Ndinganene motsimikiza kuti ED yanga ndi toast, ndipo tsambali, limodzi ndi anthu ambiri, ndichifukwa chake. Poyamba, ndikuloleni ndikuuzeni kuti iyi sikhala nkhani yoyipa kwambiri yomwe mwawerengapo.
M'malo mwake, nkhani yanga yopambana ndiyabwino (ngakhale ndiyapadera) poyerekeza ndi zambiri zomwe ndawerenga apa. Mosasamala kanthu, chiwopsezocho ndi chenicheni, anyamata. PIED ndi chenicheni. Sindinalembepo pano kale (ndipo ndangolowa kumene lero), koma sindikadakhala komwe ndili pano popanda thandizo kuchokera pano, chifukwa chake ndikufuna kupereka malingaliro anga ndikukumana nanu anyamata.
Ndikutsimikiza kuti ambiri mwa inu mudzayang'anitsitsa izi, koma ndidataya unamwali wanga ku 13. Ndimagonana kwambiri kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 15 ndikupitabe. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi ndizokhudzana kwambiri ndi kuchira kwanga, koma aliyense wa inu amene angakhale adakali namwali, ndimakhulupirira mwa inu; tonsefe timatero.
Nditha kuyankhula zambiri, chifukwa chake ndiyesetsa kuti ndichidule kwambiri momwe ndingathere. Ndine 29 ndipo ndili pabanja mosangalala (zaka ziwiri tsopano). Ndakhala ndi mkazi wanga kuyambira pomwe tonse tinali 19, ndipo moyo wathu wogonana nthawi zonse unali wabwino. Tinapita m'masukulu osiyanasiyana a sekondale ndipo tinkakhala kutali wina ndi mnzake kwa nthawi yayitali, ndipo apa ndi pomwe zolaula ndi malingaliro amasewera. Ndinazindikira zolaula pomwe intaneti idabwera, pafupifupi nthawi yomweyo. Tiyerekeze zaka 14 zakubadwa. Pazifukwa zilizonse, ngakhale ndinali munthu wokonda zachiwerewere, ngakhale kunali kotentha, sindinalinso momwemo. Zomwe ndimakhala, komabe, ndimacheza pazakugonana. Kugonana pa intaneti kumakhala kofanana. Ndinali ndikuzimitsa (pakati pa maubwenzi ndi kugonana kwenikweni) mpaka GF (mkazi wanga wamakono) ndi ine tinapita kusukulu. Ndidadzilungamitsa poganiza kuti ndibwino kuposa kumunyenga, kotero ndimakonda kucheza ndi anthu ena (atsikana, "atsikana" ndipo nthawi zina anyamata ena - ngakhale kuti anali owongoka) pa intaneti, pomwe nthawi zina ndimaponyera zolaula maziko.
Ndinkachita kamodzi kapena kawiri patsiku, ndimakhala ndi masiku - nthawi zina masabata - ndikakhala ndi mwana wanga wamkazi, kapena kupita kumaphwando / kucheza, koma zinali kukhala chizolowezi osazindikira. Ndinakhalanso katswiri wakukongoletsa. Ndimasewera kulikonse pakati pa 1 ndi 3 maola popanda O'ing. Izi pamapeto pake zidamasuliridwa ku moyo wanga wogonana komanso patapita nthawi, ndinali ndi DE yayikulu.
Pambuyo pake sindimatha kukhala ndi kondomu, ndipo sindimatha kumva chilichonse. Tidakwatirana, moyo wathu wogonana udatsika (adakhala kwakanthawi) ndipo ngakhale timakhala limodzi, timagonana mwina kamodzi pamwezi. Mwina kawiri. Ndipo titatero, malingaliro anga anali kuganiza zongopeka zodzipangira ndekha O, kapena ndikanakhala chowiringula kuti ndisamve, ndikumaliza popanda O'ing.
Chilakolako changa chogonana chinali chitachepa kwambiri, ndipo ndimangoganiza kuti zonsezi ndi gawo lokhala okwatiwa, kapena kukhala ndi mkazi (wodabwitsayo) kwazaka khumi… Chifukwa chake ndimangopitilira zolaula zanga pa intaneti komanso kuwonera zolaula kumbali, ndipo ife anapitiliza kutaya chibwenzi ndikuyamba kumenya nkhondo zambiri.
Chilichonse chimamukhudza kwambiri pomwe tinaganiza zoyambitsa banja, lomwe linali chilimwe chatha. Ogasiti mpaka Seputembala anali osamba - nthawi zina ndimakhala O, nthawi zina ayi, koma ndimachepetsa PMO komanso cybersex chifukwa ndimafuna kuyang'anira "asitikali" anga. Ndimangochita ndikangofika nthawi yake yamwezi. Nthawi zonse popanda iye kudziwa, inde.
Kulephera kutenga pakati kunativuta kwambiri, ndipo pakati pa Okutobala, ndinaganiza zosiya PMO kwathunthu, nthawi zonse ndinkachita manyazi ndikamaliza.. Choncho masiku oyamba anali bwino, koma ndinayamba kuchita misala yoopsa ndikayamba ntchito, yomwe inali yachilendo. Ndinkadzikhudza ndikafika kunyumba, koma sindinkafuna - ndinakana O. Pamapeto pake, misala yoopsa inatha, koma pamodzi ndi iyo, chilakolako changa chinatha. Nthawi yoti ndiyambe kuyesa mu Novembala itafika, sindinathe kupitiriza. Tinkaigwiritsa ntchito mpaka theka la mphamvu, mwina pang'ono, ndinkaigwiritsa ntchito, ndipo pasanathe mphindi, inkafooka. Kwa milungu iwiri yotsatizana. Mipira yabuluu inali yeniyeni. Ndipo yosasangalatsa.
