I-Oct 13 (usuku lwe-22)
Ndiyiminyaka eyi-21 kwaye bendijonge iphonografi kwinqanaba elinyukayo lamandla ukusukela ndineminyaka eyi-12. Andikwazi ukuthetha ukuba ndakhe ndazicingela ukuba ndiyilwaphulo loononophala, endiyazi ukuba mhlawumbi ibango, kodwa andiqinisekanga ukuba ngaba ndikhe ndaye ndanyanzelwa ukuba ndibukele mhlawumbi njengabanye . Nangona bendifuna ngakumbi ngakumbi nangakumbi izinto ezintsha kunye ezahlukeneyo ukuba ndonwabe kwaye ndigcine 'ukukhawuleza'.
Ewe ndicinga ukuba konke kwaqala xa ndandineminyaka eyi-8 okanye eyi-9. Kwakungekho imifanekiso engamanyala njengolwazi, ndiyaqikelela. Kodwa bekukho imifanekiso yabasetyhini abahamba ze kwaye nangona bendinga 'horny' ngokuqinisekileyo bendinomdla wale mifanekiso. Kwakunjalo xa ndandiye ndihlale endlwini katata wam (abazali bam baqhawula umtshato ndisemncinci kakhulu). Wayenayo enye yeekhalenda ezingamanyala ezothusayo malunga nexesha elifanayo (Uyazi, uhlobo abathengisi abathanda ukulujikeleza) kwaye bendiya kuthi ndijonge, ndichukumiseke ngokupheleleyo. Ngelo xesha ndafumana uncedo oluhle lweBaywatch kunye nexesha lasebusuku lokuphila ngokwesondo. Yiza nokucinga ngayo ndinezinto ezimbalwa ezinefuthe kwingqondo yam encinci kuloo minyaka…
Xa ndandimalunga ne-11 okanye ke ndafumanisa ukuphulula amalungu esini. Ukufumanisa ukuba ukwaneliseka kwangoko kwakusentendeni yesandla sam kwamkeleka njengokumangalisayo. Bendidla ngokuphulula amalungu omzimba de ndide ndifikelele kuhlobo oluthile lwe-orgasm. Kulungile, ukuba ungayibiza oko. Ndiyathetha, akukho nto yaphuma kwelo nqanaba kwaye yandikhathaza kancinci. Zange ndiyazi ukuba imdaka kangakanani enokuthi ifike xa ekugqibeleni iyenzile .. Ngeli xesha, ndandifuna nje ukhuthazo lomzimba kunye nefani engaqhelekanga ye-sexy. Kodwa ndiye ndaqala ukujonga imodeli yangaphantsi kwiikhathalogu kwaye ukuba ndifumene Cosmopolitan Imagazini ekhaya, bendidla ngokuthatha uhambo lokuya ngasese kwindlu yangasese nayo (kuye kwafuneka ndibelane ngegumbi lokulala).
Ukususela ngelo xesha ukuya malunga ne-13 yiyo yonke into endandinayo. Ngeli nqanaba ndincancisa amantombazana kwimidaniso yesikolo kwaye oku kuye kwandenza ndaba nemincili. Indlela ye 'up tuck' yokufihlwa yafundwa kwaye yaqhutywa ngesantya se-ninja. Kwakumdala ngeli xesha ndifumana iisayithi ze-porn kwi-Intanethi. Besinokucofa nje kuphela ngenxa yoko bendisaphelelwe yimifanekiso kwaye mhlawumbi isampulu ye20 yesibini yesampula. Kwiholide zesikolo ngamanye amaxesha ndihlala kude kube sebusuku kwaye ndichithe iiyure ndizikhuphele ezi kunye nokwenza i-2 yokuhlanganisa imizuzu. Kodwa le yayinqabile.
Kwaye yile ndlela ihleli ngayo kude kube yi-16. Ngeli xesha ubomi bam bezentlalo buthathe i-nose dive. Andizukugxeka oku kwi-porn, kodwa ngakumbi 'ngabahlobo' endinabo ngelo xesha kunye nenyani yokuba mhlawumbi ndiyathandeka. Ndandihlala ndikufumanisa kunzima ukudibana nabantu kwaye ube ngumhlobo kunye nabo. Ndandinomdla wokuthetha, ndathula kwaye mhlawumbi ndandinesitovu esophahleni lwexhala lezasekuhlaleni. Nangona bendinabantu endibaziyo, ngokuqinisekileyo ndandililolo. Kananjalo kufuneka ndikhankanye ukuba ndiye kwisikolo samakhwenkwe sonke kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo (le yinto endingasokuze ndivumelane nayo). Olona lonxibelelwano lubalaseleyo endinalo yayikukuba nabahlobo babantakwethu xa babevela. Kwaye ndaye ndaqala nokuhlala nabo esikolweni. Yayintle kwaye yayifana nale ndade ndayokuma nge17. Kodwa ukusukela ngeli xesha, ndiye ndafumanisa kunzima ukuphuma ndizenze abahlobo bam.
Ngexesha elichazwe ngasentla (xa ndandimalunga ne16 ngamanye amaxesha) 'ndasikelelwa' nge-Intanethi ebanzi. Ndicinga ukuba yayiyi-256k kuphela kodwa yayiyinto eyayiza kunditshintsha. Kuba ndandililolo, ndaba nexesha elininzi kum ngeempelaveki nangeholide zesikolo kwaye ndaye ndaphatha kwiPlayStation yam nakwikhompyuter yam ukugcina impilo yam. Ndidlale imidlalo yevidiyo kakhulu kwaye kuba ubomi bam kwihlabathi lokwenyani besele buqhekekile, ndafumana intuthuzelo yokwenza entsha Hlabathi IWarcraft. Kubonakala kulusizi kwaye kulusizi kum ngoku, kodwa yile nto yenzekileyo. Kwaye obu bomi butsha be-intanethi, ubomi bam ngokwesini babubonayo nge-Intanethi. Ukuba bendingaleqi iidragons, bendileqa ukulungiswa kwam. Yandigcina ndiqhubeka, yandonwabisa. Ingandigcina ndiphila…
Ndiqale ukuba nolwazi olunzulu ngokukhuphela uninzi lweziqwengana kunye nokwenza uluhlu lwazo kunye nabo kwaye ngokukhawuleza nangokucocekileyo ndigubungela iindlela zam. Usapho akufuneki lwazi. Ndikwazile ukubeka izandla zam kwisitaki esincinci sefilimu ezigcweleyo. Ndadlala imidlalo emininzi yekhompyuter nomnye wabahlobo babakhuluwa bam. Uya kuzisa ikhompyuter yakhe kwaye baya kuba nemidlalo yeLAN kwaye xa bephumile xa kanye ndifumene istash sakhe. Wayenentambo ye-Intanethi kwaye ngokucacileyo wayefumana (abazali) iimali ezifanelekileyo. Ke ngokwendalo ndikhuphele iqela ngaphezulu kwaye ndibeke kakuhle okwethutyana.
Kunyaka wam wokugqibela kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, i-intanethi ye-intanethi yayiyeyona ndlela yam yokuphelisa uxinzelelo, isizungu, usizi kunye nokunikezela okukhulu. Kodwa ndaqala ukwenza izinto ezintle ebomini bam, ndadibana nabantu abatsha esikolweni ndaza ndahlala nabo ngeempelaveki (sasingasondeli kakhulu, ndandisesekude) kwaye ndaqala ukuxhoma kunye Ubhuti nabahlobo bakhe ngakumbi, bendinxila kubo rhoqo ngoku. Ke ndiye ndajonga iphonografi kancinci ngeli xesha kwaye ndaye ndafumana ingqalelo kumantombazana athile, kodwa zange ndalala.
