Ine ndinapunthwa pa mwayi uwu tsiku lina. Ndikuganiza kuti izo zimatchulidwa mwa nthabwala, koma ndinayamba kufuna kudziwa zambiri ndikuwerenga mobwerezabwereza ndipo ndisanadziwe kuti ndinali wokonzeka kutenga nawo mbali.
Nditayamba ndinali pakati pa ntchito popeza ndinali nditalandiridwa pantchito yodabwitsa nthawi yomweyo malo omwe ndimagwirira ntchito atatsekedwa, kundisiya ndilibe ntchito kapena ndalama m'dziko latsopanoli ndizochepa kuti ndikhale wotanganidwa kapena anzanga apafupi. Ngati mukufuna kudziwa, ndinali 21 tsopano ndili 22.
Chifukwa chomwe ndinayambira ndichoti ndimamva kuti nthawi zina zolaula komanso maliseche zimandilamulira. Ngati sindinachite kamodzi patsiku ndimakhala wokwiya komanso wokwiya. Ngati panalibe chilichonse choti ndichite nthawi zina ndimangopitiliza, mwina 5 nthawi patsiku, ndikuzungulira, kuwonera kanema pambuyo pa kanema ndikudziwa zolaula zambiri kuposa zathanzi. Nditazindikira kuti wosewera potengera makanda awo ndidazindikira kuti ndimayang'ana kwambiri… Koma ndine wokonda zachikazi ndipo ndakhala ndikulemekeza akazi. Zithunzi zolaula zomwe ndimakonda zinali zolaula zomwe zimawoneka ngati zenizeni kapena 'zosakhala zabodza' ndipo pomwe zidali zovuta kupsa mtima. Ndinkakonda kuwona chikondi ndi umagwirira.
Koma makamaka m'moyo wanga wonse ndakhala ndikugonana kwambiri. Ndimakondabe ndipo nthawi zina ndimadana ndi momwe ndimaganizira zogonana komanso momwe ndimathamangitsira tsiku lililonse ndikubwereza mosangalala, koma ndimakhala ndi nthawi yomwe ndimazindikira kuti sindinachite kanthu kwa masiku. Ndazindikira tsopano kuti kukhala otanganidwa ndi mankhwala abwino kwambiri. Cos ndimakonda kuthana ndi izi ndikuseweretsa maliseche.
Lang'anani… Masabata angapo oyambilira anali kuzunzidwa, nthawi yochuluka kwambiri yopatula kuti ndikhale nayo ndimavutika. Koma ndidakhalabe wolimba ndikudutsa. Kwa onse olimbana kunja uko pamapeto pake zimakhala zosavuta. Ndinali kusewera gitala kwambiri, kuwerenga, kukhala wochepa, masewera olimbitsa thupi tsiku lililonse (ndinalibe ntchito). Zinali bwino, ndimakonda zatsopano.
Kenako ndinasamukira ku ntchito yanga kudera lina. Apanso ndidayamba bwino. Koma ndinalibe ndalama zochepa ndisanayambe ntchito sindinathe kuchita chilichonse… Ndinalibe gitala, kulibe masewera olimbitsa thupi, laputopu yanga yoyeseza kwambiri masewera, palibe mabuku atsopano oti ndiwerenge.
Ndinalidi wosungulumwa pambuyo pa sabata yoyamba yomwe ndimakhala ndi mabanja ena m'derali. Anakhala zaka zambiri kuchokera pachibwenzi changa chomaliza komanso milungu ingapo kuchokera pomwe ndidagonana komaliza. Chifukwa chake ndidapitilira ... ndinayankhula ndi atsikana angapo, ndinayesa kukonza zinthu koma tsiku lina ndinali wamantha komanso wosaleza mtima ndi mayankho omwe ndidapitilira CL… Ndizomvetsa manyazi kunena. Koma ndinadzipeza ndekha pamenepo, ndikuyang'ana ndikuyankha anyamata omwe akufuna mnyamata wa atsikana awo, atsikana akufuna mnyamata ndi zina zambiri. Zinali zochepa koma ndinali wonyansa komanso wosungulumwa ndimangofa.
Ndisanadziwe kuti ndinalumikizidwa… Komanso, ndinali ndisanayambebe kugwira ntchito komabe ndinali ndi nthawi yambiri yopuma komanso osasokonezedwa. Zachidziwikire kuti sindinali kuseweretsa maliseche, koma mwina zikadakhala zathanzi ndikadakhala kuti?… Ndinali kuwona maliseche akujambulidwa tsiku lililonse. Ndine munthu wowoneka bwino, ndimangokhala wopanda chidaliro ndikumva kuti ndili ndekha.
