Choyamba iyi si nkhani wamba pomwe ndingakuuzeni zakuthupi ndi kusintha komwe mudzaone paulendo wonsewu. Iyi si nkhani wamba yokhudza momwe ndawonera kuti nthawi zambiri anthu amasiya chizolowezi ichi. Muli ndi zolemba zambiri zokhudzana ndi izi. Mwa njira zonse zotheka kuti tsamba ili lothandiza kwambiri ndipo sindikunena kuti nditsatire njira yanga kwa aliyense wa inu amene mukuwerenga pano. Iyi ndi nkhani yonena za mwana wazaka 17 yemwe watayika ndikupeza njira yobwereranso kumoyo wabwinobwino ndipo adatulukanso mumdimawo. Moona mtima, sindikukumbukira kuti ndidayamba liti. Sindikudziwa kuti koma ndisanafike pozidziwa, zolaula zakhala zofunikira kwa ine kuposa zapamwamba. Momwe ndimaganizira zakhala zaka 5 ndili ndi zaka 17 kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba kuseweretsa maliseche. Ndinali ndi nkhawa komanso nkhawa kale chifukwa cha zovuta zosiyanasiyana zomwe ndidakumana nazo ndili mwana ndipo ndimafuna njira yotulukiramo, zomwe zingandipangitse kuiwala zowawa zija ndikuvutika kwa mphindi imodzi. Nditayamba kufunafuna china chake ndidakumana ndi zolaula. Poyamba zinali zabwino kwambiri, koyamba kwa mphindi zochepa ndinatha kuiwala chilichonse ndipo ndinayamba kuganiza kuti ndiyo njira yokhayo yotulukiramo, ndikuyamba kulowa mkati mwake. Zinali pafupi zaka 2 zapitazo pamene zinthu zinali zachilendo monga momwe mungayembekezere kuchokera ku zolaula. Kudzuka, kutuluka mwina nthawi zina, kuphunzira, ndi kuwonera zolaula ndikuchita maliseche ndikugonananso. Zinali patadutsa zaka ziwiri ndikulemba mayeso anga, ndidazindikira kuti sindingadutse izi. Ndikuyesera kuti ndisawonere zolaula kapena maliseche kwa sabata imodzi koma sindingathe. Kenako ndinayamba kusaka pa intaneti ndikupeza tsamba ili nofap, ndi masamba ena okhudzana ndi zolaula. Kwa nthawi yoyamba ndinadziwa kuti ichi ndi chizolowezi ndipo ndimakonda kwambiri. Kuyambira tsiku lomwelo ndidayamba ulendo wanga.
Poyamba panali kutsimikiza mtima kambiri, ndiyenera kusiya zolaula mwanjira iliyonse yomwe ndingathe ndipo ndinalowa nawo magulu osiyanasiyana a mapulogalamu komwe anthu akuyesanso kusiya zolaula ngati ine. Ndidamva bwino poyamba kuwona anthu ambiri ali osokoneza bongo ngati ine ndipo tonse tikulimbana limodzi kuti tipeze izi. Koma panali zozungulira zachilendo zomwe zimandichitikirabe, kwa masiku atatu oyamba panali kutsimikiza mtima komanso chilimbikitso chilichonse chotheka. Ngakhale kuzungulira tsiku lachinayi kwatha, palibe cholimbikitsira konse kotero ndidayamba kuwonera makanema aliwonse olimbikitsa omwe alipo, koma zolimbikitsazi zimangokhala masiku a 3-4, ndipo nthawi iliyonse chithandizo chonse kuchokera pagululi kapena mamembala am'magulu zimawoneka ngati zochepa kwambiri ine pamene zolakalaka zinagunda ngati nyanja ndipo ndinabwereranso mkati mwa masiku 7 kapena masiku 14. Ngakhale kuti nthawi zonse ndikangobwerera m'mbuyo ndimadzimva kuti ndili ndi vuto lalikulu ndipo tsiku lotsatira m'mawa woyambilira ndimayambiranso ulendo wanga, koma kuti ndilepheretse tsiku la 7 kapena mwina tsiku la 14. Kwathunthu kutsimikiza ndi chithandizo chomwe ndidapeza kuchokera pa tsambali ndipo anthu onse omwe ndidakumana nawo adandipatsa chilimbikitso cha masabata a 2 kenako ndinabwereranso. Kuzungulira kwake kunapitilira mwezi wa 6-7 mwina ndipo ndinayamba kufunitsitsa kusiya. Panali nthawi yomwe ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti nthawi zonse ndikuwerenga nkhani zopambana zomwe ndimakonda komanso chilichonse chokhudzana nacho. Ndidalimbikitsidwa kwambiri kuti ndisiye, ngakhale ndidabwereranso patatha masiku 29. Pambuyo pake ndinazindikira kuti ndili ndi makanema olimbikitsa komanso olimbikitsa komanso kumvetsetsa kuti ndichifukwa chiyani umakhala ndi zolaula sizingakuthandiziretu kusiya. Pamapeto pake zonse zomwe ndimachita ndimangodya makanema olimbikitsa ndi nkhani zopambana ngati chakudya chopanda kanthu ndikukhala pamwamba pake. Sindikupanga kanthu ndekha, ndikungowona momwe anthu ena asiya ndipo ndikungoyesera kutsatira njira zawo.