Kwinxalenye enkulu xa ndandineminyaka eyi-18 i-porn yam yokutya yayizinzile, ndandidla ngokugcoba ubusuku obuninzi embhedeni ukuya kwiingcamango okanye kwi-pornography kwikhompyutha. Kodwa kum, eyona nto iphambili ukuba yenzeke kum ngokwesondo xa ndandineminyaka eyi-18 kukuba ndilahlekelwe 'ziiVlates' zam. Kwakungewona mava amnandi, ndandinxila kakhulu kwaye ndaye ndafumana nje isiqingatha (malunga neepesenti ezingama-75) kwaye zange ndize. Le nto yayiyinto edanisayo kuba ndibambe into eninzi yokulala nale ntombazana (wayengenalo igama elihle… islut) kwaye ukuphulukana nobuntombi bam kuye kwenza ukuba kubenzima ngakumbi kum. Ndicinga ukuba oku kundichaphazele kancinci, kodwa kude kube kamva ebomini. Andikaze ndibenokhathalelo lokwenene ngesondo. Ukusuka apha ukuya phambili, ndicinga ukuba ndiziva ngathi andifanelanga ukuba ndingahoyi kangako ngayo. Ukusukela kumava am okuqala kuyo, bendikhona kwaye nditshisiwe. Lol emva koku, andicingi ukuba ndingaze ndibekhona uCasanova.
Nangona kunjalo, ngeli xesha le nto ayizange indiyeke ngesondo nonke; Ndandinencasa kwaye ndifuna ngaphezulu. Ingxaki bendiyifuna kakhulu. Jonga, akukho nto inesini malunga nomntu otyhafileyo, onxilileyo oneminyaka eli-18 ubudala onengcamango ephosakeleyo malunga nokuzimisela kwamantombazana ukuba abelane ngesondo (enkosi kwi-porn) okanye ukuba ungayifumana njani, ngaphandle kokuba inikwe yena kwisitya sesilivere, ozama konke okusemandleni akhe ukufumana. Kwakungokuxhelwa. Ndadutyulwa rhoqo kaninzi kwaye kunzima, kwabangela iintloni ezininzi zangeCawa ezihlazo kunye nodumo oluhle.
Ke, ngokwemvelo, ndisebenzise nje i-porn ukuyenza ibe ngcono. Oku kwenziwe kwalula. Amava am okubukela iphonografi ayelungelelaniswe xa ndaphuma ekhaya. Ndifudukele kwigumbi eliphezulu elinomnatha kwi-Intanethi kwaye ndinelaptop entsha ecwebezelayo. Alikho elinye ixesha ebomini bam endiphulula amalungu e-3 ngamaxesha ngosuku. Ndandi Horny njengesihogo kwaye ndafumana i-graph engcwele ye-porn. Ndandinolawulo olukhululekileyo kulonwabo lwam olungenanto. Iphantse yaziva ilungile.
Konke oku kutshintshile malunga neenyanga ze-6 xa ndiqala ukuphuma nentombi yam yokuqala. Wayengumhlobo womhlobo kwaye ngandlela thile ndakwazi ukungabinako konke ukuhlangana naye (Yiya kum! Lol). Ndamcela ukuba aphume emva kweeveki ezimbalwa zokumazi nokumanga amaxesha ambalwa. Kwakumnandi ngokwenene ukuba ucinge ngayo. Ngapha koko ixesha lokuqala esabelana ngesondo ngalo laliphambene. Oku kunokuba ngenxa yokuba ndinxilile kancinci, nditshaya isiqingatha sendibaniselwano kwaye ndizama i-LSD ngelo xesha. Ndiyafunga ndandinemincili kangangokuba intliziyo yam yayiza kuqhuma esifubeni sam. Kungenxa yale nto ndicinge ukuba kungcono ukuba siyeke saza sangana. Ke, bendingekafiki kodwa phantsi kweemeko bendingenalo ixhala kakhulu ngelo xesha.
Ngalo lonke elixesha bendiphuma nale ntombazana besinolwalamano oluhle rhoqo ngesondo. Sikwenze mhlawumbi kabini ngeveki okanye nangaphezulu. Kwakukho inyanga ekuqaleni apho ndandinazo iingxaki ze-erectile, ndicinga ukuba ibikho ikakhulu kuba ndandinexhala. Bendixakiwe ngeloxesha kodwa kancinci kancinci bendizimisele ukuya. Ndaye ndakhululeka kuye kwaye ndicinga ukuba eli kuphela leli xesha apho yonke into isebenza khona ngendlela ebekufanele ukuba isebenza ngayo. Kodwa njengoko benditshilo yahlala iinyanga ze-6. Ndiyifumene ngaphezulu kwaye i-itch ye-novelty ifuna ukukrolwa.
Ndalala nenye intombi kungekudala. Ndandicimele ubuso bam kwi-tequila kwaye yonke into yayihamba kakuhle. Ndaye ndafumanisa ukuba ndinomda otywala malunga neebhiya ezi-8 ngaphambi kokuba i-whisky dick ihlale phakathi kobudlelwane bam bokuqala, khange yenzeke lonke ixesha ndigqitha kulomda kodwa ndiye ndaqaphela ipateni. Ke ndiyayifumana inomdla wokuba ndatshitshiswa kwaye ndalawulwa emva kobusuku kwi-tequila. Ngaba intsha nje mhlawumbi?
Ngapha koko, kwakukho indawo eyomileyo emva koko. Oku kwaqhubeka unyaka omeleleyo. Kwaye ukuzalisa isithuba esenzelwe oku, kwakudala kuthembekile. I-Porn emva koko yaba yinxalenye yomhla wam. Ndingakhuhla enye ngaphambi kokulala kamnandi ebusuku. Yayiyinto yesiqhelo. Ingazalisa ixesha elingenanto; ukuba bendinosuku olu-rongo emsebenzini kundenze ndizive ngcono. Yayiyinto yam yokuziva ndikhululekile. Enye into ekufuneka ndiyikhankanye, xa ndandiyi-17 ndaqala ukutshaya. Ndilikhoboka lecuba ndaba ngumpu wecuba 'wokuzonwabisa'. Nanini na xa ndingena ebhedini ephezulu, ibiyinto entle ebusuku ye-porn.
Ekupheleni kwale ndawo yomileyo… Kulungile kungcono ukuyibiza ngokuba yimbalela .. Ndichithe ixesha elininzi ndileqa isiporho, ngendlela yokuthetha. Ndandixhonywe ngokupheleleyo kwintombazana endingenakuba nayo. Oku kundiyekisile ukuxhaphaza nabani na ixesha elithile. Khange ndiyifumane lento ndiyifunayo ndiye ndamphepha ndazama ukudlulela phambili. Kwiinyanga ezimbalwa emva koku, ndaqala ukubona intombazana endandiyazi kwaye ndiyithanda okwethutyana. Ke bendimhle kumbono wokuba naye. Kodwa yahluke kancinci kwicala lakhe. Ebehlukene nesithandwa sakhe bendizomphinda ndizive ngcono.
Ngaphandle, khange. Kwakukuye ukuba ndiqale ngokuyiqonda ingxaki yam ye-ED. Nokuba ndixakiwe, bendiphakeme okanye ndibilile njengejaji into endiyithandayo ayizukuze iyenze isango eliqalayo. Sigqibe kwelokuba sisabelana ngesondo (uhlobo) kabini ngaphezulu kwenyanga okanye ezimbini. Ndaphatha kuphela i-semi kwaye ndiyifumana ngokukhawuleza njengoko ndinakho kwaye ndanyibilika njengomsindo ukuze ndiqhubeke. Andizange ndikwazi ukuza. Ingayihla nje emva kwemizuzu eyi-5 kwaye ixhome ubomi. Ayisebenzi.
