokuhlala imini yonke ndifunde amanqaku okuphucula ngokwakho, ngolunye usuku ndivuke kwangoko ukuze ndingachithi usuku kwaye ndizame imisebenzi emininzi. Umlo wam weenyanga ezili-10 wawulungile.

Ngokukhawuleza kwinyanga ephelileyo ndohlulekile (ukukhangela i-reddit, ukucofa okumbalwa, nsfw sub kwaye uyazi ukuba yintoni kamva). Ndicinga ukuba kulungile, emva kwexesha elide kakhulu, ayinakuba yingozi, esi yayisisizathu sam. Emva kweveki ibali elifanayo, kwiintsuku ezimbalwa kamva kwakhona… ke utyekelo luyingozi kakhulu.

Kutheni ndiphumelele? Mhlawumbi ngenxa yokuba ndinexesha elikhululekileyo kunesiqhelo, mhlawumbi umlutha wam unamandla kakhulu kwaye ndawudlala (waphula umthetho wam). Ndiyoyika kakhulu, ke namhlanje ndithathe isigqibo sokulwa kwakhona! Ndifumene isahlulo esitsha senkuthazo, ngoku ndisisityebi esinamava. Ndiyazi ukuba luhambo lwam lude kakhulu, kodwa ndonwabile ukuya. Kutheni ndibhalela oku? Ngenxa yokuba lo likhoboka elinamandla, sukuba nzima kakhulu kuwe, kodwa soloko unyaniseka kwisiqu sakho, ulumkele ukuba likhoboka kwaye uhlale unethemba!

Ndahamba ngaphezu kweentsuku ze-100 (uxolo, ndayeka ukubala) akukho-PMO kunye nobudlelwane ngoku kunye nentombazana enkulu. Ngaba sasinokunyanzelwa ngalo lonke ixesha sisangana okanye sisenza, kodwa akukho sini kodwa. Ndisoloko ndiloluhlobo olufuna ukuhlala kakuhle nentombazana ngaphambi kokuba ihambe yonke indlela.

Ngoku ngeendaba ezimbi. Ndaqala kwakhona i-PMO'ing kwakhona kwiiveki ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo kwaye ndaziva ngathi ayinampembelelo kwimpumelelo yam. Ndisavuka kwimithi yasekuseni ndaye ndacinga ukuba ndiphilisiwe. Oko kwandenza ndazithemba kakhulu kwaye ndaqhubeka ndaya kwi-PMO kwiveki elandelayo.

Kancinci kodwa ngokuqinisekileyo ukulungiswa kwemini kunye neenkuni zentsasa zanyamalala kwaye zandikhulula ukuba yonke inkqubela phambili ihambe. Waqala ukuyeka kwakhona ngoFebruwari 10 okwenza namhlanje umhla we-5 we-PMO. Iindaba ezimnandi zokuba ndivuke kusasa namhlanje ndaya emithini kwakhona. Wow, andikholelwa ukuba ndichithe ixesha elininzi ndishiya kwaye ndibuyele emgibeni kwakhona. Ndiza kundwendwela le ndawo ngakumbi ukuze ndihlale ndilandele inkqubo.

Enye into eyandikhulula, xa ndandiyi-PMO'ing kwakhona, akukho zilungiso xa ndiwola okanye ndenza nentombazana yam. Ndiyoyika ukuba ndizibeke umva, ndinethemba lokuba andizibuyiseli kude kakhulu. Enkosi ngokufunda, ndiyathemba ukuba wonke umntu uhlala omelele kulo mlo.

Ubudala 25 - Ukusuka kwi-NEET ukuya kwi-alpha ukubuyela kwakhona ekuqwalaseleni kwakhona

Ndacinga ukuba ndibe nalo mama u-beat fucker. UThixo ndandiyiphutha

Ndenza iintsuku ze-90. Waqhawula kwaye wenza 150. Ubomi bam obushushu buyaguquka phambi kwam amehlo. Ubuhlobo bam kunye nentombi yam yazalwa kwakhona. Wandithembela kwaye wandihlonela ngeendlela endingazange ndicinga ngazo. Ndandithanda kwaye ndazihlonela ngendlela endingazange ndicinge.

Ndiziva ndikhula njengomntu. Ndacinga ukuba ndinalo mama fucker engxoweni. Ndacinga ukuba ndichitha amandla amaninzi kugxilwe kwi-NOT masturbating. Khange ndibhale kwaye ndicime ibheji yam. Ndiyekile ukuya kunyango xa ndiqala umsebenzi onzima othathe lonke ixesha lam ngeentsuku zeveki. Ndayeka ukuya kunyango lweqela. Ndiyekile ukwenza umsebenzi wokubuyisela. Ndaphinda ndabuya. Ndaphinda ndabuya kwakhona. Ndibuyele rhoqo ngeempelaveki kwinyanga ephelileyo.

Ndiyatyibilika. Ndiyilahla yonke. Ndiyaziva ndibuyela kum. Iqhezu lamandla am. Umntu ozingcayo. Akazithembi. Ukugxotha abanye. Ubuxoki. Ulawula.

Andinakuyenza le nto kwakhona. Irhoxisiwe. Ndiza kuba lapha ntsasa nganye kwikamva elibonakalayo. Ndayiseta kwakhona ikhawuntari yam. Ndifuna ukuxabisa usuku ngalunye lokuziva kwakhona. Andinalo ixesha lokubona ugqirha wam ngenxa yeshedyuli yomsebenzi wam, kodwa ekugqibeleni ndiza kuphendula ii-imeyile endaweni yokumhoya. Ndizakufumana into esengozini kunye neyokomoya ukuyenza ngeempelaveki.

