Chifukwa chake, zaka zoposa 4.5 zapitazo ndaganiza zosiya PMO. Nthawi zonse ndakhala ndikudzutsidwa ndi azimayi m'moyo weniweni, sindinali wokonda kwambiri PMO mwamwayi, ndinayamba [NoFap] ndili ndi zaka 17. Nthawi zina ndimakhala ndikulimbikitsidwa, koma sizitengera nthawi kuti ndithane nawo. Kukula si kwachilendo. Palibenso chifukwa chothanirana ndi mayesero, zonse ndi zachiwiri kwa ine. Izi zidayamba pa Tsiku la 150-200, kunena zowona.
Ndinauza mnzanga kuti tiyese limodzi, pang'ono ngati nthabwala. Ndidayamba ndi gulu la anzanga. Ambiri adaswa pambuyo pa masiku 90. Imodzi idagwira ngati zaka 2 ndikuphwanya. Ndine munthu wotsiriza kuyimirira. Ndinkalimbana ndi zolakalaka zambiri m'masabata oyamba a 3-4, koma ndidadziuza kuti sindidzaphwanyidwa. Zolimbikitsa zidayamba kufooka pakapita nthawi. Nthawi ina, zidakhala zachiwiri kuti zisakule. Zinandithandiza kukhala wolimba kwambiri m'maganizo, ndikundiyika m'malingaliro oyenera.
Nthawi zonse ndimapatsidwa mphamvu. Sindidzapita kukakhala pansi / kukhumudwa pamalo ena ndikakhala ndi anzanga. Chidaliro chonse, champhamvu nthawi zonse. Mwambiri ndimakhala ndi moyo wathanzi kotero ndizophatikiza zonse. Ndidali wolimba mtima komanso wokonda kucheza ndi anthu, koma ndinali wopanda mphamvu, monga momwe mudanenera. Zinangotembenuza machitidwe anga kukhala osasinthasintha, nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna kutuluka ndimayamba kulira nthawi yomweyo. Zisanachitike ndinali wosakhazikika ndipo ndinali ndimagawo "otopa".
Ndimakhala ndi maloto onyowa nthawi ndi nthawi. Ndaphunzira kuzilandira.
Tsopano ndakhala wotsimikiza, zomwe ndinganene motsimikiza.
Kwenikweni, nthawi iliyonse ndikadzuka ndikalota mvula ndimakumbukira ndikugona pamimba. Lembani kumbuyo kwanu kwathunthu kuti thupi lanu lisatembenuke. Kukangana ndiko komwe kumayambitsa, ndikuganiza.
Sindinakhalepo ndi ufulu wogonana ndi atsikana kale NoFap. Ndikadali ndi PE patapita nthawi yayitali osamasula, koma ndikalowa chibwenzi ndi mtsikana zimangokhala kuzimiririka.
Ndinamasulidwa pazaka za 4.5 izi, inde. Osati kwenikweni kugonana, osati nthawi zonse. Ndinagona ndi mtsikana m'modzi. Ndi mtsikana wina, ndinali naye FWB kwa zaka 2 koma sitinagonane. Tidachita china chilichonse kupatula kugonana. kugonana kumaliseche si mtundu wokhawo wogonana womwe anthu awiri angapange.
Kwenikweni, chilimbikitso chilichonse chomwe mungakwanitse kupyola (Simuyenera kuchita kuti mulimbane nacho, chiloleni chikubwerereni) ndichopambana. Nthawi iliyonse mukauza malingaliro anu kuti "sindikukula, zivute zitani", mumapeza mfundo. Mfundo iliyonse yomwe mumapeza imapangitsa kuti chilimbikitso chotsatira chikhale chosavuta kuthana nacho. Panthawi inayake zolimbikitsazi zimakhala zosafunikira.
Kwenikweni gawo lolimba kwambiri linali masabata 3-4, ndi kutha kwa sabata 1. Zolimbikitsa mwamphamvu kwambiri.
Kwenikweni ndimadzimva patsogolo pa anyamata ambiri. Ndikumva ngati ndili m'gulu lapamwamba kwambiri. Ndine wolimba, wodzidalira pang'ono, wowoneka bwino ndipo atsikana amandipeza wokongola. Ndine wazaka 22. Kwenikweni NoFap si mankhwala amatsenga. Zimakupatsani chilimbikitso chochita zinthu zomwe mukufuna kuchita kuti mupite patsogolo m'moyo. Ngati simukuchita zinthu izi, mwachidziwikire simudzawona phindu lililonse.
Ndikumva kuti ndikuthwa kwambiri m'maganizo, malingaliro anga sasokonezeka kwambiri. Phindu labwino ndikuti ndimatha kukhala wolimba mtima ndikudzidalira ndikalamulidwa, ndikangotuluka nditha kulowa molimba mtima. Osamverera kutopa kwamaganizidwe.
Yambani kupita kukachita zomwe mwakhala mukufuna kuchita nthawi zonse, ndikusiya malo anu abwino. Yambani kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikumanga thupi lanu.
Ndimatha kugona kwambiri momwe ndimafunira, nthawi zambiri ndimagona maola a 6-7 patsiku. Kugona kwakukulu.
Ndimagwira 4 pa sabata ndipo ndamaliza kuphunzira, tsopano ndiyamba kugwira ntchito. Ndizowona kuti gehena imandipatsa chidwi kuti ndichite zinthu.
Zambiri zimasinthasintha poyambira. Poyambirira, ndimadzimva kuti ndikumva chisoni ndikulota. Nthawi yoyamba ndimalota maloto anga ndimamva ngati masiku 2. Tsopano zimandikhudza mwina mwina maola angapo nditadzuka. Ndiye ndibwerera mwakale. Tsopano ndi "chabwino, zomwe zinachitika". Ndipo mukamatuluka ndi atsikana, ayi, palibe choyipa. Ndimangotopa ndikangotaya umuna, kwa ola limodzi kapena apo.
[Ndidakula] kuyambira zaka 12/13 mpaka 17.5. Kotero zaka pafupifupi 5. Ndikhoza kuzichita mobwerezabwereza. Sindikudziwa kwenikweni za nthawi yomwe ndinayamba kugonana. Ndikuganiza kuti zaka 1.5 nditayamba, ndidalumikizana ndi mtsikana ndipo tidakhala FWB kwa nthawi yayitali.
Sindimamwa konse. Ngati nditero, ndi pang'ono pang'ono, monga kuwombera kamodzi kapena pang'ono pang'ono pamowa. Sindinaledzere m'moyo wanga, ndipo ndinali wokondwa kwambiri. Sindingakuthandizireni za nkhawa zomwe zimakhalapo, sindinamvepo. Sindinali wokonda zolaula, ndiye ndikuganiza kuti kusinthako ndikofunikira poyerekeza ndi anthu omwe ali osokoneza bongo.
Sindikudandaula chilichonse. Ndine wokondwa kwambiri kuti ndachita izi, ndatsimikizira kuti ndingathe kuchita chilichonse. Sindidzabweranso. Palibe chifukwa.
LINK - Masiku a 1676, apa kuti muyankhe mafunso anu.
By Yonkid