Iyo inali nyengo ya Kazaa ndipo sitinadziwe bwino. Pakati pa gulu langa la abwenzi amzanga ku sukulu yanga yapadera ya pulayimale, kuyang'ana, kukambirana komanso kugawana zolaula kunayamba kugonana. Tikawamasula, tikhoza kuwotcha ma CD ndi kuwasintha kusukulu ndi maudindo "ochenjera" omwe adatengedwa kuchokera ku album yomwe ili ndi zovuta zowonekera (monga "Smith Willy Style"). Mwanjira imeneyi, tikhoza kukambirana za zolaula pagulu, ndikufunsana paulendowu, "Kodi mumaganiza chiyani za CD Craig David CD yomwe ndakuwotcha?"
"Nthano za mkati" zidakwera ku zoyipa zapakompyuta zosangalatsa pamene ophunzira ena adagula nyimbo zamakono kuti azilowetsa. Imeneyi inali yowonongeka, koma kuti zithunzizo pa CDzo zinali zazikulu kwambiri kusiyana ndi mapepala a Playboy.
Makolo anga onse anali akufooka, ndipo ngakhale kuti ndinkakonda kulankhula za kugonana m'banja mwathu, zolaula - makamaka zolaula zomwe ndimayang'ana - zinayenera kukhala zonyansa. Zinali zosadziwika bwino, zosudzulana ndi lingaliro la kugonana monga momwe adandifotokozera. Ngati kugonana kunali munthu akuyika mbolo yake mukazi, ndiye kuti atsikana amamwa bwanji magalasi otuluka mumasamba a champagne? Chifukwa cha zosaoneka zake, zolaula za pa intaneti zinagwirizana kwambiri ndi nkhaŵa za kugwidwa.
Ndinkangogwera pansi pa kompyuta pakhomo pakhomo. Monga momwe ndingakhalire mu mpando wa polyester-cotoni wa mpando wodula ndi kutsegula osatsegula, mtima wanga ukanakhala ndi chisangalalo ndi manyazi, makutu anga anagwedezeka pa chifukwa chilichonse chochotsera ntchito yanga - zip, kukoka ndi kuvomereza chifukwa okonzeka kuyang'ana nyengo ya mawa. (Chodziwitsira chomwe chinagwira ntchito kangapo. Ndinali mwana wamasiye). Kuwopsya ndi kulakwa kungangobweretsedwa ndi kukhumba nthawi yomweyo mavidiyo adayamba kufalikira. Anali chizoloŵezi choledzeretsa, chokwanira kwambiri chogonana - chiyanjano chomwe sichidzatha posachedwa mu ubongo wanga wopambana.
Ndimakumbukira momveka bwino nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinayambira. Ngakhale mmbuyomo, iwo ankadzimva kuti ndi osayenerera - osadziwika, osasangalatsa, nthawi yayake ya chitukuko cha kugonana, atayang'anitsitsa ndi mawonekedwe a kansalu kamene kamangotulukira. Ndimakwera kuchokera pa mpando wa makompyuta kunyumba ndikukwera pamwamba pa bafa. Ndinayang'ana pagalasi, ndikudzikweza kwambiri kuti tsopano ndikutha kukwaniritsa zobwezeretsa zanga, ndikukweza manja anga ndikufuula ndekha kuti, "Ndikhoza kukhala bambo."
Pamene ndinali 13, tinasamukira ku nyumba yatsopano yokhala ndi chitseko pakhomo la chipinda chamakompyuta. Ndinali wosamala, koma nthawi zingapo ndinkakhala ndi thalauza pansi pamene ndimamva kuwomba kwa munthu wina akungoyang'ana kanyumba kazitsulo kotsekedwa.
Kodi mumayang'ana zolaula?
No.
Tinafufuza mbiri, ndipo panali malo oonera zolaula.
Ayenera kukhala ndi kachilombo.