Ndimele ndiyenze oku. Ndimele ndiqhubeke ndilwa. Ndacinga ukuba kuphelile, kodwa ndiphosakele. Le mpi ayinakuphela.

Kulungile bafo, ndide ndabuya ekuchitheni ihlobo lonke nentombi yam. Kwinyanga ezimbini ngoku ndiyahlala apho ahlala khona. Ndichitha ngokoqobo phantse yonke imihla kunye naye kwaye bendigqibile, ndiyathetha ngokupheleleyo, ndiphilisiwe kwi-ED yam emva kokuhlala ixesha elide kude ne-porn. Njengoko uxinzelelo lwam luphelile ndafumanisa ukuba ndakwazi ukwenza ngamanye amaxesha ukuya kwiintsuku ze-5 ngqo. Ukuhlala kude ne-porn kwenza ukuba kube lula ukufumana ulwakhiwo. Ukuncamisa okungenatyala! Into elandelayo uyazi ukuba unzima!

Ndiye kude nentombi yam iveki kunye nesiqingatha ngoku. Into eyoyikisayo kukuba, ngaphandle kwesondo, ndibuyele izihlandlo ezine kwiveki ephelileyo enesiqingatha. Ndizamile ukuyithethelela, kodwa inyani kukuba, ngaphandle kwesondo, ingqondo yam ngoku izama ukufumana “iziyobisi” zayo. Ndiyoyika njengesihogo ngoku njengoko ndiyazi ukuba yintoni imiphumo. Yiyo loo nto ndibuyile. Andinakuyenza. Ndiyenzile ngaphambili.

Kwesihlandlo sesibini, ndifuna inhlanhla.

Kunyaka ophelileyo ndazama i-nofap malunga neenyanga ze-3 kwaye, kufuneka ndivume ukuba lawo ngamanye amaxesha am imveliso kunye nolonwabo. Ndigxile kwikhondo lam lomsebenzi, ndabuyela esikolweni, ndaqala indlela entsha yokusebenza nokuzilolonga rhoqo. Ngelishwa, ndaphinda ndabuya kwimikhwa yam yakudala emva kweenyanga ezimbalwa kwaye yonke into yehla ukusuka apho. Kwandithatha malunga neenyanga ezili-9 ukuba ndiyixabise ngokwenene ubomi obungasekelwe "kuphela" malunga nokuvuswa kwezesondo kunye noononophala.

Nangona ndisaqhubeka nokuzibandakanya kwizinto endizithandayo kunye noqeqesho lwam, andikwazi ukukunika konke ngenxa yokuxhomekeka kwam kwisini, kwi-porn nakwisihlunu. Ndifuna ukukhululeka kwezi zinto ngonaphakade kwaye yiyo loo nto ndibuyela kuni njengoko benindimangalisa ngaphambili. Ndiyazi ukuba andinakulwa le ndedwa; Ngenkxaso yakho ndiyathemba ukuba ekugqibeleni ndiyakubetha i-monster ye-sex addiction eye yaxhoma entanyeni yam iminyaka eyi-15!

Emva koko ndakhubeka kwividiyo ye-TEDx eyayichaza umlutha woonwabo. Kwaye kwafana namazulu avulwe kum. Kwaye ndashiya i-porno ngaloo mini kwaye ndenza unyaka ongenawo umva. Yaye ya sebenza. Ukucima kwam kwandula, ndaqala ukuphumelela emsebenzini wam, ndaphuma ebhedeni lula, ndathatha kwimidlalo, ukufunda, njl. Ndaqalisa ukutshata kwikhompyutha kwaye ndafumana intombazana enhle ehlala kude kakhulu kwaye emva kwenyanga yokuxoxa kunye nokuthumela i-imeyile kwaye uye phambili wandicela ukuba ndize ndichithe ngeveki kunye naye. Nangona le ngcamango yayikukuba ndilala ebhedeni, andizange ndenze khona. Salala ngesondo (ngamanye amaxesha) ngeentsuku ze-3. Savumelanise ukuba ubudlelwane bekungenakwenzeka ngenxa yomgama kwaye sawuyeka ngeveki yokuzonwabisa.

Kwiinyanga ezimbalwa kamva ndadibana nentombazana ekufutshane kwaye yayikukuqhekeka kwangoko. Sasidibanise ngokukhawuleza kwaye ndamangaliswa ukuba wayevulekile kakhulu kwigumbi lokulala. Oku kwandenza andazithembi, andifuni ukuwa ngasemva (wayeqhutywa kakhulu). Ndaya kugqirha wam ndaza ndachaza i-ED yam, wandinika isampuli yeepilisi ze-4 Viagra ukuze andinike "ukuzithemba". Ndandingathembeki kwiViagra ke ndazama ukuthatha ipilisi yesiqingatha xa ndandindedwa. Ukucinga nje ngesondo kwandinika ibhoner eyakhelwe ukuhlala. Kulapho konke kungahambanga kakuhle.

Emva kokuba ubudlelwane bam buphelile (ungaze usebenzise iViagra) ndandindedwa emva kobudlelwane bezesondo obufana ne-porn. Ukuba nendlela eqinisekileyo yokuphuma kwi-ED yam ngeViagra kwaye ndingenantombi, umtyholi omncinci egxalabeni lam wathi: "masibe fap, uhlambulukile ngaphezulu konyaka, uyakwazi ukuphatha kanye ngeveki, awunyanzelekanga ukuba bukela iphonografi. ” Nam ke ndenzile. Ngaphambi kokuba ndiyazi ukuba ndibuyile apho bendineminyaka eyi-1.5 eyadlulayo ngaphambi kwevidiyo yeTEDx. Ukudakumba kwam kubuyile, umsebenzi wam wawusiya usiba buthuntu. Ndabuyela esikwereni. https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-accounts/rebooting-accounts-page-1/age-31-ed-depression-went-away-more-successful-at-my-job-and-relapse/

