Ndili ndi zaka za 50 ndipo nthawizonse ndakhala ndikuyenda bwino kwambiri kugonana. Ndinapeza zolaula pamene ndinali pafupi ndi 14 koma mwamwayi intaneti inalibe momwe ilili lero. Ndili ndi intaneti yofulumira pamene ndinali pafupi ndi 32 ndipo ndakhala ndikulimbirana zolaula kuyambira nthawi imeneyo.
Ndili pachibwenzi ndi mkazi wokongola amene ndimamukonda kwambiri. Ndinazindikira kuti ndikutsata nthawi zonse ndikusiya ngakhale ndikudziwa kuti chibwenzi changa chinali ndi cum. Pafupifupi chaka chapitacho PIED undigwedeze! Palibe erection ndi chibwenzi changa. Ndinali kuyang'ana zolaula ndi kuseweretsa maliseche koma chinthu chenicheni chinali 'chosangalatsa'. Nthawi yomweyo ndinagwirizanitsa izi ndi zolaula ndikupeza tsamba ili.
Ndasiya FAP kumayambiriro kwa chaka ndi pambuyo pa masiku 38 ine 'ndinachiritsidwa'. Zochita zamphamvu, kugonana koyenera, zokondweretsa zokhumudwitsa komanso kukhala ndi maganizo omwe mtima wanga unapereka. Ndinakondwera kwambiri kuti 'ndikubwezeretsanso' mofulumira kwambiri. Ndinazindikira kuti mavidiyo omwe ndakhala ndikuwawona anali vuto. Mofanana ndi anthu ambiri apa, lipoti langa, zosangalatsa zanga zinasintha ndipo ndikuyang'ana zinthu zomwe sizinafanane ndi kugonana kwanga. Kotero ndinaganiza kuti ndatha ndi 'tube sites' ndikuwonera mavidiyo olaula. Komabe, ndinatsimikiza kuti zithunzi zina zosavuta sizidzapweteka choncho ndinayamba kuyang'ana zithunzi zonyansa, amayi okha, osagonana kapena kulowa. Ndinaganiziranso kuti sindidzachita maliseche ndikuwawona. BIG MISTAKE!
Ngakhale kuti sindinayang'anitse kanema wa zolaula kwa chaka chimodzi tsopano chidwi changa pazinthu zofewa zofiira chinayamba kukula kwambiri. Izi zinkasunthira kumaseŵera achibwana (alibe mavidiyo). Ndinaganizira za mwezi umodzi wapitawo pogwiritsa ntchito maliseche pamasomphenya achifwamba. Ndinali kukonzekera ndikufunafuna chithunzithunzi changwiro kuti ndifike. Kuphatikiza pa izi, sindinathe kuchita zovuta kuti ndigonane ndi bwenzi langa la miyezi 2. Ndili ndi lathyathyathya ndipo nthawi ino zimamva zowawa. Zimamva ngati imfa mkati mwa akabudula anga. Ndine masiku a 31 ndikubwezeretsanso 2nd ndipo izi zimakhala zovuta kwambiri kuposa zomwe zatha. Ndinali ndi zizindikiro zakuti ndimachira panthawi ino. Nthawi ino sindikumva kanthu. Sindikutuluka chifukwa ngati zinthu zakhala bwino panthawi yomwe ndikudziwa kuti atha nthawi ino. Ndine wokwiya kwambiri ndekha chifukwa chiwerewere chomwe ndinali nacho ndi chibwenzi changa pamene ndinali 'kuchiritsa' ndekha chinali chodabwitsa ndipo tsopano ndikuyenera kuyambiranso.
Ndikudziwa kuti aliyense ndi wosiyana ndipo zonse zowonjezera zidzasiyana koma apa pali zina zomwe ndikuganiza zokhudzana ndi zomwe ndikukumana nazo. Kuwonera mavidiyo olaula mwamsanga si vuto lokha. Zonsezi ndi zolaula. Sindinayang'anitse kanema wa zithunzi zolaula pafupifupi chaka koma kuyang'ana pa zithunzi zofewa kwachititsa zithunzi zovuta zomwe zinayambitsa kugonana kwa zithunzizi. Tsopano ndikupeza kuti ndikubwerera ku malo amodzi (kwenikweni ndikumverera koipa kwambiri kuposa malo amodzi). Palibe zolemba. Palibe mmawa wamatabwa. Palibe chilakolako chofuna kukonda chibwenzi ndi chibwenzi changa.
Kotero chonde, MUSAMAGANIZIRE kuti mungagwiritse ntchito zolaula pokhapokha kuti muphe nthawi (mosasamala mtundu kapena mphamvu). Muyenera kutsekera njira zowonongeka zogonana ndi zolaula. Mukayamba kumva moyo wobwerera m'chiuno mwanu, musati muyesetse ndi gawo la PMO. Sindikuchita maliseche panthawi yanga yamakono chifukwa sindingathe kupirira. Sindinkachita maliseche pamsasa wanga wapitawo. Yesani kuopa. Ndili bwino kusunga pandekha ndikakhumudwa koma ndakhala ndi maganizo osaganiza chifukwa ndikuona kuti bwenzi langa lafa. Bwinja kwa aliyense amene akuyesera kubwezeretsa miyoyo yawo. Sindingakhulupirire kuti kuonerera zolaula kungakhudze kwambiri momwe ndingakwanitse kugonana koma chifukwa cha Gary ndi anthu ena atumizira pano tikudziwa zomwe zingatheke komanso momwe tingasinthire zotsatira zake.
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