Ndizovuta zomwe makolo ndi ana ambiri adziwa. Sikuti ndizochititsa manyazi, ndizowonongeka - palibe amene amadziwa momwe angapititsire patsogolo. Kodi, mukufuna kuti ndivomereze kuti ndikuonera zolaula? Kodi izo zimachita chiyani? Kodi ndiyenera kuchita manyazi ndi izi? Kodi mukuyembekezera kuti ndiime? Aliyense amene ndikudziwa ndikuchita izi!
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Ndili ndi anyamata ogonana okhaokha omwe amalepheretsedwa ndi manyazi osadziwika, ine ndinagwa mwamsanga "kink spiral." Ndipotu, tikukamba za kufika pachimake - pamene lingaliro lalikulu ndilo "zambiri!" Zosadziwika, zosawoneka, ndinali wamkono kwa ine, ndipo ine ndimatsatira mwatsopano ndi mphamvu.
Ndinadzipezeratu kuti ndimasangalala kwambiri ndi mafano a pa Intaneti. Ngati katatu anali kinky sabata yatha, ndiye kuti ndidasowa chinachake chamodzi sabata ino. Pofikira pachimake, ndinayenera kupeza chisokonezo chomwecho cha manyazi komanso chilakolako.
Ndi zaka zanga zamasukulu kusukulu ya sekondale ndinamva kuti ndang'ambika. Ngakhale ndikudziŵa kuti anyamata anga a msinkhu wanga anali oonera zolaula nthawi zonse, ndinkachita manyazi ndi zolaula zomwe ndimayang'ana (osati chinachake chomwe ngakhale mwana wa akatswiri a maganizo a maganizo anali wofunitsitsa kuuza anzake).
M'kalasi la Chingerezi, tinali kuwerenga "The Scarlet Letter" ndipo aphunzitsi adatiuza kulemba chinsinsi chomwe sitifuna aliyense adziwe. Ndinalemba, "Ndayang'ana zojambulajambula zojambulajambula." (Zoonadi, ndinachita mantha kwambiri kuti ndalemba kalata). Ndipo ine ndinali. Ndipo zithunzi zolaula za MILF. Ndipo "bukkake." Ndipo kugwiririra. Ndi zikhalidwe zonse za zinthu zimene sindikanalota ndikuchita mumoyo weni weni - chifukwa cha zifukwa, zowona, komanso chifukwa sizidzanditembenuza kuchita zinthu izi m'moyo weniweni. Koma ine ndinali atawayang'ana iwo, ndipo ine ndinali ndi manyazi. Ndipo sindinadziwe ngati ndiyenera kukhala kapena ayi.
Chifukwa chimodzi, sindinapweteke aliyense. Ndipo kwa ena, malo awa akuwonetsa zolaula pamwamba apo! Ayenera kukhala akuchita zimenezo chifukwa anthu akufuna kuwonerera izo, molondola? Ine sindinalota ilo. Ndangodutsa m'magulu a zomwe zinalipo ndi zofuna zambiri. Kotero zinali zachilendo, kulondola? Kodi izi zinapangitsa kuti zikhale bwino?
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Mafunso awa anapitiriza kundisokoneza. Ndinkadandaula kuti atsikana enieni sangandichitire ine. Choncho chaka changa chokalamba kusukulu ya sekondale, ndinaganiza zosiya. Cold turkey. Kwa miyezi isanu. Ndinasankha kuti ndisakhale ndi maliseche, ndipo ndinkangokhalira kugonana. Zinali zotsitsimutsa, ndipo ndithudi ndinasinthidwa mosavuta ndi "zachikhalidwe" zinthu - kuphatikizapo amayi ozungulira ine.
Koma pamene ndinayamba kugonana, ndinazindikira kuti ndakhala ndikudziyeretsa, ngakhale kuti ndapitirizabe (ndikupitirizabe) kuti ndisamangoganizira za zolaula. Ndinavutika kupeza ndi kukonzekera kukonzekera ndi amayi atatu oyambirira omwe ndinagona nawo. Izi sizinkawoneka ngati nkhani yaing'ono. Zinkawoneka ngati sukulu yonse yopita ku sukulu idafika pansi pa mphindi yomweyo ya mphamvu ya phallic, ndipo sindinathe basi. Kodi ndinasinthidwa kwambiri ndi zolaula kuposa akazi enieni? Kodi izi zikutanthauzanji zokhudzana ndi kugonana?