Ngaphandle kokuthetha, kuba ndingenakumkholisa, ufumene indoda yokwenene. Bendifuna ukophula impumlo yakhe ngenxa yomona. Emva koko kwakhona kwinqununu. Ndimele nditsho ukuba eyona nto yandigcina ndihamba nale ntombazana (ngokwahlukileyo kwakuba iphumile, bendisoloko ndihlala naye) yayikukuba ndaba mhle ngezandla zam. Lol ziyavela ezi dandies zilungile ngaphezulu kunam!
Ndikwimeko yokuthantamisa ngokweemvakalelo ixesha elincinci. Ndivile ngathi yinto yam ukusilela. Ndaziva ngathi ndisilele njengendoda. Ndaziva ndingento yanto, ndinentloni kwaye ndinentloni. Kwaye ukuya naye ukuba alale nomnye umntu kuba andikwazi ukwenza, yayiyityuwa enxebeni. Imile okwexeshana, isaba buhlungu. Kodwa ngethamsanqa kum bendinabahlobo, usapho, utywala; imbiza kunye ne-porn ukuzalisa i-void. Ndizamile ukuzigcina ndixakekile kwaye ndingacingi ngayo, bendiqala ukusebenza ngokutshintsha ebusuku, ndinxila kakhulu ngeempelaveki, nditshaye isitya ngamatheko rhoqo ndisiba nemipu yokubonisa amanyala rhoqo. Ndibukele i-porn kanye ngemini, ngokufuthi ukuya kulala emva komsebenzi.
Ngeli xesha ndandilumuncu lweentlobo ngeentlobo. Indawo yam eqhelekileyo yayilayishwa nantoni na endiyifunayo. Kwaye ke ezinye. Ndingaba nee-5-7 iividiyo ezahlukeneyo ezivuliweyo kwaye ndizibukele ngaphezulu kweyure. Ndikhuphe iisampula ezahlukeneyo zephonografi, ulutsha ukuya kwi-milfs, emhlophe, emnyama, isini, nantoni na endiyifunayo ngelo xesha. Andikaze ndixakeke kakhulu. Ukuba bekukho ngaphezulu komntu omnye endifumanayo ukuba ayindim kwaye ilungile kwaye ayisiyonto yam. Ndifuna nje into entsha yalomntu qho. Kwaye kukhuselekile ukuthi bendiphatha i-dick yam ehluphekileyo ngamandla amakhulu kunokuba kwakufuneka kwaye yayirhabaxa kangangokuba eyona nto ibhetele kakhulu bendiyenza kube kanye ngemini.
Kwakungekho malunga ne-5 okanye iinyanga ze-6 apho ndafumana ithuba lokuzama kwakhona. Ndathi cwaka, ndinethemba lokuba yonke into izakuhamba kakuhle. Ndizithembisile ukuba andifuni ukulala nentombazana yokugqibela ngesizathu esithile okanye ndaphambuka kakhulu okanye ndanexhala lokuba ndiza kuphola kwaye ndiqokelele konke kuzolunga.
Ndandihle ndinengcebiso kwaye ndinobuso kodwa ndikhulele kancinci ukusukela ngeentloni zokugqibela kwam iminyaka yeshumi elivisayo kwaye ndandingabinayo phantsi koxinzelelo kuba andikhange ndilindele ukufumana le ntombazana. Ndidibene naye kwakanye nje iiveki ezimbalwa ngaphambi kobu busuku kwigumbi eligcwele i-blondes eshushu (abubuxoki), kodwa iinwele zakhe ezimnyama kunye namehlo aluhlaza zazime bhetele kunenye into. Wayemhle. Ke, emva kwalonto, bendithetha naye kangangexesha elithile kwaye ndifumanisa ukuba yayiyintombazana entle ngokwenene, epholileyo andizange ndiyibone isiza. Ndizifumene ebhedini yakhe, esenza ngaphandle kwaye ndiziva ngathi ngomphumi. Yonke into yayihamba kakuhle besivana benyuka benyuka benyuka, ukuncanca ngapha nangapha kodwa eyona nto ndiyifumeneyo ibingasenantloko. Ndaphule. Ndicime into endiyenzayo, ndahlebeza endlebeni yakhe ukuba andizukwazi ukuyenza lonto kwaye ndiyaxolisa. Beka impahla yokunxiba kwaye uphume ngomnyango. Ndifumene umhlobo wam kude nomhlobo wakhe kwaye nditsalele ngaphandle kunye nam. Ndamxelela kwenzeka ntoni. Nditshayise ngecingo kwaye ndaziva ngathi ndiwa phantsi emhlabeni ndikhala. Uye wathi kulungile kwaye iyenzeka kuye wonke umntu ngoku kwaye emva koko sizakuhamba sobabini siye kugqirha.
Ewe, nasemva kokuba iliwa lethu lokuqalisa le ntombazana kwaye ndandiqala ukumbona. Siza kubonana phantse yonke imihla kwaye sizama ukuba neentlobano zesini rhoqo. Ndilawule isondo esinye amaxesha amaxesha, kodwa yayikukuthanda ukuzonwabisa ngangokusemandleni am. Oku kwahlanya kuba umntu endandinaye yayiyinto yonke endiyifunayo. Ixesha elininzi andikaze ndifike. Ndizakuya emva kwexesha elincinci okanye ndingaze ndiyinyuse.
Emva kweenyanga ze-3 zokuphuma kuye kwafuneka ahambe edolophana malunga ne-300km, kodwa azobuya kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ukuze siphinde sibe kunye. Sizama ukubonana ngokusemandleni ethu, ngokuqhele ukuba ngeentsuku ezimbalwa rhoqo kwiiveki ze-3-4. Oku kwahlula kulwalamano lwethu kwaye sizama ukwenza lonke ixesha lethu kunye, xa silufumene. Ndikhe ndaneengxaki zesini esiqhelekileyo ngalo lonke eli xesha kwaye wayenakho kuphela ukuza xa endinika imisebenzi yezandla kwaye ndingamxeleli ukuba abe nesidima ngayo. Emva kwethuba loku ndaye ndanexhala kwaye ndaya kwi-60 yam into ethile ugqirha wosapho owayemdala ndamxelela ukuba ndine-ED ndineminyaka eyi-21. Undibuzile malunga nokuba bendisela ntoni xa ndingakwazi ukuphakama kwaye yonke loo nto. Emva koko wandinika nje iisampulu ze-2 zeesampulu yeViagra kunye nomyalelo webhokisi ye-4 ngaphezulu.
Ndavuya kakhulu xa intombi yam yehla ukuba iza kundibona ngokulandelayo. Ndamxelela igqirha ukuba yayalelwe ngubani kwaye emva kweewayini ezimbalwa siye sangena kwigumbi lokulala. Kukhuselekile ukuba ndingathethi ngokulula. Kwenzekile xa kufuneka ndiyeke ukuphefumla kangangemizuzu engama-5 kodwa ndandiye ndibuye kwakhona xa sibuyela kuyo. Kwakumangalisa! Bendinengxaki nangona. Kwakhona, andikwazanga ukuza. Nokuba ngumsebenzi omde wesandla, akwenzekanga nto. Ngaphandle, penis yam yayinobuhlungu ekuseni. Ndisebenzise ezinye iipilisi kwezinye izihlandlo ezilandelayo zokumbona kwaye ndakwazi ukwenza i-orgasm ndizisebenzisa izihlandlo ezimbalwa. Thixo, yayimangalisa. Ndaziva kanye into endiyiphosayo ngalo lonke elo xesha. Okwesihlandlo sokuqala kwiminyaka engaphezu kwe-2 ndafika ngexesha lokwabelana ngesondo. Ndaziva ndingoyena mntu wonwabileyo ebomini. Uke wandifunqula emva koko walala ngentloko yakhe esifubeni sam ndivele ndazijonga ngasesitratweni ngoncumo olukhulu lolwaneliseko olupheleleyo. Ndavuya.
