Kuyambira pa zaka zoopsa kwambiri zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri ndinakumana ndi zolaula poyamba. Ndimakumbukira kugwedezeka kumayambiriro pamene aliyense anali akugona, kuti ayese zinthu zosangalatsa ku Google ndikukongoletsa malo onsewa omwe anandisangalatsa kwambiri. Ndinapeza miyezi yambiri ndikatha kuyang'ana zolaula.
Sindinathe kuona chilichonse chokhudzana ndi kugonana kwanga popanda zolaula zomwe zimagwirizana nazo. Maganizo anga pa kugonana anali atakhazikika. Kunena zoona, sindinasinthe maganizo anga, koma ndinalumikizidwa ndi zotsatira za zolaula.
Nthawi yomwe ndinayamba sukulu ya sekondale, ndili ndi zaka 11, ndinali ndi chizolowezi chachikulu. Chaka chilichonse zotsatira zake zosiya kugonana zinkaipiraipira. Sindinkatha kulumikizana ndi atsikana a msinkhu wanga, anthu onse, chilengedwe ndi nyama. Ndinkamva ululu waukulu wodzichepetsera komanso kudzida. Ndinkamva chisoni ndi chilichonse kupatula chisangalalo chomwe ndinkamva ndikatsegula kompyuta yanga. Chipinda changa chogona chinali malo osungiramo zopukutira mano omwe amagwiritsidwa ntchito kutsuka umuna wanga. Ndinali nditayamba kale kusukulu. Mphamvu zanga zonse zinkathera pa chinthu chimodzichi. Kulikonse mphindi iliyonse zinali m'maganizo mwanga. Mtsikana uti, kanema, gulu lomwe ndinkapita kukaonera ndikabwerera kunyumba. Ndinkamva ululu waukulu.
Ndili ndi zaka 17, zonse zinasintha. Ndinapeza nkhani yokhudza mwamuna amene anasiya zolaula komanso kudziseweretsa maliseche mopitirira muyeso chifukwa chokhala ndi zochitika zonse zabwino zogonana. Sindinamvetse panthawiyo, koma chinali chiyambi cha kudzuka kwanga, kubadwanso kwanga, kukula kwanga, ndi kudzibwezeretsa ndekha. Nkhondo yayikulu kwambiri m'moyo wanga.
Ndinavutika, malingaliro onse omwe ndinali nawo pafupifupi moyo wanga wonse, anandigwera, osati mvula yokha ... mphepo yamkuntho. Ndinalira, ndinafuula, ndinamva kupsinjika maganizo. Kutopa kwambiri kunandipangitsa kukhala maso usiku kwambiri ndipo kunandipangitsa kupindika ndi kupotoka pabedi langa. Koma ndinapitirizabe kuganiza kuti ndiyenera china chake chabwino. Pamene ndinalephera kwambiri, ndinapeza chidziwitso ndi chidziwitso chochuluka kuchokera ku zomwe zinandipangitsa kubwerera m'mbuyo.
Patatha milungu iwiri nditabwereranso ku chibwenzi, ndinakumana ndi mtsikana ndipo tinayamba chibwenzi. Moyo wanga unayamba kukula ndi chikondi chomwe ndinachipeza kuchokera muubwenzi wodabwitsawu. Sindinawonerepo zolaula kapena kudziseweretsa maliseche kuyambira pamenepo. Ndinavutika ndi umunthu wanga komanso kukhala ndekha komanso zotsalira za nkhawa zomwe ndinapeza kuchokera ku zolaula kuti ndikhale m'malo ochezera kwambiri, monga kusukulu.
Tsopano patha zaka zoposa ziwiri kuchokera pamene ndinadziuza ndekha kuti iyi ikhala nthawi yomaliza, iyi ndi nthawi yomwe ndingagonjetse chizolowezi changa ndikutenga moyo womwe ndinali nawo komanso womwe ndimayenera kukhala nawo! Ndinapita kukapeza chikhalidwe china monga wophunzira wosinthana kwa chaka chimodzi. Ndabwereranso ndipo ndapeza kuti ndine munthu wosamala, wosangalala komanso wodziwa zambiri. Ndinalankhula ndi anthu odabwitsa omwe anamvetsera nkhani yanga ndikundiphunzitsa, ndinaphunzira kusewera zida zosiyanasiyana, ndinakhala wathanzi, ndinapatsa anthu opanda pokhala mabulangeti ndi ndalama zomwe ndinapeza kuchokera kwa anzanga ndi abale, ndinayamba kudzifufuza ndekha ndikupitiriza mpaka lero kuti ndipereke utumiki wanga ndi mphatso zanga kudziko lapansi.
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