Ndikuyamba kuona msungwana nthawi zonse, komanso kumwa mowa, udzu, kopanda kondomu, ndikudalira, chitonthozo ndi chikondi chomwe ndinamverera ndi iye zinandilola kuti ndiyambe kukondwerera kugonana - mpaka kufika. Ine sindikanavomereza izo, koma usiku wochuluka ine ndinali "kugonana bwino" ine ndinali woledzera. Ndipo, zovuta kwambiri, ndikuganiza zolaula panthawi yogonana.
Ndinali kudzipatula, kudzipatula, ntchito yowonongeka kuti nditseke maso anga ndikugonana ndi munthu amene ndimamusamala ndi kuganiza kuti ndikugonana ndi munthu wina kapena kukumbukira kanema kosalekeza m'mabuku a ubwana wanga omwe ndikuchita nawo manyazi ngakhale apo.
Ndayankhula ndi amuna ena zikwizikwi omwe awona izi, ndipo sizodabwitsa kwambiri. Zaka khumi tisanayambe kugonana, ma neural njira zake zimagwirizanitsa ndi kusokonezeka, zosautsa zomwe zimafuna kupambana kwakukulu - kudumpha kuchoka ku zochitika zosaoneka bwino mpaka nthawi yovuta kwambiri, kotero kuti nthawi zonse imakhala yolemba kwambiri, yopotoka, ya kinky.
Komanso, popeza ndinaphunzira kuonera zolaula (Ndinayang'ana zolaula ngakhale ndisanatulukepo), sindinapezepo mpata wophunzira momwe ndingakwaniritsire chiwonongeko chopanda chidziwitso - mwa kufufuza zozizwitsa zanga za thupi kapena malingaliro anga za chiyanjano chomwe ndinadzimangira ndekha. I_ndipo sindikuganiza kuti ndiri ndekha pano - ndikudzipangitsa ndekha ndikuthandizidwa ndi ojambula zithunzi zolaula pa Intaneti kuti ndiphatikize kumverera kwakumangidwanso ndi zithunzi zomwe malowa amaperekedwa. Ndipo ngakhale patapita zaka, sindinathe kupirira popanda iwo.
Izi sizinandilepheretse kuchoka, chifukwa, zithunzizo zinalowetsedwa mu ubongo wanga. Ndikuthabe kukumbukira mavidiyo omwe sindinawawonere zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi kapena zisanu ndi ziwiri.
Ngakhale pano, "zokhumba" zanga zimakhazikika m'malingaliro azanga wazaka 14. Zolakwika zaka zakugonana? Kugwirira kapena S & M? Izi ndizo malingaliro a mphamvu ndi ulamuliro. Izi sizachilendo (kapena zoyipa kwenikweni) pazakugonana, koma ndi zomwe zidakonzedweratu kuti mwana wakhanda adzapatsidwa zolaula zambiri popanda kuwongolera.
Ndinkadandaula kuti zolaula za pa Intaneti zakhala zikulepheretsa chilakolako changa cha kugonana. Ndikutanthauza, ngati ndikusewera pamutu panga, ndingathe kusiya "kuyang'ana" zolaula?
