Sindikukhulupirira kuti ndikulemba izi, koma ndagonjetsa PIED patatha zaka zosachepera 2. Icho mwina chinali chinthu chovuta kwambiri chomwe ndakhalapo nacho pamoyo wanga wonse, ndipo panali zopitilira zingapo panjira yomwe ndimafunsa ngati ndingakhale ndikugonana bwino, kapena moyo wosangalala. Osandisokoneza ndi imodzi mwa zikwangwani zolalikira pano. Pomwe ndimayambiranso ntchito ndidayamba kukhumudwa nthawi zina, ngakhale kumwa mowa komanso kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo kuti ndithane nawo.
Koma ndikukuwuzani pompano kuti ndachoka kwa namwali yemwe ali ndi PIED mwamtheradi komanso nkhawa yayikulu yakugonana kuti ndigone mokhazikika ndi chibwenzi chazaka zosakwana zaka 2. Mutha kuchira kuchokera izi. Ndimakumbukira kuwerenga nkhani zopambana pomwe ndimayambiranso ndipo sindinakhulupirire anthu atanena izi, koma inde MUTHA KUKHALABE.
Muyenera kuyandikira akufa akufa mozama ndikupereka moyo wanu wonse kuti muyambirenso, koma zikuyenderani ngati mudzipereka. Komanso, muyenera kukhala oleza mtima. Ndikutanthauza kupilira kwenikweni. Ndikukhulupirira kuti anthu ena onga ine zitha kutenga zaka kuti achire, osangoyenda masiku 90. Nayi nkhani yanga:
Tsopano ndili ndi zaka 21. Ndinayamba kuonera zolaula pa intaneti ndidakali wamng'ono, mwina wazaka 12. Pazaka zopusazo, ndinali ndi laputopu yanga ndi chipinda changa, kotero ndidapita molunjika ku PMOing kuzinthu zina zokongola. Monga ena onse pamsonkhanowu, sindinaganize kuti izi zitha kundiwononga mwanjira iliyonse. Ndimaganiza kuti zinali zabwinobwino. Chifukwa chake ndidapitiliza kukhala PMO pazaka zanga zonse zakubadwa. Sindingakumbukire ndendende, koma ndinganene kuti ndimakhala PMO'd nthawi 5-6 pa sabata kuyambira zaka ~ 14-19. Munthawi imeneyi, ndinali kusekondale nthawi zonse. Ndinali ndi abwenzi ambiri, ndimasewera, ndi zina zambiri. Ndinali ndi bwenzi lotentha kwambiri mu kalasi ya 10th (koma tidathetsa ukwati usanachitike). Komabe, ndinali namwali kusukulu yasekondale, zomwe zimandivutitsa nthawi zonse, koma sindinaganize kuti china chake chinali cholakwika kwambiri.
Kenaka ndinapita ku koleji ndikukumana ndi mtsikana amene ndimamukonda kwambiri. Potsirizira pake kumapeto kwa chaka chatsopano adabwerera kumalo anga atatha phwando ndipo tinaganiza zogonana. Komabe, monga momwe mumayang'anira, sindingathe kupeza chilichonse chimene chimafika pansi pamene adandichititsa. Ine sindikutanthauza kanthu. Sizingatheke kuti nditsimikizidwe, koma ndinali ndi chidwi chodzidzimutsa ichi chonse. Zinangokhala ngati zachilendo kwa ine komanso zachilendo. Ngakhale kuti ndinali woledzeretsa usiku womwewo, ndinadziwa kuti panali chinachake cholakwika ndi ine. Zinali zochititsa manyazi kwambiri pa ine panthawiyo, ndipo zinali zovuta zedi zogonana zomwe zingakhalepo. Ndinasokonezeka kwambiri ndipo ndinasokonezeka kwambiri.