Ndinazindikira china. Ndinazindikira ku lekani kuzolowera zomwe mukufuna. Kuledzera kumakulirakulira ngati mseru mumdima, kudzipatula, mumangofunika kulumikizana kuti musiye kusuta. Ndipo ndi tsiku lomwe ulendo wanga wachiwiri udayamba. Zinali pafupi zaka 3 zapitazo. Ndinayamba kupanga njira yanga, njira yanga njira yapadera pomwe palibe amene adachitapo. Ndinali ndi kauntala atatu wa nofap, makanema awiri olimbikitsa, magulu awiri a mapulogalamu, ndi akaunti imodzi yogwira ntchito. Ndinawachotsa onse nthawi yomweyo. Chifukwa ngati mwatsimikizadi kuti mudzasiyiretu, simusowa chilichonse cha izi. Kukhala popanda zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche ziyenera kukhala zachilengedwe monga kupuma. Ndakhala zaka 17 m'moyo wanga wopanda zolaula, sizili ngati chinthu choyamba chomwe ndidachita ndikamabadwa ndikupuma, kulira ndikuwonera zolaula. Ndalola kuti ndikhalebe chete kuti ndikhale ndi kanthawi kochepa pazinthu zokopa komanso zopanda pake ndipo pofika nthawi yomwe ndidazindikira kuti zaka zonsezi sindimathawa chilichonse kuchokera ku mantha anga ndekha, ndidangogwidwa zoipa kwambiri kotero kuti sindinathe kuzisiya ndekha. Ndiyenera kuthana ndi mantha anga, ndikukhumudwa komanso kulumikizana ndi anthu ndipo palibe malo oti ndikudzipatula mukalumikizana, ndiye kuti palibenso malo oonera zolaula. Ndinkadziwa zinthu zonsezi ndipo ndinayamba kutsatira njirayi. Ngakhale kuchita china chake sikophweka momwe kumamveka. Kwa wachinyamata wovuta kucheza nawo, wolowerera kuti angotuluka ndikulankhula ndi anthu ndizochulukirapo ndipo ngakhale ndimakhala ndi bata m'maganizo popeza ndimadziwa njira yanga yoledzera ndikuopa kuyenda. Ndipo kotero kubwereranso kunapitilira. Zinali pafupi miyezi 4 yapitayo mzanga wapamtima anandikakamiza kuti ndituluke. Ndinayamba kuchita ma calisthenics, ndimtundu wa masewera olimbitsa thupi ndipo nditayamba kuchita izi, ndidayamba kumva bwino pang'ono ndipo nkhawa yanga idachepetsedwa. Ndipo zimamveka ngati ndimakhala ngati gudumu lomwe limakhala m'malo mwazaka, ndipo wina pamapeto pake adayamba kuligwedeza. Ngakhale sizimagwira ntchito, ngati kuti ndikusowa china chofunikira, china chake ngati gawo langa ndipo ndikachipeza chizolowezicho chitha. Pambuyo masiku 20 ndayamba kupanga ma calisthenics ndinakumana ndi mnzanga wamoyo mwanjira yopenga kwambiri yomwe munthu angaganize.