Ndibuyele kwakhona kabini ngale ntsasa emva kokophula ukuvuka kwam imihla ngemihla ndisiya kwindawo yokuzivocavoca. Ndithathe isigqibo sokuba ndifuna ukuvavanya ukuqhuba i-porsche boxter, kwaye okwesibini ndishiye indlu yam, ndaziva ngathi ndisebenzisa iziyobisi. Yonke indibaniselwano nomntu othengisayo yayixhumaxhuma, i-neracking racking, kwaye inzima. Ndihlala ndiyirhamncwa elinonxibelelwano lwasentlalweni. Khange ndikwazi ukuqhuba isantya esi-5 ngaphandle kokuxhuzula ngalo lonke ixesha, kwaye bendiqhuba ngemoto ixesha elide kwimoto yam yangoku (audi tt).

Nokuba ndiyichwetheza ngoluhlobo ndinokuthi inkqubo yam yokucinga yahluke mpela, amagama am onke aqhekeziwe kwaye andikhathazeki nokulungisa iimpazamo zopelo ngendlela endiqhele ukwenza ngayo. Ndiye ndafumanisa ukuba ukuba ndizifumana ndisebenza kakuhle, okanye ndibukela iphonografi, oko kubonisa ngokuthe ngqo ukuba ubomi bam abufanelanga ukuba bube njalo. UNGAZE UPHINDE UbuyeLE. FUCK Andilindelanga ingomso xa le nkungu icacisa kancinci… ngesitalato19iintsuku 4

Iposi lam lokuqala apha ngo-2011 lindishwankathele. Ndiyifunde nje. Emva kokuya kubanda turkey kwaye ndiziva ndibhetele kakhulu, ndifunga i-PMO, ndiye ndaphinda ndabuya amaxesha aliqela alandelwa yimicimbi ye-ED kwaye ndinengxaki yokugcina naluphi na uhlobo lobudlelwane bexesha elide. Qaphela: ayisihambelani ngokuthe ngqo kuyo nayiphi na imiba ethile yesondo. Nangona kunjalo, i-Porn Porn yaba yinto yokuphila kwakhona kum ngokudabukisayo. Hayi ngokuqatha njengangaphambili, kodwa ukuzinkcinkca ngotywala kusaqhubeka nokuphuma. Emva koko kwafika uhambo lwaphesheya kolwandle apho ndaziswa kulwelo olungenaxabiso eliphantsi olusekwe kwi-viagra endikhe ndaphinda ndalusebenzisa ndaza ndalucima isithuba seminyaka embalwa ukususa naluphi na uxinzelelo okanye imiba yokusebenza enxulumene ne-ED. Ndikwi-40s yam yee-mid kwaye akukho mfuneko yokuba ndixhomekeke kwezo zinto!

Into ephambili kum okwangoku nokuba ndifumana ukulungiswa andiziva kakhulu. Andiziva ngathi ndothukile. Ndibona umntu onokuthi abe mandundu ke ngoku ndaneeveki ezimbalwa ndisiya kwi-PMO ndizama ukubuyisa ibhalansi kwakhona kwaye ndiziva ndiqhelekile. Ndiyathemba ukuba ndingayikhaba le nto ngokulungileyo ngeli xesha.

Ibali eliGqala eliWileyo, kunye nokuqwalaselwa okuthile emva kokuba ndibuyile kwicala elimnyama

Ndiqale i-streak yami yangaphambili ku-Sept 2012, ngaba i-mode ye-90 yimihla ekhuni kwimizamo yam yokuqala, kwaye yayihlabelela izidumiso ze-nofap. Kwakuguqula ubomi. Ubungakanani bamandla kunye nokuzithemba endikuyo malunga nomhla we-90 wamangalisa.

Kwadlula iinyanga ezimbalwa, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyeke ukulinda. Iphonografi yayingasavuyisi kum, kodwa amantombazana enxibe iimpahla ezi-skimpy ngokuqinisekileyo ayenjalo, ke ndaye ndazifumana ndihamba ngeNetflix yeemovie ze-B ezibonisa ulusu. Kodwa ayiyiyo iphonografi, akunjalo? Kwaye andizichukumisi, kulungile, akunjalo?

Uyakwazi ukuxelela apho oku kuhamba khona. Kwathatha inyanga kuphela ukuba ihambe ngokukhawuleza kwinkqubela yam, ukuya kwindawo apho iqala malunga nenyanga eyedlulileyo, ndiye ndiwa phantsi kakhulu kwindlela yokukhangela amaxesha ambalwa ngeveki, kunye neeseshoni eziqhelekileyo zeeyure ezininzi. Mka. Iinyanga ezixhenxe, indoda.

Ukuba ujonga emva kwizithuba zam zasebutsheni bonyaka, uyabona ukuba ndithethe nzima kangakanani ngale nto kwaye ukuba ndiyithathe ngokungathí sina kangakanani. Andazi nyani ukuba kwenzeke ntoni. Uxinzelelo lomsebenzi mhlawumbi buthathaka isigqibo sam. Ekupheleni kosuku, ndenza ezo zigqibo ezikhokelela ekubeni ndilahlekelwe ngumzila wam kwaye ndibuyele kwimikhwa yakudala.

Ukuba kukho into elungileyo kula mava, kukuba ngoku ndinokuthelekiswa okuhle kwe-ABA yobomi kunye nangaphandle kokufota.

