Zaka zingapo zapitazo, ndinapyola kufufuza ndi nkhani zokhudzana ndi zolaula komanso zotsatira zoipa zomwe zingakhalepo pa amuna ndi miyoyo yawo. Ndinazipeza zosangalatsa, koma sindinayambe kuziganizira kwambiri pambuyo pake. Kenaka nthawi ina chaka chatha ndinapunthwa kanema iyi.
Ndinazindikira kuti sindinangokhala ndi nkhawa yokhudzana ndi kugonana komanso sindinkalephera kuchita kale, koma pokhala mphunzitsi wapamtima, ndalankhula ndi amuna ambiri omwe anali ndi vuto lomweli, amuna omwe nthawi zambiri anali mu 20 yawo Ndi a 30. Kafukufuku waposachedwapa wa Esquire adasonyeza kuti 43% ya amuna amawavuta kupeza kapena kusunga nthawi zina, ndipo 24% amawauza kuti akuvutika "nthawi zambiri kuposa momwe ndikufunira."
Malingana ndi sayansi, zolaula zimaphunzitsa ubongo wathu kuti zimasule endorphins zambiri kuposa zachirengedwe chifukwa chogonjetsedwa ndi chilakolako chogonana. Patapita kanthawi, ubongo wathu umakhala wopanda mphamvu komanso umakhala ndi chidziwitso chokwanira komanso chokwanira kuti akwaniritse zomwezo. Momwemo amayamba kuyambira mu zovuta zowonongeka komanso zopambana. Nthawi zina, amuna amatha kukhala ndi chizoloŵezi cholaula zolaula ndipo akhoza kuyamba kusokoneza kugonana kwawo ndi miyoyo yawo. Nthawi zambiri zimakhala zofooketsa mwa onse awiri.
Mwayi sikuti mumakhala osokoneza bongo, koma ngati muli ndi zaka zakubadwa za 35, ndikuganiza kuti kupezeka kwa zolaula kwakhudza inu kuposa momwe mukuganizira. Ganiziraninso nthawi yoyamba yomwe munayang'ana zolaula. Chifaniziro chokha cha mkazi wamaliseche wokongola chinali chokwanira kwa iwe. Koma zomvetsa chisoni, kwa ambiri aife, m'zaka zambiri timakhala ndi zizoloŵezi zolaula komanso zopotoka.
Zotsatira zake ndikuti sikuti zimangowonjezera luso lanu loti mutha kudzutsidwa, komanso zingachepetseni ma receptors anu ambiri, zomwe zimakupangitsani kuti mukhale ndi nkhawa kwambiri, osagwirizana ndi ena, komanso ngakhale opsinjika maganizo. Zomwe simunatchulidwe zimakulepheretsani kuona momwe kukongola ndikumakupatsani zikhalidwe zosayenerera zogonana ndi akazi omwe mumakumana nawo. Ngati mudapeza mtsikana wina wokongola kwambiri wamaliseche pabedi panu ndipo simunalephere kunyalanyaza zochepa kapena zofooka mpaka pamene mukuvutika kutembenuka, ndiye mukudziwa zomwe ndikutanthauza.
Ndipo choipitsitsa kwambiri, wamng'ono yemwe munalipo pamene mudayang'ana kuonera zolaula, zovuta kwambiri zimakhalapo.
wanga buku pa kukopa akazi, Ndinagawana chinachake chomwe ndimatcha "maliseche" m'chaputala changa chokhutiritsa. Zinaphatikizapo kuthetsa zolaula ndi kuchepetsa kugonana kwa nthawi 1-2 pa sabata. Cholinga cha "zakudya" chinali kubwezeretsa ndi kulimbikitsa anyamata omwe anali ndi vuto loti azithamangitsa akazi panthawi ya nkhawa zawo. Ndinazichita kale ndikutayika nthawi zonse ndikadakhala ndikukwera pabulu ndipo zinkandigwirira ntchito. Kawirikawiri mkati mwa sabata kapena awiri. Koma sindinayambe ndalingalira kuti ndikusunga kapena kukhala chizolowezi chosatha m'moyo wanga.
