Ndikufuna kunena kuti zikomo podziwa nthawi yowerenga izi. Ndikudziwa kuti ambiri a ife timatembenukira ku tsamba ili ndi ena omwe ali ngati chithandizo ndikuyembekeza kuti tidzatha kuthana ndi zomwe zingatilepheretse moyo (ndi ena monga ine, chovuta chachikulu chomwe takhalapo nkhope) ndipo tsopano ndikukutembenukira kwa inu nonse ndikuthandizani ndikugawana gawo la nkhani yanga ndikuyembekeza kuti zingathandize munthu kunja uko.
Ndili ndi zaka 33, ndakhala wolaula kuyambira pomwe ndinayamba kufotokozera mafilimu ali ndi zaka zoposa 8, mafilimu a zolaula pa 11 ndikupita ku zolaula pa intaneti pa 13. Ndinaleredwa ndi mavuto ndi kuseweretsa maliseche komanso zolaula zinkasokoneza mavuto anga, ndinkangokhalira kumwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Sindinadziwe chifukwa chake ndinali ndi mavuto a erectile, omwe sindinayambe ndikuyesera ndi mtsikana wina wa zaka 15, ndinali wotsika kwambiri.
Kwa zaka zambiri ma doc, ma urologist, ma endocrinologists, othandizira ndi akatswiri amisala andiuza kuti ED yanga imachitika chifukwa cha nkhawa kapena kukhumudwa. Ma doc omwewo amapitilizabe kundiuza kuti kuseweretsa maliseche ndichizolowezi komanso kuti ndibwino kuseweretsa maliseche, makamaka ngati simugonana. Ndakhala ndikuyesera kambirimbiri kuyambira nthawi yoyamba kuyesera, ndikuyembekeza kuti mwanjira ina nditha kuthana ndi "nkhawa" yanga ngakhale nditakhala pachibwenzi chokhazikika mungaone kuti sindikhala wamanjenje, sindinachite mantha koma ndimagwiritsa ntchito docs mawu ake, koma ED adatsalira. Ndakhala wofunitsitsa kupeza zomwe zikuchitika ndi ine, ndikufunitsitsa kuthetsa nkhondoyi. Ndinatsimikiza kuti liyenera kukhala vuto lakuthupi kapena mahomoni. ndayesera pafupifupi chilichonse chomwe mungaganizire.
Sindingayerekeze kuyesayesa kutchula zinthu zonse zamisala zomwe ndayesera kuchiritsa a ED koma ndikulankhula za chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndidachita ndipo ichi ndiye chifukwa chachikulu chomwe ndikulembera izi ndikuyembekeza kuti Nditha kutonthoza malingaliro anga ndikupeza chilimbikitso ndikuyembekeza kuti zomwe ndidachita sizingasokoneze kupita patsogolo kwanga kwanthawi yayitali popanda PMO. Zaka 2 zapitazo ndimayang'ana pulogalamu ya pa TV yotchedwa StrangSex - zinali zolembedwa pa mwana (Dylan) yemwe adakumana ndi mtsempha wotsekedwa wopita ku mbolo yake. Anachitidwa opaleshoni yomwe inabwezeretsanso magazi kulowa mu mbolo yake kuchokera pamtsempha umodzi kupita kumtundu wina (penile revascularization). Ndinafika popita ku California kukaona dokotala yemwe Dylan adamuyendera, Dr Irwin Goldstein. Pambuyo poyesedwa kwambiri Dr Goldstein adatsimikiza kuti inenso ndiyenera kukhala ndi mtsempha wotsekedwa, adayamba kundipatsa mankhwala a mahomoni ndipo atapita patsogolo adalimbikitsanso kuti ndichitidwe opaleshoni, ndidatero.