Kodwa ngokuqinisekileyo, iipilisi ziphelelwe. Bendisendaweni yakhe bendindwendwela kwaye bendisele ndithathe ipilisi zam zokugqibela izolo ngokuhlwa sangaphambi koko saqala ukusondelana. Bendingacingi nokucinga ngeepilisi, bendingenakukhathazeka malunga nokusebenza kwam, bendisenza nje into ebendiyenza ngaphambili ngeepilisi. Ifikelele kwinqanaba lokungena kwaye ayizukungena. Ndayinika ukhuthazo ngesandla kwaye ndenza oko bendinako, kodwa iya kugoba nje kamsinya nje xa ndityhala. Ubuzile ukuba yintoni ingxaki kwaye ndathi andinazo iipilisi ezininzi. Yonke into ebindakhela yona ibiwe emhlabeni kwaye iqhume ngamalangatye kwangoko. Kwakunzima kakhulu ukuphatha. Njengokunika umntwana ipipi emva koko amthathe emva kokuba elunje nje. Ndiqhekeze, ndizibuza ukuba kutheni esihogweni kufuneka ndihlawule amandla okulala nentombi yam. “Ndingu-21 ngenxa yamanqindi!” Akukho namnye kubo owabonakala elilungile. Emva kokuba ndibuyele ekhaya ndangena kwisimo sokudakumba, njengamaxesha amaninzi ngaphambili ndizibuza ukuba ingaba yintoni le ingalunganga kum? Ngaba ndingungqingili? Ngaba ndiqhekezwe kukukhathazeka? Ngaba ukhuselwe kakhulu kumava am exesha elidlulileyo? Uluhlu xa luvule kwaye ndaye ndacaphuka ngenxa yalo. Ndibe ndinjalo okwethutyana kwaye ndiziva ngathi ndi-shit, emva koko ndibuhlungu, emva koko ndikrakra, emva koko ndibile.
Ndenze ingcinga zam zokuba ndizakubuyela kugqirha ndiyokufumana ezinye iipilisi. Kubonakala kusengqiqweni; kuba andikhange ndilale naye yonke imihla (bendiphulula amalungu esini) endaweni yoko kutheni ungayihlawuleli nje i-bill kwaye wonwabe? Kundithathile ukuba ndithathe umnxeba wam kwaye ndijonge inombolo yegqirha lam ngaphambi kokuba ndiphendule owam umbuzo. "Kuba ndifuna nje ukuba yinto eqhelekileyo" "Kungenxa yokuba andifuni into yendalo ibe yingxaki." Ndizolala ebhedini ebusuku ephethe iphepha lam lendlu yangasese ecaleni kwam, isikrini ngaphambili kunye nesandla sam Ubunzima bepensi kwaye uyijonge kwaye ucinge "Ngoku, kutheni le nto isihogo ungandenzeli yona xa ngenene ndinentombazana yokwenene?"
Kwiiveki ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo IGoogled "desensitised erectile dysfunction" ndaya kwindawo yokuqala kuluhlu kwaye ndafunda malunga ne-porn-indased ED. Kwajika isibane esincinci ngasemva kwentloko yam. Ndakhangela ngapha kweGoogle kancinci, ndafunda malunga ne-ybrainonporn.com. Khange ndiye kuyo ekuqaleni. Andazi ukuba kutheni, ndiyacinga ukuba bendinentloni (kwaye mhlawumbi ndikhanyelwa). Kodwa ndiye apho, emva koko ndaqalisa ukufunda. Ndive kakuhle ngokufunda, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndibukele yonke imiboniso yesilayidi ye-ED. Konke kwavakala kum. Emva koko ndafunda onke amaNqaku apho kunye namabali okuBuyisa kwaye ndakholelwa. Ke bendihleli ndizula apha, ndifunda onke amabali akho ndizibuza ukuba ndingalibeka phi na. Kulungile nantsi ke. Uxolo lide, andazi ukuba ndiqale ngaphi, kwaye ke andazi ukuba ndigqibe ngaphi.
Ndivukile kwaye ndisehla kwaye ndigqibile ukusukela oko ndaqala ukuqala kwam ukuqala, kodwa akukho nto inokuyenza, iya kulingana nendlela i-PMO-ED endenze ndaziva ngayo kwiminyaka yokugqibela ye-3.
Iintsuku ze-22 akukho PMO. Ndaziva kamnandi namhlanje.
Oct 25
Iiveki ze-5 ngomso. Ndiyakuthembeka; Ndiyamangaliswa yile nto. Kodwa ndinenjongo, ndiyigcine kuyo kwaye ndizimisele ukuqhubeka ndiyenza loo nto!
Ndivakalelwa kukuba ndinokufumana kwakhona isicatshulwa sencwadi yokubhaliweyo kwakhona ukuza kuthi ga ngoku. Khange ndibenayo iminqweno emikhulu yokujonga iphonografi, kodwa ngokuqinisekileyo ndiyivile imfuneko yokuhla. Oku ikakhulu xa ndivuka ngokhuni, ndifumane ulwaziso olungakhethekiyo kodwa imvakalelo ibonakele kakhulu xa ndikunye nentombazana yam.
Andivuki ntsasa nganye ngeenkuni zokusa kodwa ndingathi imalunga ne50 / 50 ithuba endiza kulifumana. Ngamanye amaxesha ndivuka ngokungacwangciswanga ubusuku bonke kunye, kodwa oku akuqhelekanga. Ndifuna ukukhupha into ngaphambi kokuba ndivuke ebhedini kodwa inokwenzeka nokuba kungenxa yokufuna ngamandla ukuhlala ebhedini kunokuba uvuke. Ii-erections zam zasekuseni ziyahluka ngokwamandla, ngamanye amaxesha ziisenti, ngamanye amaxesha ndivuka ngendawo yekampu kwi-duvet yam. Andiqondi ukuba baninzi kakhulu okanye bancinci kakhulu kunangaphambili kunokuba babeyi-PMO, kodwa baziva bebhetele xa benabo.
Ndifumana iinkuni ezingahleliwe kwiintsuku ezininzi, kodwa zihlala zihleli xa ndihleli ndingenzi nto kwaye ingqondo yam ityibilika kwiphupha losuku. Ayisiyomfuneko malunga nayo nayiphi na into engamanyani. Ndifumana ngaphezulu kunangaphambili, endicinga ukuba kuyathembisa. Kodwa kunokuba kuhle xa umntu ekubambe ungalindanga.
Njengoko usenokuba ufunde kwibhlog yam yangaphambili, mna nentombazana endihlala naye sahlukane kwaye asifani ukuba sobabini ngendlela esingathanda ngayo. Sihlala sincokola ngevidiyo kwi-Skype, elungileyo kakhulu kodwa enokuthi isilande. Inkangeleko yokujonga kodwa engajonganga kuchukumisa ibikukhathaza kwiiveki ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo. Sigcina iifowuni zi-PC entle kodwa andifuni uncedo kodwa ukuba ndive indlela endenza ngayo naye. Ngapha koko, emva kokungaboni ngasonye ukusukela nje ngaphambi kokuba ndiqalise ukuqala kwam ukuqala kwam ukusebenza kufuneka ndiye kuye ndihlale naye kwiintsuku ze-3 ngempelaveki. Kwakumangalisa! Lo mzuzu siqala ukwanga xa ndifika waziva ulungile. Ukuchukumisa ngokwasemzimbeni bendikunqwenela kuye kwenza ukuba inyibilike, kwaye ukuba akwenziwanga, ukumanga kuye.