Kumapeto kwa chaka chatha, zinthu "zolaula" zakhala zikuyaka moto pamsonkhano pano, ndipo anyamata ambiri (ineyo ndiphatikizidwapo), anagwedeza pa bandwagon ulusi uwu ndipo adagwirizana kuti asayang'ane zolaula pa masiku a 60. Tonse tinasunga nkhuni pa ulusi ndipo zinakhala zopambana. Ambiri aife tinapanga kupyolera mu masiku a 60 osakhulupirira komanso okhulupirira oona. Porn zinkasokoneza moyo wathu wa kugonana.
Kwa ena kunali kusintha kwakukulu komanso kovuta kwambiri. Kwa ena, kusinthako kunali kochepa komanso kosavuta. Kwa aliyense, mgwirizano umawoneka kuti ndife okondwa kuti tinachita. Mutha kuwerenga zochitika za ena ulusi. Mwini, ndakhala ndikuwonera zolaula chifukwa ndinali 13, ndipo ndakhala ndikuziyang'ana pafupifupi tsiku ndi tsiku kwa 8-10 zaka pamene ndinayambitsa vutoli.
- Ndinali ndilakalaka zoonera zolaula m'masabata angapo oyambirira. Zilakolako zimabwera ndikupita, nthawi zambiri pamodzi ndi kugonana kwanga. Zosintha zina zimasintha. Ndipo usiku womwe ndimalota pa zolaula - ayi, osati maloto okhudzana ndi kugonana, maloto okhudza zolaula. Eya, mwathamanga.
- Nditachita chiwerewere, ndinkangoganizira za atsikana omwe ndimadziwa kapena omwe ndakumana nawo. Nthawi zina sindinaganizire konse. Sindinaganizepo za zolaula zomwe ndaziwona.
- Magalimoto anga ogonana anali ovuta kwambiri masabata angapo oyambirira. Masiku ena ndikadakhala osasunthira, ndiye kuti sindingakonde kwambiri kugonana kwa masiku angapo pambuyo pake. Sindinachepetse kugonana kwanga (anyamata ena asankha kuchita izi), kotero izi zikutanthauza kuti ndimapita masiku a 4-5 popanda kuphwanya, ndikupita mtedza ndikuchita nthawi 3-4 nthawi ya maola 24. Nthawi zina zimamveka ngati ndine 16-zaka zakubadwa mobwerezabwereza.
- Pafupi masabata atatu kapena anai, kugonana kwanga kunali kwakukulu ndipo anakhalabe mwanjira imeneyo. Chisokonezo changa cha atsikana chinakula, komanso ndikudalira kuti ndikugonana nawo. Ndinkachita manyazi kwambiri kapena ndinkangokhalira kukankhira zinthu, koma ine mwina ndakhalapo kale.
- Ndinayamba kupeza atsikana achibadwa kuti akhale okongola. Zing'onozing'ono ndi zofooka zomwe poyamba zimandipweteka ine tsopano zinali zokondeka ndipo nthawizina ngakhalenso zachigololo. Ndinazindikiranso kuti zosangalatsa zanga zinasintha pang'ono. Ndinayamba kupeza nsalu yabodza, yachinyengo, yachinyengo, anyamata a mtundu wankhanza osakongola komanso atsikana okongola kuti azikonda kwambiri ine. Ndinayamba kuzindikira zinthu monga khungu, milomo, maso ndi tsitsi zambiri. Ndipo ngakhale kuti ndimakondabe tizinthu zabwino ndi abulu, sizinthu zokhazokha.
- Patadutsa mwezi umodzi, zinaonekeratu kuti ndikugonana bwino. Ndinali kuchita bwino ndikusangalala nazo komanso ndikuzifuna nthawi zambiri.
- M'mwezi wachiwiri, sindinali ndi mayesero ndipo mapinduwo anapitirizabe kuwonjezeka.
Zikuwoneka kuti ndikugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo komanso "kubwezeretsa" zinali zovuta kuposa za amuna ambiri. Mukhoza kuwerenga zambiri zokhudza zizindikiro za kuchotsa zolaula Pano ndipo werengani za ubwino wambiri omwe abambo amatha atasiya zolaula kwa masiku 60 Pano.
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Pomwe ndinabwerera ku zolaula pambuyo poyambiranso, zinthu zingapo zinasintha:
- Zizolowezi zomwe ndimakonda tsopano zimakhala zowonongeka, zonyansa komanso zowona mtima, osati zokongola. Panali mavidiyo angapo omwe ndinawona kumene sindimakhulupirira kuti ndimakonda kuyang'ana zinthu monga choncho.