Ndi opaleshoni yabwino kwambiri, maola 6 atadula mtsempha m'mimba mwanga ndi china china chomwe chimadutsa machende anga mu zomwe DDr anafotokoza. Goldstein monga "Kutembenuza mbolo mkati". Kuchita opareshoni kunayenda bwino ndi zomwe Dr. G. anali atanena, tsopano ndi masewera odikirira ndipo ndiyenera kuwona kuti zomwe ndasankha zabwerenso mwakale mkati mwa miyezi 6 mpaka chaka chimodzi. Ndidadikirira moleza mtima, koma palibe, ndipomwe, ndimamva ngati ndikukumana ndi nthawi yovuta kwambiri ndi zomwe ndasankha !! Tsopano ndikumasuluka panthawiyi, nditani ?? Zomwe zimayenera kuthana ndi vuto langa, ndimalola dokotalayo kuti andidule mpaka nditakhala woipa kuposa kale !!
Ndidathawira kumaofesi ake patatha pafupifupi chaka chimodzi ndikumuuza momwe ndimamvera ngati kuti sindili wokhudzidwa monga momwe ndimakhalira ndikumverera ngati kuti ndizovuta kwambiri nthawi imeneyo kuti ndikumange. Anandiuza kuti ndiyesedwenso ndipo anandiuza mawu awa "Ndikusintha matenda anu kukhala vuto la mahomoni osati kusowa magazi," ndinasowa chonena pakunena izi. Kodi wina anganditsimikizire bwanji kuti ndiyenera kuchitidwa opareshoniyi ndikuyika zochuluka pamzere ndikundiuza kuti popanda opaleshoni yomwe sindidzakhala wabwinobwino, khalani pano ndikundiuza kuti "akusintha matenda anga" !!! Ndinachita mantha, ndinafika poti ndinamva kuti ndalakwitsa kwambiri kotero kuti sindingathe kusintha. Kuchita opareshoni kunachita zosiyana, tsopano ndichinthu chomwe ndidzakhala nacho pamoyo wanga wonse.
Ndinamva kuti ndikuvutika kwambiri maganizo, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti kudzipha tsopano ndi mbali ya moyo wa tsiku ndi tsiku. Funso lokhalo linali, njira yeniyeni ine ndithandizire kuthetsa moyo wanga. Sindinaone cholinga chokulitsa moyo wanga wosautsika ndipo ndi nthawi yoti ndithetse. Tsopano, ine sindimadziona ndekha kuti ndine munthu wovutika maganizo. Ndili ndi madalitso ambiri omwe ndikuthokoza kwambiri pamoyo wanga. Sindinkafuna kukhala ndi malingaliro oipa awa. Sindinauze anthu za iwo (ena ndiye mchimwene wanga). Sindinkafunafuna chidwi ngakhale pang'ono. Ndinayesetsadi ndikufa chifukwa sindinathe kuona nkhondoyo panopa.
Sindikukumbukira momwe zidachitikira, kapena zomwe ndiyenera kuti ndidachita Googled kuti ndikumane nazo, koma tsiku lina ndidakumana ndi "yourbrainonporn". Ndinawonera kanema pambuyo pa kanema ndikuwerenga nkhani zambiri ndipo idayamba kudina, Ndinapusa bwanji? Ndikutanthauza kuti zikuwoneka ngati tsopano kuti ndikakumbukira kuti zinali kumbuyo kwakumbuyo kwanga ngati kunong'oneza pang'ono komwe kunamira ndi phokoso lonse lachisokonezo - yankho lake ndi zolaula !!! Ndikusangalala kwanga komwe kumandibweretsera zowawa zambiri. Ndinaganiza zodzipereka ku NOFAP. Ndidapanga masiku opitilira 45 nthawi imodzi. Izi zinali zopambana chifukwa nthawi yayitali kwambiri yomwe ndidapitako inali sabata yoposa.
