Ndakhala ndikutanthauza kubwereranso kuno kwakanthawi, osati kungothokoza ena mwa anthu odabwitsa pano, komanso kuti ndithandizire pano kuti nditsimikizire ndekha kuti sindikutenga kupita patsogolo kwanga ndi zomwe ndakwaniritsa mopepuka. Ndiyambira kumapeto, chifukwa positi yanga ikhala yayitali kwambiri kwa anthu ambiri ndipo ndikudziwa kuti zotsatira zake ndizomwe anthu ambiri amasamala. Panopa ndili ndi masiku 75 ndikuganiza (ngakhale ndasiya kuwerengera), ndipo sindinakhalepo wosangalala m'moyo wanga.
Patsiku la 42 pazomwe ndidakumana nazo pano ndidataya namwali wanga kwa msungwana m'modzi, ndipo patadutsa milungu ingapo ndidakumana ndi mtsikana wina yemwe tsopano wakhala bwenzi langa. Mukadandiuza kuti izi zichitika miyezi 5 yapitayo, sindikukhulupirira. Koma chomwe ndikuti zochitika izi sizomwe zimandichititsa kuti ndikhale wosangalala, ndikukhulupirira kuti zochitikazi ndizopangira chisangalalo changa. Miyezi 5 yapitayo ndikadachita chilichonse kuti ndigone ndi mtsikana ndikutaya unamwali wanga ndicho chifukwa chokha chomwe ndidalumikizirana ndi NoFap. Osandilakwitsa ndikadali pamwezi izi zonse zachitika koma chinthucho ndi tsiku la 42 ndinali nditathamanga kale pachisangalalo chachikulu, sindinasowe chilichonse chosintha. Pakadali pano ndidazindikira kuti NoFap imangokhudza kukoka atsikana, koma ndikuti mudzimasule ku chizolowezi choopsa, kudzisintha nokha, ndikukhala osangalala.
Nayi nkhani yanga:
Ndinazindikira NoFap mwinamwake 3 / 4 miyezi yapitayo, ndipo panthawi yomwe ndinali wolemera kwambiri, ndikudandaula, ndikuda nkhaŵa ndi anthu, ndipo koposa zonse ndinali ndichisoni. Ndinasangalala nthawi zambiri ndikukhala ndi moyo wambiri koma pamene ndinali ndekha ndikuganiza, ndinali wodandaula kwambiri, ndipo sindinakhutire ndi moyo wanga.
Pamene ndinayamba kupeza NoFap ndinawerenga posonyeza kuti mnyamata akukhala ndi chidaliro ndi kutaya unamwali wake pambuyo pa masiku 40 ndipo ndinaganiza kuti ndikuwombera chilichonse chomwe chiyenera kuwombera. Kutaya unamwali wanga ndiye chinthu chomwe ndimaganizira kwambiri, ndinkasamala kwambiri ndipo nthawi zonse ndinkakhumudwa nazo.
Mzere woyamba unali masiku a 7 ndipo ndimamva kuti ndi "zopambana" zonse koma mwachidziwikire pamapeto pake ndidaziwona. Koma zinali zokwanira, ndinkalawa zomwe ndimamva ndipo ndinali wosuta. Chifukwa chake, kusintha kuchoka pakukonda kukhala PMO kukhala chizolowezi chodzisintha kunayamba.
Zinali zovuta poyamba popeza PMO inali yolemetsa kwambiri pazovuta ziwirizi. Pambuyo pa mzere uliwonse wautali ndimakhala ndikumwa mowa pang'ono ndi masiku angapo a 1/2 streaks, chifukwa chake ndidawononga kupita patsogolo kwanga.
Koma tsiku lililonse ndimabwera pamsonkhanowu, sindikanatha kuchita izi popanda inu anyamata. Ndikudziwa komwe ndikadakhala popanda bwaloli, ndipo ndendende momwe ndinalili poyamba, wosasangalala, wosakhudzidwa, ndi zina zambiri. Tsiku lililonse ndimabwera kuno ndikudzaza mutu wanga ndizambiri zolakwika za PMO, zolimbikitsa komanso kudzoza, ambiri maubwino a NoFap momwe ndingathere, ndipo ndizomwe zimandipangitsa kuti ndizipitabe.
Ndinayamba kupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi masiku 5 pa sabata ndikudya zakudya zolimbitsa thupi koyambirira kwa ulendo wanga, ndine wokondwa kuti ndidachita izi chifukwa zidathandizira kutulutsa mphamvu zochulukirapo pamizere ndipo sindingatayike chifukwa chongobwereranso. Pambuyo pa miyezi ingapo ndinali kuyamba kuwona zopindulitsa ndipo anthu anali atayamba kuzindikira ndikupereka ndemanga. Izi zidawonjezera chidaliro changa ndipo zidandithandiza ndi NoFap.
Nthawi yonseyi ma streaks anga anali akutalika komanso otalikirapo ndipo ngakhale ndimabwereranso ndikulephera kupita patsogolo, zonse zinali gawo laulendowu ndipo ndimadzimanga ndekha panjira yonseyi.