- Ndinayamikira ndipo ndinayang'anitsitsa kwambiri ndi kukongola kwa mtsikana aliyense ndipo mochepa mwa iwo amatengeka kapena kugwedezeka ndi tambala wamkulu kapena muli ndi chiyani. Kugonana kwenikweni komweko kunkawonekera kukhala kosangalatsa kwambiri kuposa kungokhala ndi mtsikana wamaliseche wotentha pamsankhu wanga.
- Sindikudziwa koma ndikusangalala kuti ndikusangalala ndi atsikana omwe ali mavidiyo nthawi zambiri. Sindikunena kuti sindinaone kuti ena mwa ochita masewerowa akuoneka kuti akungoyendetsa malo awo m'mbuyomu, koma izi zinali zakuya. Monga momwe munganene kuti iwo sanali anthu okondwa kwambiri ndipo analibe ulemu wambiri. Ndikudziwa zonsezi a) zimawoneka zachilendo kuti ndizingoganizira pamene mukupeza fap, ndipo b) sayenera kudabwitsa aliyense. Koma izi zinakhala zoonekeratu kuti zinali zovuta kuti ndikhalebe nthawi zina.
Ndinaonerera zolaula nthawi zingapo pamapeto pa masabata atatu ndi zomwe takambirana pamwambapa. Ndinazindikira kuti palibe kusintha kwa nkhanza zanga, kugonana kwanga kapena kutonthoza kwa amayi. Patatha milungu ingapo, ndinayamba kukwatira msungwana kuno ku Brazil wokongola nthawi zonse, ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba pafupifupi chaka chimodzi, ndimakhala ndi chibwenzi chogonana nthawi zonse.
Ndinaganiza zogwiritsa ntchito mpata kuti ndiyese chinthu china: Ndinkafuna kuona kuti zolaula zinali zochuluka bwanji. Ndinaliyang'anitsitsa pafupipafupi ndipo palibe chomwe chinasintha. Koma ndiyenera kuchuluka bwanji ndisanayambe kukhudza moyo wanga wa kugonana? Chibwenzi changa chachilendo cha Brasileira chinapanga kusintha kosasintha. Popeza ndinali kugonana ndi iye masiku angapo, ndimatha kuona ndikumva kusintha komwe ndikufuna kugonana nawo kapena kukwanitsa kuchita naye nthawi yomweyo.
Zinatenga pafupifupi sabata. Ndikhoza kukhala ndi zithunzi zolaula 4-5 nthawi sabata. Koma pofika nthawi yomaliza, ndinabwerera ku zizolowezi zanga zoonera zolaula ndikuwonera mavidiyo a 10-15 pamisonkhano, kawirikawiri ndikuwombera molunjika ku ndalama. Kachiwiri bwenzi langa la chibwenzi linabwera nditangoyamba kuthawa, ndinazindikira kuti ndikudandaula kwambiri ndikukhudzidwa ndi momwe ndikufunira, mpaka ndinapepesa chifukwa cholephera kutsatira miyezo yanga. Sabata lotsatira, ndinasiya zolaula, ndipo mkati mwa sabata, chilakolako chakale ndi ntchito zinabwerera ndipo zikupitirizabe kukhala zolimba.
Ndiye kodi izi zikutanthawuza chiyani? Kodi zolaula ndi satana? Kodi simungayang'ane konse? Kodi zikuwononga moyo wanu wa kugonana pamene tikuyankhula?
Ndikhoza kungoyankha ndekha. Kwa ine, inde, zolaula zinakhudza kwambiri moyo wanga wa kugonana ndipo ndibwino kuti ndisayang'ane. Ndipo ndikudziwa kuti pali anyamata ambiri pamsonkhanowo omwe anali ndi phindu lalikulu kuposa ine. Sindingabwererenso kukayang'ana nthawi zonse. Ndikulingalira kuti ndimayang'ana nthawi zina, makamaka ndikaledzera ndikufika kunyumba usiku utatha. Koma n'zoonekeratu kuti ngati ndiziyang'ana pazomwe zilipo masiku angapo, zimakhudza moyo wanga wa kugonana. Ine ndikukhumba moona kuti ine ndasiya kuyang'ana izo zaka zapitazo, monga izo zikanapulumutsira ine kulimbana kwakukulu kwa zolimbikitsa ndi manyazi mu chipinda chogona.
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