Ukususela ekubuyiseni ekuzaleni, ndinayo:

• Inkohlakalo yengqondo
• Lethargy
• Ukuthanda rhoqo
• Akukho maphupha ebusuku
• Ukuzonwabisa okuncitshiswayo ngokwesini

Akufanelekanga ukuba uhlale uhamba ebomini bam. Ke ndiqala umzamo ohlaziyiweyo namhlanje wokuyeka. Inye kuphela into endizakuyikhankanya yile ndlela inzima yile INKQUBO EPHAKATHI KUNYE kunemo elula.

Ukubuyiselwa kwakhona, kodwa waphinde waxhama. Ukugqitywa kwesibini ukupheliswa

Ubudala 19 - Uvavanyo lwam ngeNoFap. Iyasebenza kwaye ayisiyi-placebo!

Ah nditsibe. Kwiintsuku ezingama-318 kamva kwaye ndibuyele apho bendiqale khona.

Phantse kunyaka odlulileyo, ndaqalisa i-nofap kwaye yatshintsha ubomi bam. Ndineentembelo namandla okufumana intombi. Kwaye kwakuhle

Phezolo sihlukene. Andiqondi ukuba ibinguye, kodwa ukuya esiphelweni sobudlelwane bethu ndiye ndaqala ukubhengeza ukubetha. Sasingahlali ngesondo ngokufuthi njengoko sasiqhele ukwenza, ke ndiye ndaqala ukubhukuda eshawini, okanye ngelixa wayelele okanye enye into.

Emva koko ndandifuna i-pornography, ngoko ndakhangela ezinye, ndacinga ukuba lixesha elide kwaye andiyi kuba ngumlutha. Kodwa ndenzile. Ndifakwe njenge-4, amaxesha e-5 izolo kwaye ndiziva ngathi ndilahlekile kwakhona.

Kwakhona ndazuza i-20lbs kwaye ndaqala ukutshaya kwakhona.

Nditshele. Ndiyifumana kwakhona ubomi bam ndawonye. Ndandiyi-1 ngonyaka nje kuphela.

Ndicinga ngoononophala njengento yokungezwani komzimba, njenge-peanut allergies. Kumntu onengxaki yokutya amandongomane, amandongomane “awekho mabi” okanye “mabi” ayinto nje ekuthiwa umntu akanakuba nayo, njengoko kuya kubakho iziphumo. Umntu onomdla uyayamkela le nto. Kwisidlo sangokuhlwa, xa abahlobo babo besitya amandongomane, ababamoneli abahlobo babo, okanye babajongele phantsi ngenxa yokutya zona. Sele bamkele ukuba abahambelani namandongomane.

Kuyafana kakhulu ne-porn. Kukho abantu phaya abangaxhomekeki kwi-porn kwaye banokuyisebenzisa kakuhle kwaye ngokumodareyitha. Ndithi amandla ngakumbi kubo. Kodwa thina sonke singamakhoboka, kufuneka samkele ukuba thina ne-porn asihambelani. Ukusebenzisa iphonografi kunemiphumo kuthi. Kufuneka siyamkele loo nto kwaye siqhubeke nobomi bethu.

Xa uziva ngathi yonke into iyahla, kodwa uyazi ukuba i-nofap ingakusindisa.

Ndikhe ndasokola no-ED malunga nonyaka ngoku kwaye bendihlala ndirhubuluze kule subreddit kangangeminyaka, ndicinga ukuba kuyahlekisa ngamanye amaxesha ngenxa yamandla amakhulu oothunyelwayo abanye benu obakhankanyileyo. Nangona kunjalo bendisakholelwa kwinto eyathethwa nguGary Wilson kwintetho yakhe yeTEDx. Nangona kunjalo, emva kokufumana izizathu ngokuzingisileyo ndiza kuyenza kakuhle le nto ngoku… ngoba? Kuba ndaya kwinyanga ephelileyo kwiintsuku ezingama-23 ndingakhange ndibukele iphonografi kwaye uDick wam wabuya waphila.

Ndandisoloko ndihamba ngezikhathi ezithile ngcamango kodwa ndiyaqonda ukuba i-pornography yingxaki enkulu. U-dick wam ekugqibeleni wabuya wabuya emva kwezo ntsuku ze-23. Kodwa ngoku ndikumhla we-4 kuphela emva kokuba ndifumene esinye isizathu sokubuyela umva kwi-porn. Kodwa ngoku ndinentombi emangalisayo kwaye eshushu kodwa ndiziva ndibuhlungu kuba andinakuhlala nzima kuye. Ndinokuba nzima kodwa akunzima ngokwaneleyo.

Andazi ukuba ndingajongana njani nale meko, bendimvulele kwaye ndinyanisekile kuye ngayo yonke into kodwa ndiziva ndikhathazekile kwaye ndilahlekile ngoku. Ndiyazi ukuba kuzothatha ixesha ngaphambi kokuba sibe neentlobano zesini ezifanelekileyo kwaye oku kuyanditshabalalisa ngaphakathi. Ukuba andikwazi nokwenza into ekufuneka siyilelwe kwimfuza, ndisebenzisa ntoni?

Ndaya kugqirha malunga neenyanga ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo wandixelela ukuba yonke into ilungile, bendinamanqanaba aphezulu ngokungaqhelekanga e-testosterone, kodwa ke kufuneka ndihlale kwindawo yokuhlala eyunivesithi apho bonke abahlobo bam bebaleka kwaye bekwazi ukwahlukana ukususela kum. Oku kundibulala ngaphakathi, yiyo loo nto naliphi na icebiso okanye inkxaso iya kuthakazelelwa kakhulu.

Into endiyaziyo ngoku kukuba ekugqibeleni, kwaye ndingatsho ngentliziyo iphela, ndizibophezele ekubeni ndingasabukeli iphonografi kwaye mhlawumbi ndingafaki nokuba lithutyana. Ndingayifumana njani i-drive yam yesondo ngokukhawuleza, andifuni ukonakalisa ubudlelwane bam ngokwesondo nentombi yam entsha.