Mofulumira kwa masiku pafupifupi 30 mu "streak" yanga yapano, inali nthawi yoyamba kuti ndifike patali chonchi ndipo ndimamva bwino. Pakadali pano ndinali ndi zopindulitsa kwambiri kwakuti ndimatha kukhala ngati mphindi 5 pakalilore ngati "mwana wamwamuna woyipa iwe", kwenikweni ndinali ndikudzidalira ndekha mwathupi, kuwonjezera pamenepo ndinali ndi chidaliro chachikulu kuchokera ku NoFap komabe kotero ndinali ndi chidaliro chodzidalira ndekha.
Ndidasankha zakudya zanga ndikusiya kusuta udzu usiku uliwonse ndipo izi zidandipangitsa kuti ndikhale wolimba komanso wowoneka bwino, komanso mutu wabwino womwe NoFap umakubweretserani kale.
Kwa nthawi yoyamba momwe ndimakumbukira, ndinali wokondwa. Popanda kufuna china chilichonse, ndimangokhalira kukondwera ndi momwe zinthu zinalili. Zinali zosangalatsa, ndipo nthawi imeneyo NoFap sizinali zovuta koma moyo wanga. Mwadzidzidzi ndinalibe chifukwa chobwerera mmbuyo ndipo kunangokhala kosavuta.
Ndinayamba kumva zolimbikitsazo osati zakufunika kuthamangitsidwa koma monga horniness kuti, chifukwa ndinalibe chibwenzi kapena chilichonse, ndimangokhala. Ndipo zinali bwino. Ndinkasangalala nazo, ndimafuna kuti zizikhala zovuta (palibe chilango chofunira) chifukwa ndidaphunzira kuti kulimbana kovuta kumakhala kopindulitsa kwambiri. NoFap inali itandiphunzitsa kukongola kwa kumezanitsa zolimba. China chake chomwe sindinadziwe za NoFap isanachitike.
Tsiku 42 chinali china chake, ndinali wonyansa kwambiri ndipo ndimayenera kuchitapo kanthu, PMO sanali mwayi m'maganizo mwanga kotero ndimatumizira mtsikana yemwe ndimakhala ndikucheza naye ndikumufunsa ngati akufuna kupachika, iye anati inde ndipo ndinazungulira. Ndinali wamantha pansi koma kuyendetsa moyenera kugonana ndi mphamvu mosiyana ndi china chilichonse, zimafika poti iwe ndiwe wowopsya kwambiri kuti ukhale wamanjenje ndipo ubongo wako umangopita kukangoyenda. Kotero ine ndinatero, ndipo ife tinagwedezeka. Gulu la nthawi. Ndinachoka ndikudzidalira kwambiri, ndikuwala. Ndipo ngakhale kutaya unamwali wanga ndichinthu chomwe sindinasamale nacho panthawiyi, ndinali ndikulakalaka chibwenzi choyenera, ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri chifukwa ndimadziwa momwe okalamba ndimakondera nazo, ndipo zidandidabwitsa momwe chatsopano changa chidazichita osaganizira ngati kuti ndi $ 5 kugula mwachangu pa amazon. Zinandidabwitsa kuti nditangoti sindisamalanso, mwadzidzidzi zidakhala zosavuta.
Ndinalibe chidwi chotsatira msungwanayo popeza anali wokongola kwambiri ndipo ndinamulola kuti ayambe kutuluka, ndipo patatha milungu ingapo ndinakumana ndi mtsikana yemwe ndinadana naye nthawi yomweyo. Tinapitiliza masiku angapo omwe amayenda bwino osachita chilichonse. Ndi zomwe ndimalota ndisanafike NoFap, koma zimawoneka ngati zosamveka komanso zosatheka. Tsopano tili limodzi ndipo sindingakhale wosangalala, ndimamverera ngati ndikumwetulira kulikonse komwe ndikupita kapena chilichonse chomwe ndichita, moyo ndi wangwiro. Masabata angapo apitawa ndayiwala zolaula.
Sindikuthokoza kanthu koma NoFap, ndi anthu omwe ali pamsonkhanowu omwe wandithandiza. Anthu omwe sindidzakumana nawo, ochokera m'mayiko osiyanasiyana, omwe asankha kundipatsa malangizo panjira, chifukwa cha kukoma mtima kwawo. Tsopano popeza ndadutsa mlatho ndipo ndili kumbali ndikufuna kubwezera chigawo chino, chonde chonde, ngati wina akusowa thandizo, malangizo aliwonse, ali ndi mafunso chonde mungoyankhapo kapena PM, ndikufuna kuthandiza zochepa ndikutha kuchita!
Ndikudziwa izi ndizitali koma ndikukhulupirirani kuti ndikhoza kulemba mawu ena ambirimbiri onena za NoFap. Kusintha malangizo a moyo wanga kwanthawizonse ndipo sindingathe kutamanda mokwanira.
Ndine zaka 20.
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