Kwakhala gehena yaulendo wosangalatsa, koma ndimanyadira ndekha. Pitilizani kupera anzawo. Ndifunseni chilichonse chomwe mukufuna !!
Ndinganene pafupifupi za chizindikiro cha tsiku la 30 ndidayamba kumva zabwino za nofap. Ndinali kuwona zonse zomwe zinkandizungulira, ndinayamba kuzindikira kuti azimayi amakopeka nane chifukwa ndimadziwa kwambiri zomwe zinkakhala. M'mbuyomu, ndinali wokonda kwambiri dziko langa ndipo sindinawone zinthu chifukwa ndimayenda mutu wanga. Tsopano ndimayenda ndimmutu ndimayang'ana nthawi zonse ndikutha kuwona zinthu zambiri mdziko lapansi.
Izi zidandipangitsa kuzindikira momwe ndakhala ndikusowerera pagulu. Thupi langa silinali bwino kwenikweni ndipo limaperekanso mavuto kwa anthu. Nthawi zonse ndimakonda kupeza mayankho oti, "ukuwoneka kuti sukusamala" "umaoneka wotopa." Koma zoona zake ndimasamala za chilichonse koma ndimapereka mphamvu.
Popeza palibe amene amafuna kucheza ndi ine chifukwa cha thupi langa loipa, ndinakhazikitsa chikhulupiliro changa m'maganizo kuti anthu anali amwano komanso wankhanza. Zowona, dziko likhoza kukhala malo abwino kwambiri (kutengera omwe mumagwirizana nawo). Ndikuganiza kuti panali cholakwika ndi maonekedwe anga, mmalo mwa momwe ndidanyamula. Pomwe ndidayamba kukhulupira kwambiri ndekha ndi kulimba mtima kwanga, ndidakhala ngati wow !!! Moyo ndi wokongola kwambiri ndipo anthu sikuti nthawi zonse amabwera kudzakupweteketsani.
Sindinakhalepo ndi nthawi yanthawi yomwe atsikana ena anali ndi chidwi kwambiri ndi ine ndipo adabwera kwa ine. Ndikumva ngati tsopano popeza ndili ndi chidaliro chotere, atsikana ali ndi mantha kuyandikira kwa ine. Ndikadakonda atsikana azilankhula nane nthawi zonse zisanachitike, mwina chifukwa amandikonda kapena chifukwa amandiona ngati munthu wochezeka chifukwa ndimawoneka wofooka komanso wamantha nthawi zonse.
Kulimba mtima ndichinsinsi cha magawo oyambira a NoFap. Ngati simudziwa bwino mawuwo, muyenera kuyang'ana. Ndinkalimbikitsidwa kwambiri, koma ndinachita ntchito yabwino yosamalira zokakamiza. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala otanganidwa nthawi zonse ndipo sindinkakhala m'chipinda changa kusewera masewera kapena kucheza ndi anzanga. Zinatopa thupi langa ndipo sindinakhalepo ndi chidwi chongosefera chifukwa sindinali ndekha tsiku lonse pomwe ndimakhala ndi mphamvu zambiri.
Ndinkapeza nthawi pomwe ndikadakhala ndi chidwi chodzaza maphokoso chifukwa cha zovuta zomwe zinali zikuchitika pa moyo wanga panthawiyo. Kuti ndithane ndi izi, ndimakhala ndikudzikumbutsa kuti kujomba kukuipa kwambiri ndipo sikungakuloreni kuti mukhale nokha komanso kuti ikupangitsani kuwira.
Ndimamvadi kuti nkhawa zanga zakumunthu zachepera ndipo zimandipangitsa kumva bwino. Ndimayamba kuwona ngati 2-3 masabata mu ndipo phindu limandithandiza kuthana ndi zokhumba chifukwa ndimakumbukira nthawi zonse kuti nkhawa zakudzabwera. Ndikudziwa kuti zimamveka kuti sindinachite bwino m'moyo wanga, koma kwa ine nzeru imeneyi idandigwira chifukwa nkhawa yakakhala yandipweteka kuyambira ndili mwana (22 tsopano).
Tsopano sindimadandaula za kulephera kapena kusefa chifukwa tsopano ndikuwona zonse bwino komanso ndimaganizo. Ndimaona kuti ma P amaoneka ngati akazi ndipo amawapangitsa kuwoneka ngati osafunika. Sindikufuna kubwerera nthawi imeneyi yomwe sindimalemekeza azimayi chifukwa ndimawaganizira kwambiri.
Ndamvapo kuchokera kwa mtsikana yemwe ali mfumukazi ya nofap kuti ukakhala wakuda, uyenera kudya zamtopola. Ubongo wanu umalakalaka kuti kumasulidwa kwa dopamine komanso kuyimitsa magazi mokwanira kumatha kuthandizira kwambiri.
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