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Zakhala bwino. Ndakhala ndi maubwenzi angapo a nthawi yaitali, kuwerenga Foucault ndipo ndinakhala ndi mwayi woyesera ndi kugonana kwa kinkier. Chimene chinathandiza kwambiri chinali kulankhula ndi abwenzi, makamaka amayi, omwe akhala ndi maubwenzi abwino ndi chiwerewere. Bwenzi lina laakazi linalongosola momwe iye ankakonda kugwiririra kugonana ndipo sanakondwere nazo, kotero kupyolera mu maliseche iye adapeza njira zoyenera kuyendetsedwa ndi "kukongola," kaya thupi lotsekedwa kapena lotseguka. Mnzanga wina yemwe wakhala akuchita maliseche kuyambira ali wamng'ono kwambiri koma sanayambe adawonapo zolaula anandiuza kuti sanaganizirepo mwachinsinsi, koma m'malo mwake amakumbukira zochitika zinazake zomwe zimamuukitsa, monga kudzuka pafupi ndi munthu wina. mapepala.
Tsopano, ndikuyesera kudzibwereza ndekha - osaphunzira za kugonana kwanga. Koma izo zatsala ine ndasokonezeka kwambiri. Ndikutanthauza, kodi ndikuyesera kuchita chiyani? Dziwani za kukopa kwanga "zachibadwa"? Kugonana nthawi zonse kumamangidwa - nthawi zambiri imakhala yotentha kuti ikhale yonenepa komanso yotumbululuka! Kodi ndizosiyana bwanji ndi zochitika zogonana, zolaula zomwe ndikufunafuna?
Ndikuganiza kumapeto, ndikungofuna kuti ndizimva bwino - ndikuchotsa manyazi, kudziimba mlandu komanso kumwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo kuchokera kumbali ya ubongo wanga yomwe imayambitsa kudzutsa. Ndikuganiza kugonana kwa kinky ndi kodabwitsa; imavomereza momwe manyazi, ulamuliro ndi chiwerewere zimakhudza kwambiri kugonana. Koma, ndikufuna kuti ndifufuze kink - osasiyidwe. Ndimayamika chifukwa cha chibadwidwe cha chibadwidwe cha mbadwo wanga, koma izi zimamveka ngati khola.
Ine ndikumverera mosiyana kuchokera ku chikhalidwe changa cha kugonana, monga cha wina aliyense. Ndikufuna kubwezera chilakolako changa chogonana. Ine sindikuyesera kuti ndichite machiritso anga kuti ndichotsere ziwanda za zolaula zanga. Ndikuyesera kubwereranso ku 2002 ndikuchotsa kompyuta ndikuzindikiritsa zomwe zimapindulitsa mwa kufufuza mwachibadwa.
Ndikugona mu bafa ndikusiya madzi ofunda kuti ayambe kuzungulira ntchafu zanga. Mbali zanga zovumbulutsidwa zimadziwika mosadziwika, monga momwe zimadziwira kuti ndizofunika kwambiri. Ndikutseka maso ndikukhudza. Chifuwa, m'mimba, m'chiuno - tsitsi, khosi, mapewa. Nditafika ku mbolo yanga, kusokonezeka kwachisomo ndikudabwitsa. M'malo moletsa kuganiza, kapena kuwongolera mwatsatanetsatane kuti achoke, ndimayesetsa kuti ndidziwe ngati ndikukhudza - ngati kuti ndikungodzifufuza ndekha.
Ndikhoza kuchoka popanda kuganiza chilichonse "chamanyazi" kapena zolaula, koma sizosangalatsa kwambiri - sizikumva bwino. Kodi ndiyenera kungodzipatulira kuti ndibwezereni MILF ndi zikwapu ndi maunyolo pamutu panga pamene ndikuwombera winawake yemwe sindimamupeza wachigololo? Mwinamwake ndingapeze cougar yomwe ndikhoza kukonda kapena wokondedwa yemwe angakhale nawo masewera olimbitsa mtima? Kapena kodi ndipitirize kufufuza thupi langa ndikuyembekeza kuti kuipitsidwa kwa mavidiyo XXX kumachokera pang'onopang'ono kuchokera kumaganizo anga kuti ndiwulule zowonjezereka monga momwe ndikuganizira, zowonongeka, zinyama, ziwalo zamoyo zamaganizo ndi thupi?
Ngati pali yankho kunja uko, mwina pa intaneti.
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