Ndine wamwamuna wazaka 23, ndipo ili ndi lipoti langa la masiku 100. Ndinayamba kuona zolaula ndili ndi zaka 10. Ndinaphunzira kusukulu ndipo ndimakhala nthawi yayitali ndekha pa intaneti - zinali zosapeweka kuti ndipeze zolaula.
Ndili ndi makolo achikristu okhazikika mtima ndipo sindinapanduke. Chifukwa chake kuyambira nthawi yoyamba ija ndidadzimva mlandu chifukwa cha zomwe ndidaziwona. Pazifukwa zilizonse, makolo anga sanandiphunzitse chifukwa chomwe ndiyenera kupewa zolaula, koma ndinadziwa kuti izi zinali zoyipa mwanjira ina. Kwa unyamata wanga wonse nditha kubwereranso ku zithunzi (zonse zinali zanga zakale) ndisanalonjeze kuti ndizipewa.
M'chaka changa chachitatu cha sekondale moyo wanga unasintha m'njira zovuta, ndipo ndinayesetsa kuthana ndi zolaula. Kusiyana kwake komabe, ndikuti ndidaphatikizanso maliseche. Kudziseweretsa maliseche ndi komwe kumandisangalatsa. Ngakhale ndinadziimba mlandu kuyambira pachiyambi, sindinathe kusiya. Nthawi zonse ndikamaliza ndimadzilonjeza ndekha kuti inali nthawi yomaliza, koma nthawi yotsatira ndikadzapanikizika ndimadzachitanso. Sindikudziwa chifukwa chomwe ndimakhalira wovomerezeka, koma ndidayamba kukhala chidakwa kuyambira nthawi yoyamba.
Zinatenga pafupifupi chaka kugwa, koma nditagunda pansi ndinakhala komweko kwa nthawi yayitali. Pazovuta zanga zambiri ndimakhala ndikulakwitsa pakati pa 5 ndi 10 kangapo patsiku. Sindinkagona kwenikweni chifukwa ndinkaonera zolaula komanso kugona maliseche usiku wonse.
Sindinkakhoza maphunziro anga kusukulu, ndipo ndidasintha maudindo kangapo. Ndinayamba chisanadze Chowona Zanyama ndipo ndinamaliza ndi digiri ya filosofi - ndimakoleji 5 osiyanasiyana pakati. Ndinali wokhumudwa pafupifupi mosalekeza (ngakhale kunena chilungamo, izi zidangowonjezeredwa ndi PMO - zidalipo ndisanamwe, ndipo ndidaphunzira kuzisamalira ndisanaphunzire PMO).
Ndidakhala ndi bwenzi kwa nthawi yayitali, koma sindinathe kumuchitira momwe amayenera. Ndinkakhala wokhulupirika ndipo ndimayesetsa kukhala achikondi, koma PMO ndicholinga chodzikonda, ndipo chifukwa chinali cholinga changa chachikulu chomwe ndidalinso wodzikonda. Sindingamupange kuti azilakalaka china chilichonse kupatula kugonana. Pakati pa izi ndi kusakhulupirika kwanga, ubale wathu sunakhale wolimba ngakhale tonse tinali kuyesetsa. Sitingathe kulumikizana mozama momwe tonsefe timafunira. Kugonana kunali kwabwino, koma kudwala matenda omwewo ...
Chilimwe chathachi ndidagwira ntchito yopanga bwato ku Bristol Bay, Alaska. Inali ntchito yovuta kwambiri yomwe ndidachitapo, koma lidalinso sabata pomwe bwatolo lidatsekedwa, ndipo zomwe ndimatha kuchita ndikungokhala pamtengo ndikuyang'ana kuthambo pomwe mafunde adagwedeza bwato ndipo ndimaganizira moyo wanga. Ndinalibe Intaneti, ndipo ndinamaliza kuwerenga mabuku omwe amabwera ndi ine tsiku loyamba. Sindinakhalepo chete kwa zaka ngati izi ... ndipo ndidapeza mwayi.