Popeza sindinakhalepo ndi ED kale, usiku wachiwiri zidachitika, ndidadumpha pa intaneti ndikupeza malowa. Ndinakhala HOURS ndikuwerenga zonse zomwe ndikanatha pa PIED ndi chilichonse chokhudzana nacho. Sindinakhulupirire. Uyu anali ine. Izi zinali kuchitika kwa ine!
Zinthu zinali zovuta mnyumba mwathu, ndipo ndikukumbukira mozungulira Nov 8th, ndidadzipereka kwathunthu ku NoFap. Ngakhale zitatenga nthawi yayitali bwanji, ndimadzikonza ndekha. Ndidamupatsa mkazi wanga zowona za momwe ndingapangire M kuti ndikhale ndi malingaliro ndikafika kunyumba kuchokera kuntchito koma ndimangodalira O nthawi zina. Ndidamufotokozera kuti izi zidandikhumudwitsa ndikusokoneza ubongo wanga. Anadabwa, koma amandithandizira. Sindikuganiza kuti amamvetsetsa kukula kwa vutoli, koma adamasulidwa kukhala ndi chifukwa choti sindinathe kuzipeza kwa milungu iwiri.
Zizindikiro zosiya kubwerera zimandigunda kwambiri. Matenda okhumudwa, nkhawa, kusowa kwa njala, kutopa, kuzizira - ndidakhala nazo kwambiri kwa sabata limodzi. Osanena za zero zosewerera pagulu komanso libido yomwe idapita kutchuthi kwa omwe akudziwa kuti ndi yayitali bwanji. Ndinali wodzipereka kuti ndisadzikhudze ndekha, ndipo ndimakhala wotanganidwa ndi ntchito zapakhomo, kukankhira patsogolo ndi hockey yopeka. Dokotala anayesa testosterone yanga, yomwe inali yabwino, ndipo anandipatsa Viagra. Eya, uwu unali udzu womaliza kwa ine. 29 ndipo adauzidwa kuti ayese Viagra. Ndinalumbira pa moyo wanga kuti sindingakhudze zinthuzo.
Ndinafufuza mozungulira ndikupeza mapiritsi a Maca - kukhala munthu wodekha momwe ndilili - zomwe ndiyenera kunena muzochitika zanga, ndakhala Godsend. Patatha pafupifupi sabata limodzi kapena awiri ndikumwa mapiritsiwa katatu patsiku, ndimatha kumva zinthu .. Zizindikiro zosiya kuchoka zidayamba kupitilira, mphamvu zanga zidayamba, ndipo panali kumva pang'ono mbolo yanga (imawonekeranso yathanzi). Sindinakhudzane ndekha ngakhale ndinali nditayamba kuganiza pang'ono, apa ndi apo. Ndimapeza zolimbitsa thupi nthawi ndi nthawi, koma palibe chachikulu kapena chovuta kwambiri. Libido yanga imatha kubwera ndikupita, ndipo sindinadziwe kwenikweni zomwe zikuchitika, koma thupi langa lidasinthadi. Osati O'ing kwenikweni anali kuthandizira kukhazikitsanso ubongo wanga.
Panthawi zonsezi (ngakhale panthawi yanga yokhazikika), ndinkakayikira za kuyesa kuti ndiyambe. Ndinali wokondedwa kwambiri ndi mkazi wanga, tinkagwedeza, tinkapsompsona ndikugwirana wina ndi mzake pamene tinali palimodzi, ndipo izi zinkathandiza.
Itafika nthawi yoti "nthawi yoyesera" yathu ya Disembala yomwe idachitika sabata yatha, ndinali ndi nkhawa, komanso ndimakhala wokonzeka. Ndinalibe O'd pafupifupi miyezi iwiri, ndipo ndinali ndisanakhale M'd pafupifupi masabata asanu. Tinayamba kuwala, ndinamva kusunthika pansi, tinayamba kukondana kwambiri. Sindikadakhala wovuta kwambiri ZAKA. Tidapanga chikondi, tonse tidafika pachimake, ndipo tazichita usiku uliwonse kuyambira (5 motsatira tsopano) popanda zovuta ndipo sizinamveke bwino kuyambira ndili wachinyamata. Ndinkafuna kutumiza apa, koma ndinali kukayikira ngati zingachitike ngati "zothamangitsa", zomwe ndikhoza kutsimikizira kuti sizolondola. Izi ndizochitikadi, anyamata.
Pali zambiri zomwe ndikufuna kulemba, ndipo nazi nkhani zina ziwiri zomwe ndimamva kuti ndizokhudzana nane, ndipo zandithandiza kwambiri:
- http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=20230.0
- http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=30919.0
Chonde khalani omasuka kundifunsa chilichonse chomwe mungafune kudziwa; Ndikufuna kuthandiza momwe ndingathere. Izi zinali zoopsa kwa ine, ndipo ndawerenga milandu yoyipa kwambiri, chifukwa chake ndimangolingalira momwe anyamata ena ali ndi nkhawa.
Inu mukhoza kumenyana awa, anyamata. Choopsya ndi chenichenicho, koma chomwecho ndi chigonjetso.
PS Pepani zolakwika zilizonse zofunikira pamawu / galamala - ndidalemba izi kuchokera pafoni yanga.
Ena amalamulira kuti azikhala ndi:
- Lekani kudzikhudza. Ayi konse. Imani - ingoyima.
- Kupindula ndikofunikira kwambiri. Mkazi wanga anandithandiza mwamsanga kuti ndizindikire.
- Khalani pamagulu a Nkhani Zabwino. Nyalanyaza zotsalazo mpaka mutachira.
Nkhani yanga yopambana: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=32389.msg512939#msg512939
LINK - Wagonjetsedwa bwino ED
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