Chifukwa chake chilimwechi ndidayamba kufunafuna mayankho ndipo ndidapeza kanema wa Gary wilson Ted ndipo kenako tsambali, ndipo zonsezi zimandimvetsetsa. Ndinayamba kuyambiranso pomwepo ndipo ndinali wodzipereka kwambiri. Choyamba sindinachite O masiku onse a 96. Ndinayambanso kuchepetsa udzu ndi mowa ndipo ndinayamba kuchita zambiri. Ndikadakhala MO (wopanda P) pafupifupi masabata onse a 2 kwa miyezi ingapo yotsatira. Ndimakumbukiranso kuti ndinayesa kugonana ndi mtsikana pambuyo pa phwando usiku umodzi kuzungulira tsiku la 120, ndipo ndinalephera kwambiri. Sindinathe kuzimvetsa nkomwe, ndinakhalanso wamanyazi kwambiri ndikukhumudwa.
Komabe, pozungulira nthawi ino ndinayamba kuzindikira ZINTHU zizindikiro za kupita patsogolo, monga nthawi zina MW (zomwe sindinazipezepo kale). Kwa miyezi ingapo yotsatira ndinamva ngati ndikupita patsogolo pang'ono, koma sindinayese kuyesa. Kenaka, patadutsa chaka cha 1, ndinadziwa kuti ndikufunika kuyesa kutero, kotero ndinayamba kulankhula ndi atsikana ambiri, kupita patsogolo, ndikucheza ndi atsikana momwe ndingathere. Izi zinandithandizadi. Ndinayambanso kuchita MOING nthawi pafupifupi 2 pa sabata, ndipo patatha chaka cha 1 ndinadziwa kuti ndikupita patsogolo ndi MW ndi libido, koma sindinayambe kugonana.
Kenaka patadutsa zaka za 1.5, ndinaganiza kuti pafupi ndi nthawi ndimayesera kuti ndidzipereke ndekha, choncho ndinamuuza mtsikana wina amene ndimakonda kuti ndimamukonda ndipo ndikufuna kukhala naye, koma kuti ndinakumana ndi zowawa m'mbuyomu chifukwa cha kusakhoza kukwanitsa kugonana, ndipo motero ndimakhala wamanjenje ndikugonana ndikumufuna kuti apirire nane. Mwamwayi iye ankawoneka kuti akumvetsa ndipo ankandikonda kwambiri ine ndipo anati akanakhala woleza nane. Kotero, ife tinangopanga zojambula zokha kwa mwezi umodzi, ndipo ndikudziwa kuti ndikupita patsogolo kwambiri. Nthawi zina ndimatha kupeza sortof zovuta kuti ndingokhala pafupi naye. Kotero potsiriza anandipatsa mutu pambuyo pa phwando usiku wina ndipo izi zinagwira ntchito bwino, ngakhale sindinathe kumaliza chifukwa ndinali wokonda kuledzera (ndi nervous af). Koma, usiku wotsatira iye anatsikira pa ine kachiwiri ndipo izo zinagwira ntchito mwangwiro ndipo ine ndinatsiriza. Kenaka tinangopitirizabe kusokoneza monga chonchi kwa kanthawi ndipo ndinatha kugonana. Poyamba kugonana kunali koopsa ndipo ndimangokhala ngati miniti ya 1, koma patatha nthawi zambiri ndinapindula kwambiri, ndipo tsopano ndakhala ndikugonana bwino naye kwa miyezi pafupifupi 2.
Muyenera kubwezeretsa thupi lanu kuti muwayankhe amayi enieni mmalo mwa zolaula. Lekani kuyang'ana zolaula, dzilitseni nokha, ndipo yesetsani kupeza msungwana womvetsetsa kuti akuthandizeni rewire. Zimakhala zosavuta kwambiri mukakhala ndi mtsikana amene mumakhala bwino ndi-ndikuganiza izi ndi zomwe zandithandiza. Ndikudziwa kuti ndizosavuta kuchita, koma ndi zophweka. Lekani kuyang'ana zolaula ndikuyesera kupeza mtsikana.
Ndiyeneranso kutchula kuti nthawi yomwe ndimayambiranso ndinayambiranso 'panthawi ya 6 kapena 7, ndipo ngakhale lero ndikupitirizabe kuchepa ndi PMO kamodzi kanthawi. Kubwezeredwa kumodzi sikungakuwononge iwe. Ndiko kulimbana ndi ubongo wanu ndi zaka zambiri zolaula zomwe zimatikakamiza. Komabe, sindingathe kuyamika nkhaniyi mokwanira. Osati kudabwitsa kwambiri, koma wapulumutsadi moyo wanga m'njira zambiri.
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