Sasilele ngobusuku bokuqala kwaye kukhuselekile ukuthi nakuphi na ukunganyangeki kokungakhathali kwakulilize. Ngokukodwa xa ndonwaba (okanye kulungile, ukumangaliswa…) ndandilulwelwe nzima kwaye ndikulungele ukuhamba! Ndonwabile kwaye ndinomdla wokuzonwabisa ngayo. Ke, sabelana ngesondo. Kodwa andifuni ukwenza i-orgasm kwaye emva kokukhumbula ezinye ze karezza izinto kunye nokuzibamba kancinci kukuthatha nje kancinci kwaye bendonwabela nje ixesha esinalo kunye. Ndigqibe kwelokuba ndiyidlale ngokukhuselekileyo kwaye ndikhuphe imizuzu eyi-5 okanye njalo. Ndaziva ndinesidima. Nangona bendifuna ukuqhubeka ndide ndenze i-orgas, bekubonakala kububulumko ukuyidlala ikhuselekile.
Kubusuku besibini bendikunye naye, saphinda sazama. Kodwa ngenxa yesizathu esithile andikwazanga kuyinyusa. Besikhe sasela sisela, kodwa andizange ndaxakwa. Ndangqondo kuyo kwaye ndaziva kukho into phaya ezantsi, kodwa Ayizange yenzeke. Ndivuke ngenkuni ngentsasa elandelayo. Mhlawumbi bendigqibile ukuyicinga emva kobusuku obudlulileyo kwaye mhlawumbi ingqondo yam ayikaze yenziwe ngokupheleleyo kwaye isetwe kakhulu kwizinto ezintsha. Kodwa ubuncinci iyayiqonda into efunekayo kwaye libido yam ibikwigiya eliphezulu kakhulu (emva kweeveki ezimbalwa iswelekile, kwamkelekile kakhulu oko) ngoko ke ndibona ngokuqinisekileyo ukuphucuka.
Andiphilanga ngokupheleleyo kodwa ndiyabona inkqubela phambili kwaye oku kuyandonwabisa. Ndingene kule mpelaveki ndingalindelanga mpendulo evela kwilungu lobudoda bam, kodwa ndimangalisiwe ngobusuku bokuqala. Ndinemibuzo nangona:
Ngaba kunokwenzeka ukuba ingqondo yam ibithatha nje into engemeko yale nto ngobusuku bokuqala?
Ngaba into endiyenzileyo ngobusuku bokuqala indenze ndaziva ndingonwabanga ngolwesibini nangona ndingakhange ndibekho?
Ive iqale ukuqaphela imifanekiso engaqhelekanga. Hayi kwi-porn, kodwa kwiintengiso nakwi-Facebook. Ngaba oku kuchaphazela ukubuyela kwakhona kwam? (Ndizama ukubaphepha, kodwa ndibaqaphela)
Ingaba isiselo esinxilisayo sidlale indima enkulu kwi-ED yam nangona bendinee-vin ezimbini ngolwesiHlanu kwaye ndinganxilanga uMgqibelo?
Ngaba ikhona enye into endinokuyenza ukunceda ekubuyiseni kwam? (njengovavanyo lomgangatho we-pelvic okanye nje i-Cardioio, njl. njl.)
11-03
Ibe ziintsuku ezingama-44 okoko ndiqalise ukuqala kwakhona kunye ne-5 okoko ndaphinda ndabuya. Ke, ziintsuku ze-39 kungekho-PMO, emva koko ndakhangela iphonografi kwaye ndahamba ngokwahlukeneyo kwimemori.
Imeko yam yengqondo, yengqondo kunye nokuba yeyokwasemzimbeni ibe intle kakhulu kule veki xa ithelekiswa nendlela endandiziva ngayo kwiveki ephelileyo, ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale kwakhona. NgeCawa kusasa (kusasa emva kokuphinda ndibuyele kwisimo sam) ndaziva ngathi ndinesiphene, ndivuma ukuba ndinesingqala, kodwa ecaleni kwalapho ndaziva ndinxunguphele kwaye ndidanile ngokwam ngokuchitha kwaye ndizivumele ukuba ndizithobe kuxinzelelo lwesini endandisiva ngela xesha. Ndaziva ndilahlekile kuba kwakubonakala ngathi bendilahle ngalo lonke ixesha kunye nomzamo endandiwufake kwi-reboot yam. Kodwa into yile, eyona nto yayindikhathaza kakhulu yayikukuba ndisoyika njengesihogo esingasokuze sikwazi ukuzinyanga ngokwam i-ED yam. Ndivakalelwa njengeyona nto ibalulekileyo, ingakumbi xa ndifumene into ebendiyijonge ngobusuku obudlulileyo. Umnqweno wokuthatha nje isiqaqa kuyo kunye nesilingo sokukhulula uxinzelelo olwenziweyo lo mnqweno lwaluninzi kakhulu!
Cima ifayile, cacisa imbali, qhubela phambili. Yinto endiyenzileyo amawaka aliwaka. Ndiza kuqinisekisa ukuba lixesha lokugqibela kufuneka "ndigqume iingoma zam".
Ukuphumla kosuku kwakungekho nto kwaphela, ndandinazo zonke ezi mvakalelo kunye nemiboniso emenyezelayo yento endiyibonileyo yayibaleka entlokweni yam. ' Into endinokuyenza kukuzama ukususa ingqondo yam kuyo. I-hangover khange incede nakanye, ke ndichithe emva kwemini nangokuhlwa ndidlala imidlalo yekhompyuter. Ulwaneliseko oluncinci kunye nomsindo abazisileyo kuhlobo lokundinceda ngendlela ethile.
NgoMvulo wawungekho mbi kangako. Ndacotha kancinci kwaye ndiyozela emva kwempelaveki kodwa ndalawula kwikhosi yam ok kwaye ndade ndakwazi nokugqiba izinto ezithile. Ndibhincile kancinci kwezinye izinto ndithatha isiselo esinamandla, kodwa ndicinga ukuba bandincedile ukuba ndigqibe. Ndabuthatha lula ngobo busuku kwaye ndathintela nakuphi na ukuvuselelwa okubonakalayo okwakuza ngendlela yam. Inkqubo kamabonwakude enabafazi abangenasiphako yeza, enye yezi ntlobo zakudala zaseRoma, ekuboneni kokuqala kwamabele ndalishiya igumbi. Ndimamele isindululo sokurekhoda ukurekhodwa kwi-YBOP ngaphambi kokuba ndilale, oko kwandinceda ndakhululeka kakhulu.
NgoLwesibini yayifana nangoMvulo ngokudinwa kwaye bendisafumana imifanekiso yezinto ezivela ekubuyeleni kwam kwakhona ngombane kodwa kube kungekho rhoqo. Ndizigcine kwaye ndakwazi ukwenza kakuhle ngendlela engummangaliso kudliwanondlebe emva kwemini (Ive ihlala isoyikisela kudliwanondlebe ngemisebenzi njl, ndicinga ukuba ndithanda i-90% isantya sokungaphumeleli, ke oku ngokuqinisekileyo kwakulungile). Incoko kwaye yathetha ngokucacileyo nangokuzithemba. Ndifumene isikhundla endisifunayo (Kwisifundo soqeqesho, hayi umsebenzi, kodwa kulungile). Ndafika ekhaya kujikeleze i-3: 15, ndakhangela ezinye izinto kwiwebhu emva koko ndalala phezu kwesingqengqelo sam. Ngeeyure ze-3! Ndicinga ukuba bendidiniwe. Ndigqibile ukwenza umsebenzi wasekhaya kwaye ndakwazi ukulala ngexesha eliqhelekileyo.