Ndinkaona kuti zinthu zikuyamba kubwera pamodzi: ndinathetsa kulimbana kwanga ndi ubongo wa ubongo, ndinali ndi nkhuni zam'mawa kwa nthawi yoyamba ngati zaka khumi, ndimagona pafupi ndi bwenzi langa panthawiyo ndipo ndimakhala wovuta kugona pamenepo pafupi ndi iye. Ndinali wokondwa kwambiri ndi kusinthaku kotero kuti ndiyenera kuyima kuti ndipume ndikupeza chitsimikizo kuti sindikulota kuti zinthuzo zidachitikadi. Ndidamaliza kubwerera m'mbuyo kenako ndikubwereranso ndikutsatiridwa ndi wina. Kupsinjika kwanga kunabweranso molimba. Nkhungu yanga inkawoneka kuti yakula kwambiri. Ndinkakumana ndi zovuta zanga ndikudzipeza ndikutembenukira kuzinthu zanga zakale kuti ndikhale ndi nkhawa. Ndinadzida ndekha chifukwa cha izo. Zinandinyansa kuti ndibwerere ku zomwe ndimadana nazo. Ndinalimba mtima kuti ndipitilizebe kumenya nkhondo ndikupita patsogolo ndikulimba mtima kale.
Panopa ndili pafupipafupi kwambiri masiku osachepera 60. Ndili ndi malo abwino kwambiri, komabe ndakhala ndikuwona zina mwa zomwe ndikuganiza kuti zikusintha bwino. Ndakhala ndi matabwa a mmawa nthawi zingapo zomwe zinali zochititsa chidwi kwambiri. Ndili ndi maulendo angapo omwe ndimayesedwa (popanda zolaula) ndikuwapeza kuti ndiwamphamvu kwambiri ndipo amatha kuwasunga ngakhale pamene akusintha malo anga kuti ndikhale pansi ndikukhala pansi. Zisanachitike n'zosatheka kuti ndichite izi. Ndikudziwa kuti ndili pamtunda ndipo sindikufuna kugonana panopa koma ndimamva bwino tsiku ndi tsiku kuti ndine munthu wokondwa, wochuluka kwambiri. Ndimakonda kukwanitsa kuganiza mozama komanso kusamenyana ndi ubongo wa ubongo, monga momwe ndinaliri kwa zaka zambiri. Zinthu zili bwino kwambiri. Ndimakumbukirabe maganizo awa pamutu wanga kamodzi panthawi ndikudandaula kuti ndinachita chinachake ndi opaleshoni yomwe inachititsa kuti pakhale kuwonongeka kwa nthawi yayitali, koma ndikuwona kuti ndapitapo patsogolo ndikuyesera kuti ndidziwonetsetse kuti ndine thupi chabwino, rewiring idzakhala njira yowuchiritsira ndipo kuti opaleshoniyo sichidzakhala ndi zotsatirapo zanga pa ine ndipo mwinamwake izo zinapangitsa zinthu kukhala bwinoko.
Ndikuyembekeza kuti ngati mutatenga nthawi yowerenga izi, kuti muthe kuchokapo kuti tonse takhala ndi mavuto oti tigonjetse ndi ulendo uno. Kuti aliyense wa ife akuvutika ndi njira zathu, kuti ife sitingakhale nokha ndipo kuti palimodzi tikuchita monga chikumbumtima chimodzi kuti tidziwitse ku mliriwu. Ndikuthokozani nonse omwe mwagawana nkhani zanu. Ndinawawerenga ndipo amandilimbikitsa ndipo ndikulimbikitsa aliyense wa inu amene amaganiza za kugawa koma sanatengepo masitepe kuti agawane nkhani yanu kuti muchite. Ngati si chifukwa cha inu ndiye chifukwa cha ena omwe angapindule ndikumva nkhani yofanana ndi yawo. Ndidzawawerenga mokondwera ndipo ndikuyembekeza kuchotsa chinachake kuchokera kwa aliyense wa inu ndi nkhani zanu monga momwe ndachotsera kwa ena ambiri komanso zomwe adawagawa.
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