Iiveki ze-9 zam zomzamo wokuqalisa kwakhona zahamba ngokukhawuleza: -kubi: ukujikeleza, iminqweno, isini esingaqhelekanga kunye neengxaki ze-ED- konke oku kwacutha ukubuyela kwam kwakhona. Emva koko ndazifumana sendindodwa kwindlu ene-Intanethi kwaye ndingenayo inkqubo yokuhluza. Ndoda, ndibuyele umva kwakhona.

Iphonografi yonke imihla, amaxesha ama-2-3 ngosuku. Into eyoyikisayo-ukubuyela ekhaya, kundithathe malunga neveki ukuseta izihluzi zam kwakhona Uninzi lwayo yonke, kuyamangalisa indlela uxinzelelo lwe-porn endenze ngayo !!! Ndandisoyika ukuphuma, ukudibana nabantu, ukuthatha unonophelo kwimicimbi yam yobungcali. Ezi ntsuku ze-10 zokuphinda ubuye kwi-porn zindibuyisele umva ngaphambi kokuba ndiqalise ukuqala kwakhona!

Isiphelo? Ukuqalisa kwakhona kukude kwaye kunzima. Kwaye ukuba ubuyela umva, ikubuyisela umva. Ndaziva ngathi ndenze iiveki ezingama-20 ezidlulileyo. Ngethamsanqa, ukuqala kwakhona okutsha kuhamba ngokukhawuleza kunexesha lokugqibela. Kwiintsuku ezi-2, ndingathi ndiye phambili iintsuku eziyi-3.5 ubuncinci.

(I-ED eyenziwe ngoonobumba, iintsuku ezingama-50 kungekho-PMO, ukubuyela kwakhona kwiintsuku ezimbalwa) Emva kwesithuba sam sokugqibela, ndaya kwezinye iiveki ze-2 ngaphandle kwe-PMO. Ndalala ngesondo nomfazi wam. Kwakumnandi kakhulu. Ndiyibonile ngokuqinisekileyo indlela i-ED ephucula ngayo ngokuyeka / ukuvuselela. Kwiflipside, ndaziva ukuba iqhume ngendlela engalunganga. Ndaqala ukukhangela ngomhla we-P ngentsasa kwaye ndithintela ngeentsuku ze-7. Ndandinandipha ukukwazi ukufumana iM nge-erection efanelekileyo yenguqu.

Ndiqale kanye ngemini, ndikhokelela kumaxesha ama-2 nangeentsuku ezi-2, ndaya ku-3. Ndaba nokunyuka okukhawulezayo (ndaphambanisa ukuba ndiqokelele ngokukhawuleza kangakanani ingqokelela enkulu yeP (iigigs ezili-100!) Bendisazi / ndiyazi ukuba oku kungabeka emngciphekweni inkqubela phambili endiyenzileyo, kodwa andikhathalelanga kwinqanaba elithile.

Okwangoku ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyeke. Ndizicime ngokukhawuleza iifayile zam zekhompyuter kwaye ndayikhupha kwisoftware kwaye ndaqala kwakhona. Iintsuku ze-3 ngoku, kwaye ndiziva ndonwabile. Ndayeka ukuzilolonga iintsuku ezili-10 ndaza ndaqala phantsi.

Ukusuka koku, ndiye ndafunda ukuba andikwazi ukuba yi-PMOer engaqhelekanga. Ithambeka elimtyibilizi ukuya kumlutha opheleleyo. Gcina amehlo akho kumvuzo. Ukuphazamiseka kunye nosizi endikhe ndadlula kulo ngexesha lokucaba (ukutshintsha kwemozulu, ukungazinzi, iintloko,) ayisiyiyo into endifuna ukuyifumana kwakhona. Ndiyazi ngokupheleleyo ukuba i-PMO yindlela enye yetikiti kwi-brokerick.

Andifuni ukuphulukana nexesha elininzi kwi-PMO ukuze ndenze izinto ezizalisekisayo. Andifuni ukuziva ndinetyala / ukungazithembi / ukuphulukana nokunyaniseka okundibethileyo xa ndizonwabisa. Ndibuyele enqwelweni.

Ndayifumana intombazana

La mava andoyikisa nge-PMO ngonaphakade. Andikwazi ukufumana i-boner ebomini bam kwaye kwakunzima njenge-fuck, kwakunzima kakhulu kunye neentloni, andiziva ngathi ndiyindoda, bekuyinto eyoyikisayo. Andizange ndicinge ukuba i-PIED inokwenzeka kum kuba ayikaze yenzeke ngaphambili, kodwa bendisazi ukuba kukho into engalunganga xa i-dick yam ijongeka ngathi ineminyaka eyi-8. Ndijonga amandla am ezesondo ahluke ngokupheleleyo ngoku, ndiyaqonda ukuba kuluncedo kangakanani ukwakha imigca emide.

Ndingabantu ababini abahluke ngokupheleleyo xa ndingu-PMO mihla le xa kuthelekiswa naxa ndingakhange ndigxothwe kwiinyanga. Khawukhumbule nje ingozi ye-PMO kunye nokuxhatshazwa ngokwesondo, ziyinyani, oku kuvela kumntu oye waziphindaphinda wabuya nzima. Ndivakalelwa kukuba ndifuna ukuzikhupha kuluntu okwethutyana de ndibuyele kwinto yam yesiqhelo, yindlela endiziva ndibuhlungu ngayo kwaye yindlela aphantsi ngayo amanqanaba wam amandla ngoku, ndiziva ngathi ndibuyela kwi-heroin.