NgoLwesithathu nanamhlanje zazintle ngokufanayo. Ndandilumke ngakumbi kwaye ndivukile kwaye ndahamba ngeentsuku nangobusuku ngaphandle kwengxaki enkulu. Ngaphandle kwesibane esingaqhelekanga sophondo, intsasa kunye nolungelelwaniso olungalunganga apha naphaya bendikumgca osicaba we-libido ukusukela malunga nangoLwesibini. Oku akundiphathi kakhulu njengoko bendikhe ndadlula kuyo ngaphambili kwaye ndibetha "ukufuna kodwa andifuni" ukuziva ndinqwenela.
Ndonwabile ukuba ndiyifumene netyala lokuqala, umnqweno kunye noxinzelelo lweentsuku zokuqala zokuphinda ubuye. Ndiza kuyisebenzisa inkumbulo yoko kwaye ndiyongeze kuluhlu lwe "Kutheni kungenjalo" ukuze uphinde ubuye. Inye into endicothayo ukuyenza kodwa ekugqibeleni ndenze ngobubusuku ukuxelela intombi yam ukuba ndibuyile. Ndandineentloni kwaye ndineentloni, kodwa wayengenzima kum okanye nantoni na malunga nayo. Uyazi ukuba le nto inzima. Wayefuna nje ukwazi ukuba yintoni ebangele ukuba ndiyenze kwaye ithetha ntoni. Ke ndimxelele okwenzekileyo kwaye ndiza kuqhubeka nokuqala kwakhona. Wahleka ngeemeko, ezenza ukuba ndiphumle kwaye ndihlekise ngayo, naye (ngokuqinisekileyo esinye sezizathu zokuba ndiyithande le ntombazana).
Ke oku kuzisa kum ngoku. Ndithathe isigqibo sokuphinda ndivavanye ukuqala kwam kwakhona ngokubhekisele kubude bexesha, ukubonakaliswa kwezinto ezibangela ukuba ndiqale nini ukwazisa ii-O's.
Ekuqaleni ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiqalise kwakhona i-8-10 yeveki, ixesha lakho eliqikelelweyo eliqhelekileyo lokufumana kwakhona, akunjalo? Oku kuya "kuphela" ukuqala kwakhona phakathi kwe-16 kunye ne-30 kaNovemba (lol). Ukusukela ukubuyela kwam kwakhona kunye namanye amanqaku enkqubela phambili kunye nolunye ulwazi oluhlanganisiweyo, ndigqibe kwelokuba ndongeze ukuqala kwakhona de kube ngunyaka omtsha. Oku kuya kwenza ixesha elipheleleyo lokuqalisa kwakhona malunga neentsuku ze-101 kunye neentsuku ze-63 ze-PMO eqinileyo. Ndingaqala ukwazisa i-O yendalo kunye nentombi yam ngoDisemba ngamanye amaxesha. Konke oku kuhambelana nenkqubela phambili kunye ne-ED kunye nendlela endiziva ngayo malunga nokubuyiselwa kwam ngelo xesha.
Ngeli xesha, ndiza kwenza ezinye izifundo endizifundileyo ukuza kuthi ga ngoku. Oku kubandakanya:
-Thintela imifanekiso engamanyala kuyo yonke indawo, kangangoko ndinakho. I-Facebook, iikhathalogu, iTV, naphi na.
-Ndiza kuthintela ukuzibeka kwimeko yobuthathaka bengqondo. Akukho lukhula, butywala buncinci (ukumodareyitha iiholide) kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo akukho combos!
-Thintela nakuphi na ukuvuselela i-penile. Akukho kucamngca ngesondo okanye ngenye indlela, akukho kudlala ngomthi wakusasa, akukho kucoca ngaphezulu, gungqisa kabini!
-Zama ukuba ungakhathali kakhulu kwi-Skype. Ukuncokola ngevidiyo- Kulungile. Ukuncokola ngevidiyo ze-Porn.
-Mka kwiPC. Nangona ndiyekile i-PMO kwaye ndaziva ndonwabile kwaye ndisebenza, ndizifumana kwiwebhu okanye kwi-PC kakhulu ukuba ndiphilile.
- Fakela ixesha lasimahla kunye nemisebenzi evelisa imveliso. Oku kunokuba nayiphi na into evela emsebenzini wasekhaya, ukuzivocavoca (okufunekayo kakhulu), umsebenzi wendlu, ukuhlalisana kunye nokuphuma nje.
-Unxibelelwano lokwenyani lwabasetyhini kwihlabathi. Oku kungenxa yokuba ndihlala nentombi yam. Ndicinga ukuba kuyakuba luncedo kakhulu ekwenzeni isimilo sokuziphatha ngakumbi (https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/the-lazy-way-to-stay-in-love) kwaye uphinde uphinde uphinde uphinde usebenze ubuchopho bam ukuze ube nobuthathaka ngakumbi koko ndifuna ukuba kuko. Kwakhona, ndingathanda ukuba malunga namantombazana amaninzi ekuhlaleni. Uhlobo lokuvavanya kwindlela esisebenzisana ngayo ngokuthelekisa kwindlela ebendiqala ngayo.
- Ukulala rhoqo. Kulungile, ke le nto inokuba yinto elungileyo engahambelaniyo, kodwa kufanelekile ukuba ndilunge kunye nexesha elichithwe ngaphandle kwe-PMOing ngaphambi kokulala kwaye ndilale.
Imibuzo nje embalwa:
Ngaba ikhona into endifuna ukuyongeza kuluhlu lwam lwezifundo? Ngaba kukho naziphi na iingcebiso?
Ndiyazibuza ukuba zingakanani iimpembelelo ekubuyeni kwam kwakhona kwi-ED yam. Ngaba kufuneka ndiqale phantsi kwaye ndikhulule i-PMO kude kube sekupheleni kukaJanuwari?
Ngokubhekisele ekungenisweni kwe-O ngesondo eliqhelekileyo, ngaba umbono wam ukuqala ngaphambi koNyaka oMtsha ulungile?
Ngaba ndifanele ndiyeke zonke ii-O kude kube kuqalile ukugqitywa okanye kufuneka ndihambe nayo xa yonke into ibonakala isebenza kakuhle?
11-05
Sele kuyiveki ukusukela ekubuyeleni kwam kwakhona kwaye ndiziva ngathi iziphumo zaso ziye zancipha kwaye nangona ndinemvumba encinci ndiziva ndonwabile. Bendi thintela ukubonwa kobunqunu kunye nokwabelana ngesondo kunye nokuthintela ubumnandi. Ifantasy yeyona nto inzima ukuyikhuphela ngaphandle ngamanye amaxesha iyenzeka nje kodwa ndifunda ukuyilawula.
Ndiva uvakalelo oluncinci phaya ezantsi phaya olwalukho ngaphambi kokuphinda ubuye, ke ndiyathemba ukuba yonke into ibuyela emgceni ngaphandle kokubuyela umva kancinci. Andiva mandla amaninzi ezesondo okwangoku, kodwa ayisiyiyo kwaphela. Yibize 2/10.
