Ndaganiza zolemba izi chifukwa ndakwaniritsa zabwino zonse zomwe ndidakhala nazo m'moyo wanga. Pambuyo pake ndidakwanitsa lero kukhala ndi zaka 90 nditatha zaka ziwiri ndikugwira ntchito molimbika kuyesa zizolowezi zatsopano ndikuwona zomwe zimagwira ndi zomwe sizinagwire ntchito.
Ndisanakhale ndi zolaula, ndinali wophunzira kwambiri kusukulu yasekondale ndipo ndimapeza anzanga ambiri ngakhale kuti ndimadzibwerekera katatu patsiku. Komabe, china chake mkati mwanga chimadziwa kuti china chake sichili bwino m'moyo wanga ndipo chifukwa cha ine nditazindikira za NoFap ndidaganiza zowuponya ndikuyamba kudzipangira ine ndekha.
Zinali m'masiku oyamba a Epulo chaka cha 2018 pamene ndinayamba kukhala wopanda zolaula konse. Sizinali zophweka popeza ndimabwereranso pafupipafupi pakati pa masiku awiri ndi theka a mikwingwirima. Panthawiyi, ndimaganizira za yemwe ndiyenera kumuyitanitsa kumaliza maphunziro. Pambuyo pa masabata angapo osankha ndidaganiza zopita ndi mtsikana (timutcha Charlotte). Chifukwa chake, kumapeto kwanga kumaliza ndidaganiza zomufunsa ndipo adati inde.
Padali pakati pa Juni pomwe phwando laphwando limachitika, ndimayembekezera kuti tidzakhala naye bwino, koma sanawonekere kuvina mwachidwi ndi ine koma nthawi yomweyo amafuna chithunzi ndi ine ndidayankha. Panali zambiri zosakanikirana mu mphindi imeneyo. Sabata yotsatira ndidafuna kuti ndimuperekeze kumalo odyera, koma adandidzidzimutsa mwadzidzidzi. Izi zidandipangitsa kumva chisoni kwambiri ndi izi popeza anali chinthu chapafupi kwambiri kukhala ndi bwenzi.
Ndidali ndimavuto ena osunga nthawi yanga ndikulowa koleji, ngakhale ndimatha kutalika mpaka sabata 1. Kulowa koleji kunali kovuta kwambiri, chifukwa ndimaphunzira zaukadaulo ndipo sindimagwiritsa ntchito maphunziro apamwamba komanso zoyipa, ndimamva kuti ndine wosayanjanitsidwa ndi anthu ena popeza palibe mzanga amene adapita kukoleji imodzimodzi. Zachidziwikire, ndimatha kuyankhula ndi anthu limodzi ndi ochezeka koma nthawi zina palibe chomwe chimachitika. Ndidafunsa "Kodi ndi ine kapena anthu awa ndi amanyazi kuposa momwe ndimaganizira?"
Komabe, zinthu zidasintha mu semesita yotsatira, ndidakhala wophatikizika, ndidalowa nawo bungwe la ophunzira ndikumaliza kukhala yemwe ndidalimbikitsa gulu kudzera pa media. Komanso, magiredi adayamba kusintha pang'ono. Pakadali pano, mafunde anga anali bwinoko, koma pamapikisano ndimapumira mobwerezabwereza chifukwa cha zovuta zambiri zomwe sizinatheke.
Mu chirimwe cha 2019, ndinali ndi mwayi wosuntha zinthu mozungulira ndipo sindinapite patsogolo kwambiri, koma zinali zofala kwa ine kuti ndikhale ndi masabata awiri. Kuchuluka komwe ndidapeza kunali masiku 2.
Munali pa tchuthi cha dzinja cha 2019-2020 pamene ndinali ndi mwayi wopambana kwambiri pa NoFap konse, kumapeto kwake ndidatha pa masiku 35. Osati zokhazo, ndinasangalatsidwa kwambiri ndipo ndinawona kuti nthawi iyi ndizichita bwino kuchira.