Okokugqibela, ungaze uvumele umntu akuqinisekise ukuba ukuphulula amaphambili kulungile. Elo liqela leenkomo ezikholelwa ngabantu abaninzi. Nceda uvumele ibali lam elibuhlungu likukhuthaze kwaye liqinise inkolelo yakho malunga neNoFap.

Ngosuku lwe-87 lokuyeka i-PMO, ndaye ndalala ngesondo kunye nentombazana endadibana nayo ethekweni. Umtsalane wam kubomi bokwenyani babasetyhini babuphucule kakhulu, kwaye yayilelinye lawona maxesha amyoli endakha ndawenawo kwixesha elide. Ndandinengxaki yokungasebenzi kakuhle kwe-erectile kunye nokulibaziseka kwe-ejaculation kwiminyaka eyi-6-7 ngaphandle kokuqonda eyona nto yayingahambi kakuhle. Kuya kuthatha ngonaphakade ukuba ndifumane i-erection kunye neninzi yokuvuselela intombazana, ngoko ukuba ekugqibeleni ndakwazi ukufumana ukulungiswa ngokupheleleyo ngesondo ndiza kuhlala ngonaphakade ngaphambi kokuba ndigqibe, ndithetha njengemizuzu engama-45 kunye .

Emva kweentsuku ze-87 ndafumana ukulungiswa ngokukhawuleza, kwaye ndiza kuthi isondo sahlala siqhelekile 5-10 imizuzu… kwaye elona candelo lililo kukuba liziva likhulu! Kwakunganyanzelwanga, andizami ukwenza okanye ukukhathazeka malunga nento endiyenzayo, kwakungokwemvelo kwaye kumnandi. Ngomhla we-87 andizange ndive i-100% yonyango, kodwa ndandilungile ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndilale ngesondo. Emva kwenyanga yokulala ngesondo ndaziva ngathi i-100% yonyango. Ndalala ngesondo kunye nentombazana amaxesha ambalwa kwinyanga ezayo, kodwa kwakucacile ukuba obu bubudlelwane bexesha elifutshane. Khange sicofe ngokwaneleyo ukuyenza into yexesha elide, ke ekugqibeleni yachithwa, eyayilungile ndim.

Emva koko ndagqiba kwelokuba ndivumele ukuba ndiqale ukuhlaziya i-masturbating kwakhona, kodwa kanye kanye ngeveki, kwaye kuphela kwintlungu yesandla sam ngaphandle kwefantasy (into engenakuze ndiyenze ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale apha)

Kodwa ngokuthe ngcembe ndaqala ukuphulula amalungu esini kabini ngeveki, emva koko ezintathu kunye neengcinga zesondo zaqala ukubuyela engqondweni yam ngexesha lokuphulula amalungu esini… okwangoku ndandiselungile.

Ngeli xesha ke ndandibethwa lixesha elinzima ebomini bam. Omnye wabazali bam kwafunyaniswa ukuba unomhlaza wesibindi, kwaye yimeko embi kakhulu ngelishwa. Ndaphazamiseka ekuqaleni, ke ndiye ndaqala ukusebenzisa iphonografi kunye ne-masturbation ukuze undinike ikhefu ngokukhawuleza kwinyani yam entsha. Ndayisebenzisa kabini ngemini ngokomyinge ngaphezulu kwenyanga. Isihogo siyasebenza. Andazi ukuba ngendilele kanjani ebusuku ngaphandle kwayo. Kodwa xa izinto zaqala ukuhlala phantsi kwakhona, ndiye ndabona ukuba bendiqala ukufumana iimpawu ezifanayo nezindikhokelela kule ndawo kwasekuqaleni. Ndilahlekelwe kukuzithemba kwam ngokwesondo kwakhona.

Ndonwabile ukunika ingxelo ngoku ekubeni bendiyi-PMO simahla kwiintsuku zokugqibela ze-8. Ndiyenzile kwakanye ngaphambili kwaye ndiqinisekile ukuba ndiza kulifumana ngeli xesha. Ndicinga ukuba ndigqibile ukuphulula amalungu esini ngonaphakade. Ndiyesaba xa ndiqala ukuba ekugqibeleni ndiza kungena kwiibinki. Kufana nendlela isiselo esinxilisayo esingenakuba nayo ibhiya kube kanye ngexeshana.

(Lo mfo khange akwazi ukufumana umhlaba ophakathi okwangoku) Kutheni umngeni we-90 umngeni usasa!

 Kwiintsuku ze-150 ukuya kwi-0. Into endiyibonayo.

Enye inxalenye enkulu eyenza i-nofap iqhube i-gym rhoqo. Ukuba undibuza, oku kuyona nto ibaluleke kakhulu. Ndandiye ukuya kwi-gym inyanga edlulileyo ngenxa yentsebenziswano eninzi yoluntu kunye nabahlobo abatsha.

Ewe, kwiveki ephelileyo ndifumene isitshixo seentsuku ezisixhenxe ze-mmorpg entsha kwaye… ndiyekile ukutya, ukunxulumana, ukungafaki..walinde ntoni ??! ewe! ngenxa yokukruquka ndandivele ndifake ngaphandle kokucinga ngento endiyenzayo. Ndaqala ukuphinda ndiphinde ndiphinde 7-3 amaxesha ngosuku njenge-pre-nofap kwaye oh thixo wam waziva ulungile… ngalo mzuzu. Iintsuku zokuqala ndandifana "Kulungile oku kulungile, ndicinga ukuba i-nofap yayiyinto nje ye-placebo" kodwa ngoku emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa kamva ndiye ndabona nje ukuba fucking REAL akukho fap. Ndiyawuva ke umahluko ngoku. Iindlela zam zokucinga zahluke kwaphela, ndiziva ngathi ndifuna ukuphepha abanye kwaye ndibesele ndindedwa, ndingathethi kakhulu, andazi ukuba mandithini… Ndivele andathetha kwaye ndiyazibuza nje, YENZEKA njani ukuba ndibenjalo umntu owahlukileyo? Ayinakuba yindawo ye-placebo.