Ndikhe ndaya kwiipati ezimbalwa izolo kwaye ndinabhiya be-10 bebonke malunga neeyure ze-5. Ndandixakiwe kodwa kancinci bendingena buzz ubusuku bonke. Ndifumanise ukuba ndicaphuka kakhulu kunokuba bendinjalo, kwangaphambi kokuba ndisele. Ndagcina incoko ezomeleleyo nabantu abaninzi. Ebendisoloko ndikufumanisa kunzima.
Kuluhlu endilwenzileyo kwangoko kule veki ndiqaphele ukuba ndifuna ukunxibelelana ngakumbi nabasetyhini ekuhlaleni njengothelekiso phakathi kwangoku nangaphambi kokuba ndiqalise kwakhona. Ngaphambi kokuba ndiqalise kwakhona ukucinga ukuba ndicinga ukuba ndibeka phantsi koxinzelelo lokuphumelela ekukhetheni amantombazana endikhe ndathetha nawo kunye nokwenza incoko emnandi, ebenza ukuba babe nam. Kwenze kwanzima ngoba bendisoloko ndiziva ndiphantsi koxinzelelo olwandenza ndanovalo kwaye ndingakhululeki. Andizange ndicinge ngento emandiyithethe okanye indlela yokuyithetha kwaye ulwimi lwam lomzimba beluya kubonisa uxinzelelo lwam. Oku kuyakwenza ukuba amantombazana angabinamdla kum, kuba bendingenamsebenzi wokuncokola kwaye ndingenangqondo. Ndizamile ukulungisa oku ngotywala kodwa i ended up being a sleaze. Kananjalo ayithandeki. Oku kwenzekile nokuba bendithandana okanye hayi. Nokuba bendingazami ukuzichola, ndicinga ukuba ngokungazi ndizama ukwenza nantoni na kwaye ndizenza ndingathandeki.
Izolo bekungafani kodwa. Khange ndibenayo ipressure ndayeka incoko yaphuma. Ndaziva ndithembekile kwaye indlela ekungathethi ngayo kuphela ukuba amantombazana kodwa abafana bathetha nam nabo yayihluke kakhulu ngaphambili. Kwakumnandi ukuncokola nabantu. Andizange khe ndibubomi bepati okanye nantoni na, kodwa ndadibana nabantu endikhe ndababona ngexeshana kwaye ndadibana nabantu abatsha, abanomdla. Inye kuphela into endiyiqapheleyo (nangona ndiqinisekile ukuba intombi yam iyayithanda) yayikukuba amantombazana ayenomdla ngakumbi kunam ngaphambili. Ndibe neencoko ezilungileyo nabo, uninzi lokudibana ngamehlo, uncumo kunye nokudlala ngothando. Khange ndiphinde ndibonakalise ukudlala ngothando, kodwa bendikuthanda oko kwaye ndiyonwabele incoko.
Ke, ndonwabile ngendlela izinto ezihamba ngayo. Ndisafuna ukufikelela kwinqanaba lokuhlanganisa ngaphandle nangona kunjalo. Ukuphuma ngakumbi ngexesha lam lasimahla ukubona izihlobo nokuba yintoni. Yinto endijonge phambili kuyo, kodwa yazi ukuba ndiza kwenza umzamo wokuyenza, nangona ivakalelwa ngathi yenziwe lula.
Ndiphantse kwisiqingatha sendlela yokuqalisa kwakhona ngokupheleleyo kwaye ndikhangele phambili ekuboneni okwenzekayo kwisiqingatha esilandelayo, kodwa ndizama ukuphuhlisa okulindelweyo.
Dec 03
Ke ukusukela ngoLwesithathu bendi sebenzela ukuqala kwakhona iiveki ze-10. Ngeli xesha ndine2 O's, enye ukuya P kunye nenye kegels (ndisayifumana iyamangalisa ..). Injongo yam yoqobo yokuqalisa kwakhona kwakuziiveki ze-10 kwaye nangona ndine-O'd kabini, ndihlala ndonwabile ukuba ndikuphi ngoku. Nangona bekuya kuba kuhle ukuba nokucoceka kwaye uthi "iiveki ezili-10 kungekho PMO !!" O bam bandifundise okuninzi.
Kuye kwiveki ukususela kumcimbi we-kegelgasm kwaye ibe yiveki enomdla. Ndineendawo ezininzi zokuhla kunye ne-libido, isiqingatha semini sifile, esinye isiqingatha siyavutha. Bendinomnqweno omkhulu wokuya ku-O, kwaye ndicime kakhulu kwiveki yonke. Isiphumo sokusukela mhlawumbi? Ndinomnqweno wokujonga iP, kodwa hayi isini. Andifuni ukubukela abanye abantu besabelana ngesondo, ndibonakala ngathi ndifuna ukubona amantshontsho ahamba ze. Ndilungile nangona kunjalo kwaye andijonganga kwanto. Ndibeke isikhangeli esihluziweyo sewebhu kwifowuni yam kwaye ekuphela kwexesha endikhe ndabona nantoni na ekude nephonografi kuxa ndandivavanya ukusebenza kwayo. Ndisebenzisa “iBrawuza eKhuselekileyo” ye-Android. Ndiyifumene nje kwindawo yentengiso kwaye isebenza kakuhle. Nangona ingenakusilela ...
Ndaya ku-50th katata womhlobo wam phezolo kwaye bendinokuhlaziya okutsha kwesi sizathu sokuba ndenza ntoni na ukuqala kwam ngokutsha. Ndilapho neqela labalingani (onke amantombazana) kunye nomnye wabo, ndilale ngesondo kunye neengxaki ze-ED. Konke oku kwenzeka malunga nonyaka ophelileyo kwaye ndandilibele kakhulu ngayo yonke into. Ngapha koko, sasiqhubeka njengoko sasihlala sikhona, kwaye emva kokuba isibini sasela ngobusuku esibe kunye sikhulisiwe. Akukho nto malunga ne-ED yam kwesi sihlandlo okanye nantoni na, libali nje elihlekisayo malunga nemizamo yam yokuzama ukufumana indlu yangasese. Kodwa kwandenza ndakhumbula iingxaki endandinazo xa ndandikunye nale ntombazana kwaye indlela endandineentloni ngayo ndaya e-ED. Ndicinga ukuba ukuvuselela yile nto bendiyifuna. Ngomphumo ophelileyo kule veki kunye neminqweno ku-O njl.yinto elungileyo ukundigcina sendilandele.
Ke konke kuko konke, ndinako:
Iminqweno ku-O
Ufuna ukubona amantombazana ahamba ze
Ndifumana indawo ebuthathaka (ifowuni yam ye-intanethi)
Umbono kakuhle uphantsi kolawulo 😀
libido phezulu naphantsi, kodwa ngokuhlwa phandle
Ii-Morning erections (Nokuba akukho apho okanye kwi-100%)
Ukuba iphupha lam lokuqala elimanzi (andikhumbuli ndiphupha kodwa ubungqina babukhona)
Iziva ngathi yonke into iqala ukuya kwindawo ekufanele ukuba ibe yiyo, kodwa ndisenalo ixesha lokuya ngaphambi kokuba yonke into ithathelwe ingqalelo njenge "qhelekileyo ". Into ephambili endiyifunayo ukuyivavanya i-ED yam, isizathu sayo sokuqalisa kwakhona kunye neyona nto ndifuna ukuyilungisa.