Chifukwa chake ndidatsiriza kuyankhula ndikulumikizana ndi anthu ochepa. Atsikana ochepa omwe ndimayandikira kwambiri kuti ndikomane nawo pamasom'pamaso. Zambiri sizinali zotentha kotero ndimangolankhula ndikuwatsogolera, ndikuganiza kuti atha kukhala ndi wina wofanana ndi ine. Ndizowopsa kunena koma kuti ndikungomverera kuti wina akundifuna anali wabwino, ndimayamba mtsikana kutsika kapena kundifuna. Izi zidachitadi… Zidandithandizanso kulakalaka kugonana.
Koma mwatsoka ndakhala ndikugwirizananso ndi anzanga omwe ndimakhala nawo m'deralo monga momwe mabanja athu adakhalira nthawi zonse ndipo tinakhala mabwenzi. Ndinayamba ntchito ndikuyamba kupeza ndalama zambiri ndikugula zinthu zambiri ndikukhala ndi nthawi yambiri. Ndinayambanso kupanga anzanga ambiri. Ndinayankhulabe ndi atsikana angapo ndipo ndinayamba kucheza ndi mayi wachikulire kwambiri yemwe ndimamukonda kwambiri.
Ndiye usiku wina, ine ndi mnzanga wa m'banja tinagwirizana. Anati amaganiza kuti ndine wokongola ndikamwa mowa, sindinadziwe chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti ndife abwenzi chabe ndikupsompsonana. Anakhala mgodi usiku womwewo, kenako usiku wotsatira ndidakhala kwawo ndipo tidagonana. Tidali pachibwenzi ngati okwatirana kwa milungu iwiri ndipo sindinazindikire kuti nthawi zambiri sindimadziwa ndikudziwa kuti wina ali mwa ine. Osangonama, kudzimvera koyamba kwa mwezi umodzi kapena apo zinali zodabwitsa… Komanso kuti zidachitika chifukwa cha msungwana wokongola uyu osati ine.
Mwayi kwa ine ndiwosangalatsa, wosangalatsa komanso wogonana monga ine ndipo nditha kufanana ndi kugonana kwanga. Koma moona mtima, sakudziwa, koma ndikuganiza kuti adandipulumutsa… Popanda iye ndikadakhala kuti ndidakumana ndi mtsikana pa intaneti tsiku lina.
Iyi ndi nkhani yanga yowona mtima… Zakhala zabwino komanso zoipa.
Zomwe ndidazindikira munthawi yanga ... Ndimakonda munthu yemwe ndili tsopano wopanda maliseche. Mwamwayi wanga (tsopano gf) amadziwa ndikumvetsetsa ndipo amakonda kuti ndine wosiyana ndipo sinditero. Ngakhale iye amachita tsiku ndi tsiku, koma sanapirireko maphunziro amisili omwe anyamata ambiri amachita kuyambira ali aang'ono zomwe zimapangitsa izi zolaula / maliseche.
Ndimachita zambiri ndi nthawi yanga ndikukhala okondwa chifukwa chokhala ndi zolimbitsa thupi zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito zomwe sizingatheke.
Kugonana kwanga ndikofanana. Kukhala otanganidwa kumachita ndipo kwathandiza koma ndikuganiza kuti ndangolumikizidwa motere.
Sindinadzichepetse… Ndamva mwina, koma osayandikira kwenikweni. Palibe maloto onyowa kapena china chilichonse.
Ndakhala ndikusintha pamoyo wanga nthawi yonseyi kotero sindinganene ngati ndili ndi chidaliro kapena chilichonse. Moona mtima sindinawone kusintha pang'ono pakudzidalira kwanga kapena umunthu wanga. Koma sindinakhalepo ndi vuto ndi ilo kale, ndiye mwina ndichifukwa chake?
Ngati anthu akuchita izi ndipo akuyembekeza ofanana ndi mphamvu zamasamba zazikulu kuchokera kwa woyenda waku Scott sizichitika. Koma zomwe zonsezi zimakupatsani mwayi wowongolera komanso kukupangitsani kukhala munthu wonyadira nokha.
Sindikuganiza kuti ndidzakhalanso ndi maliseche. Ndikukhulupiriranso kuti ndikasiyana ndi gf yanga sindiyambiranso zizolowezi zanga zoyipa zomwe ndimaganiza. Sindikudziwa ngati wina angawerenge kapena izi kapena ngati mungadane kapena kuzikonda. Koma awa ndi gulu lotseguka lothandiza ndipo ndimaganiza kuti ndigawana nkhani yanga ngati wina angafune kudziwa.
Khalani omasuka kufunsa mafunso ndipo ndidzayankha mokondwera.
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