Ndinalakalaka kuyambira kale mpaka nthawi yanga ino, ndipo m'malo momadzimvera chisoni ndekha monga momwe ndimakhalira, ndinayesetsa kuyisanthula bwino. Zinanditengera masiku angapo kuti ndipeze zomwe ndimafuna. Koma nditalemba zomwe ndasankha ndikuyesera kumvetsetsa chifukwa chomwe ndidawapangira momwe ndimakhalira, ndidazindikira kuti pamoyo wanga wonse ndimayembekezera wina kuti adzatenge udindo. Pamlingo wina mkati mwa psyche yanga ndinkaganiza kuti palibe chomwe ndimapanga komanso kuti sindingathe kupanga zisankho zabwino ndikutsatira nawo.
Ndikuganiza kuti ndi funso la "nkhuku ndi dzira", koma ndikuganiza kuti ndidaphunzira kukhulupirira bodza ili chifukwa cholephera kusiya PMO (mwa zina, inde). Kusazindikira kunandibweretsa ku PMO, koma kuphunzira kusakhalako kunandisunga komweko.
Ndidaganiza kuti kuyambira nthawi imeneyi, ndiyenera kuyamba kukhulupirira kuti, inde, ndiye amene ndimadzisankhira zochita. Ndine munthu wanzeru; Ndikudziwa zosankha zomwe ndiyenera kusankha kuti ndichite bwino. Koma ndidalola zomwe zandichitikira kuti zinditsimikizire kuti ndidali wopanda ntchito.
Chinthu choyamba chomwe ndidachita ndikabwera kunyumba ndikupita ku shopu ya fodya ndikugula ndudu yanga yoyamba (robusto ya Romeo y Julieta 1875, kwa aliyense amene akufuna). Kuyambira kale ndinkafuna kusuta fodya, koma ndinkachita mantha ndi zomwe anthu anena. Chinali chinthu changa choyamba kuchita kusankha kwanga - chisankho chomwe sichinakhudzidwe ndi zomwe ena adachita.
Ndipo zinali zodabwitsa. Ndinkakhala panja ndi bwanawe yemwe anali m'bwatomo ndi ine, ndipo tinaphulitsa utsi ndikukumbukira za ku Alaska ndipo tinakambirana zamalingaliro athu amtsogolo mpaka usiku ... Ndipo kuyambira nthawi imeneyi mpakana, ndakhala ndikuphunzitsa malingaliro anga kuti ndikhulupirire kuti ndili ndi udindo pa chilichonse chomwe ndimapanga. Zasinthiratu moyo wanga.
Zikuwoneka kuti anthu ambiri pamtunduwu ali pano kwa “opambana.” Sangavomereze, koma pamlingo wina amakhulupirira kuti kusiya PMO kutsegula mwayi wina m'miyoyo yawo. Mwina "opambana" alipo ochepa a inu, koma sindinawaone. Chiyambire pamene ndidayamba kudziyang'anira zochita zanga moyo wanga wakhala wovuta kwambiri.
Popanda kusankha kudzichulukitsa kudzera mu PMO, tsopano ndiyenera kukumana ndi zowawa zanga. Ndatsegula maso anga pang'onopang'ono ... ndipo ndawona moyo wanga uli wamasamba. Ndidadzinamiza nthawi zonse m'mbuyomu. Ndipo zotsatira za mabodzawa zandigwera. Nthawi zonse ndimadziuza kuti nditha kuyamba "mawa," koma tsopano ndazindikira kuti mawa ndabwera ndikupita ndipo sindidzabweranso.
Chowonadi ndi chakuti lero "mawa" kulibe - ngati simungathe kusintha lero simungasinthe mawa. Ngati simukuzifuna simupita kukazitenga. Palibe amene adzakuchitireni izi.
Koma moyo wanga uli bwino chifukwa cha NoFap. Sindinawononge nthawi yokwanira kukhala moyo womwe ndikufuna kukhala ndi zotsatira zomwe ndikuyembekeza pano, koma ndapeza chidaliro mwa inemwini chomwe sindimadziwa kuti ndikadatha kukhala nacho.
Ndine wodalirika tsopano, ndipo ndimakondadi munthu amene ndikukhala. Ndipo kuposa pamenepo - ndili ndi chikhulupiriro chonse kuti ndidzakhala munthu ameneyo. Sizongopeka chabe, ndizowona. Zidzachitika. Ndithana ndi mavuto anga ndikuthana ndi zopinga zanga.