Ekubeni i-yersterday ndise-nofap kwakhona kwaye ndaya kwi-gym. Kwafuneka ndikhuphe oku. I-Nofap + yokuzivocavoca ubomi.

Ubudala be-17 [Ayinakuphinda ibuye]

Ndikwindawo emnyama kwaye andinako ukuzikhuthaza ngayo. Ndiziva ngathi i-ED ihambile kwaye ibuyile nentombi yam (kodwa ayonelanga ukundikhuthaza ukuba ndiyeke i-PMO), ndiye ndafumana ubunzima (kodwa abonelanga ukundikhuthaza ukuba ndiyeke i-PMO), imeko yam iye yaqaqamba nolusu kubi (kodwa akonelanga ukundikhuthaza ukuba ndiyeke i-PMO), andizithembi kangako (kodwa hayi eno ……)

Bona umkhwa? Kwindawo yam efanelekileyo yokuziyeka, ndaye ndaya kwi-ED epheleleyo, i-chubby, ukungazithembi njlnjl ukuya kwi-erections elungileyo kwaye ndakrazula. Ndiye ndambi ngakumbi kuzo zombini, kodwa andonelanga ukundiqhubela ukuba ndenze into malunga nayo.

Andisafuni 'ukufunda kunye nokuthumela kwiiwebhusayithi zokubuyisa amanyala

Bafo, ndimoshile kakubi. Emva kweminyaka emibini-kunye ne-pornfree streak, ndiyeka kancinci ndibuyele kwakhona. Ngoku ndibuyile kwisikwere sokuqala: I-PIED, ukuzithemba okubi, imisebenzi. Ungabi ndim.

Kwiminyaka emibini edlulileyo bendindiza phezulu. Ndoyisile umlutha wamanyala kwaye ndandifumana ubomi obumangalisayo. Ekugqibeleni ndandingumntu oqhelekileyo, ndonwabela ukusondelelana njengokwemvelo. Akusekho i-PIED, akusekho xhala, akusekho mvakalelo yokungabalulekanga. Andiyi kuphinda ndihlaziye xa ndingenakukufumana. Yonke loo nto yayiyeyokudlulileyo. Akukho.

Ndathuthela kwelinye ilizwe ndadibana nebhinqa elimangalisayo. Unxibelelwano lwethu lwalumangalisa: eyona intle endakha ndayibona. Ukufezekisa ngokumangalisayo, kubandakanya kwinqanaba lokomoya. Ndingu Homo sapiens, usebenze kwisenzo sokunqula apho bonke ubomi (okanye ubuninzi bomi, ubuncinane) bahlula. Yeka indlela ebonakala ngayo iphosi ephosakeleyo! Yeyona nto inengqondo encinci kwaye iyinqaba, njani nciphisa, ukucingela kunye nokukhohlisa!

Kuze kube ngelinye ilanga ndajonga phezulu ividiyo yabasetyhini abaneempahla ezinkulu. Ilungile, Ndandixelela. Banxibile! Oku akuyiyo imifanekiso engamanyala. Nokuba kunjalo, kunjalo hlukile Ukusuka kwiminqweno yam yakudala, ayinakuba nefuthe kwingqondo yam ngeendlela ezifanayo ezimbi. Ilizwe endihlala kulo ngoku (ilizwekazi liphela, enyanisweni) linemibono eyahlukileyo yento e-sexy xa ithelekiswa neNtshona, kwaye ngokusisiseko ndize ndiyifumane (nokuba kungokuzazisa, okanye kuba yile nto bendihlala ndiyifumana inomtsalane kwaye bendiyiqonda nje) ukuba yinto yam kanye leyo. Inyani yayiyeyona hlukile (okanye ngoko ndacinga) yenzekile, engqondweni yam.

Ngoko ndaqhubeka nobudlelwane bam, kodwa ndaqala ukubukela ezi vidiyo nazo. Kungekudala ndabuyela kumjikelezo we-PMO. Oku akusiyo iphonografi! Ndazixelela, njengoko ndanditshaya kwaye ndineyure elide ndibukele iividiyo ze-butt kwi-intanethi.

Iinyanga zaqala ukudlula. Khange ndibone iinkuni zemithi. Kwahlukile! Ndaphinda ndiziphindaphinde, nditsho xa ndiqala ukubukela iividiyo apho kubandakanyeka khona ubuze, emva koko iividiyo ezinokuthi zichongwe njenge-porn nangokona kuchazwa kulondolozo.

Ibali elifutshane elifutshane, intombi yam kunye nami sahamba. Ulwalamano lwethu lwaluxinzeleleke kwiinyanga ezimbalwa, kwaye ngokungathandabuzekiyo umkhwa wobulili obusandul 'ukuvuselelwa wawunento enokuyenza ngayo. Sonke sagqiba ekubeni sithatha ixesha lokuba sibe yinto engcono kakhulu.

Izolo, ndidibana nomntu omkhulu ekuhambeni komsebenzi, kwaye into enye ikhokelela kwenye. Unokucinga ukuba kwenzekani. Yonke loo minyaka yenkqubela ayifanelekanga nto. Ndandingumfana oxhalabileyo kwakhona, omnye onokuqhaqhaqhazelayo, odidekile, ebudeni bezinyembezi. Wahlala apho phakathi kwam imilenze, eyinqindi kwaye efile, ngelixa ndazama ukuyilungiselela ngokwenza ezinye izinto kuye. Umjikelezo oqhelekileyo weepatheni zengcamango waphuma kwakhona. Ukuxhalaba, ukuhlazeka, ukuthukuthela; i-loop yengxelo eyenza yonke into ibe yimbi ngakumbi.