Ndidakhala wokondwa kwambiri mpaka tsiku la 45 pomwe flatline idayamba. Munthawi izi, ndinadziimba mlandu kuti sindipanga chilichonse kuti ndikwaniritse zosowa za Charlotte. Zinanditengera nthawi kuti ndidziwe chifukwa chomwe ndimakhalira ndimaganizo kuti ndili pafelefoni ndipo patsiku la 60, zidatha. Komabe, pofika tsiku 70 panali mzere wocheperako koma sizinandikhudze kwambiri. Kuphatikiza apo, PIED yanga inayamba kuzimiririka ndikuwona ma erection a stringer.
Panthawi imeneyi, ndinayamba kukonda mtsikana wina (Jadie) koma ndinasweka mtima kuyambira ali ndi chibwenzi komanso, anali ochokera kudziko lina ndipo ndimadziwa kuti akangomaliza maphunziro, amachoka mumzinda momwe ndimakhalira ndipo sindidzawaonanso iye kachiwiri. Nthawiyi, ngakhale ndimakhala wokhumudwa kwambiri ndi izi, ndinali ndi nthawi yosavuta kupitilira kuposa Charlotte. Izi zidasokoneza mtima wanga kwa masiku angapo.
Ine ndinali mu tsiku la 76 pomwe mayeso adakhazikika, ndinali ndi zokakamiza zambiri, koma ndimadziwa kukhazikika nthawi yachisokonezo, kotero ndidaganiza zopumira ndikutuluka kuchipinda kwanga kwakanthawi ndikubwerera komwe ndidali.
Nditangopereka mayeso, ma coronavirus adalowa mdziko langa (Mexico) ndipo ndinakhala kunyumba sabata limodzi, zomwe zidandibisa. Ndinkakhala ndi chizolowezi chopanga ziwonetsero za poyambira kuti ndikhale wodekha. Ndimawalimbikitsa pa Instagram sabata iliyonse ndipo anzanga amayamba kukonda ziwerengero.
Pakadali pano, ndine wokondwa kwambiri kuposa kale popeza ndidafika pa tsiku la 90 ndipo ndidathetsa vuto langa. Izi ndi zomwe ndakwanitsa kuchita bwino kwambiri chaka chino (ndipo mwina m'moyo wanga) popeza ndinkaona kuti kuyesetsa konse komwe ndinayikira pa NoFap kunali koyenera.
Ndimachitabe zinthu zanga: kugwira ntchito yanga komanso kupeza zosangalatsa zatsopano. Osati zokhazo, ndikukonzekera kukhala wophunzira wophunzira kwambiri ku koleji yanga, kukhala ndi moyo wabwino komanso kupeza zovuta pambuyo pakusweka mtima. Mwa moyo wabwino ndikutanthauza kuti nditha kufikira pomwe ena adzandiyikira akakayikira, ndikufuna kusintha dera langa. Komanso kudziwa kuthana ndi zovuta m'maganizo popanda kudzimenya ndekha. Pomaliza, khalani ku dipatimenti yokongola komwe ndimatha kuyitanira anzanu, kupumula, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kusinkhasinkha komanso kuwonera zinthu zopindulitsa pa TV.
Zina mwa ubwino zomwe ndinakumana nazo:
- PIED wapita
- Zokopa zambiri kwa atsikana
- Kusamala bwino
- Kupititsa patsogolo maphunziro
- Kukhumba kuchita zambiri
- Mphamvu zochulukirapo
- Kudzidalira kwambiri
- Kusadandaula pang'ono ndi kupsinjika maganizo
- Kudziletsa kwabwino
- Pafupipafupi ubongo
Awa ndi maubwino omwe ndapeza pano, mwina pambuyo pake nditha kupeza zabwino zambiri zomwe sindinapeze m'masiku 90 oyamba.
Ndifunseni chilichonse! Ndikuyankha momwe ndingathere!
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by Alireza
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