Mu zaka zochepa ndidzakhala ndendende yemwe ndikufuna kukhala. Bwenzi langa (yemweyo tamutchula kale uja) adabwera kunyumba kudzapuma Khrisimasi, ndipo ndidamuwona koyamba m'miyezi itatu (tinali pa tchuthi). Sindinakhalepo nthawi yonseyi, ndipo ndinali ndi masiku owerengeka mpaka 90.
Ndidakana kukana mpaka 90 masiku hardmode atamalizidwa. Ine sindikadakhala "ndisadachite" kale izi. Ndinkasamala kwambiri ngati ndingathe kuwatsimikizira iye ndi ineyo kuti ndingathe kutsatira malonjezo anga kuposa momwe ndimakondera kwakanthawi. Adabweradi kunyumba ndi cholinga choti athetse chibwenzi, koma ndidali wolimba mtima ndikuwongolera zakukhosi kwanga kotero kuti samatha kudzipangitsa yekha.
Tinatha kukhala ndi kulumikizana kwakuya kwambiri komwe tinakhala nako kwa milungu iwiri yomwe anali kunyumba. Sindinamvepo ngati izi ... ndipo ndikadadziinamiza ndekha sindikadakhala.
Ngati mukuyenera kupha chizolowezi ichi muyenera kudzisamalira nokha. Mavuto anu ndi anu. Makolo anu sanakuchitireni izi, anthu sanakuchitireni inu, makampani azolaula sanakuchitireni - munadzichitira nokha. Pamlingo wina ukunamiza. Mukunena kuti mudzakhala osangalala ndi PMO kuposa momwe mungakhalire popanda izo.
Nditha kukuwuzani njira zonse zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito ndikuyesera kufotokoza malingaliro anga pama psychology okhudzana ndi vutoli, kapena ndimatha kukuwuzani nkhani "zopambana" - koma palibe zomwe zili zofunika. Ndinu anzeru mokwanira kusiyanitsa tirigu ndi mankhusu. Mukudziwa zomwe muyenera kusankha. Ngati mukuganiza kuti mukufuna ndikuuzeni ndiye kuti mukungodzinamiza.
Ndikunenedwa kuti, ndikupatsani zolemba zingapo zomwe ndachita zomwe zingakuthandizeni. Sili mndandanda wathunthu - zochepa chabe pamutu panga.
- osawonera TV kapena makanema opanda pake
- osawonera / kuwerenga nkhani, kapena kuchita nawo zawayilesi iliyonse
- siyani zamtundu uliwonse zongopeka, zogonana kapena zina
- pitani hardmode, osachepera kwa masiku oyamba a 90 (sindimakhulupirira kuti kusunga kwa umuna, koma ndibwino kuti malingaliro anu atsimikizire kuti mutha kuchita izi)
- werengani momwe mungathere
- chita masewera olimbitsa thupi momwe mungathere
Ndiye ndizabwino kwambiri. Ndikukhulupirira kuti mwapeza kena kake m'nkhani yanga ... Tsopano za gawo lokhumudwitsa. Ngakhale kulumikizana kwakukulu komwe ndinali nako ndi bwenzi langa nthawi yopuma - adandisiya. Patha zaka pafupifupi zisanu, ndipo ndakhumudwa kwambiri. Tonsefe tikukhulupirira kuti tidzabwerenso mtsogolomo, koma chifukwa cha kusachita bwino kwanga maphunziro m'mbuyomu sindili m'malo omwewo momwe aliri, ndipo sangakwanitse kutenga chiopsezo choti Ndisamalireni akamaliza sukulu.
Chifukwa chake mpaka nditamanga moyo wanga pang'ono ndili ndekha. Ndipo chifukwa ndichinthu chomwe ndikufuna kuchita, ndizo zomwe ndikuchita. Ndipo chinthu choyamba chimene ndiyenera kuchita ndikuchepetsa nthawi yomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito intaneti. Gawoli lakhala likundilimbikitsa modabwitsa m'mbuyomu, ndipo kubwera kuno kudzalimbikitsa ena kwandithandizanso (ndimalimbikitsa kwambiri). Koma pano ndikuganiza kuti ndi nthawi yoti ndipite. Zikomo nonse chifukwa chokhala pano - mwandipatsa nthawi zovuta. Mwinanso ndidzabweranso nthawi ina ndikunena za kupita patsogolo kwanga.
Zabwino zonse!
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