Dec 23
Kulungile ndiza kube ndithe tye kwaye ndinyanisekile. Ndibuyele izihlandlo ezimbalwa kwiveki ephelileyo okanye ezimbini. Injongo yam yayikukuba i-PMO ikhululeke kude kube ubuncinci kunyaka omtsha kodwa kuba ndisilele. Unobangela wokubuyela kwam kum kodwa ngoncedo lotywala. Andazi ngenene ukuba ndithini ngayo nyani… ndiziva ndidiniwe kwaye ndisisidenge. Ndenze amanyathelo afanelekileyo ebomini bam kwezinye iinkalo kodwa ndiye ndaphawula ukuba utshintsho kubuntu bam kule veki iphelileyo okanye kunjalo. Ndiziva ngathi ndiyaxolisa kodwa yeyam ndiye ndaphoxa kwaye nam kuphela. Ndiziva ngathi ndithathe inyathelo ekubuyiseleni kwam kwaye ndiziva ndonwabile kum.
Usuku olunye kwakhona ndiyaqikelela.
Eyona nto imbi kakhulu kukuba ndiza kubona intombi yam kwikhefu leKrisimesi kwaye bendikuthanda kakhulu ukuba neentlobano zesini eziqhelekileyo .. Ndiyathemba ukuba anditshabalalanga naliphi na ithuba lolo ..
Ndineenkqubo zokuthintela kwifowuni yam, i-3 eneneni (iBrawuza ekhuselekileyo, iBlogqer kunye neNanny yeWebhu) kodwa akukho nto kwiPC yam. Yikhompyuter yosapho ke ndinoloyiko malunga nokubeka nantoni na apho. Into kukuba, ngaphambi kwale veki khange ndisebenzise ikhompyuter ye-porn ixesha elide. Mhlawumbi iinyanga ezi-6 okanye njalo. Ke bendingenalo nexhala ngayo. Kodwa ndikruquke, ndibe ndedwa, ndedwa ndibhayize kwaye kulungile… izinto ziyenzeka.
Ukuphinda ndibaleke kuye kwavela kwimifanekiso yokukhangela ku google ngokukhangela okukhuselekileyo, ukuyicima, ividiyo kunye neevidiyo ezininzi .. Kuya kufuneka ndiyeke oku apha kunye ngoku. Ndiyalikhumbula ukuba nesakhono sokuthetha ukuba ndihambile isixa see-X iiveki PMO simahla, kwaye nje loo mvakalelo yentsholongwane, ukuzithemba, kunye nesihogo, kwanoxinzelelo kwiibhola zam! Indlela yokubonisa ukuhleka
Jan 7
Ndineendaba ezimnandi! Andikho ekhaya ixesha elide emva kokundwendwela intombi yam ngeholide. Ndaye ndalapho ngobusuku beKrisimesi kude kube ngumhla we-6 kaJanuwari. Ngaphezulu kwelo xesha ndalala ngesinye isihlandlo se-3 (ngekwakube ngaphezulu kodwa wamfumana 'Iintsuku zeNkosikazi') kwaye ndinomxube wamava.
Olunye u-ED. Ndimele nditsho ukuba andiphiliswanga ngokupheleleyo njengoko bekukho i-ED kwaye ukukhanya okukhuthazayo kwasetyenziselwa ukufumana kwinto ebonakala ngathi kukulungiswa kwe-60% ukuya ngokupheleleyo.
Ixhala. Ndandinabo ngeentsuku zokuqala ezimbini endinaye, kodwa oku ngokuzinzileyo kwam njengoko ndachitha ixesha elininzi kunye naye. Ndicinga ukuba kufuneka ndiphumle kwaye ndiphumze uxinzelelo kancinci kuba bendikade ndikhangele phambili ukuba lapho kangangexesha elide kwaye bendinexhala ngo-ED.
Ubuntununtunu: Ibincinci… Kulungile, kakhulu kwicala eliphezulu. Ndize ngokukhawuleza kwakudanisa, kodwa ndingcono kune-ED.
Ukuphucuka okubonakalayo. Ngobusuku bam bokugqibela apho bendingadingi kukhuthazwa ngesandla ukuze ndibe nzima. Bekumnandi kwaye andiqondi ukuba ebeyilindele. Ndenze nje into endifuna ukuyenza kwaye ndingazibambi okanye ndibe neentloni kwaphela kwaye yonke into ihambe kakuhle.
Sinezinye iingxaki ezincinci. Utywala babonakala ngathi budlala indima kunye no-ED kodwa ndandinxilile ngexesha elinye sazama kodwa ndafumana i-ED ndaza ndaziqonda malunga nayo kwaye ndadumala. Ndiqinisekile ukuba sisiqingatha sotywala, isiqingatha sexhala nangona yayilixesha lokuqala esizama ngalo emva kokuba siphinde sabelana ngesondo kwakhona kwaye ngekhe ndizicingele kuso. Kwakhona, ndandifuna kuphela ukukhuthazwa kwencwadana ngamanye amaxesha ngenxa yokuhamba ngokuzama ukuzama ukufumana ipenisi yam kuye. Kwakungekho ingxaki yokuqala akuvuki (kwenzeka lula nge nje bephuzana njl), kodwa ndicinga yalahleka msindo ... andikho ukuba kwenzeka ntoni, kodwa kwakukho kancinci umba ukuthambisa ajikeleze yaye andizange ndikwazi yingenise. Ukudlala ngakumbi kwangaphambili kulungelelanise umba wonke kodwa kube kanye, kodwa ndaphoxeka kukuya kuflaccid kwaye ndifuna isandla.
Konke kuzo zonke, andikhathazeki kakhulu malunga nokuba ndikuphi ekubuyiseni kwam. Bendihleli ndingazukuphinda ndiqalise malunga neentsuku ezili-110 (ndicinga ukuba) kodwa ndiye ndaphinda ndabuya kwakhona apha naphaya. Ndamangaliswa yindlela izinto ezihambe ngayo njengoko ukubuyela kwam kwakhona kwaba rhoqo njengoko kusondela kum ukumbona. Njengam, eyona yam yakutshanje ibingowama-23 ukuze oku kube sisizathu sobunzima, kodwa andazi ukuba kungakanani kanye kanye.
Ndibe namaxesha e-4 kunye naye kwaye ndaye ndaya MO kanye kususela ekubuyeni kwam (akukho porn okanye fantasy). Andicingi ukuba ndiza kuphinda ndiphinde ndiphinde ndibe naye, kodwa ndiyazibuza ukuba ishedyuli yesiqhelo yokuhlaziya amalungu esini inokunceda kumcimbi we-PE. Naziphi na izimvo? Nokuba ndlela, Andizi ukusebenzisa iPorn kwaphela.
Ngokoluvo lwam, ndicinga ukuba ndiza kulunga kwaye eyona nto ilungileyo kum ngoku inokuba kukunxibelelana kakhulu nentombi yam kunye nokwabelana ngesondo. Ukususela ngoku andiyi kuba neenjongo ezisekelwe kwisondo okanye ukulindela kwam, ndifuna nje ukuphumla nokuzonwabisa.
Kuhle kakhulu ukuba uphuculo olubonakalayo. Ndiyathemba ukuba inyuka ngokukhawuleza, kodwa ndiza kuyinika lonke ixesha elifunekayo ukwenza njalo. Ukucinezeleka malunga nayo kuya kuyenza mandundu. Uthandeke kakhulu kwaye uyayixhasa yonke le nkqubo. Naxa ndandisezantsi kwezona zantsi, ebekhona ukuze ancede. Ndiyathemba ukuba ndiza kuphinda ndimbone kungekudala. Ngokwenyani ukuba kunye naye kwaye oko kudibana kunye nokunxibelelana nexesha lokuhla kuye kwaba kuhle kakhulu ukuba ndibuyise.
Ndiza kuqhubeka ndingaziphulula amaphambili nangona, kuba ndiyayithanda indlela endiziva ngayo yonke imihla ngaphandle kwayo.
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