Andizange ndive ndingenanto nto ebomini bam.

Malunga nesiqingatha sonyaka ndikwazile ukuyilungisa yonke into endiyisebenzele nzima. Ndibuyele emazantsi entaba, ndijongise engqungqutheleni, njengakwiintsuku zakudala ezimbi. Ulwalamano lwam, ukuzithemba kwam, ukuzithemba kwam - konke kulahliwe. Ke sukuyenza impazamo yam. Musa ukudlulwa kukuziva ukhuselekile! Iziyobisi zethu zikhohlakele, kwaye baya kwenza nantoni na abanokuyenza ukuze babuyele ezingqondweni zethu.

Kwangelo xesha, ngumhla wam omtsha 1.

Emva kweentsuku ezingama-649, ndibuyisela ibheji yam kwakhona.

Ndayiphilisa ngokupheleleyo. Ndinezinto zonke, kwaye ndilahlekile. Nali ibali lokuba i-nofap yatshintsha njani ubomi bam, kwaye kufuneka ndiqalise kwakhona kwakhona.

Ehlotyeni ezimbini ezidlulileyo ndiqale ukuthatha ngokungathandabuzekiyo i-nofap. Ngaphambi koko, andikwazi ukufikelela ngaphaya kweentsuku ezisixhenxe. Khange ndiphumelele de ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndichithe iveki okanye kude endlwini yam ngaphandle kwefowuni yam. Ndalala esofeni ndiboleke iifowuni zabahlobo bam ukwenza umnxeba. Ngaphandle kweziphazamiso ndazenza kwiintsuku ze-10.

Emva kokuphumelela okokuqala ndaya kwiintsuku ze-90. Iziphumo zazimangalisa. Ndilahlekelwe iiplani ze-35 ngaloo hlobo, ndaqala ukumbona intombazana enhle, kwaye ndalala kunye nobusuku obunye ubusuku obunye. Amandla amakhulu ayenene ngokwenene. Emva kokubamba iiplati eziqhekezayo kwiiveki ezimbalwa zonke zibuye ziphindwe kabini. Ndaphuma ndakwazi ukufumana nayiphi na intombazana ukuba ndibe neyona nto ingqalelo kum, ukuba ingakwazi ukubenza bahambe kum.

Olona tshintsho lubalulekileyo ebomini bam, yayikukuba emva kwelo hlobo ndaye ndaqala ukuthandana eyona ntombazana intle, kwaye sihleli kunye. Ndathweswa isidanga kwikholeji ndaza ndamkelwa kwisikolo esiphumeleleyo. Kude kube ziinyanga ezimbini okanye ezintathu ezidlulileyo, khange ndiphinde ndibuyele kwaphela. Ubomi bethu bobulili babumangalisa, ndihlala ndizele ngamandla, kwaye ndalala njengomntwana. Okona kubaluleke kakhulu, andizange ndithande ngokupheleleyo iifoto. Ekuphela kwento enokundiguqula kukunxibelelana ngokwenene nentombazana.

Ndiye ndabuya kwakhona. Yonke yaqala xa kwakufuneka ndichithe malunga neveki kude nentombi yam. Ndinikezele ndaza ndacinga ukuba “ndiyenzile le nto, ngokuqinisekileyo ndingabuyela esiqhelweni”. Bendingalunganga. Okwexeshana kwakubi kakhulu. Buyela kuyo yonke imikhwa yam emibi. Iziphumo: Ndiqale ukutyeba. Ndandingenomdla kwisini. Abantu bebehlala bendibuza ukuba ndiyagula na. Khange ndikwazi ukulala ebusuku.

Andazi ukuba kutheni kuthathe ixesha elide ukuyifumana. Nokuba yintoni, ndilapha, ukuqala ngaphezulu. Ndiyazi ukuba kufuneka ndibuyisele kwakhona kwakhona.

Ngandlela thile, ndiyaphoxeka kwaye ndidimazekile. Ngayo yonke impumelelo yam andikholelwa ukuba ndibuyile apho bendiqale khona.

Ngandlela thile, ndimpompoza ngekamva. Andinakulinda ndiphumelele kwakhona. Andinakulinda ndilawule ubomi bam kwakhona.

Ngapha koko, ndiza kuseta ibheji yam kamva. Ndihleli malunga neentsuku ezintathu nangayiphi na indlela. Ndicinga nje ukuba ndiza kwabelana nani bafana. Ukuba uphumelele, sukukhululeka. Ukuba awuphumelelanga, ungadimazeki. Kukho into enje kule; iyasebenza ngokwenene.

I-TLDR: Kwiminyaka emibini eyadlulayo, i-nofap yabutshintsha ubomi bam ukuba bube ngcono. Iziphumo zazimangalisa. Oko ndaye ndabuya umva, kwaye iziphumo ziye zayintlekele. Ngoku ndiqala ngaphezulu. Kuyathandeka ukuqala konke, kodwa ndonwabile ngekamva.

UKUHLELA: Kubonakala ngathi kukho ukudideka. Bendifanele ukuba ndicace gca. Ndabuyela malunga neenyanga ezimbini ezidlulileyo. Kuthathe kude kube ngoku ukuba ndenze indoda kwaye ndizibophelele kwenye into yokuqalisa kwakhona. Iintsuku ezingama-649 ngokwenene zilungile nangona kunjalo. Phantse kanye kwiminyaka emibini eyadlulayo xa ndandiqala i-streak yam. Ndithintela izinto ezinje nge-reddit, ke andiyibuyisanga ibheji yam ndade ndaya malunga nenyanga okanye ezimbini.