Popeza, tsiku lomwe ndidakumana naye chizolowezi changa chidangopita. Zili ngati munthu wina akuyatsa kandulo pakati pa dzenje lamdima, lotayika lomwe ndinalimo. Pambuyo pa tsikulo sindinaganizirepo zolaula kapena mtundu wina uliwonse wosokoneza bongo. Ndiwokongola ngati mvula yoyamba patapita nthawi yayitali, yotentha ndipo ali ngati nyumba yowunikira yomwe ikuwonetsa njira yoti ndikhale munthawi yaboti yomwe yasokonekera pakati pa nyanja. Nditakumana naye ndidadziwa kuti chinthu chosowacho ndimalakalaka, chidutswa chomaliza ndicholumikizana ndi anthu ndipo ndi iye. Ndasintha bwino pantchito yanga. Ndafika pofika pantchito yanga pompano pomwe ndili ndi chitsimikizo kuti anthu ambiri sangafikire ndipo anthu omwe akundidziwa amadabwitsidwa kuti munthu ngati ine yemwe nthawi zambiri samachita manyazi komanso wamanyazi komanso wamanyazi amafika patali pantchito yake ndipo nthawi zambiri onse Tsiku lomwe ndimakhala wotanganidwa kwambiri kotero kuti sindimaganizira zazinthu zilizonse ndimaganizo. Zomwe ndili pano ndi chifukwa cha iye, ndipo ndikulemba izi chifukwa adandilimbikitsa kwambiri ndipo ndikufuna kudzipereka ulendowu kwa iye komanso ndikufuna kuthandiza ngati wina wakhazikika ngati ine pamalo omwewo.
Chifukwa chake tsopano ndikufuna kunena kuti, mutha kupanga nokha njira. Ngati inunso mukukhala m'malo ngati ine kumene mukufuna kulimbikitsidwa kuti muthane ndi chizolowezi. Ndikunena kuti mukufunikira kudziwonera nokha ndipo muyenera kudziwa chifukwa chake munayamba kuzolowera. Kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo nthawi zonse kumagwiritsidwa ntchito ngati chophimba, ndipo muyenera kudziwa kuti ndi chiani chomwe mumabisala mu mtima mwanu. Mukakhalabe woona kwa inu nokha, mutha kumvetsetsa zomwe mukubisa komanso momwe mungachitire. Mukangodziwa, mumadziwa njira yotulukamo. Chomwe chatsalira ndikupeza makiyi otsegulira zitseko ndipo inu mwatuluka. Ndi zokhazo, sizachikulu, palibe chosangalatsa. Ndizongopeka chabe ndipo mukangopeza kulumikizana mutha kusiya chizolowezi. Zomwe ndi momwe zidandithandizira. Panopa ndikuganiza kuti mwina miyezi 3 yochenjera tsopano. Sindikukumbukira bwino chifukwa sindikuganiza kuti sichinthu chonyadira kapena kutsatira. Ndikungosintha kwa moyo wanu komwe mwasankha kuti mudzipange kukhala munthu wabwinoko, kotero m'malo mwake muzilemba masiku angati omwe muli osamala onetsetsani zomwe mwakhala mukuchita kuti musakhale oganiza bwino komanso momwe mungachitire bwino. Ngati ndingathe, inunso mutha kutero.
Zikomo kwambiri chifukwa chowerenga mpaka pano ndi ine, ndikhulupirira kuti muthana ndi izi ndikukapeza zomwe mukufuna kuchokera pamoyo. Chifukwa mdziko lapansi lodzaza ndi anthu mabiliyoni a 8 oti akumanane, maiko ambiri oti mudzayendere, zinthu zambiri zoti muchite, kukhala mchipinda chobisalira kudziko lapansi ndikungodikirira kuyang'ana ma pixel ena ndi njira zabwino zochepetsera moyo wanu.
PS: Sindine wokamba zachi Ngerezi, chonde ndikhululukireni zolakwa zilizonse zomwe ndalakwitsa posachedwa. Zikomo.
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