Mwa 2012 ndinali ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwazaka zopitilira 40. Sindinachite izi tsiku ndi tsiku, mwa njira iliyonse, koma ndimakonda kudya kwambiri ndikakhala ndi nkhawa. Chifukwa chake, pa Disembala, 2, 2012, munthawi yamavuto ndimangolimbana ndi ma tabu 20 osatsegula otseguka ndipo, mwanjira inayake, ndidalowa patsamba lomwe linali ndi ulalo wamavidiyo ku Your Brain On Porn. Ndidadina ulalowu ndipo moyo wanga udasintha mphindi zochepa.
Kuyambira ndikulowerera zolaula komanso zolaula ndili ndi zaka za 14 nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndimalingalira kuti kodi ndizolakwika bwanji zokhudzana ndi kuseweretsa maliseche ndi zolaula. Panali mawu ambiri onena kuti zinali zabwinobwino koma kodi zikutanthauza kuti zinali zabwinobwino komanso zovomerezeka muukwati? Kodi zinali zotheka kuchita popanda kumasulidwa? Kodi zinali zathanzi? Panali zidziwitso zambiri zoyandama pamutuwu koma zimatanthauzanji? Chifukwa chiyani zinali zovuta kuti ndisiye? Kodi zinali zovuta kwa aliyense? M'mbuyomu ndidafunsa dotolo ndipo adati sizolakwika kuti munthu achite maliseche, koma maukwati awiri omwe amachitika atakwatirana akuwoneka kuti akutsutsana. Chinachake zinali zolakwika.
Kotero apo ine ndinali, ndikudziphatika pamodzi ndi ma tabu 20 otsegulidwa ku zolaula ndipo ine ndinayima kuti ndiwonere kanema yoyamba ku YBOP ndipo mwadzidzidzi ndinazindikira kuti panali vuto lenileni pano ndipo panali chifukwa chakuti izi zinali zovuta kwambiri kusiya kuchoka. Ndinawona makanema pa YBOP ndikuyamba kutseka ma tabu olaula. Iyo inali nthawi yotsiriza yomwe ndimawona zolaula; ndipo ndinadziwa kuti zidzatero. Zithunzi zonse zolaula zomwe ndimagwira ntchito molimbika kuti zitheke zidatsekedwa popanda kumva chisoni, sindinkawafunanso.
Kupeza kufotokozera za momwe ndimakhalira mwadzidzidzi kunamvetsetsa bwino za moyo wanga. Ndinazindikira kuti izi zinali ngati chidakwa, chizolowezi chomwe chimagwira ntchito mozungulira. Ndinali nditawonapo zoledzeretsa ndikugwira ntchito ndi abwenzi, abale ndi othandizana nawo, ndipo ndimadziwa kuti chinali chowongolera kumwa mowa komanso aliyense amene anali gawo la moyo wawo. Panalibe chosankha, njira yokhayo yomwe inkapanga lingaliro lililonse inali kusiya kukondweretsedwa, kotero ndidatero.
Zachidziwikire kuti zimatengera ntchito ndikudzipereka, koma kusankha kunapangidwa nditangozindikira mtundu wa vuto langa. Koma ndimafunikira chithandizo ndipo ndimafunikira kuti ndizitha kufotokoza zakukhosi kwanga. Sizinatenge nthawi kuti mupeze Ubongo Wanu Wobwezerezedwanso http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com ndipo ndidatenga LTE ngati yanga plume. LTE ndiyotanthauzira mafoni am'manja a Long Term Evolution, kuyesayesa kokonza njira yamtsogolo yolumikizirana ma cellular yomwe ndi kusinthika kwanzeru kwa matekinoloje omwe adalipo kale. Sindili mu bizinesi yamafoni am'manja ndipo, ayi, sindingakuthandizeni ngati mukufuna ntchito mu bizinesi imeneyo, (ndakhala ndikufunsapo za chikhalidwe chimenecho) koma ndikuwona kuyambiranso kwanga kukhala gawo Kuyesetsa Kwanthawi Yitali kumbali yanga. Pomwe kubwezeretsanso kumangotenga miyezi ingapo, kupeza mayankho pazomwe zimayambitsa chizolowezi changa kutengera kudzipereka kwanthawi yayitali. Zifunikanso kuti yankho langa liyenera kusintha pakapita nthawi. Pomwe gawo loyambalo limafotokoza za kuthetsa chizolowezi chomwa mowa, ndikangomaliza ndimayenera kuthana ndi zomwe zimayambitsa vutoli.
Koma nkhani yabwinoyi idapitilira zovuta zilizonse zokhudzana ndi kuchira. Kungoti kusinthako kunandipangitsa kukhala wotsimikiza kuti tsogolo labwino limatheka. Sipanatenge nthawi kuti ndiwerenge Ubongo Womwe Umasintha Wokha ndikuphunzira zambiri za momwe ubongo ungasinthire. M'bukuli munali zitsanzo za anthu omwe adazolowera kukhala ndi mavuto akulu ndipo adakhala ndi moyo wabwino kuposa momwe angaganizire kuwonongeka kwaubongo komwe adakumana nako. Ngati ubongo unali wokhoza kusintha chifukwa chiyani munthu samatha kuphunzira kusiya zolaula ngati zolimbikitsa? Zowonjezera mpaka izi, bwanji sindinathe kusiya zolaula?
M'malo amtsogolo ndikhala ndikufotokoza mwatsatanetsatane zomwe ndakumananso nazo.
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